So basically to give a really long story short. From the ages of 12 to 16 I was in an extremely u healthy relationship with a 22 year old (when we met) he was the first person I ever sent nudes too and I got really badly manipulated and all the normal awful grooming stuff. And I'm 19 now but I still find myself missing him. I hate him with my guts but I miss it. Idk he definitely is a cause for my kinks now. He would send me a lot of corn and sissy hypno told me to dress as a femboy and stuff. And for some reason even though it was degrading to be sent born randomly in the day or he would order me to go to the bathroom and take a video of my fi gearing myself and other stuff like that. I miss it idk, Definitely need therapy and shit
>>85270022You aren't weird. You would fit within the norm.
>>85270022Is you gay
>>85270022This thread is likely made by a pedo trying to justify fucking kids lol
Grooming is never one sided. I think the victims need to take accountability too
>>85270420I just realised that. Yeah this is kinda fucked LOL
>>85270422to a degree, kind of. it is more the kid's guardians' fault than the kid's, though. the adult has all the social training and cognitive experience in the relationship. the adult is much more capable of being aware of their actions and the consequences and severity of the crime. all of this leads to a manipulation of a child's freewill, via an outside source nudging them in a direction the kid can't see, themself. it usually happens because the kid isn't loved by their parents, so they seek "love" elsewhere, and the adult can convince them of whatever definition of "love" they want.
>>85270022im epstein diddy blud and im here to have more fun with you.
>>85270468OP was asking for it. Simple as
>>85270526do you remember how stupid you were at 12 years old?
>>85270538>do you remember how stupid you were at 12 years old?i got molested for years starting at 6 by my cousin. by 12 i was going on backpage meeting up with grown women them knowing my age
>>85270552and you blame yourself for that?
nope, this is common for people abused or manipulated at younger ages. happens nearly 80% of the time, happened with me.i hope youre at least somewhat better off now than thenbased image
>>85270538Nope>>85270552Wtf? Why were you teasing him bro. Kind of fucked up for you to egg him on like that
>>85270556with my cousin yes. with the women no because they saw what i looked like before and i looked like I was 10 and was like 5'0 flat. and it was always in motels
Hey it's op. And I just got outta workBut yes I was dumb at 12 years old but as a kid I was really into like older people (as most young people are) and I thought I could trust him. At first it was ok, I knew it was wrong but I didn't wanna tell my parents about it because i knew they would get mad at me. So I hid the relationship and we were never officially dating in until a year into it. After the first year and a half I would say is when things really got weird. When we met we would just talk abt anise and games and stuff. I would talk to him at girls and he told me to lookup porn and stuff to "help me" and he would sometimes send me weird messages like "do you ever wish you were born a girl" and shi like that. It wasn't until around a year and a half to 2 years of us dating/talking when he really got sexual with me. And he started demanding things and telling me if I didn't do what he said he would find my house and call my parents. So I just complied, I think in the beginning of it I was to blame for not telling my parents but the more it went on it was just blackmail and manipulation.
>>85270569>Why were you teasing himit wasnt a him she was 6 years older than me lol
>>85270564He wasnt abused doeHe was always a fag clearlyI bet he loved it lmao
>>85270590you were 6. how could you possibly blame yourself for that? you were experiencing something you couldn't even begin to understand, even if you tried. man, that's fucked. none of that is your fault. have you ever done any research into how sexual trauma works? you had your sex hormones turned on early. that was completely out of your control.
>>85270603Ok and You probably enjoyed it>>85270599You too
>>85270614It is all his fault and he brought it upon himself, he is correct to blame himself
>>85270622I hope they check your hard drives.
Guys not to say something controversial but they are we blaming the victims so much when the ADULTS who KNOW BETTER are the ones who groomed and knowingly did sexual acts and usually forced themselves on the kids are WAYYY more to blame>>85270622Also at the time I felt helpless and trapped into a dopamine cycle where when he asked me to do sexual favors I felt happy and wanted but then he would tell me I'm shit and no one would ever love me or like me and how everyone else thinks I'm ugly. Causing me to try and defend myself and plea for his love as he would usually ghost me or say "if you love me than [instert weird fetish here] and send me pics and vids" I was not enjoying that. I stayed cuz i was a dumb kid who was being tormented by an adult playing with my feelings just to get off
>>85270654I can assure you they will find literally nothing except for some very mild gore>>85270673You were in love with him and he loved you seemed like a normal relationshipWhat were you wearing when you dated him did he make you dress in risque stuff or something
>>85270022Unironcally this is sadly why you cant date women or men I guess who were raped. They will always like the abuser more it will forever be more erotic
>>85270696don't answer this freak. he is trying to get off to your trauma.
>>85270708? No, Im just being sarcastic. Obviously grooming is horrible.
>>85270704>They will always like the abuser more it will forever be more eroticIt's not that is it forever erotic, it is just an ingrained psychological response, and has nothing to do with them being unable to move on from the abuser. And it is just until they heal the abuse, which is 100% possible. Once they start healing a little, then they flip 180 degrees and become full disgusted by the circumstances. What OP is going through is a complex psychological cope. It is able to dismantled, though.
>>85270022So getting groomed and abused as a kid turned you prison gay? Or do you think you were always gay?
>>85270696Dude... I'll give you the basic shi. He would just ask me to wear really weird and slutty stuff and take pics for him and then under my clothes when going to school or going out he would tell me to wear a bra and panties. He would order them for me and deliver it to my house and I had to hide it. Other than that he was really ibto public shit and I'm not going further into depth. There was alot more shit and really weird stuff that pervs like you prob get off too (although being honest its definitely kinks of mine now yay trauma). I just sont get why you blame the 12 year old for getting manipulated by the person a DECADE older than them
>>85270762Thats really really messed up wow. Well im sorry you got raped OP I was just joking I hope you feel betterMaybe you can find a healthy bf to help you with your trauma and stuff
>>85270739Thank you? Tbh I'm not too sure how to respond. But thank you fir acknowledging that I have trauma and it's complex going through it.>>85270752I'm pansexual now and as a kid I was always curious about both genders and stuff
>>85270800Thank you, I haven't had any luck yet. Almost got raped by a grinder date tho so yay. But I have had some girlfriends and boyfriends who have helped me heal alot of my trauma and gave me new wounds as well lol
>>85270022how I feel u, similar thing happened to me
