no foid therapist, no tell-tell.

>>85265172
I'm traumatized from my first and only relationship where I had to compete with her 32 year old ex while we were 19 years old

oh hey it's that guy who needs to pretend he is qualified for something to cope with the fact that he's a retard with nothing going on.

>>85265176
Were you traumatized by fact that he had a better attribute than you or possbile sceniario in which she would leave you for him ?

>>85265177
Am not saying that you are coping but this ventilation that you had right now tells me theres something negative going on in your life.

>>85265172
I feel like my life has no value since I've never been loved by another human being, thus I wanna shorten it

>>85265172
You abandoned me mid session last time, you're a horrible therapist.

>>85265214
What if a human being can love you, but because you shortened it, you deprived yourself of potential value?

>>85265200
>I'm not saying you're doing this thing but I'm actually saying you're doing this thing heh >:)
see? coping retard who needs to pretend he's worth something but can't advise his way out of a paper bag.

>>85265226
My potential decreases at every moment because I've never been loved, as my situation would weird people out.
So I'm afraid that past a certain point the suffering will be too much (it's already unbearable desu) in comparison to a potential hope that never becomes reality whatever I try

>>85265219
That was part of my therapy Mr Anon,and i feel my abandoning you made you realized you secretly fear being alone,but dont worry nothing that common sense woudnt fix
>>85265214
But I have to know,do you go out,engage with people,try to make friends ? Or it is solely about being loved by x person ?
>>85265232
Mr Anon have it been a long time since you had an inner peace ?

>>85265249
I'm a literal wizard and halfway through into qualifying for archwizardom.
This advice doesn't work for me because of where I live in the world.
But, if you live in the west, can't you literally just use one of those numerous dating apps? If you've given up you can just be straight up and honest, write in your bio that you were never loved and that you're a khhv or whatever. You have nothing to lose and I assume some women might find the honesty inviting.

>>85265273
>part of my therapy
Bitch! I was discussing something with you and you just went "well time is up" 5 minutes in.
Your therapy methods are bad, and your non-existing license should be revoked.

>>85265298
Yes I remember Shit am late fucc anon,but I also remember how you never wrote your problems out there for me

>>85265273
> But I have to know,do you go out,engage with people,try to make friends ?
I do go out when possible and make efforts to socialize but it never amounts to anything real, only surface level
I'm known as someone capable, charismatic, yadayada, but it never really goes further than that, the surface

>Or it is solely about being loved by x person ?
It's not about being loved by a specific person (well not always, I do feel attraction to some people I actively want to become closer to)

I don't really mind just having a bunch of acquaintances and no real "true" friend, I'm used to it, but my lack of romantical life is very frustrating and depressing, I'm at the stage of my life where everything I do has no purpose because I can't share it with anyone else, and it makes every "accomplishment" bland and useless

>>85265332
Are you an llm? You have to tell me honestly. And if you're an llm posting here via human proxy you have to make that clear as well.

>>85265172
How do I stop being depress

>>85265298
>But, if you live in the west, can't you literally just use one of those numerous dating apps?
I already tried but with no success (close to zero matches, and zero date). I guess I'm not really beautiful or anything, and I feel like that's the main criteria on this kind of apps

>If you've given up you can just be straight up and honest, write in your bio that you were never loved and that you're a khhv or whatever. You have nothing to lose and I assume some women might find the honesty inviting.
I'm affraid to be spotted by someone that already knows me IRL, and to be ridiculized by my peers (be it colleagues, family, etc...).
There are only a few people who know that i'm a khhv, and some of them "betrayed" me and used this to hurt me. So I guess I'm trying to maintain my "normie" image in public to cope with my situation

>>85265377
Go hunting on /soc/ then, I don't know.
There has to be something to be done.
My options are limited but I refuse to give up and hate seeing other robots give up as well.

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>>85265351
adopt a positive minimalism lifestyle,starts dressing in mostly white,eat more meat with mustard
>>85265346
Sorry Anon we dont use slangs here
>>85265334
>I do go out when possible and make efforts to socialize but it never amounts to anything real, only surface level
>I'm known as someone capable, charismatic, yadayada, but it never really goes further than that, the surface

sounds to me like your spiritual levels are too low for you to enjoy these materealistic need,tell me Anon when was the last time you visited your grandparents on your own not because parents took you with them ?

>I'm at the stage of my life where everything I do has no purpose because I can't share it with anyone else, and it makes every "accomplishment" bland and useless

how repetative are your days and how do you feel about getting ghosted by everyone ? And at what age did you starts suffer from these thougths ? Also I would you to me write me a short paragraph of what would happened if you suddenly get that feeling of love from somebody and if yes would it fix all your mental problems that you have right now ?

>>85265416
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you stop making these thread you're a horrible doctor

>>85265419
Would you exist without your hate ?

>>85265416
> tell me Anon when was the last time you visited your grandparents on your own not because parents took you with them ?
I visit them almost every sunday, I love them

> how repetative are your days
I feel like I'm legit living in the groundhog day, each day is a time loop
> how do you feel about getting ghosted by everyone ?
I'm not really "ghosted" per se, people are well behaved and do the social minimum, but I can't seem to engage in deeper level conversation, or stuff that matters, because they become bored and I don't want to impose my autism to them (I can read the room)
>at what age did you starts suffer from these thougths ?
Maybe around 11, my real first disapointments, but the feeling of time running out and my value plummeting really started when I entered my 20's
> I would you to me write me a short paragraph of what would happened if you suddenly get that feeling of love from somebody and if yes would it fix all your mental problems that you have right now ?
If I felt love coming from someone else, then it would mean somebody recognized I had some kind of value to them. It would probably help me liking myself better, as well as to finally be a part of humanity and be able to share moments, feelings of joy, love, be intimate with someone, create a family, have an ally in life as well as to be an ally in someone else's life...
I mean, the human is a social creature, and being so lonely makes me feel like I'm not really human and that I can't access the basic aspects of what human life is about. For some people, all this stuff might be as easy as it is to pour yourself some orange juice and drink it, for me it's a mystery I don't even have the hope to touch someday.
So yes, I guess being loved could probably fix my loneliness and me feeling so ostracized from life as a whole

