I have an interview tomorrow for a much-needed job, but I am unkempt and almost certain I will not fit into the only pair of black jeans I own anymore.

>>85141984
What's the job?
I'm still surprised people have given me jobs in the past considering how disheveled I was/am.

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I turned 40 a week ago.
KHV BTW

>>85141984
Last time I went to a job interview I was told the position that I applied for was no longer available, but they have another one open that is completely different and has requirements that I don't fulfill.

>>85142157
How do you cope, assuming you do?
I'm 34 and will probably KHV at 40.

>>85142200
[x] Simply live with the pain

The mere thought that my first experiences with a woman would be with someone of similar age that has had double digit number of cocks in them is enough to never bother doing anything to change the situation.

32. multiple dentists destroyed my teeth i want to kill myself

>>85142086
Goodwill cashier. It is one of the nicer stores. No hanging clothes, they just get stuck in bins. The first thing he asked is whether or not I had open availability, which, according to my application, I did not. But I always sniff the check that availability question represents, so I just ate it.

>>85142157
What in the corporate dysfunction?
>hey, the lady who called and setup your interview made a mistake! We are no longer hiring for that.

Like, wut?

>>85141984
just go business casual, shirt kakis and white smiths, repeat with different shirt colours and buy another 2 pants, blue navy and black, thats it, youll look handsome and sharp doesnt matter how fucking much of a greasy bacon you're
That aside, im 35 and im pretty much numb to most shit i stopped doing cocaine i stopped talking to many people friends and women, i fucking finally got bored of just drinking in my room by my self, 20-25 beers every single time, i bought some weights and a bench and started a noobie training routine, i cant smoke more than 3 cigs a day now because i feel ill so i cut cold turkey the 2 packs ive been smoking since i was 22, i already lost maybe 9 kilos in 3 weeks, i feel better, my libido is shit now i feel nothing for normie foids, i want to start my own garden and probs harvest my own food potatoes, tomatoes, shit like that, maybe have a few 30 beers erry now and then but not every day

>>85142250
I've only been to the dentist once in my life (in 3rd or 4th grade), no cavities, no wisdom teeth pain, mostly in good shape.

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34 life's a mess. Decide to start making youtube videos recently. It's good to just record myself and let some feelings out but I'm too fucking lazy to effort post and edit and proper thumbnails etc, so I get no views and its embarrassing me. I suppose I feel like what I say has some value and its like I feel entitled to at least a small auidence. But I need to analyze that and realize how arrogant and kind of retarded that is. It's absolutely my lack of effort talent and skill that is the cause of my lack of views, and I should be happy anyone at all even watches. We live in a tiktok world now and if shit isn't entertaining people don't give a fuck. I don't blame them, I do the same thing. Why should anyone be entitled to my attention? They aren't. So then why is it different the other way, where I want their attention? I need to go back to the drawing board, write scripts for my videos, edit them, start referencing literature and papers that my topics relate to. Stop swearing and being retarded, appear professional and polished. But I think deep down, I just want to vent and that's what these videos are. Anyway I'm blabbing lately I've been listening to lil Wayne, lana del rey, been spending hours and hours this last 2 weeks searching my entire city for magic mushrooms. Tripped like 5 times, hero dosed man it was fucked up. Ended up in some vulnerability session with my parents, told them about various traumas and had to confess my criminal behavior in the past because I have an upcoming trial. I've gone into court a couple times recently as well, just to watch how it all goes. Bail hearings, etc. It would be better if court moved quicker but it's so slow and kind of boring even though these people's freedoms are on the line. I get paid tonight thank fuck. Literally flat broke. Need to restock all my food, re-up some benzos hopefully, fill my car with petrol. Gonna be broke again in like 2 days. Fuck I need a high paying job. But I hate working.

>>85142366
>last 2 weeks searching my entire city for magic mushrooms
En Zed? I'm in Australia and have to drive into the hills to find anything.
>Fuck I need a high paying job. But I hate working.
Check, I have a part time job but I need more money, tried working in a full time office job a couple years back but gave up after a month.

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>>85142445
Yeah nz where you Adelaide? You ever look for anything else? I've been trying to find boletes but no luck. Some good tiktokers finding heaps in South Australia.

>>85141975
Not great man, i turn 36 next month and work at Harbor Freight selling tools and have nothing really to show for my life.

>>85142454
Victoria, north of Melbourne. Didn't know that about SA, interesting.
>You ever look for anything else?
Not really, thinking of getting one of those field guide books though.

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>>85142507
Got any pics? It's crazy to me the variation in how these look.

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>>85142540
This is now a P. Sub thread

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>>85142548
You guys should download inaturalist it's the best app

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Terry Davis was receiving 1000s of week and remained homeless.

>>85141975
38 and a huge neet loser. the idea that i'm eventually going to kill myself has been holding me back for probably 20 years along with a few other mental problems i've never addressed.
i watch those "homesteaders" on youtube with the delusional idea that i too can live in a cabin in the woods but then remember i have no skills to accomplish that and would burn through any savings i have inside of 6 months.
i'm just extremely bored and tired of everything. i wish something would put me out of my misery or i'd finally just take matters into my own hands.

>>85142366
I thought about making videos as well, but I'm afraid to record myself now. I don't like the idea people could recreate my likeness with AI.

>>85142458
harbor freight employees always seem chill, i bet you're a cool guy.

im 28 am I allowed to post here. I'm still a khhv. don't know where to go outside my house besides work. I want a girlfriend. considering sewi slide xp

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I'm just ranting a bit but this fucking Get-Paid-To site is such scam. They are holding $300 of my earnings by simply ignoring me, because they know they can't pull any excuse out of their ass. They know I did everything by the book. Fuck I hate the silent treatment. Fucking Bulgarians.

>>85142200
34 KHV as well. I coped for a long time with the classic Costanza "if they don't want me, I don't want them."
But don't give up hope. I've stumbled into something recently that has been going well. I have no idea how. And I'm trying not to fuck it up. And I'm not even looking at it as a Release Me from KHV Prison thing. I just really like her.
Sorry if that seems like a flex, not trying to. Keep your head up!

>>85142831
Just do it you'll probably get barely any views anyway who cares

I have my last psychologist screening to be admitted to the police academy. I am pretty nervous, but I am sure I could ace it. I'm pretty much all there, so I don't know why they wouldn't consider me.
I also managed to get an egf somehow, I'm happy I met her and hope for the best. My future doesn't seem so bleak but I really want to pass my screening

>>85142815
Fun fact, you can save a lot of money by not having to pay house related bills.

>>85141975
I had a really REALLY bad day yesterday.
Today is better. Just arrived to a new country, I will stay for a few days to attend a conference.
I still have many reasons to feel unhappy and suicidal even, I just try not to think about them, for now.

>>85142200
I'm 34 too. I just got used to it and don't think about it too much. Of course life could be better. But I also see homeless people often and think to myself, well, it could be worse too.

>>85141975
I'm just tired. It's all pointless, it's all meaningless. No friends or girlfriend working a shitty dead end job. Why should I care about life? There's no motivation, nothing meaningful enough in life to give me a reason to care about it. Only reason I go to work is so I'm not homeless that's it. I'm just waiting to die.

>>85141975
>How are you holding up?
It's okay, not great but not bad either.

>Imagining living on a boat, cabin in the woods, deserted island?
I do plan on a soft retirement as soon as I can, working delivering shit in a small town as soon as I get enough money to buy a small apartment. Living is surprisingly cheap once you don't have to pay rent, $1000 to $1500 is plenty if you're smart with your money. I want a car though.

>>85142832
Yeah, the only thing cool about my job is my coworkers really are pretty cool people

>>85142966
Faggot pig kys

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>>85141975
I used to fantasize about living on a boat in my mid to late twenties, though I don't know shit about them. I started looking into more seriously. Picturing what it would be like until I wondered what would happen if I encoutered pirates. That just killed it for me. I'm not American, but even if I was, most countries don't allow foreigners to cross water borders with weapons. It's either risk prison in a foreign country if their coast guard inspect your boat or be at the mercy of any local, low-life asshole with a small boat of his own.

It would be nice living really far from everyone, and yet have the convenience of visiting places on occasion, restocking on goods while keeping the home close, etc.

>>85143129
Where do you live that you have to worry about pirates?

>>85143156
I live in Canada, but I'd move around if I had a boat. Especially in the winter. Same reason van life doesn't seem viable here.

>>85143115
nta, but you're either black or a commie. Go watch some bodycam footage and educate yourself on reality. Cops are typically good people when you're curteous to them instead of chimping out. Almost every time I see footage of them, they show way more patience and understanding than I think is necessary or safe.
>>85142966
Congrats! Don't be one of the few assholes, though.

>>85143294
Fuck off bootlicker I don't care how "patient" a fucking pig is he still deserves a bullet to the back of the fucking head. And I'm white as fuck, nigger.

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>>85143347
>racist commie
Pretty rare. This will be a nice addition to my menagerie.

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>>85141975
>How are you holding up?
Not very well.
>Took a stray kitty in.
>Really small but she's at least two months old, judging by her weight.
>Really playful, she eats a lot and is growing up nicely.
>Runs up and down all day long and likes to sleep right by my side whenever I lay in bed.
>Dies of cardiac arrest after about one month and a half living with me.
The vet said that it would have happened sooner or later. She looked so healthy, so full of live and then she dies on me in less than a minute. At least she wasn't alone.
I know these things happen all the time and I should cherish the good times I had with her, but I'm feeling like absolute shit -- like I killed her myself.
I've been thinking about suicide a lot, but I know I'll pull through and move on, sadly.

>>85143697
Sorry about that, man. Sounds like it wasn't your fault at all and you cared for her. If not for you, she would've had a much harder time on the streets. If you like cats, you could rescue some. It'd be mutually beneficial.

>>85143697
That's horrific. I hate this world so fucking much.

