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>>85427657
great. im glad you got something that makes you happy.

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>>85427653
hello hello haai
>you can endure more!
depends a bit on if the insurance company shows some heart in the letter that's already on its way. its not much but would help so much >.< aaaaa i hope it brings good news unlike last time.
>have you had anything delicious to eat lately?
just had half a baguette with oven cheese. a friend lovely named it "faguette" so i call it that now. love this stuff. its so calorie dense and so small. starting the day with a bit over 1/4 of your calories covered is convenient. a bit of protein too.

btw the thing im quitting were those meds and not these threads, should have clarified maybe. abandonment issues already coming back yaay! having a bit of trouble with these meds like i said last time

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>>85427881
hello, anon.
>the insurance company
uhm, you mean like healthcare ones? whats this letter about?
>baguette with oven cheese
that does sound nice. cheese is one of my fav foods ever too, along with bread, which is another of my favourite foods. i'd only eat those two if i could. the faguette is definitely not a bad source of nutrition, hm.
>quitting were those meds
oh, i see, i see. you almost hurt my feelings, how dare you. no but jokes apart if for whatever reason you dont wanna post anymore dont worry about me desu. i hope you get better meds that help more.

>>85427653
>hi anone. how are you?
hi taononna i'm not doing the best i'm still in my sad little spot of a state till morale improves !! i wish i had something to be proud of, how has taoson been up to

>how has the week been going?
it's mainly just rotting, i had the energy to go to a conference in a city 2 hours away for networking purposes, i ended up getting lost in some run down maintenance tunnel / fire escape infrastructure under the building while i was looking for the venue, it was really dim and damaged and has been cases of people going missing in them accidentally and getting lost and having their corpse being found later, the people were relatively nice :D though i was quite bad at socializing since i haven't been the best... linkedin follows increased a lil at least !!! for the future wagielife, i'm dreading a university lab i have tomorrow but my sleep has been horrid and still been putting off so much study, and instead of studying i'm being a creature here, anything of note coming your recent days

>i hope life is not being too harsh on you. even if it is, i know you can endure more!
my life being harsh is because of my own devices, i just hope in around 2 weeks i'll finally have clarity and can do... something productive

>have you had anything delicious to eat lately?
after the conference i ended up eating some nice chinese takeout for a morale boost after that :D, have you been consuming your vitamins well enough >?

>>85427653
Oh dang it I missed this... berry early thread this time!

>how are you?
Meh, could be better. I'm really tired for some reason, I guess because I'm still sick but yesterday was better so I dunno... maybe it's because I biked to work today because I freaking missed the bus again. I even woke up early and had plenty of time to shower and do everything and yet somehow I was still late and missed it. It's very upsetting really.

How are you Anon? I imagine not great considering you made the thread so early... better than staring at the ceiling, right? I assume that's what you've been doing most of the time. Me too pretty much, I've just been spacing out and daydreaming.

>how has the week
It's been... going. Would be nice if I could get over this sickness already, hopefully by the weekend I do... I also have an appointment with the psychologist tomorrow and that has me a little worried because I don't have much good to report (other than the meds working decently I guess which is... uhh big?) since I haven't done any of the things she told me to. Ugh. I hate being a lazy irresponsible piece of shit so much, yet not enough to stop being one I guess. Awful.

I look forward to later today though, hopefully we can play some Silly Samuel.

>i know you can endure more!
...is it just me or have these encouragements been getting a little harsh lately? I'd rather not endure more even if I can do it... can't life just be a little easier please. For both of us.

>delicious
I just ate a cheddar and jalapeno focaccia yesterday, that was great. Basically pizza that calls itself bread. Mm I want another one now... but I will refrain. I've been doing really good on the diet front lately actually, that's the one good thing about being sick--I haven't had much of an appetite at all. I think I've been eating like less than a 1000 calories a day. I hope I can keep it up for a while and not go back to overeating once my appetite is back, if I ever get over this sickness.

>>85427653
Work is busting my balls dude, but hey this friday is payday so that's nice. As for eating anything tasty I started fasting in order to lose some more weight. How are you holding up anon? Sorry if I can't replay soon my shift is about to end and I have to drive home.

