I am not a saint but I was never really a bad person and I grew up in a good home and wasn't bullied that much but I still ended up alone. (attachment theory doesn't apply to me) The potential of the seed is never reached because there was no ground to plant it on and no water to make it grow. This is the tragedy of my condition. If I was given an opportunity I would have friends and a life by now. The fact I still have decades of suffering this loneliness without release hurts to a point I can't even enjoy the present because I don't feel alive and things that could make me feel alive are not possible. I am a prisoner of the will that can't be satisfied.
>>85268681I see. That really sucks. Do you think you can take any action to change?