when i started developing schizophrenia there were these guys that were fucking with me, harassing me online and shit, and i wound up developing these delusions that a girl i used to talk to online and people that were loosely connected to her were harassing me, and people that had recently heard about from people i knew i thought were conspiring against me, so i started reporting random ass people to the police for whatever little thing i could thing of.looking back at it now with a sane mind, it's so damn retarded and embarrassing, i can't just get in contact and apologize "sorry i reported you to the police for some shit that probably didn't even happen, i was having a schizophrenic episode" they would just be pissed. you look back at all the crazy shit you do during an episode and it just makes you want to kill yourself, it's just so stupid and embarrassing.
I dunno about you I was just gaslighted by people on here
>>85417722>you look back at all the crazy shit you do during an episode and it just makes you want to kill yourself, it's just so stupid and embarrassing.When I was having my episode, the worst things I did were send some stupid texts- nothing more ridiculous than what you'd expect from a drunk. I still haven't been forgiven. I've accepted that I'm not entitled to anyone's forgiveness and moved on with my life. If someone wants to judge me at my worst, then I don't need them in my life.
>>85417732>>85417731i guess i was more delusional. i was hallucinating demons talking to me and stuff. and at one point i also went to the police and confessed to crimes, but they just sent me to a psyche ward, but that was like during a second separate episode i had.
>>85417741My voices told me that if I snitched, they would stop revealing the secrets of the universe to me, and nobody would believe me anyway. So, I kept my episode masked for months
>>85417768i'm assuming they didn't reveal shit?mine are very antagonistic people and when i was going to confess to the crimes they were like "oh shit he's gonna do it, look at him go" while laughing at me and shit. they like when bad things happen to me and get mad when good things happen to me, very annoying.
>>85417789They didn't reveal anything more than you'd expect a schizo to believe. But at the time, I felt like I was LE CHOSEN ONE being fed arcane knowledge. It actually boosted my confidence and gave me a purpose. I miss them sometimes.
>>85417808mine were always negative.at one point i thought i was in a simulation and everyone was like connecting into the simulation to harass me. i was so paranoid at the time that i was living in a different state using a fake name and i remember i was riding my bike through some beach town and some girls on a balcony were like "hey anon" mockingly using my fake name and everywhere i went i could like read people's minds and they all hated me and shit. it was all a hallucination though, but i remember feeling confident too because there's people way worse than me that would deserve something like that so i felt like they were in the wrong and i was like no longer like a worse person. i felt like i was superior to the whole world. but i didn't feel chosen exactly just victimized. schizophrenia really likes making you get a big ego.
>>85417842There were definitely negative voices in the mix, but I ignored them because I thought there were multiple competing factions vying for me, and my logic was that I'm not useful if I'm dead or imprisoned, so I only listened to the positive voices that made me believe I was the chosen one
Yeah I dunno about you guys but I got stalked by this group of people because I pissed off this one femanon and they would constantly write to me here and get my info and doxx me. I showed my dad and he took me to the shrink and got me diagnosed schizo and thrown in the ward. Kind of a shit situation!
>>85417858the only time i had a positive voice was this one time i was taking a shower and all the voices were making fun of me but then one voice of like a friendly sounding black guy was being nice and telling me to not pay attention to the negative voices, that was the only time i had a positive voice.schizophrenia is so annoying man.at least i have it under control now.do you still hear shit?
>>85417881I had literal proof too. I saved all their texts and posts. Guess my dad was just an asshole.
>>85417887was she fat?girls that get special treatment by simps and shit should be burned alive in front of her simps.that's what they did back in the day to stupid women, they'd burn em. that's the best way to keep them in line.
>>85417887I don't "hear" them anymore, but I still sense them in ways that I couldn't describe. If I am the Chosen One (doubt), I'm not useful to them if I step out of line
>>85417896i meant to reply to this post>>85417881
>>85417896No she was skinny as fuck. Worse was my asshole dad who willingly threw his own son under the bus. I dont know why he did it. Possibly she gave him a BJ or something
>>85417901nah nobody is chosen man, we're all just normal mundane negros. i also sense them, the voices i hear have a direction of origin, like they sound like they're coming from far away from a specific direction or sometimes they originate from white noise like the droning of my computer fans, or running water, so sometimes I'll hear them, but they sound like they're so far away i can't make out what they're saying i just recognize the voice and that whatever they're saying is negative because they're screaming angrily.
