>>85440966
Holy fuck I just realised I can finally post in these threads. What a feeling. What joy. It's good to be alive brothers. I had such plans.

>>85440992
>plans
Do you need a wellness check, or is it just idelation?

>>85440992
>joy
>plans
>good to be alive
>at 30
oh I get it, you were being sarcastic. good one anon.

>>85440966
How about just not accepting being a fucking loser, hm?

Timothee Chalamet.
Tom Holland.

Are they Chads?
Are they losers?
Are they 30 years old?

>>85440966
where's the 40+ threads
i have nothing in common with 30 year olds anymore

>>85441076
>Chads or losers?
>millionaire world famous actor
>but married to zendaya
Tough question.

>>85440966
im 35 and have a white collar job a motorcycle i like beer and cocaine and my plan for the end of the year is at least getting into diamond in league of legends its tough because most youngsters are pretty toxic but i think i can make it, i can do this shit!! i can fix cars for god sake i can do this shit!!

>>85441052
That ship has sailed. I had a huge crisis in the month leading up to my birthday. I said I'd do it. I like to think of myself as a man of my word. I guess I'm not. There's a strange peace in failure.

>>85441086
These threads were your threads 10 years ago, during the golden age of this board.

And what have you done in all that time?

>>85441117
29 is for preparing to be 30.
30 is for preparing to be 30s.

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>>85440966
I wish I'd get hit by a bus or someone would fly a plane through my bedroom window.

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>>85440966
Not really looking forward to much. I was able to secure my spot for this year's JLPT, so I've got that to study for and take in December. Then of course, maybe a couple of culture-fests I'd like to visit this year. Beyond that, I'm just working, engaging in my other hobbies, and fapping from time to time. It's been a few days, so I can get hard again.
>t. 37

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>>85441128
originalanigiro

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showed up just at the right time that nobody was using the free air pump at the belle tire and I got it all to myself

>>85441287
It's the small victories that keep us going. Congratulations on the W, king.

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>>85440966
I quit drinking and started doing the alt health stuff. Feel pretty good now.

why didnt my parents have plans for me? no college fund, no pet, no support for a trading card hobby, no disneyland, no after school hobby classes. nothing. was i suppose to get free scholarship money somehow. but how can i be top of my class when my parents had me and my brothers share a room. i cant concentrate or take naps they are so loud. and they broke what few vidya i had. i operated pn little sleep. when i see how much support those asian students have the difference is insane

>>85441484
oh and i forgot to mention, i never did or went anywhere during summer break. i was jealous of classmates who traveled the world. i stayed home and couldnt even play video games, brothers broke them somehow. so i just watched tv. i was right to feel miserable and angry

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Pretty sure that new girl at work has been 'warned' about me. She's kind of cute too. Shame, because she's actually in-shape, unlike the rest of my fatass coworkers.

>>85440966
I'm not an alcoholic, but I have just gotten off of 7-OH after being addicted to it for 18-19 months, and I crashed my car about a week ago; wish me luck robots!

>>85440966
I quit my job earlier this year and haven't gotten a new gig yet. My savings are almost dried up. I've been playing poker to stretch things out but the last 6 weeks have been break even, and it looks like if I don't get something rolling in the next few days I'll have to apply at like Walmart or something. Pray for me anons

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Did you ever find yourself charmed by a girl working in a greasetrap?

I fell into doomscrolling the usual channels. For some reason I can't stop watching this random chinese girl in Baltimore taking orders from hoodrats. Is it interesting content, or just the most mundane thing? Or is she funny? Or it's solely because she's cute. I don't know. It stood out enough to make me post though.

I've always thought these places were fortunate since it provides work for the whole family.

>>85441734
I like that you can tell she has Future Lawyer and Doctor fatigue. It makes her that much more cute

>>85441734
There's nothing fortunate about moving to America only to find yourself providing services for sacred niggers.

I went basically psychotic trying to rope myself after being isolated for about a year and was forced off of methadone and Valium by my doctor. Now im stuck so depressed life is even worse now. I think I ruined my chances with a chick too, idek what to tell her

I hope the others who complain about the normie infestation see this thread

>>85441988
Why?

It bothered me 10 years ago and I used to join in spamming normalfag threads, but who cares anymore.

