anyone else been alone for so long they cant relate to people anymore?
>>85418974Yeah. I desperately wish to meet someone just like me, and I know I have, but I have such crazy high standards. I want a copy of myself to be around but I also know I'd hate myself.I've been alone for 5 years now and I just want to heal. Why did she do that to me
>>85418974I've been alone so long that when I do hang out with people i get paranoid they are going to try and kill me and so I never enjoy actually hanging out with anyone. I don't even know why i think they are going to kill me, maybe all the drugs I take idk.
>>85418974eh, relatability is overrated
>>85419002>despite being a better person than 99% of the population.in what way?
I can't understand feeling upset by a lot of things, conceptually, I don't get it at all. Within reason, obviously. If someone hits you over the head with a bat, being upset makes sense. Getting upset over a trivial inconvenience in your life, a difference in opinion or someone being mean to you is incomprehensible to me, and that causes a lot of problems. Human bonding is more or less built off the back of complaining about things and finding comfort in knowing your friend complains about the same sort of thing. I'm fine with everyone and everything. I actually like most of the things in the world. It's alien behavior.
>>85418974yesit feels like everything i say and do is performative and im just putting on an actand i find it really hard to keep conversations going without just being negative about everything because any kind of positivity feels manipulative and fake and i start stumbling over words or just freezing up trying to force myself past those mental barriers and end up sounding like a retardso i do a lot of communication in grunts and gestures and singular simple words which people usually dont respond to very well
>>85418974I can't relate to people because of my psychosis. Their normal problems seem boring compared to my crazy experiences but also I can't talk about those. I just wanna find a mentally ill woman to be with
I'm 32 and have been a neet for all of the years since high school bar one at 28 where I had a job for a year. During that year I realised that I was so different from others permanently. Things that motivate others don't motivate me anymore. Money, travelling, socialising, going out. None of it even remotely interesting. I had that job for a year and outside of working still lived like a neet. I even had a couple of girlfriends in that time but just found to be a waste of energy. I could have conversations with people at work etc, and even feign interest in things pretty well, but there was simply no conviction behind any of it. Literally all day everyday I just wished I was in my room on my computer. The concept of constantly going out, socialising, chasing carrots just makes me exhausted even thinking about it
i feel like maybe i never did in the first place. only when i was a kid and didnt have any self awareness.>>85419046yeah i get that. i used to care more about stuff, or maybe i just thought i did? but by this point as im nearing 30 i simply dont care about all this shit everyone thinks is important. its lonely.
being alone and being unplugged from the normie circus made me realize most people are literally npc cattle and they worship demons in skinsuits (cluster b psychopaths)
sometimes i think im just a retard that doesnt care about anything because im too retarded. all i do is play video games but then again i have excelled somewhat in some of my min wage jobs so i dunno
I just want to win the lottery and live as a hermit alone in a nice big house.I have no interest in the outside world
>>85419271why do you want a big house anon? how would you have it laid out, what would you use it for? what kind of house?
>>85419278so I can have a room for all my different hobbies. one home gym, one music studio, one art room, one to grow marijuana and mushrooms, one for collectibles. and old style house with high ceilings. I'd decorate it with all kinds of weird art and shit.
>>85418974Yep. Weirdly enough, I fantasize about having a girlfriend but I don't want one in real life.
>>85419377female body is nice. female personality is insufferable. When I lay in bed at night I think about having a nice warm female body holding me and that's it
>>85419290any idea where you'd like to live or doesn't matter?keep in mind you may need to be near a developed area unless you learn to cook for yourself and are okay doing that 100%
>>85419271>I just want to win the lottery and live as a hermit alone in a nice big house.Same, except I'd rather a smaller house. A big house would have too much maitenance.
>>85419509House maintenance doesn't really scale with the size of the house. Day to day stuff like vacuuming is in proportion to use/traffic and one person only generates so much. Stuff like roof, paint, siding, sure, but you pay someone else to do that rarely. Just have a maintenance fund sized to the house.
