Good afternoon, men.How is your day/week going?What are you doing?What are you planning to do?
>>85428087The void's backIt's that point where I depersonalize/derealize, where I show no emotions and feel nothing towards anythingI function suprisingly well in this state, like 200% more efficient tbf
>>85428200I wonder if we're all in sync or something because I had my shut down moment recently and the only reason why I came back was because one of my friends made me stay over their place to get away and reset. I only started getting these episodes after a traumatic event and I I hate that I guess I have PTSD. It doesn't feel manly to have PTSD but I guess
>>85428216It's pretty fucking manly to have PTSD thoImagine being so fucked up you lose your mind every once in a whileMan is not merely an aspect of Order, he is also an aspect of Chaos
hey anon, my weeks going shit and im planning to kill myself
>>85428229this made me feel really good about myself. I really hadn't thought about it like that. I always come back and I come back stronger.
>>85428200I know what you mean. Everything feels surreal/unreal in that moment. It's a feeling that is hard to describe.I don't have that 200% efficiency buff during that state however.Haven't had that in a long time.>>85428253>my week's going shitWhat's wrong? What happened?
Day 7 of bed rotting: Today I will head out to the gym. Got nothing else better to do.
>>85428308just another hopeless week with nothing accomplished
>>85428315Have a good workout session.>>85428324Is that really reason enough to kill yourself, Anon? No offence, but it has probably been this way for quite some time, no? You held on this long, might as well continue.
Another day of gainful employment. I'm fixing a circulation pump on a boiler system. I think it's blocked.
>>85428308It's almost Vulkan-like in becomingI don't give a fuck about anything nor anyone, in turn I give 200% fucks in achieving whatever I want to achieveThe catch being the loss of colour in my life
>>85428461I don't understand much of that work but thanks for it.Sometimes something breaks with the water system in our house and when we try to fix it it creates a big mess which could've been avoided if we had just called an expert.
>>85428521It was a pretty easy fix, the impeller had a little piece of grit in it that kept it from spinning. While I was there I bled the air out of the heat pipes, and it also seems like someone had it configured as just a hot water system instead of a combination hot water and heating system. Now I'm onto fixing a running through toilet. Just remember that experts make messes too sometimes.
>>85428636Man I love manual labor but it always gets to be too much. I was in the best shape of my life when I was working outside
I forgot to add my two cents. I don't have much planned except gaming and maybe doing some trail clearing
one week since the love of my life ghosted me without a word just before we were supposed to meet and she was going to take my virginity I'm never going to find anyone else that perfect againtell me why I shouldn't kill myself
>>85428704>autistic man falls for BPD woman>autistic man devastated Many such cases
>>85428636True, but the experts know what to do in that situation instead of freaking out, temporarily fixing it and looking up a tutorial online on how to fix it better/properly.>>85428697You work in forestry?
>>85428687I don't often do "manual labor", I mostly tool around in the company van and fix little mechanical issues. Running pipe only feels like manual labor when you're the guy getting everyone's tools and running around, and fortunately I'm not the newest worker anymore.
>>85428719You would be surprised how much of being an expert is just knowing how to look through search results.
>>85428708is that actually common? you mean bipolar right?
>>85428704Totally understandable.Can't find any words of comfort/encouragement.All I can say is that you shouldn't tie your life to the one of others and have big expectations of them since that leads to major disappointment most of the time.>>85428735Makes sense. Sometimes you encounter something you've never experienced before with the technology and knowledge expanding.
>>85428767Yeah it's mostly to read error codes off of machines with error displays consisting of one red/green LED
>>85428087doing good I went on a bike ride today, now I'm gonna chillax and play some games or make something
>>85428087It's going well I'm just drinking some coffee and going to bed in a few hours I'm browsing here or I'm on YouTube either way I'm in between listening to music I might make some food to eat soon but I don't know what sounds good