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>>85428023
hi hi. im doing a little better. i hope you manage to get out of your sad spot soon. is there anything i can do or say to help?
>something to be proud
but im sure you have something. maybe you dont consider it valuable enough, but others might. would you say being alive still is something to be proud of? i would.
>go to a conference in a city 2 hours away
well there you go. you managed to survive a conference in a clearly cursed building where people get lost and die. how is that not something to be proud of??
>linkedin follows increased a lil at least
well then im sure you did okay after all, no? i kind of dread linkedn. in a scale from 1 to 10, how important is it to have a good linkedn profile?
>instead of studying i'm being a creature here,
oh, would you look at that, its exactly what im doing aswell! no worries. in like, 30 minutes i will start studying. mhm. you have to do so too though. so like technically we're studying together and the brain waves will reinforce each others brains. yeah. yep. i dont know.
>anything of note
not really. haven't left my house in a while. most of the "happenings" are in my computer. im really enjoying arknights lately.
>around 2 weeks
mhmm, just two more weeks. just two more weeks!
>consuming your vitamins
yes, actually. my mom's an avid tea drinker so, i took advantage of that and i followed the suggestion you gave me the other day. it did bring back some of my appetite too. i wonder how that works?
>>85428025
>missed the bus again
happens to the best of us. i cant count on two hands how many times it happened to me. also try not to tire yourself out too much. body needs energy to heal, and if you take it away, then it cant get better
>How are you
stable for the time being. im going to try and keep it that way.

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>>85428025
>haven't done any of the things
hopefully she scolds you so that MAYBE you get some more motivation to do them.
>a little harsh
but so has life. and i dont really like sugarcoating things anyway. im a believer in tough love. sometimes what we need is a kick in the face and not a pat on the head. figuratively of course, i'd never kick anyone in the face. ever!
>>85428025
>pizza that calls itself bread
yep, or you can just call it focaccia... like, its the name and all. hopefully you'll manage to refrain from falling back in your bad eating habits. take this illness as a warning sign or something.
>>85428068
just a few more days and all the effort will be amount to something. are you planning to buy anything cool with the money you're saving?
>order to lose some more weight
thats nice desu, however keep in mind that even when losing weight we still need to eat something from time to time, dont go full fasting or you'll hurt your poor organs in the long run.
>How are you holding up anon
mhm, im holding on. just barely enough to not fall face flat into concrete.

Weeks been terrible really. I'm unemployed and get paid in Wednesday. Last week I was feeling pretty bad so just blew all my cash by Friday. So busto times till Wednesday. I even got so desperate to keep my little bender going I sold from my personal stash of pregabs to get cash for mdma but it didn't even feel good. Took 3 tabs on like Saturday. Everyday with the pregab, the k-pins. Then it was busto. I've just been stressed. I have a court appearance in like 9 hours. I need to sleep but I don't think I can. I actually took like 420mg of dihydrocodeine earlier, and .5 of clonaz. It was payday from my govt bennies at like 6 pm. And I just can't stand being a broke boy so I like flip drugs sometimes made an extra 80 tonight but basically I make no money because that 80 just goes back on drugs buy I thought to myself this week we just stock up. So I put a half tank in my car and did a big food and toiletries shop. I have enough for now for about 3 weeks and enough shower stuff for like 6 weeks. So if I'm totally broke at least I'm still like surviving. Anyway I've been wanting to express myself in writing more and work on my health. I live on a hill so my routine has been walk all the way down to this park at the bottom, then I go on my phone and read university papers and books on my phone. I've been trying to read phillip mainlainder but I'm so brainrotted I just prefer listening to yiutube videos about him. It's like reading things that are dry and dense is just a chore. It's why I've been trying to make my own youtube videos lately. But the point is, I am then forced to walk away the home. Which is getting me fit because I've changed my diet to be far less processed. Been eating lots of little roast meals of chicken legs, potatoes, yams, etc. Chamomile tea. Cheese and creamed corn toasties. This court appearance soon is really just an admin thing for my upcoming trial. They set the date, decide who will be required as witnesses. But I'm still nervous for it.