>>85143697
>The vet said that it would have happened sooner or later
what do you mean? Like it was a birth defect. Or some disease she picked up?
Either way, sorry for your loss anon. Like the other anon said, you were the reason she lived as long and as happy as she did. Always remember that

>>85141975
Im slowly nearing 40.
Quited my job few months ago but i have savings.
Further my age the life seems kind of worse.
My gf had mental-health episode that resulted in 5months of fucked up brain, caused by meds i had to look after her.
My father have onsets of dementia and is geting worse because of my toxic 40y old+ sister that still live with him and stress him up on a daily basis (hes to soft for her to evict her)
I have 1 friend that i see like once a month and a dozen others that are so time starved that we see eachother once or twice a year.
I still see that there are people that makes me want to keep living and caring, but those are just a few.
I know its a teenager angst to do, but I really view society as a ill construct that corrupts our views and soul, the more I age the more I try to distance myself from it, because it only brings me dissapointment and pain.
I always was a dreamer and I still escape within myself, but its less vivid and kind of harder to do the older I get, same with creative stuff that was a big part of myself and now its more like a holliday thing.
I always wanted to live on deserted island since ive read mysterious island when I were like 8yo. Now I would be happy with cabin innawoods, boat will suit me too, i even have some papaers for it already.
Anyone else feels like they dont have ability to plan because the lack of timeor/and chaos within their life, but at the same time they unable to do it when its possible?

>>85144325
>mysterious island when I were like 8yo
For me it was Robinson Crusoe at the same age, I'll try and avoid the cannibal islands. Although, when in Rome.

>savings
>gf
>friend/s you see semi regularly
Not bad t.b.h.

recently 30, can't grow any facial hair, beginning to bald, no gf because this country is ultra normie conformist.
it's over.
but I knew that when I was 16 already tbf
nothings changed since then

i dont think i'm gonna go back to college anymore

My perfect location would be the outskirts of Kyoto or something similar.
>Small garden town house
>Within 30minutes to 10/10 cafes, bars, restaurants, nightclubs
>Within 30min to forests/quiet walks/gardens, fresh produce stores

Life is currently very good, I do what I can to take care of myself. However I'm more and more convinced the World in general is in a decline and it's hard to know how bad the knife drop will be

>>85141975
I barely turned 30 and I already feel like an old fuck. I don't even look in the mirror anymore. Lmfao. Sometimes I take a selfie and I'm like "I still got it" but I'm also like, there's no denying I've gotten older. Maybe I'm growing into my appearance and I'm supposed to look mature in this way, but it's pretty to look past given I had a more uh, boyish appearance before

>>85144497
>can't grow any facial hair
Wish I had that, I massacre my face each time I shave.

>>85141975
I quit my job to become the world's greatest living painter and now I'm a "professional" poker player

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Judge this situation, and tell me your opinion.
Im a 30+ failure with no studies, job, or experience of any kind. Living off his mentally ill mom, as the last squeezes of both her sanity and stability are taken away. Not to mention we will get evicted at some point in the near future.
BUT, I do have a GF. Mind you, a long distance one, that I haven't ever met physically, for we live in separated continents. You may therefore think this is bullshit, but eh, we've known each other and been together for close to 20 years, ever since we were dumb teens lurking the same forums. And although she's kinda similar to me in geeky antisocial attitude, due to pressure of family she did finish her studies and its trying to get some extra ones to get a job.
POINT ALL OF THIS IS: She's offered me countless times to just go live with her and her family. And I've rejected it also countless times because I feel I will be a burden to her and them. Plus, the fear of being in some completely alien place, surrounded by strangers. Did I mention she's from tacoland?
Anyway... I just dont know.
Most of you fags would kill to have a gf, a real woman, which you've shared a childhood with (even if entirely online), and that's so devoted to you her only worries in life are helping you and getting her new husbando on that Disney gacha game.
Therefore, I should feel fortunate, right? I should just accept her proposal, or dunno. SOMETHING.
why then do I feel like I would rather do a hero flip than to flee to her side? Why do I still feel like an incel with no hopes?

ugh, what would you guys do in my shoes? Calling me a nigger its also an option.

>>85144595
>I feel I will be a burden to her and them
Isn't that just standard 3rd word stuff though?

>>85144595
>She's offered me countless times to just go live with her and her family
I assume if you've known her for 20 years you have spoken to her patients and are on good terms.
I'd do it, at the very least you travel to another country. However you.
1. Need to ensure you can pay to get back.
2. Have your visa/etc sorted
3. Work your dick off and do what it takes to establish yourself a job so you aren't a long term burden.

There's nothing wrong with accepting help, you clearly need it (no studies, job, or experience of any kind).
But if you get it you need to take the initiative to make sure it rewards you

>>85144595
Best way to think about it is accet you will be a burden but that is not the worst thing to be. They would be going on a limb extending you credit, as it were, and you would be taking on a social debt, made to be repaid on the sweat of your brow. 30+ is either a strange time to relocate in the name of love or the perfect time: I would do it right now, for instance, but most other people are not so limber that they could do that without leaving something behind.

>she's from Scotland
holy shit, just go

>>85144595
who will take care of your mom?

The person I found immature at 16 finds me immature today, but neither of us has changed

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>>85144674
>I assume if you've known her for 20 years you have spoken to her patients and are on good terms.
HAHAHAHAHA no. they know of me, but only from what she's told them. i've never directly spoken to them. which yes, i know, its very fucking retarded.
as for the rest... yeah, i know. and that's also why im so scared. not only because i would have to do it, but because they would EXPECT me to do so. and having 3 pairs of eyes judging me would drive me crazy.
>>85144701
>Scotland
anon you need glasses! TACO LAND. she's a fucking mexican. which makes it even funnier. how im from a supposed first world country (tho one about to hit complete collapse), running away to the third world lmao. then again, its not exaggeration she's better economically placed than me. her family owning 2 houses, both parents being retired worker people, and her bro being the classic /biz/bro always searching for opportunities to make money.
she's the weird one in there. the one who decided to recluse herself in her house, and even after going to university, took the most useless career and shut herself down to play gacha.
>>85144710
even if its cruel, i just dont give a fuck anymore... though, sure, i say that now, and later ill be worried sick. but ugh. my mom's also very "independent" on her insanity, always screaming how she wanna be free and fuck off on her own. so eh, at least she's perfectly fine with both us taking our separated ways. she would have been a cool mom if not for her stupid schizophrenia...

Anyway, thank you anons. Just being able to speak about this shit openly surely takes some weight off.
have some kot as reward.

>>85144796
Do it dude, if worst comes to worst just kill yourself in Mexico. Its probably a fairly easy place to do it.

>>85144750
cant you just research about your that friend's death? surely there would be some clues in how she died.
otherwise unless she caused a chamber pressure implosion, there's not that many other options.

>>85144750
>its not ingestion
Its wasn't SN was it?

>>85144796
You need to grow up and move in with your girlfriend (if she's real, wtf am I reading) and get your shit together

>>85144796
>>85144817
Also does she have a sister?

>>85144595
>known each other and been together for close to 20 years
>And I've rejected it also countless times because I feel I will be a burden to her and them.
You are a retard and could have turned your life around. Your misery is entirely self-inflicted. Me, I got to know a girl in my late 20s and immediately took a plane to see her and we dated for real irl and had real sex and real intimacy. If I had not taken the opportunity I would be in your situation. I can't relate you retards like you who don't take the solutions that present themselves to them and it seems to me that you actually enjoy being miserable.

>>85144845
It sounds like he just has anxieties and has never had to work hard or eat shit, and/or had a lack of a male role model

>>85144809
>>85144814
i dont fucking know
im clueless
a fucking explosive maybe?
but that does not make sense
he does not want to tell me no matter how many times i beg because he think i will kms
im just fucking curious

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>>85144817
>(if she's real, wtf am I reading)
dont worry anon, even i question myself how such a bullyable girl can exist
>>85144842
sorry, only a 1'90cm gorilla of a bro.

>>85144864
Anon, at the risk of becoming one of those people who denigrate a potentially good thing, I can't help but wonder how this situation makes sense at all. 20 YEARS? That's quite unusual and it undermines my understanding of the normal mechanics or dynamics of a human romantic relationship, like the fact that most women (people) need sex to maintain feelings of love

>>85144889
>>85144864
And not meeting her parents after 20 years? I understand the impulse to avoid uncomfortable situations, but you really need to meet someone's family as a fundamental part of a long term relationship. We literally live in a society. It makes me wonder: is she hiding you from them for a reason? Or are you just that avoidant and she's somehow cool with this?

>>85144845
uuugh, again, I know. and we spent years planning to met up "soon", always "soon". "next year, for sure". "just wait to next summer"
but then the economy never helped, and... to be fair and honest, as i explained, we both lacked drive. we got comfortable in this weird dynamic we have. so whenever we hit an obstacle, we just shrugged and accepted it.
and sure, i keep saying WE, when really it should be ME putting the effort.
godammit. if only i could get a hold of a job, i would bring her fat ass here even if for a couple months...
>>85144889
She's kinda... I wouldn't call it asexual, for she do feels horny, and we've had phone sex and all... but its pretty obvious she has some sort of lack of general lust to most things. She doesn't even masturbates on her own, only started doing it on our calls.
Like yeah, she's a weirdo. And I am too, obviously. How else can I justify it to myself that only recently I started feeling the retardation of this?

>>85144595
>husbando
It's not you she "loves", but whatever idea she's projecting onto you. You are in a codependent relationship. If you ever met, the fantasy would break apart rather quickly. On some level, you know this, hence why you never met.
>Why do I still feel like an incel with no hopes?
Because you ticked a superficial box (getting a gf) without getting the thing it stands for.

How close am I?

