Everyone has a job, career, money, everyone is fulfilledI feel I will never be something I want to do or idealize because I am simply too lazy and maybe even not smart enough, logically it would make sense to do it, (study, do things to acquire a good thing), but it's soo fucking boring doing those career fields or whateverbecause of this I feel like I will always underachieve and never achieve what I actually want and need to satisfy my ego and potentialquintessentially I feel crippled and never will be fulfilled due to not being able to fullfill my egotistical needsI feel handicapped due to severe levels of adhd and failure spiraling into deprssion and anxietymy life literally hinges on being succesfull to feel good but it seems impossible to achieve due to my behaviors