Probably offing myself after my parents die because I'm not spending my entire lifespan alone

>get job
>basically mvp at the place
>everyone likes me
>show up 30 minutes early every day
>get told by GM i am busting my ass
>still randomly get fired by corporate because i broke an ID card policy
i've never wanted to off myself as much as I have now.
It's no wonder people are so cold now. corporations have everyone killing each other.

I had a very sudden and intense feeling of nostalgia last night or rather some very old memories of going to a small but lovely zoo and I believe traveling to/from it. I don't actually know what I felt. Like the memory of the memory of it being a fun day.
Yesterday wasn't even a bad or weird day, everything is thankfully/lucky going well for me, but I am stuck over thinking these thoughts

>>85442083
How old are they? If they own their house you could sell it, drive around in a van for a few years then kill yourself.

>>85441086
this old zoomers are going to be 30 next year
bump it up to 35+ at least but later would be better

>>85441484
I know that feel. I'm 3rd of 5 children and my parents were poor dumb ex-hippies.
I'd miss 1/4 to 1/3 of school because I didn't want to do and they'd be like "yep, that's normal".

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DO I FUCKING HAVE HERPES?
I fucked some obese bitch 3 years ago and the condom slipped off but I put it back on. All of a sudden my dick looks like this.
I'm 38 btw.

>>85442271
Everything looks normal to me.

>>85442156
My parents are divorced. My mom hasn't lived independently in over 20 years and my dad is in danger of being homeless. I'm not inheriting anything of value.

>>85442346
Who do you live with now?
>I'm not inheriting anything of value.
At least I have a third share in a shitty farm in 10-20 years.

>>85442365
I live alone in a building that used to be a chicken coop lol

>>85442383
Damn, my childhood bedroom was a corrugated shed with a concrete floor, ex-chicken coop beats that though lol.

>>85442399
I save a lot of money but it's still a miserable lonely existence

I've been downhearted babe, ever since the day we met

>>85442216
they have already begun turning 30

class of 2015 is the beginning of zoomerdom

Has the time since Covid passed basically instantly for anyone else? I've been working from home since 2022 and 2021 feels like a week ago.

>>85442580
yeah. I keep referring to everything that happened between now and COVID as a dream. Maybe we all really did die in 2012 and this is some replacement simulation. I'm still trying to capture how I felt in 2019, it's like the vibe cannot be matched anymore.

just another confirmation of my inadequacy. I'm someone nobody has ever wanted around. If only I was just normal.

im going all in on this one project, if it doesnt produce results (getting hired) im out for good

wish me luck anons

>>85442930
Good luck with the janny application anon.

Fuark, I turned 30 a few months ago. Made a promise to myself that I'm not going to let my 30s be like my 20s. More sober than I've ever been in a decade. It's alright despite a relapse here or there (once every month) but nowhere near as bad as it was. Not smoking weed daily, not drinking heavily, hard drugs have stopped except one binge. It's alright. It's progress

>10/10 hottie tells me she and her partner have sex almost daily
I'm almost jealous of that lucky son of a bitch

>>85441568
I can't remember the last time I met a cute girl that was single.

>>85443470
I can, but she had mental issues.
The one before that too.

>>85441568
>'warned' about me
What does this entail
I love to flirt which is something I need to actively filter before I talk to women

>>85440966
>>85440966
I left my job a couple months back, I took voluntary severance so I got paid a decent amount to leave, it's enough to live on for the next several months, maybe longer if I stretch it. I have zero fucking interest in getting another job, I refuse to work when I can't get a date, can't get sex without having to pay for it, and am unfulfilled in most areas of life at present. I refuse to be employim anymore. When my money runs out I can sell my house and go live like a king in Manila or someplace and kill myself when I get bored. Fuck society.

>>85442580
Yeah I lost my job right before everything hit. I blinked and it was 2024. Been trying to claw my way back to normalcy since. Not much luck so far.
>>85442596
>Maybe we all really did die in 2012
It really does feel this way, doesn't it? Maybe it was the Large Hadron Collider after all... lol

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>>85441117
>There's a strange peace in failure.
When you reach a point where you stop caring about society's standards and what is expected from you and just do what you want it gets kind of comfy.

