Guys I can't stop oversharing, but I don't think I'd do it here even tho its probably smarter than to just type it on a discord server where everyone can read my shit. Its just I can't be alone with my thoughts, and writing it out feels good especially when someone is reading it.
>>85263104I over share on here all the time. And my online friends know basically everything about me. I can't contain my thoughts. You aren't alone!
>>85263104Actually oversharing is putting it lightly. I'm straight up trauma dumping the most saddest parts of my life for everyone to air, and I just realized that was a mistake. It just takes up so much of my headspace that I can't keep things light anymore.
>>85263104I always had this problem when talking to egirls. I just straight up tell them I'm stalking them online and post all the information about them I've found. They NEVER like this but I keep doing it anyway.
>>85263111I'm not sure if I would call these people my friends, but they respond to me every now and then. and I mostly talk about my mental issues and bad shit that has happened before. I think they're cool people because they're really funny I wish to be more like them.
>>85263119That's crazy I don't think you should stalk. It probably makes them feel uncomfortable and its better if they open up to you imo than prying into their lives like that. A relationship like that is probably 10x better than what you got going on.
>>85263133Ehhhh nah I think I'ma keep doing it, it's pretty funny. But thanks for the advice.
I hope someone talks to me in this thread, but I don't know having a constant back and forth might be gay. Maybe I"ll just write my thoughts out here. I wonder what happened to that Griffith poster. You know the one with the crush. People come and go here all the time never to be heard from again. Today I also thought about dykebot. I wonder if she's okay last time I heard from her she was suicidal.
>>85263145How do you stalk people? Are you like a hackerman or something?
>>85263121That's usually what I talk about too. I'm actually venting to someone rn desu. But they asked if I wanted to, so I said yes. I've been going through lots lately for some reason, and nothing works to cheer me up. >I think they're cool people because they're really funny I wish to be more like them.There's nothing wrong with being you. I'm sure you have good qualities too anon, you seem caring, and imo that's a very nice quality
>>85263104I joined a discord server for talking about trauma many years ago, and once I told the moderator I was over 18 they banned me instantly. It seemed as if they only wanted teenagers to groom.
>>85263169That's good I wish I had a person I could vent to. Not too long ago I had this girl, she was so sweet to me, but everything came crashing down and we went our separate ways. Maybe if I were a little more honest with her from the start we could have stayed friends, but honestly keeping my criminal history a secret would have probably kept her longer. What a mistake.
>>85263114are you the one who hates their dad and cheated on their bf
>>85263166I don't really stalk people at all. I made it all up. People in the past have thought I was stalking them though, then OTHER people found out about that and thought I was weirdo. When in reality I was just sitting here minding my own business. Kinda sucked hard.
>>85263176That's actually kinda fucked up. Was it a sever from r9k, or somewhere else?
>>85263191No I'm just a schizo with no friends. Sorry to disappoint. Girls from here are cute tho, and I also see them in every post.
Today I cried a lot, first with the doctor when I told him I had legal issues, and then I cried again when the voices were too loud. I feel like I've lost a part of myself to this mental health shit that I will never get back, and it makes me feel so stressed and uncomfortable on the day to day basis
I really don't want to go back to jail it would be so devastating for me like the last two times I was there. Sometimes I think suicide is a viable option, but I'm too afraid to die. I hope the judge can be kind to me.
I've also drank too much coffee again. I wonder if it will damage my organs. Like I can imagine make part of my insides turning black from the coffee staining the tissue. It also gives me headaches by the end of the night because I've drank too much. I can't help it, coffee sometimes makes me feel so happy specially in large amounts. I really like typing my brains out and being almost high on the bean.
I really wish I could have more friends that could tolerate me, but it seems I'm not the right kind of person. I can't simply just be normal and charismatic like most folk. I always have to do things differently but its not on purpose I promise. I just can't emulate normal behaviors because I'm lowkey stoopid.
