>spent 20s learning programming>just as I leave uni job market goes to shit and getting a job became impossible>ok, I didn't really like programming anyway, I'll turn to multimedia which is what I enjoy doing>learned video editing, design, motion graphics and 3D only to realize that all these areas are just as dead as programmingwhen I was a teen I was depressed and hated doing anything, when I got to my 20s I locked in and spent almost 1 decade doing nothing but learning and practicing different things in order to get a job and attempt to fix my life, I just wanted to get the bare minimum of a job that I enjoy and isn't minimum wage.But it was all for nothing. no matter what I try I seem to always choose the wrong thing, I feel like a criminal or a drug addict, the things that I enjoy working on are all useless, now I'm alone, no job, no future, just another decade wasted studying useless things while the few people around me call me delusional, lazy or useless even though I've spend the last 4 year creating things every single day in blender, after effects and whatever other software I can get my hands on. I try to post often in social media and I get compliments on what I do but its still not enough to get accepted into the few job openings at this point I'm close to giving up, I dont want to start from 0 again and I don't want to spend my life in minimum wage hell, might as well just die now
>gets fucked over by the fake and gay educaton and career memes>didn't work while in school to build job experience>doesn't learn from the experience and does it AGAIN
>>85295574I fell for the lies that the adults around me fed me, and now I'm repeating everything because I don't have any other optionsI've tried applying for internships in multiple places and got rejected by everything. it's basically impossible to get a job that isn't a factory job
