to everything there is a season, a time to be born, a time to die. a time to feel alive, and a time to cry. no season is endless; persist until its your time to bloom.hi anon. how are you today? i hope you're doing better, even if things are rough. don't give up, and keep going! also, what's your favourite drink?
>>85137033im fine just standing in the eye of the stormwondering when my time to strike will comec:
>>85137033Hi taoanon <3You seem to be in a better mood lately. What a beautiful OP.I'm gonna have to go with water, even though i don't drink enough of it.>>85137054c:
>>85137054>im fine just standing in the eye of the stormremember that there is a thin line between bravery, and stupidity. dont quote me on that though. surely your season will arrive soon too.>>85137081>seem to be in a better mood...huh. do I?>wateri approve. definitely the best drink out there. but what if there wasn't any water? what then?
>>85137033>hi anon. how are you today?hello, i hope you are doing fine.my head is racing right now and i'm having a lot of trouble focusing right now but otherwise nothing's out of the ordinary.there's also nothing notable to report besides that i got done with my bicycle (some small adjustments still needed) and that the weather is getting to a point where i can cycle soon again.. that and im sorta drifting apart with someone which is well you know..>also, what's your favourite drink?fritz-kola and water i think
Can I namedrop your retarded ass in this thread? Fuck you.
>>85137571Yeah go for it I'm bored and I wanna see if you get it right
>>85137551hi there anon.hopefully your head gives you some relief soon enough. by the way, are you still at the clinic or have you moved yet?>got done with my bicycleah it would be nice if you managed to go on that trip you told me about before it gets too cold>drifting apart with someone which is well you know..just how many people do you know now?>>85137571go ahead
>>85137715>go aheadAnd waste more time on you?
>>85137715>hopefully your head gives you some relief soon enoughthanks.also i am not just hoping but i am forcing it to, sorta. they made a sleeping med similar to the one i got in the ward not need a script anymore and now i can choose my own dosages hehe>are you still at the clinic or have you moved yet?i left the clinic, uhhh, ~3 months ago i think?? didnt move yet because bureaucracy and a lack of workers it seems>before it gets too coldit being cold is sorta preferable. as long as the roads are usable even rain is sorta nice in my opinion. mainly for cooling and stuff but but its also just kino. used to ride in the rain so often a while back>just how many people do you know now?went from zero, to two, to 30-40, and back to 2-4 now. and the person i am talking about is in that last group, the people that actually sorta care and aren't soulless automatons..
>>85137033hi anon, im ok. i have had a headache all day but otherwise everyth is chill. i hope you are well and never give up either!!>what's your favourite drink?earl grey tea with some milk and a dab of honey
>>85137790then dont do it i guess?>>85137875>now i can choose my own dosagessurely anon can be trusted with unsupervised drugs. i know i can! obviously.>3 months agoi see. do you miss it? do you think it has helped you in any way? hopefully you can move soon also.>even rain is sorta nicei mean depends just how long you have to bike for. i feel like cold would be better than hot but then you'd have to be careful not to catch anything.>to 30-40well thats quite insane. how even? i mean i think its a good thing overall. better to have few but good relationships that many but bad. i think.>>85137913hello. sorry for you headache desu. have you tried some aspirin? alternatively, you could pray to satan to make it go away. but thanks, i hope i dont give up either.>earl grey teaseems to be very popular amongst robots. i oughta try it sometime too
>>85137033Counterpoint: nothing ever happens.
>>85138012>have you tried some aspirin? ya i took some tylenol and aspirin. afraid it didnt help much this time :(>you could pray to satan to make it go away. i might unironically try desu>seems to be very popular amongst robots. i oughta try it sometime tooim the worlds biggest earl grey shill, some of the anons youve seen are probably me lole. but i do recommend giving it a try... its very soothing and always makes dismal days a little less terrible for me
>>85138012>do you miss it? do you think it has helped you in any way?i dont really miss it but it still helped a bunch. set all this moving out stuff into motion also. an thanks again :3>you'd have to be careful not to catch anything.yeah you can get a sore throat really fast when its very cold outside but even that is preferable to suffering out in the heat i think>well thats quite insane.that includes both IRL and online people >how even?tagmap and the ward itself. had a sense of dejavu when i looked at a country towards the south on tagmap btw hehe>i mean i think its a good thing overallno being alone is better at that point. at least for me. drove me mad until i wiped everything after which i felt so much better very fast>better to have few but good relationships that many but bad. i think.100%anyways time to stop procrastinating and finally do the thing i took the meds for lol. i want to all the time but i draw jack shitgn in advance and stuff if i dont come back ITT
>>85138012Well, I fucking DON'T. So that may be a problem for you.
