I am feeling bad and can't sleep, sleep is usually the only thing that makes me feel better. Looking at the lights is making my eyes hurt and making me nauseous. I can feel the vomit pulling at the back of my throat.Despite what I said in my last thread, I haven't completed anything I said I would. Haven't showered, didn't clean, haven't even gotten out of bed. I almost peed on myself earlier because I kept putting off having to get up, I did eventually force myself up and to the bathroom though. I have been laying in bed so much my mattress is starting to break, the springs inside the bed broke through the fabric and now stab and cut at my pants and legs as I lay down. But I still can't pull myself out of bed. I know it's disgusting and pathetic. I just don't know what to do. It feels pointless. Everytime I make myself get up I feel like I'm gonna pass out. I'm in so much pain rn. But I can't fall asleep because I'm too restless. But I don't want to get up and pace around, so my legs are just hurting from how restless I am. I told my boyfriend earlier about how bad I've been feeling lately. He wants me to tell more doctors and push them for some help. I don't go back to see them until a couple months though. I was gonna fix myself something to eat too but I am feeling too bad. Sorry for complaining, i just can't tell anyone irl all of this
I feel like a dead person. Being alive and being like this is so embarrassing.
Why do I have to be such a failure. Everything hurts so much
I do not know how to get better.
>>85264169im so sorry but get off 4chan and see a doctor and a therapist good luck
>>85264356I don't know how to make myself leave this place, I am like addicted to it. I see many doctors, but therapy did not work for me at all. I did everything they told me to do and it didn't help. Thank you for the luck
I don't know why but my heartbeat is very fast and very strong right now, I can feel it beating throughout my whole body. And dizzy and my body feels buzzy. Head hurts so much
>>85264413please get off this website girl
>>85264444I don't have anyone else to talk to about this
>>85264413Finally calmed down and I can breathe normal now
>>85264169>Everytime I make myself get up I feel like I'm gonna pass out.Well no shit, your blood circulation is probably fucked from laying around all day.Look at a youtube video about stretching and start with that for half an hour.Just being a fleshlight for your bf is not going to do it.
>>85264169This attitude isn't endearing and doesn't make anyone feel sorry for you, it's just incredibly annoying and obviously attention-seeking.
>>85265595>Look at a youtube video about stretching and start with that for half an hour.There's no where around my house where I can safely do them. I guess I could do them outside, but my neighbors might see. >Just being a fleshlight for your bf is not going to do it.We've never had sex before. Why does y'all's minds immediately go there? >>85265615And I don't care about how to feel about it. I already said I am doing this because I don't have anyone to talk to irl about this, so that is me admitting I am trying to talk to people, therefore get attention from them and have conversations so I feel less crazy. Did I say I was endearing? No, I said I was pathetic and disgusting. I know how I am. You can hide my thread instead of whining at me about stuff I've already admitted to
