transportation editiondeparted >>85089444
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working in a sweet bakery with an even sweeter bf
>>85125592What do you bake? What is your specialty?
>>85125592I saw a cute cashier guy at the bakery once
>>85125603chad cute? Twink cute? Original cute?
>tfw no sweet bakery bf
>>85125597definitely not those gross cock shaped sweets or any kind of sex related desserts people would expect from a gay bakery. I get the appeal, people find them fun, but I'd like to focus on soft, welcoming desserts more. Something vintage and that feels like home, and fluffy
>>85125630You need to relax. Where the fuck did cock-shaped sweets come from? You didn't even mention it was a gay-run bakery, only that you worked in it.So what specific deserts do you bake? What are some common baking techniques and/or ingredients non-bakers wouldn't know about?
YEAH FUCKIN PUT HIM IN HIS PLACE
>>85125653I'm pretty chill actually >You didn't even mention it was a gay-run bakeryif me and my bf are in it as mentioned in >>85125592 it's a gay bakery, but I guess one could assume we're just two of the employees from that post>Where the fuck did cock-shaped sweets come from?some places that are lgbt themed like to put innuendos in their products. Not just the rainbow which isn't bad, but cocks and sex things too. It goes viral on social media but I'm not a big fan of that stuff, not of the flashy things either>So what specific deserts do you bake? various breakfast desserts, shortcakes, cookies, but fluffy desserts are the speciality>and What are some common baking techniques and/or ingredients non-bakers wouldn't know about?if I was a baker I would (not) tell you, but I'm not one :/
>no bf to make a mess in the kitchen with as we make outwhy live
>>85125715yeah that's hot you whore. you should spread that wet dough all over your body and bake a cake for a gay couple>>85125683do you think your bakery would serve wedding cake to gay men?
>>85125739>do you think your bakery would serve wedding cake to gay men?I don't think my bakery would be specialized in cakes as complex as wedding ones, it's not a cake design shop. An unusual dessert buffet for a gay wedding would be lovely and I would gladly do that
>>85125739when are you getting married?
My birthday cake
>>85125812you really like tombstones/ghosts uh?
>tfw no benevolent dictator bf
>>85125785fuck okay, at least you won't turn the away if they order>>85125808never/when a serious man comes into my life and proposes to me and i'll still won't be able to make up my mind
>>85125812beautiful tower and a castle walls
>cute bakery fantasiesropefuel...anyways, >>85108619 >>85108704would you guys like to hang out? im in the north bay, where are you?also, is transport an issue for you as well? ;-;
>>85125616a bit twinkish iirc, a kind of face that looks good with earrings
>>85125828A gay bakery turning away a gay order would be very hypocritical. I'd turn away only gery tasteless orders, idk, like a toilet themed sweet or something that looks like gore
>>85125653a lot of places that are openly gay accepting or gay ran have really weird food shaped like penises or genitalia. its very strange.
>>85125859would you decorate your own wedding cake or would you ask another baker? if you gonna ask another baker would you ask a gay bakery or any bakery that would be more cheap/available/proficient/top rated?
>>85125866Dang I didn't know that. Are all of you going outside and/or using social media? I must be out of the loop.
>>85125846I have a car but the a/c is fucky, around south sf>>85125866>openly gay bakery sells openly gay baked goodsstrange innit
>>85125859i feel like baking something like a penis-shaped caked is performative faggotry. two boyfriends simply baking normal things is cute gay
>>85125866yeah, that was what I was talking about. Not hating on people for having fun like that, but my idea of gay bakery would be different, more artistic, not in a pretentious way, or maybe comfy, like a safe space
I'd make made a penis lollipop or a bun for a boyfriend but I don't have a boyfriend and my penis is disgustingly small and even if I did he's just ask why I made them bite sized and if there's more
>>85125935*Plaps u*
>>85125877these are very specific questions lmao are you a cakes glowie?If I wanted to get married, I'd ask another baker for the cake, someone professional. Assuming I would not be poor, I'd ask to the baker who makes the best cakes for my taste and my bf taste, we'd likely have a fight about it. It has to taste good first and foremost, of course a little elegant as well but nothing too complex. What would you do?>>85125900as I wrote, while I do not like that kind of stuff much, I'd hardly eat and I'd never bake something like that, I'm not hating on people who like to have fun that way, however I fully share your sentiment, I don't want to turn baking into a sexual thing, I want it to be romantic. Of course, things can get hot while baking but it stays between my and my bf, it doesn't spill into food
>>85125888>southdam, bit of a hike to somewhere like petaluma i guess loli can give a disc if you want to talk more before your hopes get up...
>tfw no sweaty sweet hiker baker bf
me and fbf>>85125982too bad bart doesn't go north, but what do you do stuck in Petaluma?
>>85125888yeah, i think if youre so insecure in your sexuality that you need to have your cooking shaped as cocks to feel good about yourself, you probably arent deserving of having a business. go to therapy>>85125886yes, but ive only seen it irl once and it was almost 8 years ago. its not SUPER common, but common enough to be annoying
>>85125927i think thats very cute anon. i didnt see your reply so i didnt bundle it with the other two i did. i hope you have a good day/night
>>85126082sobbing lmaowell, im actually stuck in sonoma, but theres not much to do herei occasionally walk around the river forest park or through the ghettos... used to do nightwalks but i cant really sneak out quietly anymore
Lot of califags here, anyone in socal?
>>85126166you can watch the grapes grow and hike a lot and get sunburns
>need bf who doesn't browse 4chan ever evergive me ideas guys
killed a retard
Bloody hell i thought americans were exaggerating when they said california was the faggot state.
>>85125592I watched this anime last year. It was oddly comfy despite being kinda weird
>>85126272everyone lives here, so it is statistically inevitable
>tfw stuck in socal hellKill me nigga
>>85126243true... hmm, i should go sleep; good luck, guy :)
>>85126296but why would you be stuck
>>85126312goodnight grapeman
its gonna be so totally epic when i come out the closet and start taking major cock in holes like a master sloot. Also ww3 when?
>>85126464>come out the closet and start taking major cock in holes like a master slootdon't do it you'll start ww3
>>85126519Maybe I don't care anymore anon? Maybe I just don't care?*loads up shotgun prepares to HALO dive*
I was getting angry at mario kart staff ghosts tonightI feel like I can't do anything right sometimes. Although my imaginary boyfriend did comfort me.
gonna be so cool when i die and reincarnate as an amoeba
>tfw no double dash bf
>>85126751https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2JFpfTPHvo
>tfw no jokingly sexist bf who just says with a smile that I need more plapping to not be so grumpy
>>85126782Waluigi is my favorite character
Got my cat's ashes back, can't believe I'm down to 6 now. The year is only half over and I'm scared I'll lose another before the end of it.
>>85127555Why are they all dying?
>>85128690Cancer, one to a mass in the lungs I didn't even know she had until one night she couldn't breathe, one to oral cancer where he had a tumor in mouth he couldn't even close it anymore and drooled all the time and finally this last cat had abdominal cancer which she fought for a year and a half. The first two happened within two weeks of each other back in March, but the latest I've known was coming for a while so it wasn't quite as hard.
>>85128690hehehe... *slinks back into the shadows*
>>85128690They are probably pretty old too
>>85128801the latest was 14-16 and the other two were 12 and 13. Decently old for a cat.
>>85128690they breathe mold and eat maggots and develop cancer
>>85128873that's fucking hardcore
>>85128879the cancer is brewing inside story too, any day now
>>85128758Have you got something emitting radiation in your house?? Weird amount of cancer
>>85128984everything about that house is hazardous, story should not be allowed to keep animals
story-kun deserves a bf to save him the most. He's a gentle soul
>>85129285i don't see how that makes sense at all, story is a lazy piece of shit who whines all day instead of attempting to fix anything, even if he got a bf they would have a falling out immediately because story is a horrible piece of shit
>>85129285ah yes, relationships borne of savior complexes: the most stable and healthy.
>>85129305story is lazy, but not a piece of shit like half of the anons here, so he deserves it way more than actual pos
>>85129334he's literally gassing his cats to death as we speak, maybe he does it on purpose so he has something to sympathy-fish with here when they die
>>85129341what a odd thing to say
>>85129353how so, his original story was all sympathy-baiting lies, why wouldn't he do it again?
