Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportcompletely normal edition no narcotizing of any kind hello>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
cool links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
it's crazy guys it's 6pn already and I didn't do anything I don't know where the day went, I might wake up super early tomorrow just to make the day a bit longer
>>85249800>How are you doing today?could be better, managing>When was the last time you hurt yourself?just now>Why did you hurt yourself?i guess i felt out of control>>85249979>it's 6pm already and I didn't do anythingthat's alright, some days are meant to spend chill and having fun>might wake up super early tomorrowmake sure you go to bed on time then ^^hru cat? how was your day?
>>85250058hey fren o/>could be better, managingsomething bad happened ot just feeling bad randomly?>just nowI know you know but make sure to patch up>some days are meant to spend chill and having funI wasn't even chilling I just blacked out >sure you go to bed on time then ^^it's fine if I don't I'll get sleep earlier the next day and wake up even earlier :0>hru cat? how was your day?besides what I said I will try to finish up an older map and post it and I wanted to watch trainspotting but idk if I willwhat are your plans?
I was without self-harm for almost a week. But tonight I relapsed. I really tried to stop it this time but my retard paranoid brain keeps telling me shit that probably isn't true.
>>85250344>just feeling bad randomly?just feeling bad ig>make sure to patch upyeah dw>I just blacked outoh?>what are your plans?play games ^^>>85250505stares at you immensely
>>85250456heya week is a lot!good work anons, relapses happen don't treat them as loosing your streak, just try to make the gap between relapses bigger >paranoid brain keeps telling me shit that probablywhat is it telling you?>>85250505hey frenchanon how it be in the frenchland?>disturbingly piercing eyesO.O
>>85250583That I'm a worthless piece of shit that deserve to feel as bad as I do and that I'm a burden to everyone around me (which I am).
I'm new around here and I would like to share that I was kicked out of the military because I was caught cutting myself, and I have a history of punching and banging my head in walls, cutting myself because I have this desire to harm other people but i'm too much of a pussy to suffer being a social pariah on the basis of harming your fellow man. Is this the right general for this or is there another support gen in another board?
>>85250648>>85250648>I'm a worthless piece of shit that deservehope you stop feeling that way one daywhat started it? why do you have an opinion like that about yourself?>>85250821hey anonI see no issue with you being here >militaryI wonder how that works in my country
I can't sleep, so have a bump on me
>>85251200>is too hot inhot in here too D;>iwant to die so nothing is newsucks
>>85249800/cat/ wears skirts and thigh highs and is a polish femboy.
>>85251200and what did you do today? for me it was a very quick blurr>>85252156thanks for the bumpwhy can't you sleep? too hot?>>85252208you're still alive femboyanon?
>>85249800>helloheya cathow are you?>How are you doing today?im finei drank like 2 ice coffee cans (both around 300 mL)drank one like 6 hours ago, the other one like 4 hours agodid that to be able to stay awake and studyand here i am, finished studyingtired and thoughgonna eat and chillwanna reply to previous things but im so hungry and tired
>>85252225>you're still alive femboyanon?Unfortunately.
slep tiem>>85252919heyo remy>how are you?eepytoday was a blurr as well>drank like 2 ice coffee canswoadon't make it a habbit tho>finished studyingyaya \o/ time to relax>gonna eat and chillwhatcha gonna eat ?>>85252943how are things going?
