what have you got going for you anon? i'm sure your life is not complete shit.i bought some btc in 2012 as a lark, i just dumped $1000 into it and have been sitting on it ever sinceits not fuck you money but its a decent chunk of change. i've just been sitting on it and not even spending it. well i sold about $10k worth when it was above $100k a pop to finance a 90 day trip to europe in 2025. but other than that's it.but thats it. i work menial labor otherwise and my life all round is pretty shitty.
>>85424050>i'm sure your life is not complete shit.i can't find a job after i ruined my life with decisions i once had heavy ambitions for, my credit's fucked and i had to move back in with my dad, but i've been making music again, which is nice
>>85424050I come from a fairly wealthy family of educated, upper middle class white people. My support system is extensive. I am married. I live in a first world country and have a safe, comfortable life. People like me and seek my companionship and social presence. With all of that being said, I am deeply unhappy and fairly mentally ill. I talk to myself a lot and it is getting more intrusive and obstructive. People at my job have been noticing and have expressed their discomfort at me mumbling under my breath. All I wanna do is drink in a dark room, but when I do that, I feel so much shame and self-loathing that I can't even look other people in the eye for days or weeks at a time. Nothing makes it better and it has been this way since I was a small child. I don't want anything. I barely even eat now.
>>85424112>I talk to myself a lotme too. i've been doing it since i was a kid. i don't think it's that weird. a lot of people talk to themselves
>>85424050I'm about to puke on the carpet fr one too many tall boys. Women like my sense of humor.
>>85424127It's not normal stuff, it's statements like:>Everybody hates you>You should hurt yourself>This is why everybody hates youIt's pretty common in mentally ill and spergy people. There's a delineation between when I am talking to myself and when I am verbalising my mental illness.
>>85424050Besides genetic material which influences social interaction I would say I enjoy a lot I enjoy the simple things I like to walk around at night I like riding my bike I like breathing fresh air I like feeling relaxed I like drinking coffee and I like music among much moreCurrently about to make breakfast and I'm excited to do that thinking about making some kind of carbohydrate meal likely noodles
>>85424050Also that's awesome man you've got money just sitting there you can be rich and retire in like 5 or 10 years if you want you could travel and see the world and do what you want
>>85424151again, that's fairly normal. i have full conversations with myself even. i don't think you're mentally ill
>>85424151>>Everybody hates you>>You should hurt yourself>>This is why everybody hates youthese are just basic low self esteem thoughts btw
>>85424198>>85424205I would posit that having such low self-esteem that you verbalise regularly about wishing to self-harm and are prevented from functioning regularly would be considered mental illness/pathology.
>>85424050So if you give me like 10.000$ dollars now to you it would basically feel like you just gave me 1$ right? Why not help a fellow anon out? Maybe then I can give a reason my life isn't complete shit itt :D.
>>85424231not really. i think you've been brainwashed into thinking everything is a mental illness by kikes who have a vested interest in medicating you. what you describe sounds like simply having moments of self-doubt like everyone does. it also seems that due to your sheltered, easy life, the negative feelings from experiencing misfortunes is far greater than if you had been someone who grew up regularly exposed to hardship
>>85424262>Moments of self-doubtThis is being intentionally reductive and minimising, so I will not be engaging further. Good luck.
