i lost my freedom and happiness when i gained the ability to reflect. when i was a kid, i though about things i enjoyed and forgot about them by the next day, nothing was too important and that secluded me a fluidity that i no longer have. i am not only obsolete for someone my age but i cannot comune with other people, creating a lot of ideas about me and the world that only make me desire a closer death
>>85205849grieving is a normal process of growing upit takes a while to get ur self into a position of growth againI wouldn't lose hope as much as it hurts you have a lot more power than you realize
>>85205871i have been stuck for 7 years
>>85205849>i lost my freedom and happiness when i gained the ability to reflect.turn it off. it's not helping you. just start doing things. get messy, make mistakes
>>85205875oh brutalc:ima give you a weird hint to reclaiming your powerdiscomfort is some weird thing we try to avoid when it comes to emotional statessomething I recently learned is if you stop rejecting bad emotional feelingsand simply accept and feel them without thinking it needs to be changedjust accept them. You feel this way and its fine. It sorta puts you in a better position to plan ur next moves.
>>85205900i was trying to defeat my discomfort of going out and last time i went outside i was robbed 500$
>>85205917that's okay feel that feeling of discomfort don't reject just accept itI would pick some where else to chill at thoughur local place sounds shady XD
>>85205927i live in a city full of psychopaths. i would vent but i don't see the point
>>85205972well if there was any place to shout into the voidthis is probably as good as it getssorry local place sucks anon xd
>>85205977you dont feel like your soul has been raped from the day you were born? there is something very visceral and sadistic about people like us, robots and incels alike, exist within a framework of misery, we are identify because our clumsyness and our inability to be cohesive with other human beings, is not only that we are unable to have sexual or romantic relationships (the pinnacle of human love, aside from having kids) but most of the time we are not even consider to have dignity enough to be called humans. i understeand how r9k is an echo-chamber, but the truth is that there is not a lot more spaces to go when you live your life under constant explotation and severe humillation rituals. all humans undergo hardship, but what we experience is not a hardship that later rises into grow, but a harrowing reality that we are day by day being expelled of humanity even more, hardship that only produces more hardship, the brain can only adapt to a degree before the body reacts with illiness. people here talks about sex being our main problem but the reality is that what we truly seek is to solidify ourselves in a humanity that we dont really feel that we have. we wanted to be desired yes but we also seek to have families, careers, a grounded safety, and sex is the ultimate validation, the understeanding that other person takes your existence with enough seriousness that is open to stripe naked for you and lay by your side. identity is formed though the "other", but what identity can someone have when it doesn't have anything? what love can we grasp? if the only thing you have have is misery, then your identity is going to be grounded in misery. i am very glad i experimented love at least once in my life, even if i am still a virgin, i can die with that, but a lot of other robots will never know love, and a life without love is not a life, is nothing, is like a narrow street where you pass down but that lacks that exciting motive that push you over the edge