>>85144903
I think at first she was the one avoiding it. I remember how for many years she kept our relationship a secret from her parents. Then after some insistence, she did told them, but nothing major came from it. They were ok with it, if a bit worried at first. But as they never proposed talking to me, I suppose she also didn't felt pressured to?
I suspect it ties to how distant she's with her parents, keeping a wall between her personal dealing and them. But again, this is a wall born from conformity.
>"Things are ok and nice now"
>"So why change or do anything differently?"
>this exact same mentality from 13yo to 30y

>>85142966
>>85143294
>>85143347
In adulthood, I've found that many police officers will kick you while you're down just because they can. The problem is fundamentally that officers are just people and many people simply don't mature emotionally beyond their late teens, and they'll engage in normie social games while wielding a shit ton of power. People in bodycam footage are having the worst day of their lives and you don't necessarily know everything that lead up to that moment. I think the majority of people who are sincerely pro-police in the current social/political climate just haven't ever been on the receiving end of this kind of thing (middle class suburbanites) or would rarely/never be (wealthy, affluent, well connected people). Poor people see it more which is why poors don't trust the cops. It's easy to say "just be polite' when your only personal point of reference is possibly being on the hook for a speeding ticket.

>>85144928
I've suspected she may be with me (and why lie? me with her) due to conformity. Something we've kept since forever, so why change it?
But at the same time, even amidst all the retardation of our relationship, she's shown so many pearls (heh) of sincerity and purity, I can't call doubt on her intentions. If anything, she's just too damn innocent. A silly womanchild who got her first virtual romance as a teen, and never moved on from that.
So, would the illusion break if we met? Honestly, I fear it, yeah. But mainly because it would be going from the easy virtual life, to the ugly, stinky, annoying real life issues.
Online you can just leave the conversation when you get mad. But Irl? what are you supposed to do?

>>85144845
>I can't relate you retards like you who don't take the solutions that present themselves to them and it seems to me that you actually enjoy being miserable.
I want to stress that I feel 100% the same
>Fail with a woman at 18 because I'm a little pussy bitch
>Don't get another opportunity until 26
>Take it and deal with the consequences

>>85144954
>Online you can just leave the conversation when you get mad. But Irl? what are you supposed to do?
Take a walk/drive/gym, fuck, learn how to communicate

>>85144967
Rather than enjoying the misery, some people get so accustomed to their current misery they instead end up fearing an hypothetical even worse pain awaiting if they change anything about their lives.

>>85144954
>But Irl? what are you supposed to do?
Same thing, declare you are exiting the conversation, remove yourself from the situation. The word you are looking for is complacency. It sounds like you have some major changes in life circumstance coming up. Are you prepared?

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>>85144983
Are you prepared?
aaaaaaaaaaaaa no
but in the end, life doesn't care about what you think, so... guess ill have to swallow my fears and pride and just roll along.

>>85144999
But you can make arrangements now so you are not completely fucked up by this

>>85144944
>the worst day of their lives
I've heard that literal talking point, word for word, just a few hours ago, lmao.
>you don't necessarily know everything that lead up to that moment
Pretty much all videos I've seen actually do show the context leading up to "police brutality". Only once did I think it was unwarranted. Not saying it never happens, but be for real, man.
>It's easy to say "just be polite' when your only personal point of reference is possibly being on the hook for a speeding ticket.
Don't commit crime in the first place then?? If you're being arrested regardless, do not resist. Being violent will not help your situation. Avoiding being brutalized by the police really is that easy 99.9% of the time.

>>85145043
Anon, I agree with you in a certain sense, but you are one of these people who watches Internet videos and cares about "talking points" etc., the same sort of people who really believe Donald Trump is the savior and will argue red vs blue endlessly and think Let's Go Brandon was the funniest thing ever. I'm stereotyping but my point is that you confirmed that your experience is limited and you're analyzing this within a pretty limited scope from the perspective of someone not only on the sidelines but just watching videos and discussing it with other viewers/consumers.

I was arrested once because my unhinged, physically abusive ex-gf who I met on tinder called them on me during one of her episodes. All she had to do was cry in front of the ranking guy to get him saying things like
>I have daughters, I'm not going to let him treat you like this
while I stammered autistically trying to make excuses for why she attacked me or made a scene or brought them to my house somehow for the 10th time, then it was
>Yeah, he was suspicious, trying to say nothing happened...
to justify it amongst themselves

This was an eye opening experience, I thought police were basically good guys and there to help, protect and serve etc.

But overall there have been other situations where one of them sees an opportunity for a swift kick in the ass and takes it because nobody is looking. You just haven't had that kind of experience with actual power abuse and you're not likely to because you have this slave mentality anyway

>>85145090
>>85145043
I should also note that many common criminals and lowlife poor people actually know not only the law but the way police behave and how they will handle situations like this because the encounter them more often, so if you're a sheltered suburbanite type person, this is not necessarily well developed in your mental model of the world. These people will weaponize law enforcement against each other and you and they will get away with it. If you don't have to deal with that ever, e.g. you live in a nice white suburb, you can ignore this and focus on these philosohical arguments you're presenting

>>85145090
>the same sort of people who really believe Donald Trump is the savior
He's a crook, though the lesser evil.
>will argue red vs blue endlessly
I'm not even American. Putting that aside, I think all Western "democracies" are really oligarchies. The rich lobbies both sides. It doesn't matter that much who gets in.
>Let's Go Brandon was the funniest thing ever.
Now who's taking a side? :^)
>I'm stereotyping
You're fighting ghosts in your head, more like.
>"you don't chimp out at cops nor do you surround yourself with people that do, therefore you cannot judge them or the cops"
Brother.

You've had one bad experience and generalize it to all cops. My dad went to prison. The cops didn't do anything to him besides arrest him. He did the crime, so he did the time. I also have a friend who got arrested once. Same deal. The cops were also called on a party I was at, involving underage drinking in a public place with an open fire where it's not allowed. All they did was ask us to dump the booze in the fire and leave. We complied. No one got arrested. They seemed more concerned for our safety if anything.

As for your thing with your ex, I'm sorry to hear that. I will say society in general is very gynocentric and cops, judges, and randos will always take the side of the woman by default. It's crazy. That's not really a police brutality thing though. Even when that's the case, they won't hurt you unless you resist.

>>85145090
>slave mentality anyway
For thinking most cops don't go out of their way to commit police brutality, kek.
>>85145133
Notice how you know nothing of me and just make shit up as it serves you.

>>85145170
why are you being antifa right now bro? Do you just want to shreek all cops are nazis?

>>85145181
You replied to the wrong person, pal. I am the "bootlicker".

>>85145153
All I can say is that I had your mindset once and the boot I was licking took a step right on my face. Your excuse is 'gynocetrism' and that handwaves away this specific example, but how many excuses would you have to make before you'd concede?
>not American
This is an American image board and police culture and policy varies widely between countries.
>Now who's waking a side? :^)
See? This is a conditioned response, you make these assumptions which you have been directly programmed with, likely by something you read on the Internet. Red vs blue framing

A cop robbed me for an ounce of weed once lol

And one time I got in a police chase and they pulled me from the car and I got a few extra judiciary hits lol but I kinda feel that's fair game.

Look I mean cops are pigs and tyrants and I've always hated them, but what really turns you against them is not little corruption or a kick or punch, it's the way they weaponize the law to fuck you over. It's not about enforcing laws equally, it's about a cop instrumentally using the state machinery to get you fucking ground up in it. And really, cops don't actually have THAT much power. I don't think people really understand that. They arrest and charge people but the true power lies (in my country at least) with the crown -> its with the judges and whether bail is granted and with the prisons. I did 7 months in prison based on largely false allegations from a partner. It's sounds like she spun a story to some cops, they ran with it and fucked me over.

The actual real problem is just how slow the wheels of justice are. In my country it's 1.5 to 2 years for a trial. You can be denied bail this whole time, simply because she opposes it. It's absurd. There is no presumption of innocence in domestic violence accusations. If you're male you're basisly just getting charged. And in my country the police can Judy ban you for like 3 days (called a PSO) from your house, from contact with the accuser. This is with not even being charged, let alone convicted. It's just that basically, once you get caught up in the justice system, it will just fuck you up, take all your money, ruin relationships, take your fucking freedom, dehumanize you, and all of this is BEFORE even getting a trial (don't even get me started on how UNFAIR the criminal justice system is). Cops know this and they know that convictions aren't the punishment -> its being entangled in the legal system, or held in fucking remand, legally considered innocent but treated guilty in every meaningful sense. Prisoner.

>>85145170
>>85145181
>brings up "antifa"
It's amazing how predictable you people are. I don't know how to rephrase what I said to break your conditioning. I don't think "all cops are Nazis," I think there is a certain amount and style of corruption which is accepted almost universally to the point of being taken for granted in the American police system.

We as people are a species of petty, sadistic niggermonkeys who can't stop doing the most debased things to one another for little reason beyond or being fun. The founding fathers knew this, that's why we have a constitution. Governance is based on systems of incentives which work alongside each other to create the society/social structure/social organization you wish to cultivate. The idea of police reform is not limited to antifa nor is it an inherently leftist or Marxist or liberal view (except maybe in the classical sense).

What kind of weird ass non-American comes here to spout some cliche boomer conservative tier ideas about America anyway? Is this really what Eglin AFB does all day, gets some silly bloke in the UK to put a thin blue line sticker on his Chinese car or some shit? Fuck off Nigel

>>85145193
>gynocetrism (sic)
Literally taking your side here, buddy, and agreeing that the arm of "justice" gets bent for foids all the time. How is that handwaving?
>you make these assumptions which you have been directly programmed with, likely by something you read on the Internet. Red vs blue framing
Is this meta-irony or something? Surely, you're not that retarded as to miss the point that this was to point out your own inconsistency where, you talk about taking sides, then implictly take one--all in the same sentence, mind you.

>>85145229
>Notice how you know nothing of me and just make shit up as it serves you.
Try again. Your many assumptions have literally all been wrong so far, but you're bound to get one right.

Thread seems like it's swarming with actual faggot pigs and their subservient bootlickers.

>>85141975
The only (online) friends I've ever had held some kind of online funeral 10 years ago because they thought I died because I just disappeared on them, I have zero money, lots of debt and am currently looking for a cleaning job, just anything to not be homeless but am severely limited in my choices of what jobs I can accept because during the day I have to take care of my mother who has a chronic lung illness
Life is grand

>>85145261
Depending on where you live, you can get some kind of grant/government aid for taking care of someone elderly or sick. Worth looking into.

