to illustrate how she looked and acted think of her as being zendaya's character in this dumb spiderman movie. it's 1:1 for how this girl, let's call her Michelle like the character in the movie. So anyway a decade ago about 2015 I couldn't get any pussy after high school because i was a NEET so I got a job at this costco where this scrawny black tomboy worked at with a couple of other people. mostly older people. she was my only peer. keep in mind i was a virgin. so she starts talking to me and telling me what's your name, what music do you listen to and you're cool do you wanna hang out. i wasn't into black girls but i loved the attention and agreed to everything. we had sex the first time we hanged out. she could sense we were both bottled up. i can't say to a certainty but i think she was a virgin too. we kept this up for about a year. we went on dates had lots of sex and fell for each other. it was incredibly raw for me. but then after a year and a half of this, she straight up told me what's next for us and i panicked and told her what she means by that. and she said well my mamma married young so i want to marry young and have kids. i loved her as a teenage/young adult manic pixie girl but that i wasn't going to have mongrel babies with her. i wasnt against the idea at first but my dumb redneck uncle and cousin told me to cut bait. she got heartbroken over that, told me she'd kill herself for saying that to her and quit the job. i looked her up about eight years after (about a year ago) and i found a FB page belonging to her aunt posting a memorial for her. i despise myself and wish more than anything i could go back and tell her yes. i'm a miserable wreck who traded a soulmate because i was a racist piece of shit. I know I should kill myself already but Im a still a despicable coward.RIP Michelleyou deserved better
>>85419399if she was mixed then your kids would've been about what? a quarter mixed? they would still look white. you fumbled her over nothing. you should've been the one who died.
I dont know why this post upset me
>>85419399you're a piece of shit but you didn't force her to kill herself, that was her own dumb decision
>>85419399You owe your uncle and cousin a beer for helping you dodge a bullet, that bitch sounds ratchet as shit.
>>85419699Zendaya is def my oni
>>85419399Yep, you fucked up. You could have had family and win at life. Sad.
>>85419399>losing your virginity before marriage>dating someone outside your ethnicityIt's on you. Never should've given her false hope.There are times when I'm attracted to people outside of my ethnic group and even race who I'd date and have sex with and whatnot but I quickly get it out of my head out of principles.That's why I would never date someone that's not from my community as that would just lead to unnecessary, avoidable heartache. It's like giving someone false hope of a future that's never going to happen.
>>85420117yeah a big beautiful nigger family and kids with nappy hair and poop skin and look like their nigger mom
>>85420158She was mulatta so kids would be already 3/4 white. And I assume OP is from USA. USA is such melting pot it wouldn't even be anything unusual. I could understand if he was from Europe. If I had such kid then it would look suspicious and there would be risk of my kids not fitting in due to looks given where I am, but in America I would have 0 issue with women of other races. Especially mixed ones.
whites are the only race i know about who are this autistic about excluding biracials
>that i wasn't going to have mongrel babies with her.You sound like an awful person, it's genuinely a shame she killed herself over a piece of shit like you when there were better men out there for her.
>>85419399Why do racist white people keep having sex with nonwhites and leading them on knowing they don't want to have kids with them? All you're doing is wasting your time and theirs. I'm not even racist, I just find this annoying when they cry to a majority non-white global population about how they want to fuck us but are too racist to settle. Just stick with your own and leave them alone.
>>85419399yeah that's your punishment to carryi hope you learned from it, the opportunity may knock on your door again in the future and i dearly hope you won't screw it up againin my experience, the punishment just gets harsher and harsher the more you fuck up, and if you already got a scar this big then the next time may truly break yougodspeed anonpay back your debt with love, you now have a duty to live out the happiness she deserved to live with you
>>85420158as opposed to a family of sunburnt tomato skin, onion smell and thin oily dog hair
>>85420149>not from my communityBlack people don't even accept mulattos except to fetishise them. I got yelled at for saying nigga by my black relatives.
>>85419399I'm a real incel nigga I aint even had that.You're roleplaying as chad to me, get off my website.
>>85421456Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm not black but I don't look like the average Turk which is why people, including those of my community, often times mistake me for a non-Turk.
>>85419399I fucked up a lot in my life but at least I never fumbled a brown virgin tomboy who wanted to marry me and have my babies.
>>85422345Easiest layup of OP's life and be fumbled it. Sad.
>>85419399I miss my Z. She was a emo cutter alt chick with nice blue eyes and freckles.Wish she never schizoed out at me. Wish she never asked out my best friend(who rejected her). Wish best friend years later friend didn't get a thicker non cutter version of her as his current gf cause she reminds me of her.
