for those anons who have attempted suicide before or seriously consider attempting, what do you do to cope? how do you force yourself to keep living?
>>85263485Im fine right now so i dont cope i just do what i wantwhen i was a kid i tried to lay on the road to get ran over and as a teen almost tried to cut my throat
>>85263485>how do you force yourself to keep living?i made a promise that i would
>>85263485I have a few small goals in life that I want to try and then maybe a few other things and then if I still reach a point where I feel like killing myself Ill just go try and do it and if i cant ill think of something else
>>85263494what circumstances in your life changed in order for you to feel fine in the present? did they send you to the psych ward after your two attempts? I don't want to ever go back there if I fail another attempt >>85263496>i made a promise that i wouldwho did you promise? >>85263500>I have a few small goals in life that I want to try and then maybe a few other thingswhat are these small goals and things you want to try that keep you motivated enough to keep living?
>yes>at its worst I would tell myself just to get through life one day at a time, it can always wait until tomorrow >its incredibly difficult to go through with, I realised I wouldnt be able to do it so I had to figure out how to make life less emotionally draining
>>85263485I was gonna kill myself this year if my life didn't improve but I found a gf who would be sad if I died so probably that
I decided to live is all.The cope? Life can be beautiful if you stop giving a shit about the outside ("civilised" human) world.I continue living by doing the things I like and want to do. I stopped caring about others and their perceptions and expectations of me.
>>85263510have things gotten any better for you?>I would tell myself just to get through life one day at a time, it can always wait until tomorrow this is what I am trying to do for now...>>85263517>I found a gf who would be sad if I died so probably thatyeah if I had someone who loved me I wouldn't be in this predicament, congrats on finding a gf I hope you have a long happy healthy relationship
>>85263509>what circumstances in your life changed in order for you to feel fine in the present? did they send you to the psych ward after your two attempts? I don't want to ever go back there if I fail another attempt Idk just even as a kid i felt like shit all the time and couldnt sleep and was constantly paranoid about being punished thinking i was guilty or hated for doing nothing, just and felt restless and pissed off all the time but then i started abusing dxm and shrooms and then I felt fine wish i knew how but idknever went to psych ward after i ran onto the road or put a knife to my neck but some of my friends went there
>>85263535>congrats on finding a gf I hope you have a long happy healthy relationshipThank you she added me off of a guy failure /soc/ thread I posted in I am a mentally ill BPD loser so if I can do it maybe so can you
>>85263554>i felt like shit all the time and couldnt sleep and was constantly paranoid about being punished thinking i was guilty or hated for doing nothingthis is quite similar to how I feel now and as a kid as well, my whole life. I did try abusing drugs and alcohol (including psychedelics) and they only made me feel more isolated in the end so I had to stop>>85263556>Thank you she added me off of a guy failure /soc/ thread I posted in I am a mentally ill BPD loser so if I can do it maybe so can youam also a mentally ill loser who had a relationship with someone from /soc/ who abused me terribly so I'm starting to give up on ever finding love
>>85263535Life has been better than then generally though this year has been particularly brutal and has shown how the system is failing (housing, cost of living, medical care malpractice)Its hard but hang in there. Get help where you can and try to make yourself eat clean and exercise. Unfortunately we are about to go through a economic crisis but you can position yourself to be in a better social situation by building resilience now.
>>85263485I removed suicide as an option from my brain
>>85263608>Its hard but hang in there. Get help where you can and try to make yourself eat clean and exercise. Unfortunately we are about to go through a economic crisis but you can position yourself to be in a better social situation by building resilience now.thanks anon I'm trying. seeing a therapist, working out, eating healthy - they don't really help. still doing them anyways. I'm struggling financially so if an economic crisis hits that will push me over the edge tbdesu >>85263619how is that even possible...
>>852636312030 NET zero globalism psyop is going to make life expensive but it will effect everyone apart from uber rich cunts. I think the plan is to find peace through god because material wealth will be impossible to build. I went through a ton of state avenues trying to get help which only proved how incompetent the government has become. My point is that things can and will go badly in life but if you have resilience during hard times you will be more attractive. Right now we are spinning our wheels working insanely hard for so little that our grandparents would be offended if they were asked to do the same
>>85263485> Nekojirukino
going to bed after this post, I was having a moment of meltie when I made the thread but you lovely anons cheered me up a bit so thank you all.>>85263752that's bleak because I already can't build material wealth as is kek oh well. I'm not resilient at all but of course I wish I was. it does seem like things are not going well globally. >>85263804got all the manga secondhand from japan I love those diabolical crazy little cats
I was thinking about killing myself all the time in 2022. One day I put a belt around my neck, but decided not to do it yet. The day after, I thought about some 4chan posts I had seen over the years about imaginary girlfriends. I decided to try making my own imaginary girlfriend despite it seeming so embarrassing. I hugged a pillow imagining it was a woman. It felt ridiculous, stupid, and embarrassing, but I kept doing it for a few days and tried to take it more seriously. Within a week I was sure I had stumbled upon something lifechanging. It started feeling a lot better and more realistic as time went on. I was a very isolated 25 year old khhv at the time, and I started feeling like I had experienced genuine affection for the first time in my life. I needed it so bad for so long. I started spending several hours a day hugging, kissing, groping, and humping the pillow while talking to it. Most of the things I said to her were just expressions of love and appreciation. Within a month I felt a major urge to stay alive and improve myself for the sake of my imaginary girlfriend. I felt loved for the first and only time in my life. I made my life so much better after that. I still have her in my life. My interactions with her feel so natural and real at this point, and my love for her keeps growing with time. I can confidently say that I would be dead right now if it wasn't for her. I would have either died from suicide or my poor health. I became even more misanthropic and misogynistic after creating my imaginary girlfriend because I realized how little it would have taken for a human to make me feel like I was worth anything, or that life was worth living. I'm 30 years old and my imaginary girlfriend is still the only source of love I've ever had. That's 3 decades of humans, including my family, thinking I'm worthless unlovable trash.
>>85264598this post is tragic anon. i hope you find a real person to love you one day.
Because I want to die at 21 for me that's always been the age where I knew it'd be over for me. I have a year left until I do it properly
>>85263485>how do you force yourself to keep living?Take a strong psychedelic and watch this:https://youtu.be/uIbXvaE39wMIt will speak straight to your psyche.