>duck donutsAs long as there's a new fat fuck yank food chain to learn about the world will still be full of mystery
>be me>start to wonder as a teen if I'm bi>in college, find a guy to hook up with>we become friends with benefits for well over a year>leave college, we keep in contact >my thc consumption eventually gives me religious psychosis, become hardcore Christian>think my same-sex attraction is sinful>end up ghosting my fwb>a couple years later, get treatment for my psychosis>while in treatment, meet girl>girl and I end up dating, we're both bi>dating goes well, plan on moving in together>suddenly, for the past few days, start having lots of gay thoughts>thoughts so strong they make me wonder if I'm gay and not bi>find old fwb's number>now deciding whether or not to reach out to himI don't know what to do, I love this girl but my lust is pulling me towards men again.
>>85127555how are you storybud? Are you eating?
>bishit is a retardNews at 11
>be me>start to wonder as a teen if I'm bi>never find a girl but don't care>I'm actually gay>never find a bf because boys don't want me either>the end
>>85129838Does he do anything else lol>>85129846And they wonder why people don't like them lol
>>85129883sorry I don't remember talking to you
>>85129911I don't need your permission to reply to any post here whore, cry about it
>>85129917you seem very upset, always bringing down others here
>>85129930Assuming you're the anon who talked to story, am I wrong? All he does is whine or talk about the garbage he stuffs his face with.
>>85129951and all you do is whining about others
>>85129959You don't know me. Stop lying because you wish it was true.
>>85129878I now want you based on this fact alone
>>85130030nah, seek chad. The sex and the kisses will be better
I wish I had money for laser or electrolysis or whatever having facial hair makes me depressed
>>85130071Ok weirdo cuck, will do
>>85130088literally just shave it like every civilised man in society tf is your problem nigga
>>85130142She's not a man tho, she's a mentally ill tranny unhappy with her body
>>85130142>niggaNakanonnie?
>>85130142I still have a shadow and it grows right back so it's pointless
>tfw no secret magic practitioner bf
>>85130088Me too , anon its the worst thing ever
I am once again asking what to have for dinner, skillet pasta meal, chicken, frozen pizza or breakfast for dinner where I cook sausage or bacon and just eat for dinner, I do this sometimes.
>>85131060Let's make you eat actual food for once dear. Oh wait, it's gonna be too much of a hussle?
>>85131187I'd have to actually have the food on hand first, its too late to go to the store. If I go out I'm just getting a burger.
i'm sleepy and i want to cuddle
sry i just cranked my small dick to men with better bodies and penises and not looking for cuddles
i never expect to get any anyways it's fine
>tfw no sleepy bf to cuddle with and grope in their sleep
i changed my mind let's cuddle but i want to sleep and don't get too close it already too hot to sleep
last night I blew a huge load from not touching myself in any way just looking at drawn porn but then when I took my pants off to clean up I found out it was all clear, no sperm at all just pre, what does that mean?
>tfw no leaky bf
6'2 twink here, where can i meet up with hairy/obsese/balding tops in my area without having to rely on going to forests? Tried growler but everyone is weird as fuck on there.
>>85131872i suspect yyou may find them in the local cycling club, staying active after their knees started going bad. jujitsu gyms are another common dilf hangout spot. hiking and camping are popular as well, if you prefer a slower pace. i know you said you hate forests though. maybe going to a sports bar during the big game would surface some leads. even if you don't find your man, you could get an idea of the vibe and where you might look locally.
>>85131936Sounds like you know ball. What helps me make look more approachable to these types? Want to get the full Princess treatment.
Absolutely fucking disgusting. Remove yourselves.
Absolutely fucking hot. Place yourselves.
>>85131965painted nails or rainbow accessories tell men it's okay to flirt with you. if you act flirty and it's not clear that you're gay it can just come off as acting weird (suspicious) like why is this guy being so nice to me. most guys very rarely get positive attention so they can get attached from just a single compliment if it's sincere. often just being gay and friendly in their vicinity gets them thinking about you.>the full Princess treatmenti won't tell you this because it's unethical to exploit men like this men deserve better
smugly brainstorming how to assemble my falling sheet metal squares into orderly stacks of six
I feel like crying but can't I'm so pathetic
>>85132500oh yeah? cry about it
>>85132588I can't that's da issue
>tfw no hung chubby daddy bf to treat me like a princess domestically but make me his cock slave in the bedroom
its in our nature to destroy ourselves
>>85132689i'm gonna need princess to get a job and pay for her half of the bills
>>85132757Princesses pay with upkeep and domestic work. Can't be beautiful with a 9-5.
>post my tag looking for people>say I don't want long distance>say my location>still get mostly people from around the whole globeWhy. Can people on this website not read?
>>85132723no it's not in our nature oomfie you're just mentally ill
>>85132953are you one of those people who has 15 million tags so you're basically connected to all people on tagmap
>>85133106Nope just one tag. I just mostly get people from Cali or London.Where are all my New England boys?
I wanna quit my meds should I
>>85133193Yes. I heard they are putting nanomachines in all medicines to control the populace. The only exception are antibiotics, which is why antibiotics are losing their effectiveness.
>>85133229Funny. But then again me being an emotionless shell is probably because of the schizophrenia and not because pf the meds
>>85133247Did you feel relatively flat before you started taking them? I don't know much about schizophrenia meds but maybe you could swap them out for something that makes life more livable
>>85133275I don't remember I have serious memory problems probably because of the schizophrenia as well I've tried a lot of meds and most don't work as well as this one
>>85133282I see, that's unfortunate. Aside from the obvious "talk to your doctor" advice I wish you the best oomfie, and please don't listen too much to what random fags on r9gay say. And stay on your meds dummy!I'm so fuggin tired, I've got work tomorrow but I don't wanna go to bed yet...
>>85133356Thanks. I wanna quit them real bad but that's probably because I'm miserable and want things to change
>>85133371Also consider that maybe you're also depressed and going off your meds would be part of a self-destructive spiral
>>85133451Yeah I know sorry
>>85133482Sorry if that was too direct oomfie I revert back to my natural autismo state once I'm sleepy enoughIs this place always this quiet now or is it just Monday night?
>>85133519No you are right I'm just tired of everything being so bland and empty but that doesn't mean self sabotaging will make it better. I'm very tired too.
>>85133519I think the TikTok normgroids who came here recently realized how boring this place is and left. They're probably having fun with their friends right now. I remember I was on public transit 6 months ago and a group of underage black girls with chains, friendship bracelets and the whole wazoo blew puffs of weed into my face while saying 'Excuse me!' as I was changing connecting buses at 10 PM.
>>85133532Go to sleep! I'll prob be around tomorrow if you wanna talk some more (if I'm not dead tired after work)>>85133587As much as I hate commuting by car I'm so glad I don't need to interact with people on public transit because of stuff like that. I'm also pretty antisocial and being around tons of strangers tires me out which doesn't help...
>>85133660I forgot my image of boys kissing waaa
spicy pork
When I twinkdie I'm gonna become a bear. But not the creepy gay bear, more like a silly uncle fat guy.
>tfw no greasy italian bf
no mames hijo de tu puta madre de se tapa la boca pinche perro messi de mierda judio joto
>>85135668Que nino tan lindo
>>85135708es un hombre
>>85135718Que hombre tan lindo
hombre polilla
>>85134678Are you lifting or do you plan on bulking and supplementing with minoxidil?
https://voca.ro/1gA3qLcEa1jG
>>85135932download grindr incel
>>85135932good to hear (you)'re still kicking.
>>85135941I am not a whore I'm a pure boy
>>85135953I'm anonymous though you can't know who I am
>>85136014but I recognize your voice b~
>>85135932>>85136002>>85136014https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-befR4wHsjQ
holy fuck im so ugly its so joever
I'm not gay or anything close to gay.I just enjoy writing, reading and watching romance stories.>Every metric of the average womanI can no longer write anything like the romance stories I used to write because every positive character trait used by any woman in fiction does not approximate anything that a flesh and blood woman is capable of having and the idea of pretending they could completely shatters my suspension of disbelief.All I can write now is femboy stuff.That is all there is now.
>>85136538femboys and twinks are as evil as women, maybe just more honest. Get to know them better
Italians are not greasy, Italo-american are greasy because they have lost contact with civilization a long time ago.We are not greasy, stop saying that; if any of you keep saying that I am greasy I'm forcing him into taking a shower with me.
yeah, you aren't greasy, you are slimy
I hate being into ordinary masculine men. I wish i were attracted to femboys/twinks instead.
>>85137046Why? There are like 100 times less femboys and their standards are 100 times higher
>>85137046are masculine men into you?