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>>85428004
>uhm, you mean like healthcare ones?
yeah, in this case the gov health insurance thing i dunno how to translate properly.
>whats this letter about?
if our appeal worked out or not. basically they put me in the first category of people in need or whatever while my carer said that it should be at least the third in my case so we appealed. letter said that i got in the second one now but that is already pretty good because now from what i understand if i get a friend to sign a piece of paper there should be monies monies now. not sure though but i have a appointment with my carer this friday and i'll ask her for details.
>no but jokes apart if for whatever reason you dont wanna post anymore dont worry about me desu
i know that it would be fine and stuff. you probably already saw me skip some threads even though i saw them.. its just very weird right now and basically i mellowed out to the point where i lost the ability to autistically nerd-out and i get jokes when less and can play along even worse. dont know how to put it but a friend said that i "kinda lost your spark/energy" so even if stuff goes on its just hard to share. there have been some pretty good advancements on the nerd side of things that i'd talk about or how getting into chemistry a bit would advance the photography stuff a bunch but like.. dunno, had to reflect for a bit to think of these for example. sorry for yapping so much.
>i hope you get better meds that help more.
thanks but im not sure if that can even be. these are supposed to this in a way.. its good to be on them for a bit at least so you get your bearings straight and just dont behave as retarded for a while,which are very very very good things, but dunno if its really for me. crisis laid down a bit so whatever

like i just dunno what to say. maintaining the few good friends i have is so hard now but its almost like i dont care. but i do care..

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>>85428188
oh hello anon, i think i remember you. you said you liked writing in my other thread too, and you said you like chess aswell. i hope things go okay in court. even if everything else seems pretty unstable. its not effortless to deal with substances like that once you get hooked so just try to do your best and stay alive until you're in a good enough position to get out of the loop.
>read university papers and books
thats good, honestly keep doing that. i've been reading some kafka and nietzsche recently. they're not easy reads but they do keep the brain busy. also nice one on the diet. processed food is the work of the devil. keep it up this way and you'll feel better in general too, im sure. best of luck in court anon.
>>85428221
>gov health insurance thing
i think i get it. hopefully it works out for you desu.
>friend to sign a piece of paper there should be monies
humu, anon is going places i see. soon enough you'll be living in a yacht or something. jokes apart i hope you manage to get the money you need for your treatments.
>its just hard to share
i mean thats okay. i dont wanna force people to talk if they dont feel like it. perhaps its just a phase and soon enough you'll be able to express yourself better again. and dont be sorry if you yap, i like yappers.
>its almost like i dont care
im not sure if its the same for you, but for me, even if i really care about something, i often find myself gaslighting my own mind into thinking i dont. perhaps its because im scared of disappointments, and of being hurt, so if i never care about anything, then i can never get hurt if it doesnt work out. needless to say its not really a good solution.

>>85428173
>i cant count on two hands how many times it happened to me
Really? You're a bus-misser too? I guess I'm not surprised, you do like to do everything last minute. Me too... well, I hate doing things last minute, but that's how I always do them anyway.

>try not to tire yourself
I will try desu. All I want right now is to lie down... I think I'll do that on the bus ride home, if I can get a spot in the rear of the bus. Where do you like to sit on the bus Anon??

>stable
Waow finally the bad day streak is over! Thank goodness. Do try to keep it that way, though I'm not sure how you would do such a thing. Do you have any strategies in mind? Also, does that mean you weren't just staring at the ceiling for the past 4 hours? What were you doing? Other than playing that Half Sword game that is. Which, is it any good? I assume it's sorta like Chivalry but with more awkwardness?

>MAYBE you get some more motivation
That is a big maybe... these days I usually just suffer through the scoldings instead of trying to avoid them. It's incredible how I can be bored as hell for like 9 hours a day at work and still not get the slightest inkling to do any of those things.

>im a believer in tough love
Hmm, I guess I can't say I am. The world is harsh enough already, I'd rather not add to that. Besides I think most people already realize deep down all the tough love things, they just don't want to acknowledge them, and saying it again to them probably won't make them acknowledge it. So may as well just try to deepen the delusion instead, or something. A-am I a terrible person for being like this? Maybe desu. Feel free to kick me in the face I guess.

>its the name and all
But what if... it's not!? *mysterious music starts playing*

>refrain from falling back
Indeed. It should be a lot easier now, I find once you get used to eating little it's easier to maintain it, as long as you don't start eating out of boredom. Which I always end up doing and then it ruins everything.

