Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supporthelllo all>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
cool helpful links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>85391898aargh #753 actually
>>85391898hi catbro! slow thread, it seems. but what you gonna do. it's friday, after all. :> what did you do today? i just went to work and played a bit of mortal shells 2. played the demo and it was fun enough, so i decided to buy it. art direction is very inspired by zdzislaw beksinski, but that's not very original at this point, i feel.>>85391909just gotta remember to skip 754 next time.
>>85392391helloI just chilled today and played zelda, didn't really do anything besides that>was fun enough, so i decided to buy it.woaa, hopefully you keep enjoying it
>>85385925>its chill n cozy to hang with old ppl n listen to their life storiesthe poor sod who has to listen to my stupid stories one day... what's the best one you've heard so far?>finally got blur and rounded corners to workthat looks really nice. well done. how long did it take you?>tiling window manager is amazinghad to look up what that is, but sounds interesting.>making a big fluffy pillow! :Dfor sleep or for cuddling?>its life, theres nothing much to say igtrue. you've experienced quite a lot of that already.>>85386211>not really other than feeling distressed in the middle of the night because i think i hate myself a lot for multiple reasonsi guess that's enough of a reason. did it at least diatract you from those thought?>>85392465>I just chilled today and played zeldahow's the game and how far into it are you?>hopefully you keep enjoying itsame. the buggest hurdle is, as always, the open world aspect. they just tell you to get eggs (mcguffin) and shells (different characters you can switch between) and that's about it. have to make my own goals and motivations. today i went into what is basically a dungeon and killed the boss. a fat, ugly lady in a combat wheelchair. really didn't like her design.
>>85392640>game and how far into it are you?I'm enjoying myself :]I'm idk 3hours into it>to make my own goals and motivations.hmis that common in those types of games?>really didn't like her design.D:
>I'm idk 3hours into itso not that that far, i think. no clue how long the game is, though. never finished it. >is that common in those types of games?soulslikes are usually on the lighter side when it comes to the story, so you have to figure a lot of things out yourself. can be fun, but sometimes i feel a bit lost. happened to me in lords of the fallen as well. that game is a lot lore linear in that regard, but i had problems figuring out if i was going the right direction more often than not.>D:happens. i think it was supposed to be funny, but the joke didn't land. hope i like the other bosses more.going to sleep now. i'm very tired. gn.
>>85393042goodnyaght!!
>>85391898Hallu /cat/, whats up with you? Nice to see the thread still going strong.>How are you doing today?Pretty alright, spent the day reading and playing games, will probably spend the night drinking in my room.>Any plans for today?Reading, lots of it. I have to finish reading a book from the library before fees start pile up, and theres also 8 hours of required reading for some CPR course i'm doing.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?8ish months ago? A little before last time I posted here I'd guess. >Why did you hurt yourself?Probably frustration with being directionless, but it's too long to recall why for sure.>Is there anything bothering you right now?At present, my friends mostly. It's less a dislike out of anything they've done, but more that whenever I'm around them I feel like my own sense of self is being dissolved. Hard to explain, it feels like I only know my thoughts are truly my own if I'm alone...>>85392391Hallo yuanon, whats up? Also random ask, but have you seen the summer hikaru died? I ask because I remember speaking here about BL ages ago with you.>but that's not very original at this point, i feel.Pretty true, it feels like every other day some studio is pumping out games riffing off it and soulslikes. I still haven't beaten any myself....
>>85391898what do i do when the depression cuts too deep? When almost nothing cheers me up? I feel this void open up inside of me and I don't know how to crawl out. Sometimes it gets so bad that I want to kill myself.I just want to be happy again.
really sleepy>>85393560>>85393671hey hey hey guys :Dbeen a while ^^>>85393560>whats up with you?not much to say desu everything is the same >reading and playing games, will probably spend the night drinkingsounds like a good chill timeglad you can enjoy yourself in peace>>85393671sorry friend, I really don't know what would be the best thing or the correct thing to dodo you think it's something you can wait out? only other thing I can think of is getting meds but Idk how much do they hellWhy are brains so damn wired
>>85392640>the poor sod who has to listen to my stupid stories one day.tskkk its gonna be finee>what's the best one you've heard so far?there isnt really a best, cuz they were all sad or effed up. one grandma told me everything how she spent her childhood during ww2. that was... sad to hear. >that looks really nice. well done<3>how long did it take you?bit less than a week, setting a new one up rn tho. switching from DWM to Hyprland but imma keep the old one asw>for sleep or for cuddling?yas>true. you've experienced quite a lot of that already.yurp, n shit went down today. again.
quick lil bump before heading off
bump in the Early night cause can't sleep
>>85392640>did it at least diatract you from those thought?for a bit afterwards weirdly i felt a bit calmer or however i should be describing, as if i was deliberately trying to ignore the things that make me distressed
hey everyone hope youre alright, any plans for today?
