Found a new coping strategy for being a loser - ACCEPTING ITlemme explainSo I tired to kill myself in April. Since then ive been medicated and life has been fucking grey all around. I have like "everybody hates chris" level of misfortune come my way and I used to ask all these meaningless questions. "Why me? Why cant I be normal? Why dont I fit in? How come im all alone all the time?" From co-workers talking shit about me, to people at my uni not wanting to be around me, I used to let every little thing that happened to me push me further into my own skullThat was until about 2 weeks ago when I had the best idea ever. Stop fighting the negativity. Now it sounds weird and idk if it was gonna work BUT HOLYSHIT I FEEL LIKE A HUMAN BEING AGAIN.I fully accepted like FOR REAL accepted that yes, I am in fact a loser. It took a little to get there had to say daily affirmations lol but now that it is ingrained in me I feel 1000 times happier. The other day one of my uni classmates called me a fag for wearing a pink shirt that said future milf on it and I didnt even say anything back. I didnt even fully realize until I got in the car after and I was like "oh yea". The was just pointing out a fact. Its like saying the grass is green. Its a statement theres 0 emotion behind it. Another example my co-worker said what with all this weird anime shit on ur desk, arent u embrassed by it (I have one csm statue on it lol). I fully said yea and put my headphones back on. LIKE WHAAAAAAAT 2 weeks ago I would've mental boomed over that. This has also fixed my feelings of chronic loneliness and despair for a new gf or friends. Like im a loser I dont get to have those things. I dont yearn anymore whenever I get horny I goon tf out, I spend my free time drawing and im making a manga now. This is the best I might have ever felt and the first time im not constantly miserable with myself Am I retarded probably but acceptancemaxxing is my life line
>>85266603Should I eat a turkey and cheese sandwich? Should I add ranch or mustard to it?Should I airfry it?
>>85266603nice job anon, you reached the last stage of grief: acceptance. just let the river take you where it goes
>>85266603Sorry it is like that for you. I would not be satisfied if I had that low self esteem like you. I'm very accomplished and love who I am. That confidence and high self esteem I feel is important to have.