>talking to 2 boys from bumble>Both into pottery >Ask one about how it works, all these complex topics>Relay that information and ask same questions to the less experienced person>Boy 1 is impressed I'm taking an interest in his hobby and boy 2 is impressed I know more than he does
>>85137231you are something less than human
>>85137282Now why on earth would go go saying a thing like this anon
>>85137231Gross ew die
>>85137326Oh I forgot this isn't /LGBT/ this is the sex-nonhaver board my bad
>>85137521That's not the issue you being a manipulative dishonest piece of waste is
I really hate sex, half the time I see I acknowledge it on screen I start feeling bad that I don't look like normal guys. Don't know If i ever would wanna get a bf because to have boyfriend you'd have to fuck him and i'll find a reason to be upset about nudity in any configuration between two guys in the bedroom, fuck ssex
>>85137738what should have anon done? Genuinely curious
>>85137803Killed himself simple as
>>85137848But that's you should do as per being a fat gross tranny that can't even find anyone on discord, your nest and reputable den. He was simply using what other said to his advantage and now you're making it a big deal and misinterpret it in your own retarder, mentally ill, gross, hostile, rude fashion. Because you're a loser and a waste of life no one likes. And you should kill yourself instead.
>>85137871Meds now. Leponex 10g stat.
>>85137927Have a nice meal nigger. Die later.
>>85137981I'm not eating anything tho lol
>>85138025except ass
had a dream where i was driving my old gf somewhere it felt like something was going to happen soon but i woke upbeen having a lot of driving dreams lately. what does it mean
>>85138645https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2FX5DKRt2xg
>>85138645did you force yourself to be straight too?
>>85138703grocery store nostalgia
>>85138773grocery stores used to put this kind of songs?
When you hear music you used to listen to being played in a grocery store you know you're old. Trust me it will happen to you.
>>85138632No eating ass is top coded so I would never
>>85138834It already did. I know I'm old. I don't know if you needed to hear it but you're not a twink anymore. I was never a twink, so it's not a way to poke fun. I couldn't find ways to cope with the fact that I'm old and not a teen for the past 4 years now. Even worse, bak then I was more mentally sound and didn't know how good I had it. Now I'm old, fat, ugly, dickletly, stupid, mentally debilitated and hopeless. Wonder if having a boyfriend ever could have changed me for good but those a hypothetical scenarios that no longer give me joy through living in it in my head. It's a chop. I'm so old I remember times before Complicated by Avril Lavigne was released. I want an old boyfriend now. That can't cope too. I'm time-worn, historic and hoary and two generations have come after me.
>>85138772not really a girl just asked me to be her bf and i didnt know what else to say. also im natural born straight>>85138781yeah or maybe it was a clothing store>>85138834they still play 80s hits most of the time when i go
>1am sick as a dog picking up a few things in an empty food4less>men at work overkill quietly plays through the storesigh those were the days
I'm almost 30 and got ID'd
I'm almost 30 and a virgin
im 33 years old but i still look 32
>>85138834I doubt they'll play tech death in a grocery store.
>>85138952>i remember times before complicated by Avril Lavigne was releasedhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HLCasyAh7ic
>>85127555Story be pragmatic, these cats are sucking up your money. The fewer the better. >>85129838That's the one thing you can be sure he's doing
>>85137773Body dysmorphic disorder? Or just really insecure and sexually retentive?
>>85137046Ask me how I know you have no dating experience
>>85139385I don't want to be mean but if you're another gay incel obsessed with purity culture, you kinda brought it on yourself
>>85140127Hi hue hru
>>85140148No I'm just too mentally ill and self hating to put myself out there and get a bf
>>85140151I'm doing so well I almost feel bad about coming here, I have no right being here as I am now, completely satisfied and earnestly happy about my romantic life for the first time in a while. A man is in love
>>85140171Wow I believe you so much baby ypu're surely not lying as always yay
>>85140163Understandable. So you're not another robot obsessed with virginity who would reject a non virgin partner?
>>85140180I have lied plenty before, meow, but today I speak the truth. I'm madly in love as I speak. All i can think about is his smell, my senses be praised. Your ass is busted by the way.
>>85140183I don't care about my fbfs virginity, only if he's clean of stds. But it doesn't matter because I'm unlovable.
having sex with a non-virgin is kind of gross as is but having sex with a non-virgin gay is a legit health risksorry bros
>>85140193Sure lol tHIs TiMe I'm nOt LyiNg also it isn't that busted. Yours is probably worse.
>>85140204>what are std testsI would go to a std test with my fbf before we start having sex even if he was a virgin
Dropped my new phone bigly today, like 15 dents on it all around.It's cute if a boy is clumsy, right?
guy at work is hitting on me and i don't know what to do
>>85140204So here's the incel obsessed with purity culture I was talking about earlier... Your loneliness is a prison of your own making. Condoms and tests exist
>>85140224Hit back
>>85140207Mine is tight and petite like a flower bud. Yours is wrecked and the worst part, you wrecked it with toys, you don't even have the fond memories of having someone do that for you.
>>85140216Yes. No. Fucking butterfingers. Fall with your bussom on me instead. Please don't worry about that vase.
Do any of you guys ever get shy bladders when you have to do a urinalysis test? I get so stressed out that I can't go because shortly after going to the room to do it there's usually someone wanting to do it as well and then I can't.
>>85140247i'm sexually retarded
>>85140248Sure whatever lie makes you feel better huey boy good luck with ypur imaginary bf
>>85140207It's true I have no way to convince you, and you might not believe in me and any other day this would bother me greatly. But not today. I don't really care about not being believed in anymore. I'm so in love, and we're living such a thrill together, that I literally feel like I'm in heaven. It's genuinely scary how good it feels. Man I wish you guys could experience this once. 4chan would never be the same.
>>85140214explaindo you live somewhere with hookworms? i recently learned that you can get these walking around barefoot in some places>>85140230yea... or i could have regular worry free sex with my virgin qt
>>85140261Text him? Would that make it easier? Ask him out for a date
>>85140266This would be somewhat believable if it wasn't accompanied with you doing the usual bullying people schtick alongside it. If I got a bf who made me that happy 4chan bullying is the last thing I'd want to spend my time doing.
>>85140271Ei vara venetta kaada simple as
>>85140257cant say for sure but i find its impossible to pee if anyone else is in the restroom so its very likely
>>85140271>or i could have regular worry free sex with my virgin qtHow's that working out so far? Oh that's right... You have spent quite a few years alone, and learned nothing about your expectations vs reality. I guess it will take a few more years for you to realize that you can't always get what you want, and sometimes what you think you want is not even what you need, it's just an immature idealization.You could love a non virgin boy and live something beautiful together. Instead you're all alone
>>85140257How do you think you'll manage real life sex?
I'm an evil ass possum where is my bf waa
>>85140278I'm only bullying incels because I'm not with him. Sadly we work for a living, in different cities. But when we are together, usually on weekends, this place is the last thing on my mind. I'm just so fuckin happy to be in love again and living something beautiful, reciprocal, I just had to tell you. Love is waiting outside, sometimes it can take years but it finally happens if you try hard enough. And then it's pure ancestral magic. Sometimes I literally feel like I should die right now just so I could die in such heightened state of self, in blissful young love, so I wouldn't have to suffer ever again. I could die today feeling like I've tasted ultimate happiness and my job on this earth is done.
>>85140334Sure whatever you say hue. I'm sure your imaginary boyfriend you made up to brag makes you very happy. No wonder your butthole is so pristine lol
>>85140265Did you know he's black? Lol I bet you guys would make fun of that. A black bf. I love him more than anything else
>>85140290I'm the exact same way, so probably in that case.>>85140302I don't pee in the butt.
>>85140342I kinda don't care about what features you imagine him having. It changes nothing.
>>85140337It's pristine because it's mostly unused as I was a top, but he's a top now and if it's up to me, he can wreck my hole in every dimension and tore it apart, it's his to do with it as he pleases, that's my pleasure. Maybe he will bust it open just like yours and nothing could fill me with greater joy.
>>85140351Yeah but can you get naked with someone else without feeling embarrassed?
>>85140358Like I said I kinda don't care about your sad fantasies. When I had a bf I stopped posting here. You cannot do the same. Then again you probably don't have a bf either so I guess it doesn't matter
>>85140354Yeah but he real though. What are your thoughts on having a black bf? Do you see yourself dating a black man?
>>85140379I don't see myself dating anyone because I am mentally ill
>>85140374Did you really stop posting all the time, even when you two weren't together? That's something I never managed. Surely when we are together the world becomes just the two of us, but I'll spend 4 days without him and I felt like rubbing in your face that you can find the greatest joy in the arms of a black bf who isn't a virgin.