>>85391898>Why did you hurt yourself?I can't find any meaning in life absolutely none at all. I don't act the way I want to and I'm completely repressed; I can't be who I am (and I'm not even entirely sure who that is), plus so many other things :(
Good morning one cute twink bf who cuts himself please
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>>85397886hey anon >can't find any meaning in lifepersonally I don't think there has to be oneYour meaning might be trying to enjoy whatever short time you have on this earth >don't act the way I want tohow would you like to act?>not even entirely sure whohmm ever visited a therapist?>>85397890out of stock
>>85397886Why do you feel like you can't be yourself?
>>85393750>been a while ^^Has been. Time moves fast online, I started posting here a year ago last summer, but it feels like much less. Think it's an internet thing.>>85393671Halli okabe>>85397685Same as yesterday, no drinking though. I try to keep it to once a week at the most. What about you?>>85397886>I don't act the way I want to and I'm completely repressedI used to (and still kinda do) have this feeling. For myself, it was caused by me fearing rejection if I pivoted too hard from what others saw to be my real self. Maybe it's something like that.
Hi friends, sorry I missed a few threads, been busy. I think about all of you even when I'm not here though!
>>85398818heya >Think it's an internet thing.it's the same for me irl thing go by so darn fast>no drinking thoughgood>What about you?I played zelda okarina of time, went on a little walk and mapped a little bit Just a good day overall I'd say>>85399249hello o/>been busygood busy or bad?>even when I'm not here though^^
im scareda little>>85397886i feel you
>>85400455hey why r u scared?
>>85393560hey togata! :D>whats up?not much. working, working out, clinging to whatever scraps of sanity remain. the usual. read fire punch and had a really good time with it.>have you seen the summer hikaru died?i've seen a couple of episodes, but stopped for some reason. really big fan of the manga, but haven't caught up with that, either. will do that at some point, though. how do you like it?>I still haven't beaten any myself....lord if the fallen is quite good now and pretty close to the original dark souls experience. mortal shells 2 is more of an open world game with everything that comes with it. like, i hardly ever find a good point to end the session and just stop at some point because it starts grinding my gears. not a bad game at all, but i always have to get over the fact that there's nothing that motivates me to get back into it.>>85393671for me it's one of two things: hiding under a blanket or working out. usually helps me until morale improves eventually. you might try to stop distracting yourself by engaging with any sort of media. endure the boredom until your brain adjust to it.>>85394364>its gonna be fineeit better be! they're getting paid to listen to my bs. >:[>they were all sad or effed up. one grandma told me everything how she spent her childhood during ww2. that was... sad to hear.true. my grandmother had some of those as well. like they found a guy who was operating a flak and the only way they were able to identify him was because of the hat lying next to him. she always told that in way that it was funny, but when you stop to think about it, it really wasn't.>bit less than a week, setting a new one up rn tho.that doesn't sound too bad when you have something that's exactly how you want it by the end. why change to something else immediately, though? D:>yasthat will be one comfy yvki this fall :0>shit went down today. again.damn. what happened?>>85395991hi gator! thanks for the bump. :>
>>85396778>>85396778>i felt a bit calmer or however i should be describing, as if i was deliberately trying to ignore the things that make me distressedi think a lot of people do it for that reason. giving you an immediate problem to focus on, so everything else get blocked out. glad it helped you with that.>>85397685>any plans for today?finally went out for my workout again, just for it to start raining as soon as we started. didn't stop us, though. then i played a bit more ms2 and now i'm here, chilling and watching a stream.>>85399249hope it was a good busy.>>85400455oh noes D: why?
>>85400894hello >start raining as soon as we started.D:it seems like now is either rain or heatwave How was it?>played a bit more ms2 had fun?>watching a stream.what r they playing?
when I see one of you guys in public im so grossed out, why can't you cover up your arms? is it a cry for help to show off your scars?