>>85428303
>best of luck in court anon.

Thanks for the kind words!

>>85428173
>hi hi. im doing a little better.
waowww congrats anonny !! a step forward to freedom from our perpetual suffering !! glad your keeping it in the game,

>is there anything i can do or say to help?
i'm flattered by the offer, but i guess talkies as that seems to be what us creatures seem to live off !! unless you have a gun and happen to be across the planet to hold me at gunpoint to study

>would you say being alive still is something to be proud of?
if it was to be something to be proud of for me to be alive i feel like all i'm doing is squandering my own potential and given opportunities from my own inadeptness uwaaa

>how is that not something to be proud of??
i feel like they idiotproofed a good section of it and all the locked doors prior and anything, the moment you found a door that opened was probably your signal to not venture any forward, the one who died had dementia anyway

>how important is it to have a good linkedn profile?
for my industry it's like a 7/10, mainly due to it being more so a factor of larping as well connected and knowledgeable and just as a hub to collect people who will actually get you into things, i know an anon who works in the company that i'm trying to get into when i graduate and he hasn't used linkedin in like 5 years and he's going aplenty successful but he also came in when there was a huge shortage for engineers and he was the only applicant... so... kinda... ?

>so like technically we're studying together and the brain waves will reinforce each others brains.
mmhm mhm !! we're being productive and we're studying subconciously !!! not empty airheads !!

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>>85428173
>most of the "happenings" are in my computer. im really enjoying arknights lately.
it's the best and most comfy place safe from any gazing eyre from normies i guess, assuming you go to the right places, are you playing arknights or arknights: endfield ? either or how far are you in ? i'm not much of a gacha player or a player in general, i think the last one i properly touched was unironically genshin impact around when hu tao was dropped, i ended up farming hundreds of silk flowers in hopes of getting her but lost the 50:50 so i ended up not playing it much forward on, it's a shame since i had zhongli and basically a minmaxxed comp for her

>just two more weeks!
two more weeks and we'll lock in and be happy !! morale will improve morale will improve !!

>it did bring back some of my appetite too. i wonder how that works?
yayyy :D, it should begin to increase a bit more before capping out, elsewise it's relatively low energy and easy to prepare in bulk for when you don't !! mmm i remember some thingiemabob to go around with it but it's been years since i worked in that hospital, if you'd like you can add milk or yogurt to truely fortify it, though that depends on what taoey's stance is on milk and tea

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>>85428378
>You're a bus-misser too
anything you can possibly miss there's a good chance i've missed it (or spent countless hours preparing myself mentally in order not to miss it)
>Where do you like to sit on the bus
in the back, or at the front. though i dont really think about it that much, i just look for the seat that is the furthest away from other people.
>the bad day streak is over
day's not over yet, dont jinx it you dum.
>any strategies in mind
yes. its called the "dont feel bad" strategy, its a strategy where i dont feel bad. works wonders when it does. i was playing arknights this morning. also no, half sword is nothing like chivalry or mordhau, its more accurate to real life and its more of a simulator. it scratches my medieval autism.
>won't make them acknowledge it
wrong. slapping the problem in the face of someone forces them to acknowledge it. hiding it behind layers of niceness lets them pretend its all okay. when in reality nothing is. im not saying you should always reality check people, im just saying its needed sometimes, and even more for certain kinds of people. it really depends on the subject.
>don't start eating out of boredom
ive kinda noticed that i get this urge to eat too whenever im bored, but i think its because i've connected eating to watching stuff online so its like my brain saying it wants to be entertained
>>85428398
you're welcome desu.

