12 am ish, its one of those nights where nothing is entertaining or rewarding, no music sounds good, dont feel like playing the guitar, dont feel like drawing, dont feel like watching something, not sleep, not beer. i think want i really want is someone to just talk to. someone to do things with. i picked up sketching to take my mind off things back in march, but eh the magic of it has already wore off. i think id enjoy it more if i just had somebody to do it with. music is fun and art is fun but idk i wish i had people to show the things i make and do to. i think ill just take a walk, listen to aphex twin or something, its nice background noise, and try not to burn thru my nic pouches cos im broke. i got some off brand 12mg ones, they kinda suck but they work good enough to keep me from going back to the vape, burnt a crazy hole in my pocket. thankfully i dont work until 5pm tomorrow. i just feel bleh. im alive but i'm not living. picrel is something i drew a bit ago, never finished it