>>85252208omg rare sighting of femboyanon>>85252919hiii rem :Dhiii cat ^^
another day hello o/>>85254096aa didn't notice this yesterday sry>feeling bad ighope you're better today >oh?not literally but I don't remember most of the day>>85254096mornin!>>85254854heya>baaaaaa x.x>don't recall muchyou'd think the less you do the easier itd be to remember but it usually seems to be the opposite
I genuinely hate how absent Ive been to friends and this board because it offers me so much and Im fond of reading and sharing stuff. So like... Here's a life update. Found this really good Chinese Vocaloid artist named Mara_(Chinese symbol deepl says is "however,")- my trip to Texas has been pretty good so far despite major hiccups. I'm surrounded by people who genuinely care about me. This feels like my ward visit but paid vacation deluxe edition. Wish it could be more helpful, but...Cutting is unfortunately a major coping mechanism of mine, and since I've been doing it since I was young, I also uhm - "enjoy it" in general... I now regretfully understand why anorexics are competitive against each other. Despite my best efforts and convincing him I love him, miss him, and want him here. Convincing him to take off work and let me fly him out (he did so I bought the tickets) - he is still extremely upset and cutting to cope with my absence and decision to take this vacation along with other issues he has with me. I kinda preferred when he used to just berate me and make me feel intrinsically evil and ignorant in a way that tortures others. Im well aware of that and can handle it fine. While the images of what he did makes my brain vibrate and mouth salivate, I can not help but be not only upset, and jealous, but competitive..? He's rapidly adding and I feel so empty compared to him (irrational. I have way more). He even told me we both need to quit before adding far more. He wont show me this time either. I bought some medical gauze wraps today and stopped limiting myself as I feel far less guilty. I feel unshackled in trying to be a good person in a way..? I know Im bad and Im even worse giving him my issue. I feel like going to the ward and trying to get better (not just mentally) in life was a mistake.
The nurse at the hospital offered to have me put in the psych ward today but I didnt want to. Now I feel like complete shit and I have that feeling in my body that Im gonna harm myself again today.
buuummp :3
>>85255637no worries>hope you're better todayi am ^^ mostlyhru feeling today cat?>but I don't remember most of the dayhuh, maybe you didn't do much that day then?>>85256609>images of what he did makes my brain vibrate and mouth salivatewhat happened? the cutting?>rapidly addingadding?>bought some medical gauzemake sure to use it >>85256878why are you at the hospital anon?>that Im gonna harm myself again today.if it were to happen make sure you clean it properly and dress it
>>85258589>why are you at the hospital anon?Speaks for itself, doesn't it?
cutting isn't helping feeling stablei wish i could close my door and stay alone until i feel calm again whenever some people hurt mebeing forced to socialize while at the same time i have to shut up when someone decides to embarrass me and piss me off. as if im enjoying socializing in first placebut i have to endure carrying all the stress and force myself to stay awake and all that while trying not to annoy anyoneim just so pissed off right nowi wanna take a break
>>85258706sorry i didn't want to make assumptions and come across as rudehru now anon?>>85258980sounds like you've had a tough day rem, i hope it gets better soon>im just so pissed off right nowmaybe try to relax for the rest of today? ^^ if you can
hey fellas I woke up pretty early today and decided to finish one of my older maps and post it it's not done yet but tomorrow I might complete it>>85256609hey >I'm surrounded by people who genuinely care about methat sounds very nice glad that it could happen to you, make sure to show them how much you appreciate them>I've been doing it since I was young, I also uhm - "enjoy it" in generalI think it's okay as long as you can control yourself and not encourage others it's better imo that smoking or alcohol for sure >he has with me. I kinda preferred when he used to just berate mehe doesn't sound well, definitely sounds like a bad influence, not that you have to do something about it but that's how I feel about it>He wont show me this time either.honestly probably for the better >bad and Im even worse giving him my issueI think you blame yourself too much >>85256878hello>gonna harm myself again today.maybe you could contact someone to go to the ward?>>85258589>mostlypheww >hru feeling today cat?alright, I'd say it's been a nice day>you didn't do much that day then?today I did more thoor at least it felt like it, I think today time worked the way it should >>85258980heyo>being forced to socialize is that a situation where you're not able to leave and go for a walk to blow off some steam?>just so pissed off right now>i wanna take a breaksorry you gotta deal with it
>>85259160>hru now anon?Real damn bad. I the noose I have at the kitchen table is looking more and more appealing. But every time I hang it up I chicken out.>>85259218>maybe you could contact someone to go to the ward?I can yes. But it's probably for the best that I stay away from there. Long story.
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sorry for not being very active today >>85259274>But it's probably for the best that I stay away from there. Long story.you been there in the past and or didn't go well? did it make things worse?