>>85145233
Me saying that "let's go Brandon" isn't particularly funny is not me taking a side in anything other than my evaluation for the quality/level of this joke which regardless of who you are is clearly geared toward the lowest common denomenator. Yes, I did make typos, but you are still wrong.
>how is it hand waving
>yes this abuse did occur, but I know a good term for it, therefore it doesn't impact my argument

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>>85145193
>This is an American image board
It's a 2channel clone for English speakers. You keep humiliating yourself in this thread by making ill-informed assumptions about everyone you interact with.

>>85145274
We tried, there are multiple grades of that and the 1st is that she gets financial help for services that come to your home and stay for 15 minutes to do the most necessary things but that's not really a great help in this situation and apparently she is not sick enough for grade 2 because she can still feed herself, what a joke.

>>85145255
This is why oath keepers are a thing.

>>85145297
What year is this from? I suspect you are a newfag. Even if I'm wrong, the central point is that you aren't American by your own admission and you have retarded opinions on American police based on who the fuck knows what you found online or saw on TV. It tickles me to think that our propaganda turns foreign westerners into American bootlickers. How does your tongue even stretch that far? I'd like your valuable opinion on the police of the Gambia as well.

>>85145243
Notice how you made no counterarguments except to pedantically assert that you're not from England specifically

why do sub30 year old people spam these threads with garbage?

>>85145281
You went straight into assigning me to a side with absolutely nothing to indicate I was part of any, then criticized me for seeing it as red vs blue. Surely, you can't be that blind to the irony. :/

As for gynocentrism, it's an abuse on the level of the judicial system. It doesn't make cops bad people and has nothing to do with the police brutality we were discussing. If the cops show up because your gf accused you of violence, but you comply and do not resist and do not threaten anyone, you do not get beaten or killed. It is that simple. It's like saying swat is bad because people get swated on false allegations.

Also, what even is your solution? No cops at all? In your own worldview people are bad and get up to bad things. Sounds like you need cops. Better trained ones maybe, but that's not gonna happen by antagonizing them.

>>85145372
Most of your posts don't apply to me in the slightest. You are fighting ghosts. That's the irony of it, you talk of programming, but you haven't made a single true assumption about me, and you've made a lot.

>>85145354
>I suspect that [yet another false assumption]
It's impressive how you don't tire of them.
>propaganda
Literal raw footage, but OK, lol. The propaganda non-Americans are exposed to is how the American police is racist and violent. BLM marches happened all around the West if you recall. That was until bodycam footage showed they were patient and understanding in most situations and niggers can't seem to help, but escalate the most benigh of situations.

>>85145385
>Also, what even is your solution? No cops at all? In your own worldview people are bad and get up to bad things. Sounds like you need cops. Better trained ones maybe, but that's not gonna happen by antagonizing them.
Are you actually retarded? I told you, it's police reform. Read >>85145229
>Governance is based on systems of incentives which work alongside each other to create the society/social structure/social organization you wish to cultivate
This applies to police policy. If I have to say it explicitly, the founding fathers took human nature into account in drafting our constitution, and police policy must be written with the same thing in mind.

You still are not making counterarguments, you are fixating on the fact that some assumptions which are not central to my argument are ostensibly wrong. I was not taking a side by using those examples

And again you are some non-American dipshit arguing about American police. I could come up with creative imaginary archetypes all day - maybe you're a rich Brazilian brat, maybe you're some German fellow with a good sense of law and order, maybe you're from a Scandinavian country where there's more emphasis on rehab and maybe that applies to their on the ground police policies and practices

What does it matter? You are still allegedly not American and you are thinking in terms of "talking points" as if they apply to all police in all situations across the great utopia of global Babylon

>>85145407
you don't even seem to understand or comprehend what propaganda is, you admit this with your assumption that it can't involve authentic and genuine video footage somehow. You are just a pleb with a pleb mindset. It would appear that you simply love and worship authority in a strangely abstract way

>>85145442
>>85145407
I am not here to defend blacks, I am white and they have enough advocacy, I don't. And what does that have to do with what I'm saying? Nothing at all, you only associate what I'm saying with that because you consumed so much of a certain angle of this really superficial political shit online. I do think most criminals most of the time bring it on themselves in at least some way if not completely, and that rate is higher for blacks, but that's largely irrelevant and the fact that your mind makes these connections betrays the fact that you are programmed by ZOG or something and you're not even a particularly high level, like lvl. 1 golem (0 exp)

>>85145425
>You still are not making counterarguments
I've addressed your points. Several times. I'm afraid you will have to spell it out, because
>Governance is based on systems of incentives which work alongside each other to create the society/social structure/social organization you wish to cultivate
>This applies to police policy. If I have to say it explicitly, the founding fathers took human nature into account in drafting our constitution, and police policy must be written with the same thing in mind.
is just a vague "I like the founding fathers and we should do something they would like, but I can't articulate what that is concretely" and, as such, can't really be addressed. I am not against police reform. I have not stated so anywhere. I'm also not the one who called you antifa. I haven't made any assumption on you. I go from what you tell me.

>about American police
Another assumption you made. Anon could be from anywhere. Maybe he's American, maybe not. You're the one that decided to make it about American police.

> you are thinking in terms of "talking points"
I saw some politician say the same exact thing word for word a few hours ago, lmao. That's what I mean by talking points. Like those creepy news compilations where they all repeat the exact same prompt.

>>85145442
>more ad hominems
A mark of the winning side. Raw footage can part of propaganda as everything else, but it's the least likely to be. Come on, anon. "The American police is brutal and racist [or target people from certain communities]" is literally the mainstream narrative on legacy media.

>>85145463
>>85145133
>you live in a nice white suburb
You made it racial, and strongly implied the hood, kek. Stop being dishonest and trying to switch the goalpost.

In any case, my main point is that hating cops is dumb. Most of them are decent people. Even if you don't believe that, you're not gonna improve your life or that of anyone by antagonizing them. Regardless of your race, you are buying into nigger culture in doing so.

>>85145495
>is just a vague "I like the founding fathers and we should do something they would like,
I clearly broke down the mechanics of it and laid it out nicely for you. Can you explain how the sentence about governance you quoted is some vague expression of a fondness for the founding fathers? I believe their methodology had merit and that it should be applied to this situation as well

And honestly you are either so beneath me in comprehension as to be an actual animal by comparison or you are a troll. It's a simple as you're not American and somehow you feel entitled to an opinion on American police, also something something BLM.

>>85145495
An ad homimen is not an insult or a criticism, it is the use of a character flaw as the basis of an argument. You are very stubborn, or maybe you're just trolling, but either way, you are a good goy. I hope they give you headpats for this in your country.

So I recently got diagnosed with autism at the age of 33.

>>85145501
>You made it racial, and strongly implied the hood, kek
What does it mean to "make it racial"? You brought this up, I didn't imply anything. This is a function of conditioning - your mind prosuces this association when in reality there is none or it's not actually relevant or salient. There is a racial component which I acknowledge because it is true and because you seemed to feel that it was relevant.

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>>85141975
Hii I'm chickn :3 anyone wanna be friends on discord? No trolls tho since a r9k anon from the sharty as well, witch hunted me on the sharty.

Yes I am a cis woman...

>>85145540
how does it feels? any difference?

>>85145501
The issue is that what you call antagonizing may simply be a euphemism in practice for not engaging in worship, not feeding their ego, or worse, offending their ego in some way, and now you have a normalfag niggercattle type person with a badge and a gun and authority over you who's on a power trip for any reason at all. "That doesn't happen, that's only a few of them!" What makes cops special? Nothing. We are people, people are shitty, I would not trust 90% of people to even scratch the surface of impartiality and you are a clear example of that.

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>>85145568
I've been suspecting that I had autism for about a year now. It also explains why I've always struggled socially my entire life. The thing is, none of my psychologists over the years ever floated the possibility that I might have autism. It took meeting with a psychiatrist (so an actual doctor and not some charlatan) who also does autism diagnosis to notice those patterns in the things I told her. Now I'm in the process of applying for autismbux because I struggle to find a job and I also have OCD and gender dysphoria.

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>>85145521
How is human nature not taken into account? There are many bounds and checks. Bodycams are a recent addition to them. Is it perfect? No. Do you have any concrete solution to improve things? Apparently nothing beyond some vagueries so you can think of yourself as smart. Smart people can actually explain their position and offer concrete solutions.

>And honestly you are either so beneath me in comprehension as to be an actual animal by comparison or you are a troll.
This is ragebait. Has to be.

>>85145537
This right after claiming to be smart.
>You are just a pleb with a pleb mindset. It would appear that you simply love and worship authority in a strangely abstract way
Pic-rel. This is textbook ad hominem, lmao.

>>85145549
>You brought this up
You are beyond dishonest. This after the quote disproving you right above. Insane. You also had a whole diatribe about how I don't get it because [I don't live in da hood] (another assumption). Be for real, dude.

>>85145572
Antagonizing them is calling an anonymous person you know nothing about except that he wants to be a cop a pig. As said above, if you watch bodycam footage, you'll see cops being patient and understanding, sometimes at their own risk. People will be asshole to them and they don't react by brutalizing them or whatever. They only get physical if the person resists arrest or tries to attack them first.

>>85145600
>psychiatrist (so an actual doctor and not some charlatan)
ruh roh

>>85145554
are you over 30?

I have gone through a 4 second humiliation ritual.

>>85145604
>Antagonizing them is calling an anonymous person you know nothing about except that he wants to be a cop a pig
I am not that guy but you prove that he is right about you being a bootlicker by saying this. They are not some special exalted beings that I should be expected to treat better than or differently from anyone else. They are not in another class or category, or maybe they are but they shouldn't be. An officer of the law should be regarded as just another man by any normal citizen under almost all circumstances. Even in cases where you'd be under arrest, I'd argue that generally any other citizen should be justified in restraining you as well (which is to say they wouldn't be charged with a crime for it nor found guilty of charged). We fought a war for this specific reason, or that is our founding mythos.