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>>85428415
>hold me at gunpoint to study
i cant but i can tell my friend kim to nuke your house specifically in case you fail your exams. let me know if you're interested!
>all i'm doing is squandering my own potential
you're not though. you'd be wasting it if you died. you trying despite things being bad is the definition of utilizing your potential. staying alive means giving yourself a chance desu.
>feel like they idiotproofed a good section of it
well now you're just downplaying the feat you've achieved. so what if the guy had dementia? doesnt matter that much... but other than that, attending a conference isn't really something easy. its still very anxiety inducing (for me, at least) to be around all those people n stuff.
>so... kinda... ?
humu. i guessed it would be more important when it comes to office jobs and the likes. i dont think anyone in my line of work even knows what linkedn is. maybe for the best. however i still had to make an account. wah.
>not empty airheads
exactly! i would never be that!
>assuming you go to the right places
is 4chan a good place in your opinion? are there even any good places left in the modern web?
>arknights or arknights: endfield ?
i've been playing both, i really like them. im almost at chapter 9 in the arknights main story, and in endfield i've reached the latest area they released. altho i havent done many of the sidequests. i think the story of the original arknights is really good for a gacha game. worth the excessive reading.
>lost the 50:50
aww. that sucks. i started playing genshin when it released, but sorta off and on until hu tao was announced. once i was finally aware of her existence my brain went "WOAH" and so i never dropped the game until half a year or so ago. but i still come back to it if there's new content with tao included.
>milk and tea
im not british so i cant discuss on the ethics of tea. i do like milk though, and i try to eat yogurt in the morning already so i think im okay. huge fan of cookies.

>>85428582
>let me know if you're interested!
thank you for the offer !!! unfortunately i'd likely accept my fate and let myself get atomized !!! at least if it was a gun it'd be one on one so i might survive i week more before morale is crushed fully !!

>staying alive means giving yourself a chance desu.
i am a fisherman casting a net into empty waters at this point

>its still very anxiety inducing (for me, at least) to be around all those people n stuff.
it really is, i don't understand how normies are able to do it so often, i've been improving through just interacting with a lot of people over and over again but it's rather rough process, i can somewhat interact without being a mute husk that looks at people and hides in corners but i'm neither exactly good, do peoples gaze's make you feel sick of anxiety like mine? also it felt like i was basically warping into the backrooms from how deep and looping and badly lit and run down it was, i like wandering comfy games like yumenikki/2kki

>however i still had to make an account. wah.
mmm mm it really is industry dependent and what you plan on going i guess, i didn't make mine for the reasoning of opsec and i just don't like being tracked and such, though all privacy and will disappears upon the humilitaiton ritual of finding a job, i only say i have a linkedin for networking events... if it's a fellow student my mouth is zipped shut

>is 4chan a good place in your opinion?
i would say so, it's the only place of where i can find the specific type of person i can bond with well enough and get close to, i only have 1 and he's my friend though i do keep on searching to collect all the rare nonnas, elsewise everywhere else is gentrified and devoid i'd say for what i seek

>worth the excessive reading.
mmm mm i hear a lot of people praise the writing for arknights and endfield even though it's just a fancier rehash of it all, i wonder how many people even read it and just continue to minmaxxing instead of it all

>>85428582
>once i was finally aware of her existence my brain went "WOAH"
mmm mmm i had the same i just really liked the character, and all the story missions and how peaceful it seemed, i think hu tao enchanted the whole playerbase about it all, for me prior i just did dailies since i basically had all the regions at the time, dragonspire, mondstat, and liyue 100% explored with artefact farming for when i felt like it

>i do like milk though
i've always had difficulty with milk unless it was sweetened so i guess the closes one i can consume would be lactose free since all the sugars are already broken down but even then... i think my lack of diary enjoying has given me brittle bones and a weak body if anything, what kind've cookies do you like ? for me it's white chocolate and macademia nut ones !!

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I just woke up. Had some cereal, currently going through Vector Burn's discography. This week has went by so fast. I don't like it. But I guess that's part of what comes with being a neet. I wish I was the type to occupy myself with games and anime 24/7. But I'm not that sort of person. I only play The Binding of Isaac. And even then it's once every few days.

Imagine being a NEET AND being the type who can't make friends. ONLINE. Fuck. I hate it.

>>85428578
>miss
Well you didn't miss the mental illness train! Wahoo!! At least we get to ride it together.

>back, or at the front
Me too! I prefer either extreme. Back is nice if I'm on my laptop because no one can see the screen then, and also you can her the engine better. Front is nice because you can see the road ahead. Middle is boring and lame. But yes, the top priority is avoiding other people so sometimes I sit in the middle anyway just to do that.

>day's not over
Nuh uh the day is concluded and I have to say it was a good day! Now you have to make it into reality or my words will become a lie.

>"dont feel bad"
So you have no strategy... you should get one, it's good to have one instead of just hoping for the best. I would know, as someone whose plan is usually "I'll figure it out... somehow".

