Are you any good at making (and keeping) friends?
>>85424332What even is a friend
>>85424332Not really. It kinda just happens sometimes, but I'm too self-conscious to truly be a good friend, and the people I'd like to be friends with I'm too shy to approach. And it feels like, just in general, people nowadays are not willing to open up, be vulnerable, or be authentic enough for deep, lasting friendships to flourish. I am not, either, but it's the trend I've noticed. Friendship seems to happen purely accidentally.
friends are mostly circumstance and convenience
>>85424332I make friends with tools. People with skills.But people who have 0 skill and only front? They despise me.Even on my best behavior.The social people spread rumors, and I'm the last to find out.But also obodu along the chain thought to mention it to me or challenge it everyone goes along with it.Aging until I'm the last to find out.When I pursue finding the source, nobody gives it up."I heard it from everybody.""Everybody is talking about it."But who did YOU hear it from."Everybody."Work, school, social, there is no escape.What kind of rumors?Silly rumors.Heinous rumors.A silly one in school, someone started a rumor that m, in the middle of class, unprompted , I jumped onto the top of my desk, and screamed, "I HAVE NO NUT HAIR!!!"... which is fuckim' funny. But I didn't do that. Yet everyone thought I did, which .eans I may as well have done it because I was blamed for it.A heinous one in real lifeHad a girlfriend, we dated for a few months, and before our first time she asked me, "So, are we having sex or what?" and things were good. Until I broke up with her for cheating.She spread rumors I was a rapist.browse.I didn't even know. Hiw did I find out?Some years later I was at a wedding.My ex happened to be there. I never noticed her. But apparently she was there.After the wedding is all over and we're all saying goodbyes, the groom's wife says my ex was there,that my ex told "everyone" meaning st least her, I was a rapist,and the bride follows up"Hanging out with you tonight, I know that's not true."Great.But how many other people are told this heinous lie and believe it?Hiw through the grapevine does this effect me? - I'll never fully know.And all that was a long time ago, I never jumped on top of a desk and shouted anything, I've never rated anyone - I'm so autistic and cautious about that my gf had to explicitly drop the line, "So are we having sex or not?"cont.
>>85424588Lmao schizo homosexual
>>85424588Oh look digits so you know it's true.Made with autism, so you know it's good.My point being, rumors like this have persisted my entire life.I don't know what about me people get a twist about starting them spreading them, never telling me e.g. so called friends, and never revealing their source either when I have attempted to get to the bottom of it.Sucks. But it helps weed out bad people.My friends now are solid.All 4 of them.Normies are the worst. They never tell.me what I'm doing wrong to piss them off either. I'd probably fix it, and at least apologize for something unintentional, set the misunderstanding straight.But nope. Normies are too pussy and too selfish to care about truth. They just throw stones and all the other normies back them up.Real nigger behavior actually. Can only pick a fight with a single.person when backed up by 5 buddies.Normies are turbo nigger brained, they just fight with words and subterfuge like Jews, because they aren't physically capable.That's my TED Talk.
>>85424611wow.not original
>>85424352A mutually beneficial relationship that exists between NPCs, it's all about how much money you have and thus what you can give them access to
>>85424332Nope. I haven't had a close friend in years.
>>85424332No. I don't really do anything other than browse this board, listen to music, and play videogames no one plays. So what do you even do with friends? I have nothing I want to talk about most of the time.