You simply have a slave mindset. They are above you. Don't offend them or they'll squash you and you'll deserve it. Boohoo he called me a pig. Dude you guys are fucking civilians get over it

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>>85145537
Afaik, America is the only country sucking Isreal's cock this deep. On a completely unrelated note, here's another map, this time showing the rate of circumcision by country. Until I reached my early twenties, I unironically thought it was a barbaric practice only performed by isolated desert tribes, same as female genital mutilation.

>>85145615
>trying to minimize giving up your dignity by the duration it took to do so
strike one

>>85145660
Ok, now you're making sense.

>>85145645
>They are not some special exalted beings that I should be expected to treat better than or differently from anyone else.
So, you just call everyone pigs based on their profession?
>An officer of the law should be regarded as just another man by any normal citizen under almost all circumstances
Agreed. I don't call someone a pig for working in a restaurant. I don't call someone a pig for working in IT. I don't call someone a pig for being a police officer. Pretty consistent.


>slave mindset
Also, it's pretty clear you're samefagging.
>Don't offend them or they'll squash you and you'll deserve it.
Don't get violent and they won't get violent? It's literally the same as with everyone else. You can disagree with their arrest, but chimping out will go against your best interest. If you want to contest an arrest or citation or whatever, there are legal channels to do so. If you feel them inadequate, propose a concrete solution to improve them. Once again, I don't think everything is perfect.; I am not against reforms. I do think most cops try to do good and, at the very least, don't go out of their way to brutalize people. I'd rather have cops than none. I've seen what happens in free autonomous zones or whatever it's called, lol. They just reinvented cops, but worse.

>>85145604
>This right after claiming to be smart.
>>You are just a pleb with a pleb mindset. It would appear that you simply love and worship authority in a strangely abstract way
>Pic-rel. This is textbook ad hominem, lmao.
You have a very low IQ. I was simply identifying you and labeling you. You may find that insulting and I may be incorrect. Regardless, I didn't use it as the basis for another argument, in fact it was a concluding statement...

>>85145697
Yes, that is precisely the point. I reserve the right to call any other person whatever mean word I want and that is an essential component of the foundational principles of this nation, the one you're making judgments about from another country.

>>85145697
>>85145709
>I've seen what happens in free autonomous zones or whatever it's called, lol.
Again sir you are simply self-reporting as some slave caste specimen who consumes way too much American political theater. And you're not even American, it blows my mind. Bravo whoever was in charge of the psyop that worked on this anon, not that it took a Herculean effort

>>85143697
man that is fucking awful, I hope you pull through

>>85143403
Yeah this energy made a cesspool of the thread in time. I look forward to these because of the faint sense of camaraderie. There will be another one, I guess.

>>85145709
Having the discretion to call someone a pig and calling everyone a pig indiscriminately are not the same thing. You have the right to both, but they say rather different things about you. Also, I've seen people call cops pigs to their face. Not one was "brutalized" until they actually got violent first. It's not a thing.
>>85145700
>You are just a pleb with a pleb mindset.
Character flaw
>It would appear that you simply love and worship authority in a strangely abstract way
"Which means I can dismiss your arguments as they solely derive from the character flaw I attributed you."

It's enough retardation for a while. I expected more from the 30+ thread than some literal teenager takes. Night night, anon.

>>85145744
Just bump the thread when you wake up from the couch you fainted on after pressing submit

>>85145744
Anon was talking hopefully about his future only to be called a pig. I'd say that's what derailed things if anything. Literal opposite of camaraderie.

>>85145750
>Having the discretion to call someone a pig and calling everyone a pig indiscriminately are not the same thing. You have the right to both, but they say rather different things about you
Ok but we're talking about rights and principles and this is little more than word salad. You equated shit taking them to antagonizing them which in your own framework justifies their ill treatment of someone. Should people be able to shit talk police officers for any reason whatsoever to the exact same limit they can shit talk anyone else with no repercussions? Yes. Please stay in Australia, Chang.

>>85145766
>so flustered over defending American police from the basement of his mom's house in Guatemala because he watched too many American liveleak videos that he is now passive-aggresively making conversation about the ongoing slight to his fragile moral framework (itself defined by ZOG) to other anons

>>85145750
I made numerous arguments and also assessed you as a person. That assessment wasn't the basis of an argument. I do dismiss you as a moron, but only because you can't address the points I'm making. Faggot. <- not an ad hominem. You seem braindead.

>>85145766
Yeah, I agree. Not fun.

>>85142307
>hey, the lady who called and setup your interview made a mistake! We are no longer hiring for that.
I literally had this happen to me yesterday.
>responded to my application within a day
>wanted to set up a remote interview
>responding that quickly is kind of suspicious, my first thought was this was actually a jeet scam but it was a video meeting so I humored it
>set up a time later in the day, get on the call and the HR goblin tells me the position had just been filled earlier and she wasn't told
>the """""interview"""""" was all of 5 minutes
Bitch just needed to pad her numbers to hit her quota for the week.

>>85145615
I'm 29 is that good enough?

I've seen this tread around in one form or another for probably 16 years, and today is the first day I can actually, officially, join in

Please don't die on me, I want to read the full thread before posting.

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>Gundam Wing aired in Japan in 1995
>the original Mobile Suite Gundam aired in 1979
>the distance from now and Gundam Wing is 31 years
>the distance from Mobile Suit Gundam to Gundam Wing is only 19 years

>>85141975
>Imagining living on a boat, cabin in the woods, deserted island?
Exactly that. Imagining.

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>>85145660
The Japan data doesn't check out. Their level of awareness around what is normal for a penis is abysmally low, they literally use the word for phimosis to refer to the natural state of a penis. That is an incredible case of social engineering.
They have these private clinics making ads shaming men into getting their dicks mutilated.

>>85145600
>autism
>gender dysphoria
Get off the internet.

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>How are you holding up? Imagining living on a boat, cabin in the woods, deserted island?
While I certainly don't want something that drastic I do long for a simpler, slower life.
I picture myself living in a small rural town, surrounded by nature and close to the sea.
I also want to quit my job and do something else. I've been working as programmer for years and my interest for the whole thing has been fading away over the years, and it pretty much vanished with the advent of AI, which is something I may enjoy to some extent, but as an employee I do not, since it made the part of my job Iliked most, writting code, pretty much irrelevant, and filled that time with an endless stream of company bullshit. Once I have enough money I'd happily quit and do something else. I would also like not to spend that much time in front of a computer.
Ironic or not, here's what an AI version of my ideal life looks like.

>>85141975
>How are you holding up?
Physically better than I have in years. Mentally really shitty as usual.
>Imagining living on a boat, cabin in the woods, deserted island?
Not quite cabin, more of a secluded house with solar power, well and growing my own food but still close enough that I can get some kind of human contact and maybe internet. I have considered a sailing boat or houseboat 24/7 but I'm not much of a nomad or extrovert so I'd just spend my days at one harbor anyway making it a waste of time. I kinda feel like my life is falling apart. I've pushed away the few friends I have through mental illness, my siblings are split up and my parents are aging. I'm trying to get away from it all to live by myself for myself but I don't know how long until the isolation is too much. I could try to make new friends wherever I end up but I'm a fat ugly autist so chances aren't good. I don't think I was really meant to be alive, maybe as a caveman or something but this life just doesn't seem like it's for me. I haven't been happy in decades.

>>85141975
>How are you holding up?
I ain't slippin, I'm slipped
>Imagining living on a boat, cabin in the woods, deserted island?
Yes, yes, probably not. I just want to find a sweet girl, hell even a cute femboy, and disconnect from it all.
I can't believe I had hope for the future when I was in my 20s. desu it is my own fault, I did nothing to take advantage of opportunities that came my way

>>85147919
>>85147896
I have been considering this cabin thing. My plan has been to build a few small buildings and form a compound. Basically a bunkhouse, separate kitchen, outhouse, battery building for power. I think I've saved enough to accomplish this and I believe I can do the work. Framing small buildings seem easy. But I am pretty drawn to vanlife.

It might sound petty at this age, but one of the reasons I don't jump right into the cabin idea is that I think it'll really solidify my low chances of ever getting married and having kids. I think I'll stagnate there (and that's probably the point for a lot of people, to be able to rest and become complacent).

>>85148289
>I think I'll stagnate there (and that's probably the point for a lot of people, to be able to rest and become complacent).
I'd say that's more or less my intention, to live the way I want but to also just kinda rot away. I tried participating in society but all it got me was burnout and depression. I probably could make another go of it but I'm old, tired and bitter and just want to unplug. Maybe I'll join some weirdo cult or find some pagan larpers so we can drink mead in the woods and talk about wotan or some shit I dunno. Who knows, I think it'll either be just the thing I need to be happy or it'll be my doom. Either way I don't want to be where I am now so it's worth a try.

>>85148310
I've had this idea of starting a small commune sort of thing wherein people can live on my land in exchange for their labor, building small cabins, and simply following the rules. No rent, no time limit as long as you're not a problematic person (hard drugs, alcohol, belligerence). I haven't developed ideas for things like community gardens etc but it could be as simple as robots living around one another.

Framing a small dry cabin seems easy enough.

>>85148354
I like the idea but how would you handle security and enforcement? Power stems from violence and all that. I sometimes daydream about winning the lottery and building a robot/misfit commune like a huge apartment building where people can live for free and be alone or socialize without any pressure so long as they don't damage the building or other people. Kind of like an outcast colony or a "last chance" for people who can't function in society.

43, still not sure what I want to be when I grow up. Not sure I even want to grow up.

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Is listening to Disney songs a sign of how stunted I am, or is it fine because they are good?