>>85140386Yeah but are you also racist in your sexual preferences?
>>85140397Yes, we only met once a month but I stopped posting altogether because I didn't feel so lonely anymore. I didn't post on finnish boards either. I know that you only made another lie to rub it in out faces but we all know you're just as unlovable as the rest of us. Which is why you are forever stuck here.
>>85140374I have one now I swear. Love fills my every pore. I'm full of love. I have no hate to give today
>>85140406I don't think I am but hard to say since I have no experience with any sex regardless of the tops ethnicity.
>>85140367No probably not but I don't think I'd be here if that was likely to happen. Plus this was about pee samples not sex.
>>85140286no hablo espanol english only pendejo>>85140292not worth it. besides AIDS wont really be there to keep me company when its over
>>85140416Yet you felt the need to be needlessly mean to me and others here. Wow so believable. Try harder next time huey.
>>85140413>only met once a monthThat's so lackluster. One day a month? And you saw each other only a handful of times before he tried to get into your pants and you refused and broke up with him, at least that's what you told me before. I'm sorry meow, that's barely a relationship. You didn't really love him like I do. But congrats on being away from this place for so long, I only manage to stay that long offline if I'm drowning in work.
>>85140433Better safe than sorry is what I said
>>85140439Two days a month yeah. He tried getting in my pants too aggressively and hurt me and since I had just been repeatedly assaulted in the army and was recovering from my psychotic break that made me so uncomfortable I didn't want to see him anymore. He is the one who said we should break up though.
>>85140435Needlessly mean how, just because I said your ass is busted and you shouldn't be a purity obsessed virgin? Yeah sorry about that. I can't find a soft spot in my tongue for any of you because I know you far too much to give you the benefit of tbe doubt. But this time I am so madly in love, I hadn't felt like this for years. I just can't but exhale it. I'm in love, meow. When I'm away, all that occupies my thoughts is his smile, and the smell of his breath
>>85140470All you do is lie. Why should I think this time you're not lying? What do you know about busted asses if you have no experience? Although that picture was taken on an evening where I had just played with my butt so maybe it does look used compared to a virginal one. But it's not busted or prolapsed like you want to force into being.
>>85140433>not worth itAre you sure? I know a whole bunch of gay people who don't have STDs but have relationships and stuff. They seem happier than you. I'd wager that wasting your youth away in loneliness and bitter regret is not worth it. Is it better to have loved or to have never loved at all? Your heart is dry as fuck
>>85140468>He tried getting in my pants too aggressivelyAfter god knows how many dates. Poor boy. Imagine blocking your bf like that. He did the right thing. Did you ever do therapy fir your troubles? After all that time, you think you'd be ready to try again now?
brehs... i need to refill my water but if i go upstairs theyre going to talk to me and hold me hostage for an hour and then it will almost be dinner time so i wont be able get comfortable
>>85140525I don't think hurting your bf so that he has bruises the next day while calling him a whore is the right approach when he's in a very vulnerable position even if it's your third date and you haven't gotten sex yet but I personally would rather die than to sexually assault someone so who am I to say. I am in therapy but it's too embarrassing to talk about my trauma so I don't. Try how? My self esteem is too low. Who would want a schizophrenic chubby bottom?
>>85140492I haven't always lied. I did lie sometimes, but sometimes I was telling the truth, you just don't know which is which. And that's fair. Without me doxxing myself, there's no way to prove, but there's also no need to prove anything. >What do you know about busted assesI have plenty experience as a top. Visually speaking when a hole is still intact or tight we can see the external sphincter, and when it's busted, that ship sales and only the internal sphincter remains. It's perceptible to the sight. But you're not the only homosexual with a gaping hole. I'm just messing with you because it's in my nature to do so. Your busted hole isn't necessarily a shame and it isn't a deal breaker either. If anything you can take the dick
>>85140562You lie most of the time so why would you not lie in this case since it benefits you? (By giving you a reason to gloat)
Meow's virginal asshole
>>85140559>even if it's your third dateSo it was only three dates after all? Well some gays would like that but surely he shouldn't have done something that made you uncomfortable, that's given. He probably felt like you two were intimate enough already. After all you call him "ex bf" to this day, it's not the same as trying to rape a stranger. You opened the door and he tried getting inside but you didn't open it all the way and got hurt. It happens. You both made mistakes in the communication part and he pressed too much. It's okay meow, it happens. You should try again though. Doing therapy and not opening up about your deepest issues is a waste of both your and the therapist's time.
>>85140559>Who would want a schizophrenic chubby bottomThe guy who tried to fuck you? I'm not saying it's easy for chubby bottoms out there, certainly you won't score a prince charming, but maybe there's a shrek nearby with his onioned layers waiting to be peeled off. Would you like that?
>>85140605Doesn't look that virginal in this pic
>>85140605You can clearly see the first ring is out of town, only the second hole is left.
>>85140496theyre probably not any happier than me. people are generally discontent. desu im pretty content compared to 99% of the populacei already wasted my youth and it was freakin sweetyea... nah. i will just keep my soul instead of selling out to faggotry
>>85140609I met him like 7 times but we started as friends so not all of those were dates. It's one thing to communicate poorly but I wish he also realized that I was all alone with him in a city 500km from anyone I could call for help. At least he didn't know I had been assaulted in the army so it's not like he decided to be sexually aggressive in spite of that.>>85140621I wasn't fat then and didn't have the diagnosis either. And even then the relationship was doomed anyway since I didn't like him as anything but a friend. Maybe someone could love me if their standards are low enough but I for sure cannot love anyone.>>85140623Virginity is a social construct you hecking chud
>>85140586I didn't lie most of the time, quite the contrary. When I said I was in relationships, I meant it. Whenever I wasn't, I just shut up about it. I just lied about things like having a past of promiscuity or having boyfriends with a past of promiscuity because those are the things you use to disqualify people here. I distinctively remember telling you I have never cheated on anyone, and that's true.
>>85140658I have 0 reason to think you aren't lying again. It's the bed you have made for yourself.
>>85140644>theyre probably not any happier than meI doubt that. >I'm pretty content being a lonely virgin on r9kI doubt that too. You already wasted your youth and you learned nothing from it, apparently. You keep wasting the little youth you have left. >Keep my soulPoor boy, is it religious trauma after all, that makes you repress your sexuality so hard? Another victim of ancient hebrews? Oh my dear, that's so sad Your soul is faggotry incarnate from day one. Hiding it doesn't change. You come to a gay thread to vent. Your soul is sold out to faggotry already.
>>85140657>At least he didn't know I had been assaulted in the army so it's not like he decided to be sexually aggressive in spite of that.You could have talked it out instead of freaking out
>>85140687I just let him grope me and was so quiet and withdrawn the next day he realized he had fucked up lol
>>85140671That's okay, meow, I'll have to live with that. I'm content knowing that I am experiencing such a blissful moment in my life, I wish you could too. It's truly otherworldly, to love. None of the poems do it justice. I don't think I'll ever be the same. I'll be forever grateful for the universe for allowing me to taste heaven on earth even if it doesn't last forever. No amount of time would suffice.
>>85140657>Maybe someone could love me if their standards are low enoughAre your standards low?
>>85140704Good for you. I probably can't experience love since I'm a schizophrenic and my emotions don't work. The meds don't help that situation either.
>>85140701Great communication skills you got there. I wish you were open with real life boys like you are here
>>85140714I don't know. I don't think I've ever loved anyone romantically but that's probably because of other reasons. I find plenty of men I see outside pleasant to look at.
>>85140719You probably could, your problem is more like repression and self sabotaging than anything else. You just don't give your heart a chance to experience anything other than what you know and are safe with: loneliness, sadness and lamentations
>>85140722It's not my fault I freeze and go limp and weak when I feel threatened
I want a blonde nerd bf. If he has glasses, big shoulders and puffy chest it's even better
>>85140727>I find plenty of men I see outside pleasant to look at.Would you find a man on your level, chubby, average face at best, weird hairdo, attractive? Do you see yourself being open to a lil ugly but charming fella?
>>85140737Because there is no reason to feel anything positive. I'm tired.
>>85140742>Demands so specific it goes to hair color Never gonna make it
>>85140752Maybe? I don't want to date my clone but I don't find myself that ugly. Chubbiness is a plus in my book, height doesn't matter and I don't have the squire hair anymore.
>>85140753There would be if you got over your army and school bullying trauma and just let a man do to your ass what you already do with toys.