>>85401113i always cover my arms, couldnt be me
>>85401109>it seems like now is either rain or heatwavetrue. not much in between, but today was kinda chilly.>How was it?not that bad. we had started anyway, so no reason to stop. worst thing was that the sandbag got heavier as the rain continued. need to dry it out now as well.>had fun?yeah, but it's also mentally draining. just a lot of running around and double checking because i don't want to miss anything.>what r they playing?it's their 400th stream, so they're doing a 24 hour stream with different guests watching and commenting on youtube video essays. it's as exhausting as it sounds.>>85401113>is it a cry for help to show off your scars?i don't think so. there've been some customers with scars at my store over the years. recently it was a woman around my age. i'd argue they just try to make their peace with it. not sure what it is to you.
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i just want to die so fucking bad everything i do is fucking a waste of space im such garbage i can't do anything right, i can't even call my friends without them just wanting to leave, i hate everything i do is awful i literally can't do anything right i tried cutting as deep as i could eailer and i couldn't even go into fat or whatever just fucking useless, the worst part is when i was on the call i was so fucking happy but the second the call ended i realized how retareded I was the whole time and how he probably hated me and never wants to talk to me again because i ruin everything. so i immediately became depressed the second the call ended. I'm so fucking useless something is wrong with me
>>85399904>it's the same for me irl thing go by so darn fastIt slowed down for me in college since it so dredging, that and I was always doing something new. Days are back to blending together since graduation...>I played zelda okarina of time, went on a little walkIt's next on my list. Last game I played was the original Metal Gear Solid 3. The whole series has been Solid so far, really love the second game. >mapped a little bitI checked the gamebanana since you mentioned it, your mapping skills have way improved!!! I'll download play the latest ones when I'm at my desktop.>>85400849>working, working outI've been slacking off on these....>read fire punch and had a really good time with it.Awesome, what was your favorite part of the manga? I think the part where Agni gives into his anger and kills Doma stands out to me. Really a good show of characters and how Agni beholden to his emotions. That, and Togatas scene after the bat man ousts them.>how do you like it?Seriously good. I love how fluid the dynamic between Yoshiki and Hikaru is, a lot of bl rely heavily on the seme/uke archetypes which boxes characters in, which TSHD dies avoids completely. Also I think the instability in their relationship works well with the horror elements to give romance that actually keeps my eyes to the screen. Normally this genre disinterests me, so I'm surprised to like it so much.>pretty close to the original dark souls experienceI think it'd make a little more sense to play the souls games before the souls likes lol, I feel this goes double for metroidvanias too.>>85401912>sandbagsRucking?>>85401113I keep them to my chest to avoid any looks.
>>85403205you are depressed and need to see someone for help
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Hurt myself first time today. Took a lighter to the palm of my hand. It hurt a lot and I was being a pussy. Idk why I did it because my life is fine. I'll be back if I do it again
>>85403205>i can't even call my friends without them just wanting to leavehonestly, calls can be kinda exhausting in general. doesn't mean it has anything to do with you specifically.>i couldn't even go into fat or whateverno need to. it's better if you stay superficial anyway.>i was so fucking happy but the second the call ended i realized how retareded I was the whole timehm. maybe next time you can try to just tone it down a notch. that said, i think you're obsessing a lot over realities you created in your head that might not have happened the way you feel about them.i'm not sure if it's only depression, but anon here >>85404417 is right. you need to honestly talk to a professional about your issues.>>85403945>I've been slacking off on these....you'll get around again eventually. just don't let it slide for too long. or just do easier stuff in the meantime. can't co all out all the time.>what was your favorite part of the manga?i really enjoyed the ending, but i've thought of a similar story before, so i'm a bit biased in that regard. also enjoyed the fight between agni and sun a lot. everything had a somewhat logical conclusion as far as these mentally damaged characters go. good stuff.>That, and Togatas scene after the bat man ousts them.yeah, that was also a good one. though sometimes fujimoto is a bit blunt with these topics, which makes me laugh in moments i'm probably not meant to.