>>85148372
I own firearms and being out in the sticks with limited police response I'd feel pretty confident giving some bum the rubber hose treatment, standard for communes actually, and of course residents who care about the stability of our living arrangement would ideally assist

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I've tried to be a normal person for a long time. As some people have explained here before, trying to shoehorn myself into somewhere I don't belong has not ben positive for me. I feel that every time I do I lose a bit of myself. For a long time socializing has been feeling like a chore, not something I legitimately enjoy, and most of the times I go out with friends I only tolerate it because of the booze.
The happiest times of my life in the past decade were when I got fired from my shitty job and spent a bit over a year learning programming while not working and the covid lockdown, where I didn't have to see anyone, or come up with excuses not to do it.
I just need a break. This shit is not for me. I don't care about "making it", I don't give a shit about my career. I doubt I'm ever going to get a gf, pretty sure I'm not going to get married and absolutely sure I'm not going to have kids. At this point my dreams have become more modes and I really don't wait for something grand to happen. I just want my average day to be as enjoyable and comfortable as possible, because right now every day feels like something I have to get over with.

i feel like i'm legitimately going insane. i get so angry lately. i keep losing my temper. i've started punching myself in the gut or in the head. i'm so tired and bored. i'm going to go back to bed i think and sleep the rest of the day away.

>>85148383
jewish programming

>>85148444
>At this point my dreams have become more modes and I really don't wait for something grand to happen. I just want my average day to be as enjoyable and comfortable as possible, because right now every day feels like something I have to get over with.
I've felt like that for a couple of years now. Quality of life is the only thing that matters to me now. I'd rather be poor and happy than rich and miserable, if such a thing is even possible. I don't care at all about a career or keeping up appearances or doing things "just because you're supposed to". I just want to relax and be myself for a while.

>>85142157
Video game deer graphics peaked here.

>>85148383
Nah some of them are genuinely really good and very well done. It simply because they're associated with Disney you're even questioning if it's arrested development. As a word of thumb, if you aren't a fucking Disney adult hat wearing Funko pop quirky Chungus listening to Disney music every single day then you aren't stunted. It's fine to listen to their songs every once in a while. I listen to things like The Colors of the Wind or You'll Be In My Heart pretty shamelessly as those are basically their own thing outside the movies

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Does anyone else have age crisis(es?) sometimes? I don't mean buying a sports car and going to Mexico I mean like
>wait where am i? this is my life?
>what the fuck this isn't what i thought life would be like when i was a kid
>wait it's 2026? i'm HOW old?!
>fuck it feels like yesterday i was a dumb kid running around playing and having fun what is this hellscape?
I sometimes feel like I'm some kind of time traveller waking up in my current body and being horrified at what I see. Like a nightmare but it's all real and time keeps passing and I can't stop it no matter what. So many people I used to know are gone or dead, my life seems to be falling apart and I'm unable/unwilling to get to know new people. I feel like I'm in a stagnant world that's slowly dying. I feel like I'm losing my damn mind.

>>85148579
This is a universal human experience. I also had to learn the hard way that society doesn't give a fuck about grown men and if you're not a leader you're either expected to be a good sheep or you will be allowed to rot on the sidewalk, but not even that because it offends the good suburbanites. There are no safety nets if you're an autistic white male with no advocates. Thank you, Mr. Wizard, for giving me a brain.

>>85148579
I mentally feel like a teenager. It's due to trauma, a part of my brain went dormant, it's a protection layer or something my psychologist described it to me as such. Anyway that part of my brain is no longer dormant and it's like that part traveled through time, I constantly remember things from the 90s and parts of the 2000s as if it was yesterday and have been behaving childishly. I hope that part of my brain will mature and I don't remain in stasis like Michael Jackson. It's horrible, I'm not the man I feel I am, I don't even feel like a full grown man let alone an old one. I laugh at dumb shit which is nice, a lot more things are funny and I can relate way too easily to young people but it sucks because I'm old.

The few friends I have left were talking about going on a trip after summer and I somehow jumped in. Now they're already making plans and I have absolutely no will to go and I don't know how to tell someone that I'd rather be alone at home reading over spending a week being with people 24/7 even if they are my friends.

>>85148644
>There are no safety nets if you're an autistic white male with no advocates.
Yeah you're either just supposed to magically make it work or die somewhere out of sight so as not to offend anyone.
>>85148668
I feel the same way, like my brain is stuck 15-20 years in the past but my body is right here right now. I was neglected as a child and bullied daily as a teenager and I'm almost certain I have some kind of trauma from it. I spoke to a therapist and he said I showed signs of PTSD so who the fuck knows. It's weird because when I was a child I related to adults but as an adult I relate to children but because I look like a weird creepy uncle it's not socially acceptable for me to hang out with them.

>>85148704
Yeah sure sounds like you're experiencing what I am, definite PTSD. It's really weird just a few years ago I wasn't like this

went moderately viral making goofy voice acting videos on social media, told by hundreds of people I should try voice acting. Seems like a good career compared to the soulsucking sales/intake phone garbage I've been doing for a decade.

>>85148744
Hell yes go for it man. What's the worst that can happen? I'd try my hand at it if I wasn't cripplingly insecure. Just remember social media is very fickle so unless you capitalize early you might fizzle out.

>>85148522
Colors of the wind is propaganda to convince goyim that natives were noble and not just a bunch of savages warring in the forest

>>85148781
Peter Pan had a more accurate portrayal of injun savages

>>85148727
>>85148704
>>85148668
>>85144730
Why hello there arrested development anons

>>85148822
One upside is I have genes that make me look young, just need one more trip to Turkey for hair transplant and the illusion will be complete. I might actually make it and find some immature 18 year old or something

>>85148444
You do not have to conform, you only have to be compatible. Avoidance works 3/4 of the time and lost of the rest you can fill in with simple learned skills but it takes practice. The hard part for me personally has not been finding my own lane (I did that as a teenager or young adult) but coping with the fact that very few people will ever be in it alongside me, and those that are tend to be like me and are thus sort of traveling in the same direction but miles ahead or behind, and sometimes we pass each other and chat on the CB but that's as good as it gets usually. Nice digits.

>>85141984
>>85142340
I did manage to squeeze into the jeans. This is great fashion advice.

I got offered the job!

And for >>85142340 in specific:
Since my room is in part a graveyard 1.75 liter liquor bottles,. I know the bad feeling of drinking alone. Fresh off a breakup.
When I went into that interview and saw how well folk were responding to me, I realized how much I let myself slip, non-fitting jeans included. Proud of you for taking that first step with the weights. Moderation is key: if you like to get your drink on, just cut back a bit and make sure to keep on with all of the physical activity.
My first step is going to be buying 2 heads off broccoli to replace the chips I would buy instead.

>>85148850
I am really tired of zoomer culture. All normalfags have always sputtered and smirked with bemused condescension anytime you said anything that ran across (rather than parallel to or in concert with) their conditioning, but today's crop of 18-year-olds take this to a new level. They are constantly running some subroutine in their goybrains which forces them to filter every single interaction through an "is this socially acceptable within the very narrow range of what I could say on record in front of a large audience who is actively looking to lynch me for going off the reservation in any way"
It has made these people neurotic, they are mostly Subhumans. The only people younger than us worth talking to grew up with parents who sheltered them from YouTube and Instagram and TikTok in some way.

>>85148863
>My first step is going to be buying 2 heads off broccoli to replace the chips I would buy instead.
Pickles, rice cakes, protein/fat dense foods, minimize or eliminate carbs, eliminate liquids with calories except for milk or milk-based protein drinks. I have 6 pack abs in my late 30s doing this and light pushups a few times a week. Fat and slobbish are choices

>>85148878
Well I'd look for a tomboy either way which are leagues above most NPCs

>>85148899
Tomboys are now "enby" and they too are bathed in the culture. It's rough out there.

>>85148887
On the eliminate carbs note, I have always if brown rice & black beans are acceptable? They are such great filler.

>>85149224
Those work because they're low calorie and physically fill your stomach well relative to their caloric content which is part of the sensation of satiety. The other big part is blood sugar/insulin. This is actually a somewhat nuanced issue but mostly you can approximate a good approach by just following what I said. Broccoli for example is just one big chunk of complex carbs but that's much better for you than a spoonful of sugar containing the same number of calories because the broccoli doesn't give you a huge insulin spike.

>>85148878
My worst interaction with the generation below us happened when I was working at a coffee shop. This young woman may have been attracted to me but changed her tune once she had a psychoanalytic conversation with me where I came off as the kind of person she flagged as "performative loner," or something, and it made me mad uncomfortable. Like, she was looking for and found in me something fraudulent.
This is not the same as the old millennial obsession with authenticity.

>The only people younger than us worth talking to grew up with[out] [...] YouTube and Instagram and TikTok
I credit whatever charm I have to being raised in and outside the home by boomers with a vivid memory of pre-internet times. I absorbed all that taste and have been a late adopter almost everything digital.

>>85149280
>Like, she was looking for and found in me something fraudulent.
>This is not the same as the old millennial obsession with authenticity.
They have a social media concept of authenticity. To them, real is just however convincing they can be in pictures and photographs. It's all based on aesthetics and they operate strictly on really low IQ, uncritical heuristics. I have had the experience you describe a number of times now. In the past, I used to occasionally think, when something old would become popular again like 90's bands or some ideological framework I'd studied or whatever else, that I would inadvertantly be current again by virtue of having a strong background in the thing. But instead these Zoomers will gatekeep my own culture that I grew up surrounded by and forgot more of than they will ever learn. This is an extension of what you're talking about and it's integral to their culture. It's bizarre and not something we did as teens or young adults. They are all posers and who are paradoxically actively seeking to "expose" other posers.

>>85149326
Well said. I got a kick out reading this!

I hate zoomers so much it's unreal.
Everyone under 25 is genuinely retarded.
God I'm glad I wasn't born in the social media and smartphone era.

>>85149326
>>85149588
I don't hate zoomers, they are just people swept up in a bad situation, but I do resent the modern monoculture

>>85141975
>How are you holding up?
Doing okay I guess. Still feel weak and have body pain.
>Imagining living on a boat, cabin in the woods, deserted island?
I thought about selling the house that'll inherit when my mom dies and then simply living in my car. I'd never do it, but the thought of having little and the freedom does sound nice.