>>85137033Hello Anonny! Nice poem, did you write it? Or is it some sort of song lyrics? I hope you remember to think of the second line of it and not just the first one. It's not your season to die yet, it's your season to bloom!>how are youTired. Very very tired and sleepy. Mood-wise I'm okay at least I think. Enough stuff have been happening (including you know what) that it knocked me out of the depressive spell a little bit I think. The other thing happening being the moving to a new apartment saga. I finally got my keys to the new place yesterday and brought most of the important things (like my computer duh) over. It was a little exciting to see my new place for the first time and stuff. I like it so far, the AC is a lot better than my old place (it cools more effectively and is also a lot quieter), the room is laid out more sensibly, and the window is bigger so it's brighter inside. Plus it's closer to my work. So it seems to be an upgrade in almost every way. I still haven't moved a lot of the stuff over, it's just sitting outside in a container, and I don't think I will for the next few days because it's way too hot to do it during the day. I'll do it on the weekend methinks. But overall, things are going pretty well, I'm surprised I didn't mess something up and end up having to run around like a headless chicken. Good job me.>don't give upAhem... there's a certain someone here that I'd like to tell that to.. I think they really need to hear it, more than me even. Baka. >favourite drinkIt has to be either choccy milk or mango juice. Haven't had either one in a while... I've tried a bunch of drinks lately but not those ones, since I already know they're good and it's not that exciting. Haven't found anything as good though. You should try mango juice if you haven't already, I know you like juices and that one is frankly unmatched.>>85137571What are you mad about Anon? I was mad at a certain person yesterday... I wonder if it's the same thing.
you made ecclesiastes faggy... :(
>>85138030except for that one time when something does happen.>>85138060>afraid it didnt help muchah. the evil headache demons are strong today. there is only one solution and it is to pray to higher force to take them away. double it and give it to the next person so they say.>worlds biggest earl grey shillhmmm, its weird that ive never seen it anywhere where i live. my mom is really into tea so i guess ill tell her to look out for it>>85138119>i dont really miss itoh, by the way you described it in the past it seemed like you really enjoyed your stay there. are you looking forward to moving out too? sheesh. i remember the first times we talked and you were so desperate with getting out of your house, and look at you now. you're almost there anon. good work!>preferable to suffering out in the heathmm i guess so. i hate having a sore throat because i cant sing.>tagmapoh thats pretty cool. ive visited the website a few times, maybe i should give it another go. have you met anyone you met online irl aswell?>no being alone is better at that pointsure, but you needed the experience to reach this conclusion. even if it was a painful experience, its something everyone needs to go through to learn how to live with themselves. so overall a good thing!have fun drawing anon.>>85138132say "im gay" 3 times in a row if you're not a bot>>85138344>did you write ityes, but not the first phrase. thats from ecclesiastes. i guess i felt inspired today.>it's your season to bloom!im afraid thats already done and dusted>got my keys to the new placeah thats nice. also, you've never even visited it before? oh well. how big is it? good job moving all the stuff by yourself. be careful not to get your things stolen though.>mango juicenoted, will try at my earliest convenience.>>85138379lies, i just expanded upon the idea desu.
>>85138422>ecclesiastesOh hmm. Have you been reading philosophy again or is this a quote you knew from before? Now that I think about it, this quote sort of goes against what you said before about acting in adverse circumstances or however you put it. Maybe there really isn't a time and season for anything, and you should just do things when you want to.>inspiredThat's nice to hear!! I suppose what goes down must come up... or something. But I mean, it really does seem to work that way with moods sometimes. I also felt a little bit inspired today you could say, though of course I did nothing with the feeling and instead just wasted time on 4chan.>doneNope! Don't mistake it for withering: you are just a flower closing for the night so it can open again in the morning. And another morning will come, as it always does.>never even visitedI've visited the apartment complex, but no, not the exact unit I'm renting. They only let me tour a show room for some reason. It definitely felt a bit sketchy to rent something you've never even seen, but it seems it worked out okay. >how bigThat's hard to say, I don't have a measuring tape or anything... it's pretty big for a studio though, probably gonna feel a bit empty even though I have a lot of furniture. But it has a nice little hallway-like thing that goes to the kitchen which I like. I'd post a picture but I'd rather not on 4chan on the 0.000001% chance my parents somehow see it lole.>good jobThanksu desu. Some of it was pretty tough, like carrying the mattress as it's giant and very bendy and heavy. Also the dresser. I still need to move that from the container to here. Pain... oh well. At least I know it's possible for me to do it alone now, I was afraid I might have to hire movers before. >stolenThe container is locked with my bike lock desu, it *should* be fine. Plus there's nothing worth stealing in there at this point.>notedAlso try peach juice while you're at it.