>>85417914crazy that they diagnozed you a schizo, maybe she was like mossad or something and had connections and got you sent to the psych ward because you got to close to some knowledge you shouldn't have.i hate people getting special treatment, if the rules don't apply to some they don't apply to anyone, those are the rules i live by.
>>85417940I don't believe I'm the Chosen One. At worst, I consider it to be an overactive imagination. The "dark forces" aren't going to convince me to do something that will make me not useful to the "light forces"
>>85417956No it was more just they were assholes looking to get a kick out of making my life miserable. The real question is why my parents agreed to it
>>85417976>but what about "le greater good"The "Light Forces" thought about that too. They convinced me that God (or whatever you believe in) does not need my help; my title is something akin to "Watcher," and my job is to observe and report while staying out of trouble, as I am not useful dead/imprisoned. I don't believe I have any "divine protection" that will save me from the consequences of my actions. And it doesn't take much at all to convince me to "trust the plan" and sit on my ass
>>85417976i feel ya anon.keep those dark forces away.>>85417995did you show your parents the stuff about the girl? how did you piss her off?maybe they got scared and thought you being sent to a psyche ward would like make them feel satisfied and leave you alone.a psyche wards sometimes aren't bad, some are awful but some are bearable, it's just boring as fuck and everyone's untrustworthy and unpredictable.
>>85418049Yes I showed them the texts I was getting from her friends and some of her 4chan posts and that was their response And no it was more to be an abusive asshole. My dad is not a nice man
>>85418055I mean to put it short he knew what was going on but was basically like>whatever kid just get out of my face In the worst way possible
>>85418055i had a similar situation where i was being harrassed online and random people would be texting me blowing up my phone, but i just turned it off and played vidya. i never really told my family anything, i don't really tell my family stuff about me, they barely know me.why'd you show your dad? you thought he was gonna help? he's probably a boomer they're retarded.
>>85418086Yeah he just didnt give a shit.To the point of having me institutionalized for it.He doesnt even acknowledge it happened , hes just like>whats a psyche ward ? They were just checking you for drugsMy fault for telling anyone though. Shouldve just kept it a secret and moved on and played vidya. I was getting shit like people pulling up on me in dodge chargers and staring me down though. You made the right choice though anon could have ended up like me.
>>85418104they enrolled into a class i was taking to harass me, but i didn't really care, they're just wasting their money to be petty over shit that didn't even concern them, and i hadn't even done anything. some people online are just looking for an excuse to be shitty people because they aren't good at anything else.
>>85418125They had my phone number and I would get strange texts at night. I could tell it was them but no one believed me
>>85418843what kind of thing did they send you?i would get threats from like family members of girls i used to talk to when i was 13 or the girls themselves would message me accusing me of shit i hadn't done.
>>85418916They would be all weird and overly friendly and shit and ask for personal info
>>85417722I did the exact same thing as you.
>>85418919for me i remember they quit bothering me and then on my birthday they all messaged me insulting me. they were coordinating, someone told me there was a facebook group of them or something.
>>85418933it's probably common, like those people who accuse the mail man of stalking them, that's a common thing schizophrenics do too.
>>85417722one time i was at a tire shop waiting for my tire to get patched, and this guy was sitting just out of my peripheral vision. i cant even remember precisely fucking why but i would just uncontrollably glance towards him out of some paranoid reason, probably because i thought he knew me, was looking at me, etc, idk.after this going on for a while i get my car back and im about to start it and pull off but the worker that lead me to my car walked back into the lobby and went up to the guy i was paranoid about and pointed and looked towards me out the lobby window then looked back at the dude in a way that was obviously something like "uhhh, do you know this guy or something? what was up with him?"words cannot describe how i felt in that moment. i wish i could of just told them i have a condition and i cant help it but idk if that wouldve made it better or worse
>>85418996Go fuck yourself. I had actual people after me and my life ruined by false accusations as a result
>>85419305i did too, but i was also delusional and going after the wrong people.
>>85417722The worst part of having people who are out to get you is that your mind starts convincing you that literally everything is meant to fuck with you.