I would like an 18-year-old wife who has never used TikTok or Instagram to cherish and love forever. 25 is fine too.

>>85150509
Become Amish and that'll happen

>>85150562
I am a software developer.

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>>85141975
>How are you holding up?
32 and have only worked for about 2 years of my life. Still just as depressed as I was without a job, but now more stressed and irritable. The money is nice but I would rather just be broke and alone rather than dealing with people all day. I'm imagining living in a cave in the mountains and living off the land. Bears are kind of scary but most of them aren't predatory...right?

>>85150572
You still have time to tech up to a job you don't hate. You can also turn a side hustle into a real job if you are smart and diligent about optimizing for something you're good at, passionate about, or can merely handle doing for many hundreds or thousands of hours. If you are lazy and don't want this, you can also povertymax which works well too.

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>>85151013
>tech up to a job you don't hate
Any recommendations?

>>85151031
I've been getting into leather working, people pay $100 for an actual handmade full grain leather watch strap made to the best standards. It's a hobby but it pays some bills and is fulfilling. You could also get into a sales or adjacent performance based position and scam normies for a commission if you have the social skills or endurance. Kneepads are cheap and you can charge like $50 per cock even if you're not that great, actually some people will pay more for an awkward virgin blowjob I bet

>>85151053
>>85151031
Start a payday loan company and scam poor people. Rent a small commercial property with a big parking lot and start a "no credit approved" used car dealership and sell rebuilt Cadillacs and chargers to black people. The list is endless. >>>/biz/

>>85151053
I bought a whole half-hide of water buffalo leather and a bunch of tools a few years ago for some girls birthday a few years ago but never gave it to her because our friendship fell apart. What are some good entry level projects do you think I should try? I've done a couple cord keepers and a few little pouches but that's it. I'm kind of worried about the fumes from the contact cement since I don't really have a well ventilated area to work in.

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>>85151053
I do love the smell of fresh leather (and cock)

>>85151117
Front pocket card wallets, watch straps

>>85151132
Watch straps seem a bit boring but if people are really paying $100 for them maybe I'll give them a shot.
Do people buy those card wallets? I never see people use them in the wild. Or is that just a skill builder?

>>85151154
I used them for minimal cutting/folding/patterning and stitching techniques, watch straps are a good niche because horology enthusiasts are passionate and have disposable income, and they are simple

>>85151179
>>85151154
Also protip find a Vietnamese person selling croc leather on eBay and DM them and ask to go off platform they will hook you up

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>>85151154
Don't forget leather armor for the aspiring young squire

>>85151191
This is a joke but people buy the most interesting things. Shoes boots and and saddles sell also. Mens boots and authentic high quality dress shoes is a whole niche of its own

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>>85141975
41 here, very confused about life, got more money than ive ever had in my life and finally everything is just..up to me but cant find company to save my life.

Dabbled with the onlyfans/fansly girls, tried to treat a couple like human beings and holy shit that was a mistake

Tried online dating, except im not attracted to women my age (shocking i know) and nobody under 30 has a CLUE on how to communicate with another human being in person

Almost willing to start looking into a sugar baby thing but i have ZERO knowledge on that shit and everytime i start looking everything just looks sus as fuck.

>>85151191
Heh, I don't think the water buffalo leather would be suitable for that, it would probably make some pretty sweet vests though.

>>85151225
do (clap) not (clap) talk (clap) to (clap) females (clap) about (clap) money

>>85151230
Make some bracers for archery. Trim with feathers now it's authentic native American, trim with fur now it's authentic Mongolian reproduction...

>>85151231
but they have low self esteem, cute tits and i have 20 bucks.

>>85151225
This is me but I'm 34. I could go for either a qt wholesome younger girl or a sugar momma bosslady type at this point. I just want mutusl respect and benefit. Sugar babies are too expensive, can you really afford to give some hooker with extra steps $2k/month?

>>85151259
wtf, you didnt get a sugar baby you ran into a fucking robber with tits, what the fuck lmao

>>85151259
i think im confused on what a sugarbaby is, i thought you just tossed em like 40 bucks a week for some hang outs and some vids/ass pics

>>85151259
>>85151321
>>85151334
I thought a sugar baby was a gfe hooker give an allowance to, like a trophy wife with less pretense. Why would you pay for pics anyway?

>>85151341
i guess kinda like why some of us pay the onlyfans whores, yea you can look up leak shit but they do custom shit and most of em sold their morales so hard you can make em do some vile shit for 20 bucks, theres a trans FtM i had take a shit on the floor for 20 bucks

Am I into scat? Fuck no, thats disgusting but I just paid some broke college trans girl calling herself a boy to shit on her own floor, and after shes done recording she had to clean her own shit off the floor thinking about where she is in life, thats fucking entertainment you dont get anywhere else, open your mind a bit

>>85151341
I've looked into the sugar baby thing but they seem more expensive than paying an actual prostitute a couple times a month. A sugar baby is going to keep hitting you up for cash for food, rent, entertainment, makeup, whatever they can.
And then they get to be bitchy about having sex because it's a "relationship" and you should "value them more".
It's a scam.

>>85151361
sir thats a professional sugar baby, that is a whore that has figured how how to be just a whore, thats not a typical thing my friend, thats like saying a 3000 dollar an hour las vegas hooker that could suck the chrome off a doorknob is your typical hooker experience, it is not.

>>85151361
This is my perspective on the matter, valuable men don't do this shit, they get "trophy wives" and both of them know the deal
>>85151352
Lmao. Not bad, but a slippery slope

>>85151373
Tell me more about amateur sugar babies. Isn't that... literally just a girlfriend?

>>85151387
Not really, its all about what you establish with em, set boundaries, times to hang out, times that are okay for texts, they live their own lives dude, prolly even have their own boyfriends and shit, i dont fuckin care, its what YOU want out of them, theyre the whores that are already doing it for the money. Set boundaries, theyre serving YOU, dont fuckin let them be a brat, you put those little cunts in their place if they chose this life, you arent being an asshole.

It's 3:37am. i should be going to sleep instead of drinking and posting on r9k. i wish i had a healthy lifestyle, but my life is shit and i do things that are unhealhty as a way to protest and cope with it, even if it makes no difference.

>>85151361
You ever try Asian massage parlors? They're like prostitutes but more exotic

>>85151408
Careful with those, if its your first time going to one of those, let THEM bring it up first, dont just slam into the place demanding happy endings, youll get either the dumbest looks ever or youll know how fast a vietnam woman can cuss you out

>>85151408
Nah in my area the only way you can see an asian escort is through a massage parlor. Feels like there's gotta be some kind of human trafficing going on, I'd rather stay away.
Plus they're in the news kind of often for raids.

>>85151401
How do I get one?
>>85151405
Fix your shit idiot, stop drinking and start working out. Start small, anything you can maintain for a month, literally power walk like a soccer mom or do 5 pushups 3 times a week. Anything. You feel like this because this is limbo or hell or something, it's not your fault but you're a lazy piece of shit, go do one pushup right now before your next sip.

>>85151431
what that other anon was afraid to use, reddit, there are a couple websites like seaking but i mean fuck dude, use google, use your brain, know that women are awful, and if theyre already selling their morales to do this, take what they say with a grain of salt, its hard but soemtimes you find one that just doesnt mind sending you cunt pics for 40 bucks a week.

Is that too expensive for ya? Go use onlyfans, or fansly if youre more into the kinky shit, and like i said toss 20 bucks and be amazed at what you can get em to do, theyre already desperate, just dont be stupid and support the big channels like delphine expecting any kind of personal attention, they have 1000 far richer simps in their dms, you dont have a fucking chance.

>>85151453
I want a physical girlfriend who smells nice and who won't give me any mouth sores if I eat her out, I want to be able to fall asleep snuggling without being robbed

>>85151472
If i could help you with that i wouldnt be paying college girls to do stupid shit on the internet for my amusement

>>85151495
You haven't tried escalating the situation to something physical?

>>85151505
ive done like actual hookers and shit but i mean im not interested in women long term, i am not a dateable man lmao. I would not ask a woman to put up with my retardation for any longer than it takes to fuck em a couple times.

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>>85151352
I hope this is true just because it made me laugh way harder than I expected, just picturing some girl like puttin her tripod away and her camera looking down at a pile of shit she know she just had to do to pay rent or whatever, fucking grim

>>85151515
I thought we were talking about sugar babies (sex workers). This is confusing since the difference between an amateur sugar baby and a girlfriend seems very subtle to me.

>>85151551
Im not sure how, a sugar baby doesnt give a flying fuck about you, they see you as a transaction only, and only in the rarest times do they actually wanna be around you for longer than contractually obligated

>>85151581
So basically a standard woman

TOMMY!

>>85144595
yep time to leave normalfag

>>85146832
You get a temporary guest pass which lasts a year.
Courtesy of your vagina.

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>>85151622
How do you know my name?

>>85151653
as long as your last name isnt mars we're good

>>85151640
Please stop simping for anyone claiming to be a woman, please. You are too old not to know tits or GTFO

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>>85151718
In my country we don't have last names

>>85151725
is that where Cher and Zendaya came from

>>85151756
Yes it's a magical place where we dance the night away

>>85141975
34 and just choose life, now I have to figure out what to do.

>>85152535
Feed squirrels in the park

31 thinking about ending this sad life of mine. I'm not bragging or wearing it like a badge of honor. I just want this to end

>>85152642
You can always do it later.

>>85152642
You are not doing enough physical activity. It sounds like a cliche but it's valuable, actionable information.

>>85141975
>36
Lost 7K USD on a used car
Been to rehab
Just had 9 inch of my colon removed

It could be worse

>>85153085
Bowel cancer or you just felt like it?

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>>85142157
>I turned 40 a week ago.
>KHV BTW
41 here. feels good to have magic powers.