>>85140676you better start believing(two meanings)
>>85140776Ah yes because that's just so very simple. A real snap your fingers and it's done affair.
>>85140767>don't have the squire hair anymoreIs still long? You're not that ugly meow, I just liked to bully you. Your appearance was made weirder by your femme hair, but other than that you look okay
>>85140777Lying to yourself about your predicament is your coping mechanism. You're not happy being a single 30 yo virgin. You're not a monk, you're an incel on r9k, the house of frustrated virgins. I just hope all of that suffering isn't because of religion and stubbornness, because that would be sad
>>85140794You could just have sex so you can at least challenge your inner demons. I mean you refuse to open up to therapy, what are the options?
>>85140795I on the other hand think it 's more important to feel happy in my own skin than to please others because no matter what I'm the only person who has to live in my body. If people won't love me for who I am then I'm okay with being alone.
>but I don't find myself that uglyoh dear, xe's gone very bad. who'll will tell her?
>>85140818Have sex with whom? I don't think fucking strangers will be anything but another straw on the camels back. Although I guess it could work nicely towards a self destructive spiraling.
>>85140825Sorry that I don't have a horrendous self esteem about my appearance. Hopefully you can get over it.
>>85140821>it 's more important to feel happy in my own skin100%. It's just that you don't look very happy in your skin being all alone and shit. A bf could be very beneficial. Is long hair part of you that deeply, instead of just being a particular hairstyle?
>>85140832With some Finnish guy you meet online, something you haven't tried to do in a long time. You can make him into not a stranger before the sex by getting to know him.
>>85140762I just think blonde nerds are cute. Geeks with other hair colors bring different vibes.
>>85140845I don't understand the question sorry>>85140858For a good reason too. I don't want to use dating apps still. I'd rather be alone.
>>85140864Superficial and vain standards denounce a superficial and vain mind.
>>85140878Would you feel like you are betraying your true sense of self just by cutting your hair short? Is long hair that much part of your persona?
>>85140878>don't want to use dating apps stillThat's where you mess up. Like an alcoholic saying "I don't want to quit drinking just yet". Your addiction is loneliness
>>85140905No, I just don't like how it looks.>>85140916This circles back to the "I want to be comfortable with myself". Selling myself like a piece of meat to people who don't even actually care goes against that.
>>85140810i was really unhappy before but ive been feeling pretty good these last 2 years. completely different environment too. maybe i will grow into a full on normalfag at 40 o.o'i have to go now bye
>>85140893Yeah, I agree, when a retard comes here to spew bullshit and argue there's not much sense discussing anything with him, the borderline animal is looking for an excuse to be rude and take a moral ground.
Wishing for a blonde bf is a path of no return
>>85140961As long as you don't stay a stuck up prude virgin forever
>>85140956"I want to be comfortable with myself" as in "I'll never leave the comfort zone" is bad, though. Life happens outside the comfort zone. Reducing the act of searching for a partner to a meat market is so asinine, so simplistic, anything could sound bad if you framed it in such retarded terms. Looking for a job, looking for friends, everything becomes "selling myself like meet to people who don't care,"Are you a teenager still? Get over yourself
>>85141171That's what dating apps are though. I'd rather go to a Gay bar or something but it's pretty boring when you can't drink.
>>85141197Any dating scenario can be reduced to that, even a fundamentalist cult matchmaking. You are using semantics to convey your ideas. You're so opinionated about dating apps but haven't used them in years and years. Then by all means, go to a gay bar. You think flirting in real life is easy if you aren't sociable and easygoing? As much as you don't like it, dating apps are perfect for non normies.
>>85141239Do you genuinely think dating apps have changed in the three years I haven't used them in? And even then I have used grindr during those three years but grindr is a casual sex app, not a dating app.
>>85141253It's not the dating apps, anon. It's you. Dating apps are what you make of them. Be it promiscuous hook-ups or something else. I'm in the "something else" era right now with someone I met there and it's a thrill. I ain't the only one. You're wasting opportunities for what? Pure stubbornness.
>>85141171he's right though. dating apps are simply marketing and are often filled with the most vapid people imaginable
>>85141253Tinder is more romantic for gays
>>85141297Yes it's true that dating apps aren't my thing because of the way I am. That doesn't change the fact they're not my thing. Grindr is full of people who only want sex and tinder is too anxiety inducing to use. Others seem to have next to no gay men.
dating apps are just normieness down to it's purest form, it gives me shivers just thinking about it
>>85141304>The most vapid people So just like this board, then?Dating is simply marketing, you won't find any way around it, not even here where you advertise your anonymous persona
>>85141319Incel mindset. Dating apps are filled with weirdos because normies flock to social network apps like Instagram and real life dating
>>85141305Probably true, but I get analysis paralysis from thinking if I should wipe left or right and it makes me feel very anxious
>>85141312They could be "your thing" because dating apps in itself aren't anything at all, it's the people there that make up the experience, not the other way around. And as much as it hurts your pick me sensibilities, you are not the only asocial weirdo on these apps
>>85141312>Grindr is full of people who only want sexThen you search for the ones who don't Your problem has more to do with hopelessness than anything else
>>85141344If you can't face your anxiety, if it's that much debilitating, it's probably not well under control and you could optimize your medication and your therapy, but you won't do anything. Will you let your anxiety take the best of you?
>>85141352That's pretty disingenuous. They are tech firm products desinged to make money. I never said I'm the only weird person on tinder.>>85141360Wow an astute observation almost like I am hopeless and have 0 reason not to be
Good evening oomfies why are we fighting each other
>>85141374My anxiety is well under control if I do nothing wrong
>>85141383Are you that genshin nigga from new york
>>85141425I am that genshin nigga from new york yesI'm surprised anyone remembers me, I only stop by once every year or so
>>85141456I'm the only one that recognizes you because unfortunately I have a very good memory that torments me everyday of my life rememebering the thing I fucked up on and people I stopped talking to.
Another meat only dinner because I was too lazy for even hash browns. At least it isn't fast food I guess but this meat is so expensive now.
>>85141500enjoy the bowel cancer story
waaah waaah i have bowel cancer poor me why didn't anyone stop me oh well at least i can post about it on r9gay
>>85141389That's just a different way of saying your anxiety is not under control and it's so debilitating that it stops you from doing things like pursuing a romantic relationship. That's a legit threshold for when mental health issues stop being personal quirks and become actual illnesses
It hasn't been as much as an issue as it has been in previous years though. I feel more mentally stable at the very least. I'm still sad occasionally though, it is only human. Sometimes I wish I could marry another boy like me from here, save him from this abyss I find myself in. But I fear there may be no one left that relates to me. In other news my throat hurts a lot. Don't make any low brow jokes about this.
>>85141469ohh how've you been mr brad? I hope you've been doing well!>>85141500how much have groceries been going up lately? im planning on moving out soonish, hopefully it's not too bad
>>85141522There's nothing to be done so it doesn't matter
>>85141500The fact that you're running out on money but you practically only eat meat... Come on man. Your money will run out like crazy this way. You'll eat 2, 3 times as much meat as you would if you had some carb on the side to go along
>>85141382>They are tech firm products desinged to make moneyThey're platforms, it's the users who dictate the culture. It's hypersexual but also diverse enough for you to find people like you. Your prejudices get the best of you everytime
>>85141544Every single person I've talked to on grindr was amused that I wanted a bf if we even got that far so my hopes are not very high.
>>85141382>I am hopelessI don't know why. You live in the first world, in a gay friendly country, born to accepting parents, you have mental health resources available, you have so many options to explore. You're just a crying baby, I don't know how you can stand to be so grumpy all the time. Unfortunately the medicine you need the most is the one thing you're not willing to get.
>>85141530>I hope you've been doing well!About as well as one can be in this world. I wish the same for you.
>>85141507an ironic death, no? >>85141530they've been going up fairly much. I can't go t the store without spending 80 bucks it seems. >>85141537Yeah I know, I'm going to be hungry again in a little while too, I always am when I eat meat only dinners.
>>85141534Optimizing your anxiety medication + opening up to your therapist
>>85141566Almost like I am mentally ill ahahahaa >>85141575Not gonna happen
>opening up to your therapistthis is how you develop trust issues
>>85141573>Yeah I knowSo do something about it, story. Stop eating meat like you won't ran out of cash in one year, because you will. Your money can last twice as long if you just cut off bad habits like spending god knows how much money on a dying 13 yo cat
>>85141577>, there's nothing to be done>Here are two simple things you could do with little effort and no change in your daily routine>NoIs stubbornness a mental illness? You're just incredibly weak and easy to give up
>>85141586There's nothing you should worry about unless you're doing something illegal. In that case it's best not to tell them. So are you doing anything illegal? You think your therapist will out you in from of your parents?
