I've finally started to accept it. I'm a worthless loser and I'll never achieve anything of value. I previously looked to death for my peace, but I now know where it exists in life. Without ever having had a chance to begin with, there was never any need to struggle. And so, through surrender, I am content.
>>85419192It's good that you're content anon. How did you realise you are a worthless loser who will never achieve anything of value? And are you sure that will never change?
>>85419251I have sub8 facial genetics, under 6 feet tall, under 6 inches in length, and definitely under 6 figures. I am invisible to both genders and rarely even considered human by my peers. This is okay, because it was just my fate. I never had any choice in being born with these struggles, but it is my choice to continue suffering through trying to live a decent life despite them. I don't need decent, I just need to be alive and comfortable, and even a homeless beach bum could achieve that. I will be okay because I don't need to struggle anymore. Buddhists were right, the releasing of struggles willingly is a peace that can be achieved in life as well as death, so I have no need to throw away the life that I have been gifted by the cosmos.