>arknights
Ah... you don't have it added as a non-Steam game anymore I guess? Sad. Or wait do you mean the original Arknights, not Endfield? Maybe you never had that one added.

>simulator
Not sure what that would be like, or if I would like it. Surprisingly, I've never played any simulator games, despite my unironic train autism. Also, I just got a million dollar idea. Elevator engineer simulator. I have this autism, that means there must be others out there with this autism, yet I have not seen anyone make a game to satisfy this type of autism yet. Someone needs to do it.

>forces them to acknowledge
Maybe to you, but not to themselves methinks. Or maybe to themselves too, I dunno I guess it's possible. Maybe you're right. A healthy dose of reality can be needed sometimes. Though, it's okay to pretend everything is okay, too. After all, everything IS okay. There's literally nothing out there that's not okay, if you radically accept everything including the sun exploding and hell freezing over.

>eating to watching
Baaaad habit desu. I'm surprised you're thin despite it. They say your body doesn't realize it's full nearly as well when distracted like that.

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>>85427653
>hi anone. how are you?
I miss my English rose. She's my best friend and a total cutiepie. She visited for a month but had to go back. She'll be back soon at least. I'm excited to play tabletop games with her again.
>how has the week been going?
Pretty epic otherwise.
>i hope life is not being too harsh on you. even if it is, i know you can endure more!
Life needs to be harsher for more people desu-yo. Suffering builds character and sweat builds muscle.
>also, have you had anything delicious to eat lately?
I made a tofu stir fry with garlic black bean sauce and chili oil + fried rice the other day. It was pretty nummalicious if I may say so myself (and I do).

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>>85428944
>let myself get atomized
and you'd let the entire neighbourhood go with you? sheesh...
>casting a net into empty waters
compared to the fisherman that gave up instead, at least he can say he's done his best. it gives a little comfort.
>do it so often
they're built for it, anon. they dont even ask themselves how they're able to do certain things, they just do them.
>over and over again
its the best thing you can do, really. its going to take time for you to get accustomed to, (and certain things will always make you anxious, no matter what) but i truly believe its a matter of practice, and things can become manageable. i've been a mute husk for the longest time in my life. it was only a couple of years ago that i started being able to hold conversations and talk to people irl. it took years, of me trying to include myself in places, of talking to others despite being terrified of them. even just writing a reply on an anonymous website was scary to me. but i kept forcing myself to do so, i forced myself to let my opinions and my voice come out of my head and now look at me, i can talk with people and not panic and go hide in the bathroom. im no social butterfly, but thats okay, its how i am, its not what i want to change. thats important too by the way. dont hold yourself to impossible standards. you might never be the social person in a group that keeps everyone together. thats okay. you dont have to be the best, you just have to be enough. for yourself. not others. i think
>reasoning of opsec
yeah thats whats keeping me from using it (or any kind of social media really) but i came to the conclusion that in a way or another the chinese government has already got my data anyway so i got nothing to lose. what do you think of social media?
>specific type of person i can bond with
mhm. yeah. same. everywhere else i dont feel like i fit in and i rarely can relate to anyone. this place is the only place where i feel somewhat comfortable being myself in.

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>>85428944
>how many people even read it
i think the arknights community is a bit different and not really like most other gacha communities. it feels like its slightly less lobotomized. but it might just be an impression. i dont really interact with any community. im a lurker at heart
>the whole playerbase
obviously. she's objectively the best character desu.
>artefact farming
god... all the hours wasted trying to get good artifacts... it hurts. i almost reached 300% crit dmg on my tao though.
>lack of diary enjoying
mhm, ive always drank milk ever since a kid (but less now, my stomach is starting to give up), and cheese is awesome. i love cheese.
>what kind've cookies
we dont have much choice here i dont think, but the classic chocolate chip cookies make me feel things. things like immense urge to eat every single one of them.
>white chocolate
mmmm diabetes mmm
>>85428971
good morning (afternoon?). weeks go by really fast and i've always hated that part of neeting. something like 3 years of my life dont even feel like they existed. sadly ive evolved past the point of anime and games too, so now i try to spend my time playing instruments or reading/learning stuff. or talking to anons here.
>>85428978
>didn't miss the mental illness train
no, i think that one ran over me. and continues to do so.
>you can her the engine better
that goes to ruin my music and i cant rest my head on the window without getting a concussion, so i guess front wins for me. although the fact that i never buy tickets kinda makes want to stay hidden at the back.
>or my words will become a lie
everybody lies.
>I'll figure it out
well uh, thats what i do too usually. i suppose it just sucks to be us. but at least we have some faith in the capability of our future selves.
>original Arknights
that. i have it added but for some reason it doesnt stay open with steam.
>Elevator engineer simulator
absolutely. go for it anon. you and the other 16 elevator enthusiasts will love it im sure!