>>85141588Well its done now, Its hot out and I didn't want to run the oven for the hash browns. I stopped doing steamed potatoes completely and don't even buy potatoes any more. Realistically at my current rate I have about 3 years, maybe 4 of money left, assuming nothing unforeseen or inflation wave hits.
>>85141601They won't give me anything other than an ssri for anxiety and I don't want to eat ssris anymore especially on top of my antipsychotics because they don't work and if opening up to my therapist was that easy I would've done it the first time I went there
>>85141577So go to your shrink and adjust your medication because your mental illness is not under control.
>>85141612If you're over 18 the therapist shouldn't even be talking with your parents.
have you guys tried dating apps huheuhehueha *favela monkey noises*
>>85141612>i want to kill myself>are you a danger to yourself in this moment>no>...>lets get back to exposure therapy ok? youll feel better if you start talking to strangers in public
>>85141601>You're just incredibly weak and easy to give upTrue. I've been kicked in the head enough I don't believe things could feel okay anymore.
>>85141628I'll meet the new doctor next month but there is nothing to adjust
>>85141621You still have 6 cats to go. Learn your lesson. When they get old and sick, just put them to sleep. Who on earth convinced you it was a good idea to pay for chemotherapy for a 13 yo cat with cancer?! I know who, the person who was getting the cash.
>>85141626>because SSRIs don't work>Said the person who's struggling with unmedicated anxiety precisely he refuses to take the appropriate meds I wouldn't judge your shrink if they just washed their hands of you. SSRIs work, and you're in need of their cortical Magic
>>85141683Who said I gave the cat chemo? I only gave her steroids to keep her appetite up. I could have hospitalized her and tried to save her but I chose to put her to sleep. Save with the other two, well one I didn't have a choice she was just too far gone, and the other with oral cancer I could have done chemo and stuff with him too but I didn't.
>>85141638Boohoo I'm so sad and lonely, better spend the next 10 years doing exactly the same thing that led me to being miserable and alone.
>>85141701I have eaten them before and they didn't make me less anxious about dating
>>85141718Try again. Try a different one. Talk to your shrink. There's more than 20 subtypes. Hundreds of options. Each one with different side effects and different effects. Try something other than crying in fetal position. These meds won't erase your anxiety, they'll just help you navigate it, that's why therapy is also important.
shrink meds are demonic
>>85141733And I wonder how many of those subtypes cause issues with my neurochemistry. You're making this sound way easier than it really is.
>>85141747Your life is a cautionary tale to what happens when you refuse mental health medication
>>85141754mental health medication didn't exist 200 years ago and won't exist 200 years in the future
>>85141753Your neurochemistry is already troubled by disproportional anxiety. These meds would help bring balance to the ruling chaos. They're not for everyone, but some people really need them. Just like the antipsychotics you're taking, if a normal person took them, they'd doze off, be sedated and sleepy. But if an actual schizophrenic goes without them, it's chaos. Unruly psychotic chaos.
There's nothing as cruel as memory.
>>85141760Slavery existed 200 years ago, what is your point? Mental illnesses in the past were devastating. We used to literally lobotomize the brains of mentally ill people precisely because there was no intervention to help them. If meds disappear in the future, things won't look bright for humanity
>>85141768My point is that finding the right meds is not as easy as you make it sound. You have to eat possibly very detrimental ones for a few weeks and then wean off them to try a new one, all the while doing whatever else. In my case studying.
>>85141784Well hopefully in 200 years we could design something that could cure the issues for good vs a daily medication.
I'm really excited to finally move out. I've been waiting to do it for so long and once I'm out in a few weeks I can finally start dating! Though it's been so long since I've had a bf I'm a little nervous about it...
>>85141786It's definitely hard, and it's a journey of trial and error. I just feel like you completely gave up on it, as you have given up on anything that could improve your mental health. And that's expected, it's part of depression, the patient losing the will to get better. That's why the thing you need more than anything else in life is passion, burning igniting passion.
>>85141805There is nothing to be passionate about.
>>85141802Daily medication can be a cure for good, don't be retarded. Just because you think taking medicine is icky, doesn't mean it doesn't work.
>>85141815There would be if you weren't a stuck up virgin who refuses to engage with romance
>>85141816NTA, but wouldn't it be nice to not have to be dependent on a pill? People forget to take them and the mentally ill are notorious for going off meds if they think they're feeling better. In a perfect world the issue would be cured and the brain functioning normally.
>>85141824What romance? There is nothing to engage with. Even if I went out there and got someone to love me I couldnt love them back. What's the point?
>>85141803I'm going to college soon. I'm nervous about it. I guess I can relate a bit. I wish I lived closer to boys sometimes. The incel in me just wants love. I made this in blender last night while sleep deprived. I think it's pretty cool.
>>85141586i skipped therapy and spawned in with them instead
>>85141831And while we wait for technology to catch up, we make due with what we have. Would you take your meds for your future boyfriend?
>>85141834>What romanceThe one you refuse to pursuit.
>>85141862ooo that's exciting! what're you going for mr brad? if you're living on campus there'll be plenty of opportunities to meet cute boys. I had the worst luck finding a top at mine though...the blender render looks really nice btw
>>85141834>couldnt love them backYou don't know that. You're just being defeatist again
>>85141891Because it isn't there to be pursued.>>85141899Yes I do. Of course I know myself better than you.
>>85141897>if you're living on campusI'm not since it's nearby. I tried some dating apps but it is truly bleak and miserable. Thank you. I like doing blender stuff now, it's pretty fun and rewarding.
my pokemon:charizardshorlaxarcaninemr. mimedragonaireprimeape
I just hope brad does more with his college degree than I did with my history degree but I was never going to do anything with any degree.
>>85141862If you're going to college you gotta make the most of it, otherwise you'll just have regrets. Don't stay too comfortable, it's a trap. That's a good time in life to stretch your boundaries and look for new people.
>>85141940If I can offer any advice, go to a uni where you actually like the place. I went to one in an urban shithole and it basically ruined the experience for me. I imagine it'll be functionally similar if you go to one where you feel isolated and sad. This is all assuming you can afford to go anywhere else, that is - but if you have options take advantage of it!
>>85141769I'd argue birth is the cruelest thing at this point because what do you mean everything that hurts is all because of that one moment I had no control over
>>85141970Not sure what I want to do. Took a general education for now until I sort myself out. Maybe some 3D art stuff would be nice but I'm not sure if they offer it. Also maybe business. Or some sort of psychology degree. I'm very lost.
>>85142031nothing wrong with taking gen ed classes and uni requirements the first year. When did that when I first started way back in the fall of '08. Would you believe I actually got straight As that first semester before my ADHD and laziness kicked in?
>>85141909You don't know that. You're very dogmatic. You simply don't know the outcome of things you haven't done yet. All and all, you just want to feel sorry for yourself
>>85141940>it is truly bleak and miserableCould you expand on why?
>>85142065No I don't. I don't even feel miserable. I feel empty. That's exactly why I know that I couldn't love anyone.
>>85142055>fall of 08I think I was still shitting in diapers at the time.
>>85142078>I feel empty. That's exactly why I know that I couldn't love anyone.The current absence of an emotion does not mean that's a permament fixture. You're indulging in hopelessness with that thinking.
>>85142081you know I got to tell everyone my age every chance I get. I was 18 and had graduated HS the spring prior.
>>85142078You feel empty precisely because you're starved of affection for so long. All it takes is one lucky shot and you'll feel something again.
>>85142097I'm still right. Time will show it.
>>85142072everybody was just too ugly and I refuse to settle
>>85142127Not true. I feel empty because I have schizophrenia and I am depressed on top.
>>85142133Time will only show that you gave up, not that you didn't have the potential to change. It's a self fulfilling prophecy, you want to fail and be lonely just to prove a point? It's like you believe that finding love is a betrayal against your true incel soul. Like you were alone out of principle
>>85142151Starving for affection doesn't help with your depression, it makes it worse.
>>85142140Well that's a shame because you're probably ugly too so you're not really refusing to settle, you are refusing to give your looksmatch a chance.
>>85142156It doesn't matter why I am alone. I have no choice to not be.>>85142168Maybe, but again: I have no choice on the matter.
>brad, hue, and the genshin whore are back at itRetro thread?
>>85142185You are choosing to remain alone at this very second. You choose self pity everyday when you open this thread instead of dating apps or going out with your friends. You mentioned having friends before.