>>85403945>a lot of bl rely heavily on the seme/uke archetypes which boxes characters ini think it's a horror/mystery story that happens to feature at least one gay character it's hard to say hikaru is, since he's not even human ^^', so it doesn't really adhere to any of the tropes and figures of the bl genre. i think they marketed it as such in the beginning, but dropped the tag at some point, which might be for the best. the tropy bl stuff has it's place, but that's more of a guilty pleasure most of the time than anything actually good. >the horror elements to give romance that actually keeps my eyes to the screen.i think the show might be the better version of the story overall. the manga was supposed to conclude after 3 volumes, if i remember correctly, but since it was a huge success the publisher wanted more, so you have a lot of meandering chapters while they tried to figure out where to take the plot, so the pacing is way better in the show.there was also a lot of back and forth in the fanbase about if yoshiki/hikaru is a thing or not, which annoyed me so much i dropped the show and manga for the time being. i'll get back to it, though >Normally this genre disinterests me, so I'm surprised to like it so much.i like the idea of horror/mystery shows, but i agree that most are complete shit and don't know how to handle the mystery element if their life depended on it. there was another creepy bl story someone recommended me a while ago. i'll see if i can remember the name.>it'd make a little more sense to play the souls games before the souls likes lolprobably, but the older ones can be a bit clunky, so it could be a good entry to start with something like dark souls 3 or eldenring and work your way backwards. >I feel this goes double for metroidvanias tootrue, but the only vania you need to play is symphony of he night, since that's the only one that follows that formula. the other castlevanias are way more linear experiences.
>>85406024>It hurt a lot and I was being a pussynobody here thinks that you are. or that hurting yourself is a good metric for that for that matter.>Idk why I did it because my life is fine. I'll be back if I do it againhmm. that's odd. just keep an eye on how the situation develops, ok? if you can, get some fresh aloe vera to treat the burn. work wonders in my experience
>>85391898>>How are you doing today?tired, drained, and unable to move.>>Any plans for today?just watching chainsmoker cat.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?By job applications either don't get back to me or want an unpaid assignment. it's really getting to me.>>85403205hi gator>i was so fucking happy but the second the call ended i realized how retarededi thin this is a normal experience. sometimes enjoyment is one sided and it feels like a lie when you realise it. I think you're more concerned then the other person.>>85401912hi yu>but it's also mentally draining. just a lot of running around and double checking because i don't want to miss anything.it's a lot of exertion. it gets you down even when its fun.>so they're doing a 24 hour stream with different guests watching and commenting on youtube video essaysdamn sounds like a crazy all nighter.captca did not like me today
hey guys!went on a bike ride, I'm back now but a little tirerI think I'll gonna game a little and then nap
>>85407503hi cynic! :]>tired, drained, and unable to move.same. what got you? work?>just watching chainsmoker cathm. one is a coincidence, two is a pattern. maybe i should check it out, too.>either don't get back to me or want an unpaid assignment. it's really getting to me.as exploitative as it is, maybe the unpaid assignment is the way to go? at least it's something proactive.>it gets you down even when its fun.you know, there's also this nagging feeling creeping in while i'm ramming daggera in throats and knees in faces that i'm not really sure why i'm actually doing this or why everyone on the map is antagoniatic to me. like, yeah, i'm doing this because the disembodied voice in my head is telling me too, but a bit more plot that drives my actions would be nice.the bosses of the big dungeons have no more significance to me than the lowliest grunt. maybe there's some commentary in that, but i need a bit more context to my actions.>damn sounds like a crazy all nighter.for them? definitely. for me? nah. not my first rodeo. i'll just go to bed and tune in again when i wake up. maybe i'll put the vods on at some point. they're nice enough to cut them up into 8 hour videos. that's much more manageable.>>85407534hey catbro! how was that ride and what game are you playing?
>>85407773> maybe i should check it out, too.It's like a long form anti smoking and drugs PSA. But with cat girls.I like the hard drugs cat giving into paranoia. > i'm actually doing this or why everyone on the map is antagoniatic to meGames like this just have an addictive pattern. Hades had me doing runs even after the characters told me they would slow down on dialogue options.Tomb raider has been fun for me lately, but you kind of have to run on stealth to keep it interesting.
>>85408044>It's like a long form anti smoking and drugs PSA. But with cat girls.i see. it's one of those cute girl + thing/hobby/job psy-op anime. ^^ >just have an addictive patterntrue. i really like the soulslike-loop, but it would be nice to get that in a story and world that are a bit more elaborate than what you get most of the time.>Hades had me doing runs even after the characters told me they would slow down on dialogue options.must be a really good system then. i suppose the first one wouldn't have been such a success if it wasn't. have you played both?>Tomb raider has been fun for me lately, but you kind of have to run on stealth to keep it interesting.the reboot games, right? never played any of those. it's a bit more like uncharted, isn't it?
one last bump before bed. good night and have a nice week.
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