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going to a wellfare office meeting
should have continued studying this summer but applications and grades did not arrive in time
trying to get any shit job is impossible
all I want money to improve but it seems impossible to get
living in constant scarcity mindset because can't generate mnoey
I want off this ride

A 23yo guy messaged me on TagMap and wants to play Minecraft with me. I don't know how to tell him that the idea of playing Minecraft with a 23yo fills me with immense dread.

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Anyone successfully turned it around in their 30s?

>>85151581
>Im not sure how, a sugar baby doesnt give a flying fuck about you, they see you as a transaction only, and only in the rarest times do they actually wanna be around you for longer than contractually obligate

Thats a girlfriend 6 months in

>>85148579
>what the fuck this isn't what i thought life would be like when i was a kid
I didn't really know what life would be like since I only had my mother and step father. I didn't know adults had friends/dinners/social events every week/fortnight/month give or take.
I didn't know I'd be welcomed by 50 year olds at 25 and at 35 be welcomed by 25 & 55 year olds.
I thought I'd get a petite babe. I got a chubby redhead who is for lack of better words my soul mate. My childhood self would probably be too ignorant to know how lucky I am to have her.
>wait it's 2026? i'm HOW old?!
36, wife, career. No child/home just yet.
At 26 I was a virgin with a bumbling career & friends at 16 I had poor grades and a friend. at 6 I had no friends and could barely understand school

36 and living with my parents still, never been on a date or had a romantic relationship, money keeps slipping past my fingers even if I poormax the shit out of my daily life, health has gone to shit, keep gaining weight even if I eat healthy, no energy to work out in years, can't handle spices, fatty food or alcohol at all, masturbation hasn't felt like anything for years but if I don't do it regularly and just stop my prostate gets inflamed eventually. Knees and lower back feel like I'm 70, the abs I pulled in my 20s keep mini-pulling themselves all the time if I do much anything that needs physical strength like carrying heavy stuff etc, mental health has gone down the drain ages ago. I stopped shaving, getting my hair cut and cutting my nails until they become a problem (so walking around with extra long toe and fingernails like some kind of a prehistoric humanoid) and male pattern baldness has started to hit hard this past year. Haven't been paying attention to dental hygiene past washing once a week for years now, some wisdom tooths came out and are pointing all over the place in my mouth. All energy to do anything is gone, and I still have acne like I was a 15-year old even though I ate the medicines. Also have IBS so can't eat healthy or lots of protein (I literally do not digest most fresh vegetables they come out as they went it, too much fiber causes diarrhea, too little fiber causes diarrhea, sugar causes diarrhea, artificial sweeteners cause diarrhea, eating and drinking at the same time causes diarrhea, everything is just diarrhea). Unemployed for 15+ years now and I might just kms instead of getting a job once I fully run out of everything. My lack of talking with any people has lead to me doing schizo ramblings by myself when I am alone as the only form of communication I have done verbally for about 12+ years now. I keep having violent fantasies over every little mishappening

>>85151581
So literally just like a gf/wife?

>>85153846
sounds gay

>>85154025
most likely not but maybe in my 40s

>>85148579
all these are symptoms of not having money, the ability to generate it, and so forth
it really is that simlpe
and to answer yes

>>85154431
literally me minus not taking showers and being at that physical state, maybe during (even more severe) depression
in general though same shit

I'm 32, no irl friends, no gf ever, no job, no credentials, a horrible work history, and I live with my one remaining parent. I'm more or less waiting until I can die at this point, as I have no desire to attempt turning things around again. Each past attempt only resulted in humiliation and further disappointment with life, making me worse rather than better.

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>>85154025
Almost. At 30 I got a job as a web developer after being fired from my shitty job and learning to code by myself.
I thought I could make some money and then get a gf.
Well real estate prices skyrocketed and I started balding so guess what happened.

>>85154025
>turned it around
What do you mean? Because it never gets better but sometimes it gets slightly less worse

>>85154025
>Anyone successfully turned it around in their 30s?
Lets say I did, what would you want to hear?

>>85141975
I have no place on this earth, land or sea. I'm a 30 year old pedophile. I dont deserve anything good

30 was mid. 35 was lame. here's to 40.

>>85154827
Deserted island probably works for that.

>>85154827
chemical castration might help?

>>85154827
Everyone's a pedo (to an extent). They just don't admit it because it's unpopular.

>>85155015
Being attracted to teenagers is not pedophilia, it's natural.
Any time some retard says that "homosexuality is natural therefore it's good", because some animals exhibit it (as a form of domination), remind them of this.

>>85151154
I've been using a cardholder for the past 15 years that I got from tannger goods. It started natural, now it has a really nice tan patina. So, yes, people do use cardholders. This is the one. I'll keep it until I die, probably. I have no affiliation, it's just a great piece. https://www.tannergoods.com/products/legacy-cardholder-2

>>85154827
I don't know about that there's plenty of room in the sea

>>85151053
Based. I appreciate quality more as I get older. Also I paid $6 for a strap to use on a $45 watch so if I had an expensive one I'd probably pay $100.
Could you post some of your work?

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>>85154025
I had a freakish personality change after confronting my trauma, I posted earlier, it's so fucked up. I changed from introvert to extrovert, have sort a friends now, I sort of work now, was even on a date. I changed from schizoid to normal, from non bipolar to bipolar. I used to take a ton of hallucinogenics just fine now weed makes me hallucinate, my experience of temperature has changed, I gained dyslexia and an occasional stutter, fear of heights has disappeared as has agoraphobia. There's more, but I probably best keep it short, nobody has ever been as turned around as me but this probably hasn't been helpful, just felt like sharing, what I experienced is so weird.
I wanna take the opportunity to lament how I miss being schizoid, that was so awesome not to feel loneliness and not need people, schizoid don't appreciate their mental disorder enough I tell you, God make me schizoid again

>>85154025
>exercising 3 times/week for a few months now (nothing extreme, but I do push myself progressively)
>eating extremely cleanly
>mostly gave up porn and masturbation months ago
>waking up every day with rock hard morning wood
>more satisfied with how I look with my clothes off than I have been since my mid-20's
It feels like I'm going through a second puberty. I feel the urge to impregnate someone so badly bros

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>>85141975
I got assburgers diagnosis at 33. Is that a loicense to shitpost?

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>>85155627
That's as close as you can get to one

>>85141975
I'm more alone than I've ever been and kinda wanna drop dead but at the same time don't. My online best bro whom I've gamed with since 2003 is homeless and of course it's having a negative impact on his mental health, haven't heard from him in nearly a year, but last I spoke he was becoming pretty delusional and paranoid. And IRL, I considered three people to be my best friends, but the one I knew the longest (2008-2020) stopped hanging with me. The other two who were my managers when I tried being a wagie. They also dropped contact a few years ago since they were busy waging and I didn't have much to talk about since I'm just a rotting NEET. I barely speak to anyone now. At least when I was a loser kid I could still talk to people online. Now my interactions are limited to looking at this site that's a husk of its former self and watching shitcord servers die. The upside is I'm a future millionaire, my mom's officially giving me her house when she dies. Also I've finally started to unironically hate women (except my mom ofc, the only good foid on the entire planet).

>>85154966
Idk what to do about it, before I became a pedophile I was certain I wasn't going to have children. I guess im par for the course either way

>>85154975
I still have hope I'll figure my life out and raise a healthy family. Plus I've stopped searching for that stuff now but I won't lie, if came across it by accident I don't know what I would do with it. I would probably whip my willy out and play with it to it idk. I'm a fucked up individual

>>85155377
Yeah. This life thing isn't for me

>>85156025
I was just joking, not like you act on it right

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2 weeks ago i spent weekend whit 33yo woman. she has 1 kid but fuck it, i take it. there was no sex but she wants to come visit me and we have been texting daily.

>>85155117
their programming will just make them violently hate you

>>85156012
>>85155990
>>85154827
>>85155015
>everyone's a pedo and simply conceals it because it's socially unacceptable
You guys are fucked in the head and probably deserve a bullet. And you want kids? This is one tiny example of the world is so fucked up. You have zero self-awareness. I come here to try to relate to other people in similar situations who are still mostly normal or have standard human impulses and emotions, not to be surrounded by people like you. Normal humans are not sexually attracted to prepubescent children.

>>85156315
>>85155117
Nobody "violently hates" people who are attracted to teenagers. All human men women who have gone through puberty attractive (maybe except for gays). Zoomers in the last 5 years might call this pedophilia but that doesn't mean anything. The issue is with you diddling actual children, babies.
>Their programming
You are not enlightened, you are actually quite unintelligent

>>85156380
My IQ is 2 SD above average, keep coping though.

>>85156397
There are plenty of those and most of them are not attracted to prepubescent children. Congrats, you can think of marginally more elaborate excuses and create a framework for why your pathology is justifiable.

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>>85156397
Also, you people who take these online IQ tests or who took a proctored test when you were young always have excuses for why you're poor and fail at life. All you have is this singular metric you feel you can point to which you base a large portion of your identity around. IQ is supposed to have predictive value for your life outcome and if it didn't for you, it's pathetic to make a show of it or to bring it up at all. Have you produced a great body of work in all your time alone as a stoic NEET? Have you made a lot of money? No and no. You just collect pictures of kids and jerk off to them. 300 IQ behavior

>>85156368
Not like I asked for it. When I'm really high I get put off of the idea entirely. its just hard not to find certain young girls attractive. In my mind its no different than appreciating an older females beauty but I know its wrong because they're premature. When I first came here I didn't expect to end up being attracted to younger girls but even then I know I wouldn't act on it irl because its mostly a fetish I picked up online

>>85141975
Got banned from a bar
Still loveshy, still bored at work-- nearly got fired for reading and writing on the job

Took up nicotine pouches

>>85156040
Nope. Wouldn't know how to either. I just shake the feeling that's all

>>85156368
Theres so many pedos on /r9k/ (mostly the 30+ ones). I remember stalking a guy from there who got into trouble because he was actually talking to a minor and posted her suggestive photos there. I don't know why the mods didn't take it down, it's still in the archives. I guess that was one time the pedophile site lived up to its reputation.