>>85138422>except for that one time when something does happen. 2 more weeks
>>85138626>quote you knew from before?i've read it somewhere before and it kinda fit the vibe i was trying to convey.>isn't a time and season for anythingor maybe there is, you just never know when. so you do things, unknowingly, thinking the odds may be against you even when in reality they might not be. you cant really know what season you're in.>so it can open againmeh. i feel like a monocarpic flower honestly.>a show roomhuh. what even is the point of that? but if it ended well it doesnt matter i suppose.>chance my parents somehow see itah yes. your parents seeing it is the problem, not random strangers online. of course anon of course.>Also the dresseri really hope you're at the first floor or you're gonna wake up with an aching spine tomorrow. orrr you might have it regardless.
>>85137033>a time to dieYes, in this HEAT for sure. Summer is the worst...>hi anon. how are you today?Hello! I'm doing okay I think, just frying my brain in the usual ways and getting sick of this routine.>favourite drink?Fruit juice I guess, otherwise water, though lately I've taken a liking to drinking oat milk in the mornings, especially with chocolate, but I've also replaced that with tea because it's healthier I think...
>>85138422>oh, by the way you described it in the past it seemed like you really enjoyed your stay thereyeah i did. it helped me a bunch to stop being insanely neurotic sometimes. used to freak out over things i thought are bad or embarrassing for days which got me into binging alcohol to cope but now that sorta stopped for the most part. i'm still recommending the ward if you are going through a very shitty time or just very depressed in general. but there's a point of diminishing returns after which it also sort of starts to harm you, which the doctors know about so they try to keep you there for as little as possible despite of what some people like to claim. helps a bunch with NEETbux in otherwise unfavorable environments, ahem ahem, wink wink>are you looking forward to moving out too?yesss a lot. me wanting to gtfo didn't change one bit. also looking forward to some financial freedom which is at the very least as important as my own place. i just hope that i'll be able to exhaust all possible avenues for that and max my bux as much as possible. if that works out i'd be able to live so damn comfy..>you're almost there anon. good work!thanks but most of the work was done by others desu, i could never do all of this by myself>i hate having a sore throat because i cant sing.oh wow. is this something new or did you just not mention this very often? i know about the guitar (which i sorta miss) but i dont think that i ever read that before.>have you met anyone you met online irl aswell?no. that was a light topic once or twice but i don't even know we would do irl so i never seriously considered that. wby?>sure, but you needed the experience to reach this conclusioni already sorta did over a decade ago.. there's a reason i played with lego instead of playing football with the others when i was little..>have fun drawing anon.it was miserable and i tries to sleep instead which also didnt work. couldnt focus any better despite being a little sedated.bummer
>>85137033>hi anon. how are you today?better I'm putting myself out there trying to make friends, and I even join a server were people seem to like me a little. I'm the anon that got ghosted by his e-gf not too long ago. >what's your favourite drink?I think I like iced coffee the most.
>>85138795>fit the vibe i was trying to conveyBit of a grim vibe it seems, at least until you added the last line. I suppose you were feeling inspired but sort of in a dark way. That, too, can be nice in a sense.>you just never know whenPerhaps. That does sound pretty accurate actually. Unfortunately it feels like it's usually you doing things thinking it should work but it doesn't because the odds were actually against you and it was the wrong season.>monocarpicBig boy words huh... I had to look that up. Guess I shouldn't be surprised you'd be well-versed in flower terminology. Do you know a lot of flower names as well? A lot of them are Latin I think, and very beatiful-sounding. Also, no, you're not a monocarpic flower, no human is. There isn't just one period of time when we bloom, it's many different ways throughout our life I think. Of course, it's typical to think you only bloom during your younger years... but I refuse to think that way. >what even is the point...uhh good question? I'm not sure. I guess it's so they can fool you into thinking all units are as well manicured as the showroom. But no one would fall for that surely... right??>not random strangersIndeed, I mean, what are random strangers going to do? Prank me by ordering pizza to my address? My parents on the other hand...>first floorUnfortunately I am. Well they did have second floor units too but I chose first floor because it's a bit cooler usually and they also have hard flooring while second floors have carpet. But yes it does make transporting stuff a bit easier, though I did try it before when testing if second floor units were even an option for me and it's *possible* for me to move the dresser up and down stairs if I sort of roll it.Also urgh I fell asleep a bit and missed you playing Wormhummer... at least I saw a cool dream.