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>but not to themselves
thats why i said it depends on the subject. different people react in different ways to the same treatment. I, personally, needed many reality checks to be where i am. i dont think having someone constantly telling me things are fine would've helped me at all. this not to say, i wouldnt like to have someone telling me that from time to time. but things are not black and white. you need both things to make things work out, on different scales depending on you.
>radically accept everything
you can't though. i dont think you'll be okay and accept things as they are if i suddenly die tomorrow.
>surprised you're thin
good metabolism and a heathy dose of body dysmorphia helps. also i just dont really watch anything outside of like, dinner or lunch time.
>>85429121
>my English rose
uhh whats that? nice to hear your week has been going good at least.
>Suffering builds character and sweat builds muscle
riiiiight. absolutely with you on this one anon.
>It was pretty nummalicious
it does sound quite nice. i havent cooked tofu much but ive stir fried it with caramelized onions before and they give it a superb taste. also try adding onions sauce in the pan when cooking fried rice. its quite nice too.

>teenage girls diary thread
one day these people will be permabanned, mark my words

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>>85429213
>>teenage girls diary thread
/r9k/ has been blogposting central for a few years.
>mark my words
Two more weeks!

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>>85429203
>uhh whats that?
An English beauty. She's a qtp2t. Lovely person, too.
>riiiiight. absolutely with you on this one anon
Never met a virtuous person who didn't suffer first. Never met a fit person who didn't sweat and work for his physique. Never heard of a good artist who didn't suffer for his art. Good things are earned or created through intense effort and often suffering with it, that's the way she goes.
>caramelized onions
Phwoar that sounds nice. Might have to try that next time.

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>>85429213
one day these anons will actually start lurking more. mark my words
>>85429288
>An English beauty
ohh. i see. do you like the accent?
>Never met a virtuous person who didn't suffer first
yet im sure almost every miserable person you've met has suffered just the same.
>a fit person who didn't sweat and work
ever heard of steroids?
>good artist who didn't suffer for his art
...ever looked at modern art?
im not saying you're wrong. but suffering doesn't guarantee you anything. it ultimately depends on the person and the circumstances. someone breaking their leg isn't bound to be walking better in the future. they might aswell just stop walking altogether.
>Good things are earned
im sure the son of a billionaire is going be in sooo much pain for all the money he's gonna get. i admire your way of thinking though. wish i could still have it myself.
>Might have to try that next time
lmk if you do. also before i meant onions sauce with fried rice, not onion sauce.

>>85429400
>not onion sauce.
i forgot about the filter

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>mom went home to visit her familie just as CIA man is in Moscow begging Poutine not to invade us yet
Am not ready to be an orphan yet.

>>85429199
>ran over me
Maybe it would have been better if it missed you... nah who am I kidding, mental illness just spices things up!

>ruin my music and i cant rest my head on the window
But the engine noise *is* the music in this case! But whatever, you can listen to your noise instead of the melodic symphonies of the engine if you want...

>never buy tickets
Right I forgot you are a bad boy... weird that they don't enforce it on buses, here it's the same. But on trains they are very strict with it, there's controllers going around all the time.

>everybody lies.
I've never lied in my life before!!!!! It's true!!

>faith in the capability of our future selves
Ehh I don't know if I have that, more like I am just irresponsible and hate my future self enough to let him handle all my messes. Would be nice if I cared about my future self more and actually made things easy for him for once.

>that
I see. Too bad it's not on Steam (yet?), I'd want to see what gameplay of it looks like (unlike Endfield which I'm pretty sure I'm not autistic enough for).

