I'm 32 and think I was never actually supposed to get this old.I was supposed to be one of those kids you heard about who died in some kind of freak slateboarding accident, or choking on his own vomit after getting blackout drunk or doing too many drugs, or jumping off a bridge on acid. Things that actually all almost occurred to me. I was never meant to age. Never meant to be forced between either waging misery or unemployment misery. I've never wanted a career, to get married, to have kids. I just exist. And just existing isn't a good state for an old man. I tried living a straight life. I tried having a job, "get hobbies maan", having a gf, therapy, anti depressants. none of it worked for me. so i'll probably just drink myself to death
>>85435759Is there anything in this world or has there ever been anything you find to be simple moments that bring happiness besides drinking
>>85435759iktfshould've died at 21 desuI genuinely excel in academic-like environments, but now that I'm a working adult, it feels like shit
