32 years old.I haf sex, once, when I was 17 or 18. Shitty and short because it was my first time.Nothing since. Not even a kiss. Or a non platonic hug. Never feeling seen or wanted.Just looked through and passed up. All with the usual shit, oh you'd be such a catch, your so nice, such a good listener, funny, nice eyes whatever the fuck people say.Meanwhile there sre people half my age fucking with higher body counts already having better lives.Would it be more pathetic if I was a virgin, or is it more pathetic that I had sex for 30 seconds once and haven't been touched since.I never could see a future for myself or had a plan for my life.But really... this. I don't even have money to distract myself. It seems like literally everyone else is living more than I am. And nothing is gonna change that.Doesn't matter if i hit the gym and got jacked. I'm short. Depressed, no confidence, and how the fuck would I have any. Why would I.I'm so fucking tired of it all. Try to be a good person, and you just get used, ignored and thrown away.Women only want assholes thar abuse them no matter what they say. They'll chose someone abusive and manipulative who makes them cry on purpose. And I can't make myself shitty enough to be wanted.I should just kill myself but I don't even have the balls or confidence to do that. Could at least find a way thst would leave some organs salvagable as a donor but I bet those wouldn't be wsnted and just thrown out too.Even if someone did give me a shot I'd just be a pathetic disappointment. Love doesn't exist anymore. What's left for me now. Sloppy seconds and women who were shouts and whored themselves out to shallow assholes gor the past decade, and if I want something, I find someone aging out desperate to grab the last available branch, but always resenting me for not being what they used to have.The modern world is fucked.
what do you look like? do you want kids? sell yourself a bit, im sure id give you a chance.
>>85295297There's nothing to sell. No point opening up. No point wanting or trying to think about what will.never happen.Did once recently for the first time in, well, maybe ever. Because I was stupid enough to forget what I was and feel shit. Not anything irl even. But it didn't matter. She chose the wolrds biggest most abusive asshole.I'd be happy if she had found someone who actually csred and valued her but it just proved how fucking awful and shitty women are.No matter what they say they want, or what they say in general. You can't trust any of it.Wouldn't have worked for lots of reasons but still, I forgot.But now I'm reminded again, 3xcept inforgot how fucking alone I was and how shitty everything was, not fully, but I forgot most of it.And now yeah, my only option is is to pick through the resentful scraps of humanity if i want to try to stomach someone who made those same shitty choices over and over again.Living a normal life doing all the shit I missed out on for decades.And even then, the level of desperate someone would have to be to pick me. To put up with zeronexpetience or ability to please while they're daydreaming about the assholes and jerks they fucked like animals before.I missed out on everything.
>>85295364well i came back to just say you wouldnt want me anyways so yeah mute point both ways, have a good night
>>85295283>>85295364you talk too much
>>85295283>>85295364youll find someone who you can share love with some dayhang in there bud, im sorry things are so tough<3
