my parents are leaving on a trip after allsuicide is back on the menu baby
>>85420650Whats wrong anon?Hguhcg
>>85420666nothingall is as it should be
>>85420670Why would you kill yourself then?Huhuol
>>85420676because that is my fate. Like i said, everything is in its place. And that's okay. Maybe my death will do some people some good.
>>85420650It's not normal to want to kill yourself. Why do you want to die.
>>85420683Well you wouldnt be posting here if you were so sure of thatThere has to be a reason you feel this way
>>85420700i'm posting because i am happy>>85420696what is normal? I don't think normal exists
>>85420711People dont kill themselves when theyre happyYou sound like an edge lord right now. Do you really believe this is normal?
>>85420731i am happy that i am going to diean edgelord would be all doom and gloom, no?
>>85420743Edge lords make light and take glee in dark subjects that revolt other not like a good dark joke that takes the fear out of something tragic. You clearly want to escape from either yourself or your environment. Have you tried exercising?
>>85420762i don't see anything wrong with that>Have you tried exercising?i hate it.
>>85420786Look, killing yourself is much more difficult than you may think and you will regret it whether you succeed or not. You could end up in a much worse position having your autonomy stripped from you and put in a metal hospital. Mindset changes your reality, I know that is sometimes impossible to achieve alone. You really need other people to help you and perhaps medication for a while at least. Im saying this from experience, its what I would have wanted to tell myself
>>85420816>You really need other peoplewell too bad there are no other people> perhaps medication useless garbage
>>85420650I often have plans too, but never find myself able to detach myself from obligations from people, we're on the same boat thoughWhy are you leaving? If you don't mind me asking not that I want to change your mind, but well, it's a normal state to wonder and ask what's wrong?
>>85420834simplethis world has nothing to give meit's like leaving an event you don't enjoy
>>85420822Im sure you parents would help you if you were honest with them. People who want to help are out there too it just takes a little effort to find them.And meds can be useful, if youve tried one in the past that didnt help tell your doctor. Do you have a form of ocd where negative thoughts are constantly looping through your mind?
>>85420839There is truly nothing you enjoy about this? Ah, I'm quite the opposite I feel full of life but this said event keeps torturing me, often sad I cannot wholly participate like other people, I understand what you feel anon but through other perspective which might not make you feel less lonely, but the same boat. We don't know each other but you can tell me, hey even if it doesn't succeed, I'd like to be your friend
It's not better for your parents to eventually find your rotten corpse than for you to kill yourself while they're around. In fact I'd say it's a lot worse.
>>85420850they can't help me. My stepmother probably doesn't even care about me and my dad is too out of touch to help. There are no other people.>And meds can be useful, if youve tried one in the past that didnt help tell your doctor. Do you have a form of ocd where negative thoughts are constantly looping through your mind?idk what i have at this point. Doesn't really matter because the whole thing is pseudoscience anyway. All based on guesswork and throwing shit at the wall to see what sticks. >>85420855there are things like that. I just can't have them.> I'd like to be your friendi'd rather not attempt at making another friendit only leads to ruin>>85420857it's better for me because they won't be able to interviene
>>85420909I understand anon..good luck then in whatever you pickI don't think making another friend is that bad or going to ruin, well we don't know each other but again, I understand
>>85420909You say that but you dont actually know. Theyre going to be much less stressed if you come to them now instead of them finding out a horrific way which will destroy your dad. What would make you happy in life? Expecting to live like our grandparents isnt gonna happen so using the old way to define a successful life is counterproductive. Theres still plenty to enjoy you need to set achievable goals. Like if you want financial freedom its best to earn money in the west while living at home then move to a country with cheap cost of living for however long you can (or try to set up an online business you can work from abroad)
>>85420953I understand the concerns but how could this help someone suicidal, I mean, just reminding them their obligations or concequences of their death? It ultimately doesn't matter because they will be dead, whether we like it or not
>>85420991I dont know what else I can say at this point. I know a lot of my pain came from not living up to certain expectations, feeling like I missed milestones which made me a lesser person as well as embarrassing/cringe memories that burdened me to the point of self loathing.
>>85420953i have come to them before. It's always a mix of "you're lazy" or "try harder" or some boomer tier bullshit like that.finnancial freedom is impossible for someone like me. Working a job is just going to be another thing i hate just so i could continue living (which i also hate)starting a business is an awful idea too. Not only because i'm not business minded but also because i hate the corporate lifestyle>>85420948i'm sorryi've been hurt too many times
>>85421093It's okay anonI was hurted too or hurted other people as wellI don't know your situation again, but I hope you can find some peace of mind either here or in dead. Lest hope events turn out different and you can enjoy being here :') hoping that for myself as well Take care
