I think I've figured out why I hate women so much. It's not that I hate literally every woman alive (I do love my mother, sisters, aunts etc. I am friendly and courteous to my coworkers with no expectations in return), nor do I regularly post or contribute in misogynist circles (outside of this one right now). A ton of my friends are married and on some level I think I wanted to be too.I think the issue is that the local women have rejected me. I failed to date in high school. Failed in college. And I'm failing to attract strangers right now.Every synapse in my brain is firing telling me womankind thoroughly detests me even though rationally I know that can't be true. The perfect woman for me might exist in Pittsburg or Bangalore for all I know, but if she's not in my local circle, she doesn't exist and thus doesn't count as a "catchable" target.Society is continuing to atomize. More and more people in my neighborhood are total strangers I haven't spoken a word to. I don't think the brain was designed to support feeling this level of loneliness within a society. If every woman I've ever known has passed on me, why would I continue to be optimistic that someone some day will change that pattern?Just some reflections upon turning 30. I've grown resentful. I don't chase women nor do I structure my goals for them. But if I ever do become successful I want nothing to do with them. I read, I lift, I work, I draw, for what do I need a woman? If I open a successful cafe, for what would I need a woman? If I get my PHD, for what would I need a woman? They rejected me when I was building myself, why would I seek one out to jump aboard a successful life? Because she's pretty? Because it'll make my cock hard? So that I can shitpost on social media?
I hate every single woman alive.
>>85430827>Just some reflections upon turning 30.What's your class year?
>>85430827I am in a very similar situation (29yo, have self-improved, have good hobbies like drawing, playing music, creating games via programming), though the key difference in my case is that after only ever having rejections and humiliations in school, in college i did find a cute altgirl. We were a very good match, until she cheated on me with a close friend, and she suddenly switched to pouring salt in the wound in every way she could (i now realize this was likely her reinventing me as the bad guy to resolve her own cognitive dissonance and guilt). This lowest point was what gave me the drive to change, which allowed me to gain self-confidence, while losing the ability to trust others. By extension, i haven't actually liked any girl in the past 10 years - some will call it trust issues or avoidant attachment disorder, i'd call it healthy standards.Similar to you, I don't hate women. What i hate is that i still find them attractive and still have a sex drive. (and to those who would say go bang hookers, ive tried and it does nothing for me)
>>854321032014. It honestly feels like tech and culture hasn't advanced much since then though so I don't feel as old as I should be
>>85432450>and to those who would say go bang hookers, ive tried and it does nothing for mekek I really wasted a ton of money to learn this lesson the hard way. First time was with this incredibly cute girl out in Matsushima Shinchi in Osaka. Fell for the whole "but she was nice to ME" routine before realizing this is just an effective strategy to get repeat customers. anyways that's rough about that alt girl. I would've been mindbroken tbqh
>>85433072>before realizing this is just an effective strategy to get repeat customers.Isn't that just what a gf does to a bf anyway?
>>85433125I sure hope not but with the way zoomers are now maybe that's what relationships and "situationships" have devolved intoI feel like a relationship should be both sides wanting nothing but pleasure for their better half. You don't give them breakfast in bed because you want your dick sucked, but because you genuinely cherish her bright smile and vice versa
>>85431856that can't possibly be true anon