>>85139019>in this HEAT for sureoh dont worry the temperature is supposedly starting to go down soon. i hope. really. i am so done with this season. get me back autumn already.>frying my brain in the usual wayswhat else is there to do anyway. in what ways are you frying it today?>Fruit juicewhats your opinion on mango juice?>>85139487>that sorta stopped for the most partwell thats a huge improvement if you ask me.>keep you there for as little as possibleah, really? i guess it makes sense considering you spend public money just by existing in there.>most of the work was done by othersstill, i think you deserve some credit anon. it still takes a lot of effort to do what you've done.>just not mention this very often?i just dont mention it very often. and im really bad at it, and its also kinda new.>know we would do irlwell you could like go to a place you both like or something. personally i'd like to meet a few people ive met only irl but never had the chance.>it was miserablethat sucks... dont get disheartened though. keep trying!>>85139564>putting myself out therevery good job desu. even if it might start to feel pointless keep doing that and eventually things will work out. how have you been handling the ghosting?>iced coffeenever really understood the appeal of it desu.>>85139667>thinking it should workthere's an easy fix: dont expect anything to work. but do it anyway.>you know a lot of flower names as wellive read many names although i can rarely remember them. i dunno. to me it feels like you only really get a specific time period where you can have fun in life. rest is mostly just suffering.>no one would fall for that surely... right??says the guy that rented an apartment from them>move the dresser up and down stairsi commend your resolve anon. also what dream did you have?
has this netzach avatarfag even played ruina
>>85140016>i guess it makes sense considering you spend public money just by existing in there.the feeling i got was more like they wanted to help more people and not just "waste" money. they had somebody there for over a year with little improvement and still had them there. if you are ready to be discharged you do, if not then you stay.>still, i think you deserve some credit anon. it still takes a lot of effort to do what you've done.thanks. but now the actually hard part comes..ignoring all the paperwork, how do i even get all my stuff into another city. that's going to be so expensive owiee>and im really bad at it, and its also kinda new.well if you ever wanna share your work you know the place :3and i wont let you call yourself bad because you wont let me either hmpf>keep trying!i will tomorrow i think. if only i had more motivation..>>85140087i only played lobotomy corp so far. wanted to get that one done before i get ruina. but i stopped really playing games in general so that has been postponed indefinitely for now
>>85139564After my friend group died I tried looking for new Frens and a group or whatever but idk how I did it last time and now I'm just playing Vidya alone.How did you put yourself out there I wanna try doing the same
>>85140016>dont expect anything to workOkay, sure>do it anyway??? Uhh I think you skipped a step. If you don't expect things to work, then where the heck are you finding the motivation to do them?>read many namesWhere and why have you read them? Did you just try to learn them for the heck of it or something? But it's a shame you don't remember much... I was gonna ask what your favorite flower name was but I suppose you wouldn't know. I barely know any so it's not really a "true" favorite but I guess for me it would be anthurium. Very nice name but I'm not exactly a fan of how the flower itself looks.>have fun in lifeAnd let me guess, that time period is young adulthood? I suppose I can see why but I dunno, I think you can have fun at any point in life. Or perhaps if you savor every moment of life properly, you can eventually have enough fun to the point that you don't need it anymore and can naturally want to progress to the next stage in life. But even that assumes there's some sort of predefined progression in life, which there isn't really. Perhaps psychologically there is, but that can be represented in one's life very flexibly. >what dreamIt was this weird fever dream where alien microbes invaded Earth and started forming giant bubbles that gobble people up and "make them into gods" (this was "shown" to me in the dream as these people's HP bars going from 100 HP to like 2000HP). Then there was an epic dialogue between a king and a hedgehog wearing a hat (while epic music played in the background of course) where the hedgehog explained why some people were seeking these microbes out intentionally. It said that it's because life as a human is suffering and so naturally everyone wants to be a god, and even kings of the past used these microbes to turn into gods and finally free themselves from the shackles of mortal life. I was a spectator to this dialogue in the dream and it made me cry in the dream because of how moving I thought it was lol.
Op can you say hi to me
>>85141540OP is asleep