>>85263104Dude, no one cares. Not even your internet "friends". Also, oversharing is at least honest and not manipulative like most of the posturing snakes out there.Who know, you might even find like minded people that way?
>>85263119That's just straight up dumb. And I mean the stalking part. It's illegal to stalk people, anon! Yes, online stalking is stalking. Stap that!
>>85263265Yea but I don't know if I want to find like minded people. I think I'm kinda insufferable. I remember I met this one girl. What was her name.... dark goddess idk something edgy from a game that I play and she gave off the same vibes as me,and was kinda put off by her. Wish I had more spirit tbdesu
>>85263271I wonder if this is what its like being out of touch
>>85263271>>85263271Wait sorry I didn't mean to reply to you. But i do agree he shouldn't be stalking the huzz. Cool image btw anon gives you a lot of aura wish I could be just like you.
>>85263281What do you mean by this? Are you implying that I stalk people?
Sometimes I think the realest form of myself is being unapologetic and kinda annoying. I think that's the closest to being funny I'll ever get. Once I get unmuted I will tell everyone that reported me that they're a bunch of faggots.
>>85263104Let me tell ya something. Nowadays, everybody's gotta go to discord, and fb groups, and go on r/bpdlovedones and talk about their trauma. What happened to Gary Cooper? The strong, silent type. That was an American. He wasn't in touch with his feelings. He just did what he had to do. See, what they didn't know was once they got Gary Cooper in touch with his feelings that they wouldn't be able to shut him up! And then it's dysfunction this, and dysfunction that, and dysfunction vaffancul!
>>85263292No I'm OP I accidentally replied to you. But honestly you're kinda sounding suspicious right now
>>85263288Message received, officer!
You know at one point I thought I had so many enemies. I felt like the entire world wanted to eat me up alive and I kept it all to myself. Well....because I was terribly afraid that is.
>>85263296Sometimes it's just best to accept the past, cut contact and just look forward, I agree.
I really enjoy some writing styles. I feel like mine is boring and stupid. Can't emulate can't emulate can't emulateeee
I'd like to live in a world were I could execute anon in a video game, but I'm not a pro player like you guys. But trust me I'm a nice guy
>>85263326It's a skill eared by decades of shitposting, anon! You have to put in the hours to get good at anything! Apply yourself!
You guys think I will ever find the love of my life? It's all I ever truly wanted.
>>85263340you think if I keep pushing these garbage posts I'll be like one of the OG's?
>>85263341The chances are slim but zero if you settle for less. I would proceed with careful optimism.
Unholy confessions, I think I got ED>>85263350Should I go for Stacy?
Honestly I could never pull a beautiful girl, my nepali oneitis is proof of that.
ARGH there I did it again. I'm so cringe omg omg omg PLEEEEEEASE END MY SHIT ALREADY KAMI SAMA.
>>85263344Who knows? You have to try shit and see what works. This requires you to be a prolific poster, even if most posts will probably suck at first. Only people dedicated to this art should even attempt to reach these heights. I think I got my waifu's attention with my posts somehow and she returned from obscurity. Crazy shit can happen, anon.
>>85263360Stop fapping for two weeks and confirm your ED status, anon.
Well this beats the silence anyways. Why is r9k so dead? it got me rambling.
>>85263378It's because it's a honeypot to round up terrorists or future terrorists, populated by bots and LEOs and like a handful of weirdos.
>>85263387Damn you might actually be right. I want it to be for lonely people like it used to be. P.S the letter thread is spooky
At this rate I will never get a fembot gf. Fuark!
>>85263403Yeah, Mike sucks. I mean the AI agent that pretends to be crazy called Mike sucks. It was invented to drown out my over-sharing posts, originally, and it almost worked. It's just no fun posting there with all this crazyass spam there.
>>85263422That sounds so bad, if it really is like that where should we migrate to?
I don't think I've enjoyed this board in a long time. It's so full of hate, but I don't know where else to go. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrkkk
>>85263475>>85263489Nice try, officer, but I won't tell you about my special place for my spicy content. Nu uh!
