The problem is that i feel like i am a net loss in peoples lives and that I have to make up for it by serving them or giving them all the time, without reciprocation. I get anxious when i establish friendships because i fear they secretly dislike me and that I am burdening them. I try to tell myself that I should stop thinking and should just focus on having fun myself and trusting that others are also enjoying themselves. But today i felt particularly dumb and burdensome. I was with another person, and got few of his jokes. Though it was enjoyable I felt akward and dumb, slow. Im so slow when interacting. I hear badly and im in my head too much and just smile. It makes me look unintelligent. I wish i came off as snarky, sardonic and effortlessly funny but i come off as dumb. Which i know i do, not just in this case but all the time. Well my friend was blunt and answered when i asked if i come of as stupid. Will these days end?
>>85261060*fart*kill yourself, avatarfagging cunthole.
>>85261060Same Jacobanon I am going through a similar process right now telling my friend I like her romantically I think both of our problems come with unmet romantic/intimacy needs while being too afraid to express them because they ultimately are selfish and require other people to reciprocate them and a general terror of rejection but the best way to escape that is by doing normie dating as in asking them within days of meeting them if you want to be a friend specialized for the purpose instead of mulling around but I'm a romantic and that seems like soul death to meAnyways if you're still around by 30 we should do a pact and just marry each other
>>85261140Its not even romantic for me though i just feel like i have to prove to people at all times that i am good enough, but I never ferl good enough i feel like a lonely desperate cunt. I have 3 irl friends and I am not their closest friend. Im most likely just a friend, not a good friend or a bwst friend. I just stay home home home, rarely do i get invited to anything. Am I not likable? I have like 0 mystique or aura to me i feel like a sad pathetic gullible bastard. I will never have a bestfriend to build a Lego death star with.But to you anon, how the hell did you come in this predicament where this akward romantic tension started? How'd you guys become friends?
>>85261214>But to you anon, how the hell did you come in this predicament where this akward romantic tension started? How'd you guys become friends?Hi sorry for the late responseI made a post on /soc/ and she added me and I naturally became obsessed with her because I'm a dumb loser with bpd
>>85261214>Am I not likable? I have like 0 mystique or aura to me i feel like a sad pathetic gullible bastard. I will never have a bestfriend to build a Lego death star with.I'm not sure I don't have aura either but I have some very good friends I think personality is a cope all that matters is compatibility and time for example my two close friends I've known since middle school also physical stuff if you're looking for relationshipsI'm not sure what to say except that I'm in the same boat as you I'm trying to work on it even though I have people who care about me but I still feel like a burden and never good enough
>>85261060I understand how your feeling, I do this a lot but haven't put into words. Do you think you'll change someday?