>>85142192>genshin whorerude! at least call me genshin fag or something, I don't put out that easily!
>>85142224Most of them are too busy dating each other and drama to have time for me and I meet the two who don't semi regularly. I am not choosing to be alone. If I was I could snap my fingers and not be. But I will be lonely. Always.
>>85142234Has your BPD gotten better?
>>85142240>dating each otherYou should be doing that too, but you chose misery instead. Why don't you go out with those two to your local gay bar?
>>85142270One is taken and one is straight and neither likes bars that much. I'm better off going alone if I'm to go at all.
>>85142261It has, actually! I feel a lot more secure in myself so it's subsided a lot. I feel tinges of it every now and then but it's rare and it's very easy to get under control when it does pop up.
>>85141383just to feel something...
>>85142339We're a thread full of gay men surely it'd feel better to flirt than to argue, right?
>>85142295That's good. I would date you now.
>>85142380true! we shouldn't but some of us just can't help I guess.
>>85142192hellih thread, we all sinned somewhere and now have to pay
>>85142391I'm flattered~ I'm not sure if you're mister brad or another guy though, mind reminding me?>>85142395don't antagonize! be nice!
>>85142430I'm brad...
>>85142430I'll try to be nice. To my kind at least.
need me a place of solitude where i can sit and contemplate for hoursmaybe like pic related
>>85142769a fortress of solitude?
>>85142793i was thinking that but i'm no superman *scrubs intro starts playing*
chris tell our people to tool uphttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDbfHvckwVI
new york don't sound so bad actuallyhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZuV5L0QL04
>>85142843https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BuqnJfehJ2Y
does anyone actually open youtube linksunless it's someone i'm trying to rizz up i don't give a shit about your 300 view instagram artist
>>85142769it needs a tree or some kind of shade
>>85142886the collonades provide shade in the early and yawning hours of the day and the hovel can be used otherwise
i have fully eaten the dinner. what are we going to do now
>>85142883You're so negative why did you feel the need to share that? I open them, I click them, not everything has to be for you, you're so self satisfied nobody can compete huh you narcissistic porcine worm
>>85142883i always look at the embed thumbnail at least. sometimes i click every youtube but watch them later
>>85142769just get a hammock. i bought a hammock for my backyard and regularly spend an hour or two out there. after ~10mins there can be a lot of squirrel and bird noise tho
hehe banana hammock
hehe budgie smuggler
0_0 why are we active again?
>>85142970i was browsing /r9k/ for some reason and decided to check this general
>>85142970I breathe life into everything I touch anon I wouldn't worry about it too much.
>tfw no life breathing bf
Spent an hour building a bed frameI'm officially a strong bf
>>85142843It's not bad! I like it here. Things have generally been improving lately too which is nice>>85142813Ominous!
>>85143042Is it really hot over there right now? I really can't stand California weather anymore.
difficult to believe there's another r9gay newyorker>>85143127it's been beautiful and 70 the past couple days since the smoke stopped
>>85143127Honestly I don't notice the weather much, but it's been mostly normal for the summer minus the couple of heat waves and smog from Canadian forest fires... but today was nice!Getting very sleepy...
>>85143181Good night. I enjoyed talking to you today, was quite nice. I'm glad to hear you're doing okay, like I said before. I think I'm too sentimental and weak sometimes.
it's so amazing that ugly people are ugly both inside and out, it's so easy avoid them you don't even have to know them
>>85143202not always true and its hard to tell if someones having a bad day or is a genuine asshole if you only talk to them once.
>>85143177how many hours do i need to be a newyorker i was in new york for 3 days in 2013
>>85143217whoever doesn't take care of their looks isn't a healthy person, so it is likely that behind a kind persona that is just a weak minded individual, there's someone unstable and incapable of loving himself and others. Uggos aren't to mess with
>>85143258I was in nyc for 4 days in 2015, it was stinky and I saw cockroaches for the first time in my life
>>85143258you'll probably have to work about 120-150 hours to save up enough to move in
>>85143270You've an incredibly narrow minded world perspective, what do you mean exactly by taking care of your looks? If you mean not showering yeah that's depression, if you mean they just put no effort in but maintain basic hygiene, nah you're being incredibly obtuse and difficult, some people aren't vain this doesn't mean they are bad. You sound young.
>say incredible one more fucking time I dare you I double dare you mother fucker say incredible one more time
>>85143303funny that you didn't mention hairy fatsos lol sounds like we agree>You sound youngI sound experienced
>>85143281i went in the late fall so i didnt see many bugs. cant remember the smells desu>>85143291you mean in addition to my 70hours or is that just the base number? what about my 10+ legacy years
>>85143323oh no fatties yeah i agree whole heartily being fat shows you don't give a shit about yourself so why should I, I thought you were just talking about dudes who just showered and wore short hair and basic clothes, like dude not everyone is a flamboyant faggot.
bullys out of this thread
>>85143342this is what I was talking about. I think most fat men are more hideous inside than out, somehow that's possible. Have you noticed that fat gays are totally insufferable? Girl no one wants to plap your ass, take it down like 10 notches
>>85143342People who shower, have normal haircuts and basic clothes are the most monstrous people of all. They fear self-expression due to being easily molded by society. And as such, they tailor their actions to fit in. They are the most susceptible to evil by far.
>t-shirt>jeans>sneakersWowee what a jerk that guy is
>>85143368>being an obese smelly monkey dressed like a hobo is self expressionnow that's some weird point of view
I never said anything about their weight or the specific clothes they should or should not wear. Calling this hypothetical person obese, dressed like a hobo, and a monkey is a mischaracterization of my inherent argument, which is that those who fit in the most should also be distrusted the most.
i know this is a very old debate but i never really found the answer: are glasses an untrustworthy trait y/n
Uhm, at least we all agree fatsos have no place in society
>>85143413it activates my rape trap card
>>85143413Glasses are an extremely untrustworthy trait because they double as safety glasses. Now why would someone need to walk around in society wearing safety glasses unless they were planning to do some fucked up shit to others? And if they really have trouble seeing, they could use a monocle or get LASIK.
glasses being taken off is like a punctuation on any point you make
my 12 year old account got suspended from twitter but i didnt do anything. literallywhy /r9gay/
>>85143522not gay enough sorry you should've sucked elons cock
>>85143530this is so sad. apparently they wiped my followings and it might not come back if they accept my appeal. i F**King hate ai now
>>85143669to be fair this is your fault for using twitter
>>85143738but twitter is the best idolm@ster image sharing website. i couldnt have known creating an account before you were required to have a phone number was going to become a crime
Feeling so horny tonight I can't even write down my thoughts and post them ITT because I'm too ashamed and disgusted by them, so horny I'm trembling and my hands are sweating, I'm so far gone at some point I thought about showing up at anon's house, it's just 45 minutes away, I hate driving and I still thought about it, I'm not doing it because I know it would be really fucking creepy I hope he's not reading this.>so you like me so much huh? no more sexting, here I am, take me, take my first time now!Really fucking cringe and creepy but I can't stop thinking about it.I don't know how long I can hold back, this is scaring me, I am turning into an animal and it scares me, I'm in my 30s, I am too old for this shit, I feel hornier than when I was a teenager, the only difference is me having way more self-control now, I really don't know much longer I will be able to hold back, I don't wanna be a whore, keeping my virginity for so long is fucking me over, I'm starting to consider seeking medical help but right now I don't have to access to healthcare services due legal reasons, I don't want to tell the doctors I'm still a virgin in my 30s, this fucking sucks, my body needs dick, starting to think lack of dick may kill me if I don't hurry up.
>>85143885Are faggots not eligible for wizard status? This might put a wrench in my plans.
>>85143885Was about to write something like this. I wish I could have sex with a boy from here. I like older boys also. It's weird. I feel really emotionally connected to older boys that are gay losers like me. xd
wow damn i wish anon(s) lived only 45mins away from me then we could totally hang out all the time and be best friends>>85143885i still feel sympathetic that sucks man. but you know that wouldve been cool to me
You now remember every embarrassing mistake you've ever made.Good night, gay9k.
>>85144049I've made too many to remember, and I'll keep making more. Life goes on.
>>85143885ur just a little cutie tapootie aren't you this fills me with determination
>>85144049none of mine are that bad desu plus they happened ages ago
>>85143885you are a twink aren't you?
>>85143885okay so he's ready to be fucked. what's wrong with you? just fuck him you idiot.
anyone else remember when we didnt talk about sex or use the f-word in this general
>>85144210faggots?fucking?french?