>16 elevator enthusiasts
I dunno, there's a freaking tractor simulator, PC building simulator, etc. out there. There MUST be an audience for this, too.

>I, personally, needed many reality checks
Hmm, I think I need this too, but I'm not sure words can ever be a reality check for me (unless accompanied by some action). Someone just saying something to me is too easy to rationalize away. I think I need to hit actual rock bottom before I'll really change anything.

>i dont think you'll be okay
I won't be, no, but IT will be okay. That's the difference, I may not be okay with a lot of things but in theory everything is okay. It's kind of scary how okay everything is. There are so few things that make you like, die, out there. And even those things are okay because there's nothing really wrong with dying. I don't know if that makes any sense or not. Maybe this is nonsense.

>dinner or lunch
That's 2/3 mealtimes!

>>85429407
Mm onions sauce... my beloved... made from freshly squeezed, juicy onions... mmmm...

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>>85429426
Oh wow you are here too?
what a coincidence
Im about to get a mcdonalds burger

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>>85429569
>when the boy that liked you finds out how old you really are
Enjoy your borgar.

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>>85429674
>>when the boy that liked you finds out how old you really are
are you trying to tell me that you are like 40 years old
or is this a joke
also im
with a milkshake ofc

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>>85429674
>>85429674
we have found u, hi im drunk i quit my job hehehe

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>>85429712
You have always hated me.
>>85429942
I'm sober and more racist than ever.

I'm awful. I don't have a job and this girl I've been talking to for a decade just went ahead and fucked some other guy.

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>>85429996
wow dont be racist against me, i love u

cant have shit on this board istg

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>>85429996
Not always
are u being stupid on purpose or something

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i love u pls join vvcord, idk im drunk... vfkGs2AzK

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>>85430070
stop pretending to be me, nigger

I forgot /r9k/ is just full of troons

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>>85430110
the 9 in /r9k/ stands for trans rights

>>85430122
nein to trans rights!

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>>85430146
doch

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okies sorry to OP
I had to be a attentionwhore but now I should stfu & sleep

Getting cheated on really fucking sucks.

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>feeling pressure rising in my heade
Fresh mountain air ain't shidd.

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>>85430373
dont worry thats just life
I can't even describe how bad im feeling lately
and its cause of myself ig whatever
goodnights fr now zzzz

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>>85428303
>jokes apart i hope you manage to get the money you need for your treatments.
thanks a lot. this would be more just money to use in general, which would help a bunch as even getting clothing is a bit weird, but getting these programs financed in general has is quite challenging despite living in germany. "general" medical treatment and medication is covered just fine but as soon as you try to stuff like assisted living working you gotta ask at all of these different institutions just for them to shut you down and tell you to go to the next..
its been months and we still dont know if the assisted living thing will work out because even they are delaying things now but we need them to first check with the place that is supposed to pay if they will cover for me.. its suck a fucking mess and i dont know anyone in need would get all of this done on their own. you have getto thugs just go to the job office and decades of free stuff but if your brain is a bit funny or sick you gotta do all of this shit urgh sorry negative topic.

but jokes apart a yacht might be a bit much but i feel like i would manage to save money a bit well. dont have very high living standards or anything.

>i dont wanna force people to talk if they dont feel like it
haha no if you were able to force me to talk i'd love that but things are never that easy.
>perhaps its just a phase and soon enough you'll be able to express yourself better again
i hope so too.. should be just the meds so lets see how it goes. one out of two is already out, cant take that long for them to stop doing stuff.. a month or two maybe.
>and dont be sorry if you yap, i like yappers.
dunoo. these topics are just kinda negative and its the same over and over even if it isnt really but it kinda is. idk im probably just retarded or something from all the binge drinking and lead..

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>needless to say its not really a good solution.
doesnt sound too bad if you are able to get help at the same time. you know, get that temporary relief from that sorta thinking and then something to get you out of that hole so you can stop thinking that way and not slip back. also, twinsies urghhhhh (with ~3 people/things being exceptions)

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>>85430401
Looks like my McDonald's is doing a promo where they bring items from all around the world, including Germany and Japan. Maybe there's something to live for after all.

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Hory shidd. This is my top5 trucrim cases.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JyFe0p2LTN8

Fucking hell, the pain just won't go away today. I haven't felt this way in a while