>>85265508
>I feel like I'm legit living in the groundhog day, each day is a time loop
Do you have a journal,require one you see writing is reflection of one self

>I'm not really "ghosted" per se, people are well behaved and do the social minimum, but I can't seem to engage in deeper level conversation, or stuff that matters, because they become bored and I don't want to impose my autism to them (I can read the room)

Do you sometimes feel you want to engage in deep conversations but something inside tells you to shut up or you feel like people around you arent your blood type ?


>Maybe around 11, my real first disapointments, but the feeling of time running out and my value plummeting really started when I entered my 20's

Lets imagine for second that there would be some kind of demon who would give you an offer to relive your life entirely but you could make changes would you take it ? But you see every moment,every good or bad,every anger,happy od sad feeling that you would have in that life would be identical to tho those you have in this would you still take it ?


>If I felt love coming from someone else, then it would mean somebody recognized I had some kind of value to them.

I fear you are trapped in believe that you and every person on this earth must have it own mission,meaning,point to have some will to live (if you must) but those are only social structures created for demorization.

>>85265508
Every action you choose in this life you choose for all time for eternity

>>85265608
>Do you have a journal,require one you see writing is reflection of one self
I don't, I tried in the past but it was kind of cringe, I prefer writing fictionnal stories (when I am motivated to do so)

>Do you sometimes feel you want to engage in deep conversations but something inside tells you to shut up or you feel like people around you arent your blood type ?
It's not something inside, it's something I read on the other one's face, his body language, expression, I can see when I'm being autistic and boring someone, so I make it short and stop / start another subject

>Lets imagine for second that there would be some kind of demon who would give you an offer to relive your life entirely but you could make changes would you take it ?
I feel like nobody on earth would say no to the proposition itself, it's everyone's dream to turn back time, but it's not realist so it would not really be healthy to dwell on this scenario too much.
Besides, the one proposing it is a demon, meaning a cringe entity ultimately plotting for my demise, so I wouldn't trust it and refuse anyway.

>But you see every moment,every good or bad,every anger,happy od sad feeling that you would have in that life would be identical to tho those you have in this would you still take it ?
I might be retarded because I don't understand what this phrase means. If you're telling that ultimately, this "other life" would feel equally as bad as my current one but in other ways, well it would surely be harder because I didn't learn to cope with it as much as in my current life

> I fear you are trapped in believe that you and every person on this earth must have it own mission
Well it's everyone's choice I guess, if some don't need goals and are okay just vibing through life, it's ok and they have every right to do so.
But personnally, my loneliness makes me sad and I would love to achieve goals with someone sharing my life

>>85265723
>I prefer writing fictionnal stories (when I am motivated to do so)
If you wrote a fictional story about you what would your life looked like and what would your average day be like ?

>it's something I read on the other one's face, his body language, expression
At some point they were like but they spiritually died and got used to their 24/7 routine its possible something similiar will going to happen to you if you dont change your mentality

>>85265723
>I feel like nobody on earth would say no to the proposition itself, it's everyone's dream to turn back time, but it's not realist so it would not really be healthy to dwell on this scenario too much.
>Besides, the one proposing it is a demon, meaning a cringe entity ultimately plotting for my demise, so I wouldn't trust it and refuse anyway
whats your dating life like ?

>>85265723
>ultimately, this "other life" would feel equally as bad as my current one but in other ways

ultimate you would end up in the same life position over and over again,you will old and still be waiting for that day when everything changes for you,you got stuck in loop by age 11,you already had this feeling at age 8-9,by age 13-18 it hit you like truck that everybody around you have a perfect lives the way they wanted (they dont) while you are here stuck in the same loophole since 11,now in your 20s you are still waiting for that 1 day when everything will change for you for better but if you leave book empty it will stay empty


>>85265723
>loneliness makes me sad and I would love to achieve goals with someone sharing my life
yes this will be connected to my question about your dating life/dating mistakes and dating future,possible thought of having children and leaving legacy.

>>85265862
>If you wrote a fictional story about you what would your life looked like and what would your average day be like ?
Some kind of isekai slop, or even a slice of life, as long as I would have companionship

>whats your dating life like ?
I never had a gf or any kind of relationship with someone, I'm a khhv. I only had 1 date in my life, it went kind of well in appearance, but she ghosted me at the end. Maybe she just wanted free food, maybe she just wasn't "charmed", maybe I wasn't the one in her eyes, I will never know the truth, and it doesn't really bother me I guess.
I know that quickly after this date she found someone and she is happy with him, good for them I guess.

>everybody around you have a perfect lives the way they wanted (they dont)
I never pretended they did, I only said that for some people it is way simpler to be loved than it is for others (me included). Everyone has their fair share of problems in life, I'm not delusional.

>now in your 20s you are still waiting for that 1 day when everything will change for you for better but if you leave book empty it will stay empty
I fill my book, I have a pleasant job, talk to people, live a comfortable life, but I'm the only character of my story. There is no one else but me, alone. I tried many times to take action but can't change it in the end.

>>85265947
Are you looking for deep friendship or loveship,you think your personality cant set people off ? Are you physically atractive ? What you think that you are missing but everybody else had it to make it easier for them to obtain love ? And if what are some blocking points in your life stopping you from getting love ?