>>85144210hue has slowly sexualized this general with his constant pro-sex advice and the thread is now much more tolerant to such acts as a resulthue won.
>tfw no hot geek yandere bfman I wish I was Richie, the movie would have changed genre drastically
>>85144125A "36yo twink"? short and skinny but old and ugly.
>>85144362>skinny 36 year oldgurl, drop your daily routine
>>85144217who the fuck is hue and why should i care?don't answer its rhetorical
>>85144215How could you miss the big no-no """"friend""""
>>85144655well I don't have friends so it's not in my vocabulary
>>85143895I am a wizard but I thought my libido would be lower the more I age, it will happen sometime in the future but right now it is only getting worse and worse.>>85143898>>85143925>>85144088I was posting expecting to be shamed, shame helps me to gain some control, you are not helping me anons, I know I'm fucked up and now I'm starting to think I should talk more with him, there are guys out there, you just have to look for them, go find your boys before I take them away from you.>>85144205I'm not in a good spot right now so I don't think I should go for it, I don't think I can make it work, I haven't done it before either so I'm nervous because I'm inexperienced, I'm such an insecure coward and those "I don't deserve him" and "I'm too ugly and disgusting" thoughts don't leave my head, I know I should work on myself but I'm so lazy, I want to change, I hope I change for better soon, this lust is making me so impatient.>so he's ready to be fuckedActually I'm a bottom, he's a top but he is as shy as me, he's a virgin too.
>>85144509Eat less? You are using food for stress relief, look for non harmful ways to relieve your stress, if you genuinely are feeling hungry all day long you must be heavily dehydrated, drink more water and the hunger should go away, soda has lots of sugar and it dehydrates you faster, same could happen with caffeinated drinks.
>>85145054what about exercise?
wass wrong with plumpy boys? As long as they aren't blobs like human Bender
>>85144509>2 meals, 650 calories each one>around 400 calories of random snacks through the day (usually just small pieces of bread)>10 intense hours of sitting at the computer desk doing fucking nothing but thinking "I need to get my shit together">5 glasses of water because I forget to get more>masturbating: sometimes 4 times in a day, sometimes none at all because I feel too sad to do it>at least 20 minutes of crying about wasting another day, wishing I'll have the strength to get something done tomorrow, remembering I'm a old virgin retard, remembering I'm getting older every day and my time is running out >14 hours of sleepDrinking some cum would help me with my protein intake, need a friend to help me with it, unfortunately I'm too scared to flirt and too poor to meet, one day perhaps.
>>85145062I'm about to go to bed so sorry if you find many typos, I'm falling asleep right now.>what about exercise?Highly depends on the direction you are taking, maintaining your current weight is way different to losing or gaining, someone who is skinny doesn't need to exercise if they are not trying to lose or gain weight, they just need to eat enough protein and getting the amount of calories they spend, it's simple math. Food is just fuel, gaining weight implies you are getting more fuel than the amount you are spending, losing weight requires you to get less energy than the amount you are spending.(You) in particular should exercise if you are losing weigh so you don't lose much muscle, you should lower the amount of carbs and fats while increasing the protein, when you are in a calorie deficit you are going to lose all kind of body mass, both muscle and body fat, so the plan is exercising the muscles you wanna keep, when you hit your desired weight you can maintain it by eating the amount of calories you are spending or you could increase the calories (mostly protein) and exercise the muscle you wanna make bigger. >TL;DRTo lose weight you simply need to find how many calories you spend, eat less than what you spend, exercise the muscle you don't wanna see disappear, eat more protein.To maintain your weight you eat close to the amount of calories you spend, eat enough protein.To gain muscle you eat more calories than you are spending, eat way more protein.You can't gain muscle and lose fat at the same time, you either gain both or lose both, you can't gain one and lose the other at the same time, when you start to see muscle while losing fat you are not looking at new muscle, it was simply old muscle that was under the fat all along.
>Food is just fuelMaybe the anon who wrote this isn't in bad faith, but this quote sounds reptilian and soulless, in the worst way possible, like a grindset quote. Food is culture, sharing, pleasure and sometimes love, both self-love and for others, yet most gay guys hate themselves for wanting to eat something tasty and impose that beauty standard on the whole community. One of the first thing I'd do with my bf is sharing a tasty meal since I always eat alone
>>85145692>impose that beauty standard on the whole communityNo one's imposing shit. You can find your fat boyfriend for all I care. There's plenty of those where they came from.
>>85145734of course it comes the swearing paired with not understanding what beauty standards are and how they work>You can find your fat boyfriend for all I careeating withour counting calories doesn't mean a person is fat, and even then, a fat guy would make anyone happier than one that's bitter and mean spirited
>>85145113>>85145692I have nothing against chubby men, I have nothing against food, anon asked me something and I'm was trying to simplify how food interacts with the body since so many people think it is arcane magic, I see people claiming being skinny is impossible for them since it is only genetics and magical Asian metabolism muggles will never have access to, body weight is math.
>>85145820As I said, no one is imposing beauty standards on the whole community. And if they are, it clearly isn't working. You can continue being fat. That's no one's problem. Just don't criticize me (as part of the gay guys you mentioned) rejecting tasty food.
>>85145827as I wrote, I don't think you had any ill intent or judgement. Your post was quite informative, it's just that quote that rubbed me the wrong way and reminded me about some people who used it>it is only genetics and magical Asian metabolism mugglesI mildly disagree with this take. You are absolutely right that body weight is math, but there are many other factors contributing to it, genetic is one, psychology is another, and also I don't think one should reduce what he eats in a day to math, but if you wanna lose weight or keep yourself from getting obese, then math is useful
>>85145895>Just don't criticize me (as part of the gay guys you mentioned) rejecting tasty foodand why should I stop?
>>85145930You don't need to stop. Personally I would be happier with someone who isn't bitter and mean spirited when being called out, but everyone's different.
>>85145943Sorry but your sarcasm isn't well delivered as you think. You didn't call me out at all, you just called me and my potential bf fat and got hostile while the anon I was referring to in the first place gave a much more sober response. Seems like this was very personal to you
>>85145904Anon are you fucking retarded? I just explained why I said things the way I said them and you respond with the most stupid and irrelevant reply ever, go date a fat man, I don't care, I don't give a shit if people are fat or not, I don't care what they do with their lives, I am trying to help someone who doesn't want to be fat, got it?>I don't think one should reduce what he eats in a day to math >person who wants to lose weight shouldn't try to understand how losing weight worksThere are millions of low calorie tasty food recipes but no one ever looks for it because no one ever wants to use their brain, no one ever wants to think, no one wants to try.>but there are many other factorsYou know how this ends in every situation when I interact with a fat person? it becomes>there are so many other things I will keep blaming for my failure before I even try at all, because in reality I won't try, I will find all the excuses I can before I put in any effortNo one ever wants to try, I don't care if anon will try, he asked a question and I answered >psychologyNow this is the stupidest shit ever, psychology means "this is too hard and I give up because I don't have the mental fortitude, I am more comfortable with being fat but I won't admit it is my decision", women excusesI will simply said this, I helped a guy to lose 180 pounds in one and a half years just by telling him to only drink soda in the weekends, I helped another guy to lose 100 pounds by telling him to replace half of the sugar on his cupcakes with spenda, I don't care if people are fat or not, I just want them to know how reality works, some people are willing to read the "Amount per serving: 500 Calories" label in their snack pack, others won't.NOW LET ME SLEEP YOU FUCKING FAT RETARD, OKAY?
Mowed the grass already since it was a very usually cool day for this time of year and the mower is definitely off, its making a weird noise and has less power. But it worked enough for me to get the grass done, now I have to worry about either getting it fixed or getting a new one.
Is the summer influx finally here?
>>85144217maybe someday we'll start having s*x too, I hope so.
>>85146813i will never ever have s*x. nasty stuff
>>85146846but it feels so good, wouldn't you love to feel your bf pressed up against you, feel him so close you can't get any closer?
I'll be having lots of delicious non-penetrative sex and cumming buckets with my future bf while that anon remains alone for the rest of his life
>non-penetrative sexlike hand-holding? very lewd...
>>85146868yeah this is what i mean. notice before the comma its just a hug and after the comma its some creepy stuff
>>85146987it's a natural and healthy part of life, and the most intimate you can ever be with someone, I'd love to share that with my fbf.
>>85146973Jerking off each other, comfy frotting, sharing a onahole and feeling his penis against yours while kissing.
>>85145820I would rather them be bitter and mean spirited
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