>>85441484
>i operated pn little sleep
I have always underestimated how important is to get good sleep. I started noticing that whenever I didn't sleep properly the night before I didn't enjoy anything, not even my hobbies. I'd watch a movie, any movie, and I'd think it was shit, try to read a book and dread it. Last christmas I took a three weeks long vacation and I did absolutely nothing. I barely left the house except for a walk now and then. Slept 10 hours a day, read like 3-4 hours a day, play video games, watch movies and just chill. The next three months I pretty much didn't have any negative thought, which is something that had not happened in almost a decade.
Fix your sleep asap anon.

>>85443536
Nta but that happened to me as well. Most likely some normie telling her he is a sperg. When that happens they don't even bother forming their own opinion and just accept that as truth.

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>>85441596
I'm not an alcoholic either, I'm a beer and distillates connoisseur.
Good luck anon.

>>85442580
Covid has nothing to do with it. When you live a rather monotonous and every day looks the same you barely create memories and time seems to pass faster.

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Well the only thing that wasn't fucked in my life was my job as a programmer. I was already losing interest over the last years but AI completely killed it. The only part I enjoyed about this job was programming and I don't get to do it anymore. I'm disgusted by the current state of technology and I loathe this line of work.
At this point I'm considering applying for a boring government office job or something outdoors like a gardener but I'm sure that eventually when I'm on a teams call and someone keeps spouting buzzwords and talking about kpis, productivity and company culture I'm just going to snap.

>>85444567
oh look it's "withnail and i"-anon still here huh

>>85444654
I hate the buzzwords the most in office culture. It drives me insane. Karens love saying them.
>CMON GUYS WE GOTTA DO THE KPI's AND SLA'S AND ROI
blah blah blah stfu and get back to the kitchen

>>85440966
32 and still single. Have not been on a date in over a month but have been trying to line some dates up with girls I am chatting with. So far I have one lined up for next week unless she flakes out on me which has happened before for whatever reason. Would like a long term relationship with a decent girl, but I am at the point of after trying for a year that I will take even a fling or one night stand.

>>85445813
>still dating
A foolish but admirable endeavor. Good luck king.

Got a seizure from alcohol withdrawal the other day I think I need to quit. Good thing I was laying in bed.

>is just living enough?
Not like we can do anything about it

>>85445996
Wish I didnt care about being in a relationship of some sort and i have tired but I am just wired to want to have a chick by my side.

>>85446251
Used to be able to drink every day non stop but lately I can't even walk anymore after the third day drinking and can't get any more booze from the atore.

God weed's so shit now. Or maybe it's just me. I don't know, having coughing fits over pulling a vape bong isn't exactly good for the health.

>>85446251
Might want to check into an icu to quit safely if you experience insomnia or hallucinations as well.

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>>85446251
If the seizure was causes by alcohol withdrawal you just need to keep drinking.

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I thought I would treat myself and upgrade my main computing device for the first time in 9 years. And I feel disappointed. It's feels cheaper than the old Thinkpad. Maybe I just hate change but I was really looking forward to it.

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Make sure you so the bare minimum and take a multivitamin if your diet sucks and take 3000-5000iu vitamin D daily my perma neet bros.

I'm still depressed and don't want to live, but I realized that the frequent episodes of extreme sorrow and despair that even sleep wouldn't correct was probably because I was extremely deficient in several important vitamins and minerals

>>85444654
>outdoors like a gardener
If I could retire and had money to spend I'd garden a lot.
Something about that picture is very comfy

im going to get dinner with a girl and then an electric music event at a nightclub and then try to fuck her

>>85447345
Joke's on you, I take a multivitamin every day, go outside for sun, and I'm still always depressed.

>>85447454
god speed.
fyi she'll know if she wants to fuck by the end of dinner

>>85442271
Doesn't look like herpes blisters. They form these nasty blisters that break open. What you have is more of a rash. Probably get tested anyway.

Looks like a yeast infection. They're getting more common these days as candida/thrush/etc is getting more resistant to treatments and the climate is getting hotter.

Spray it with athlete's foot spray, ignore the burn it sucks, then rub with an antifungal cream like lotrimin, then apply hydrocortisone, then possibly neosporin. Do that for a few days and it -should-clear up entirely. Also wash your dick every day with soft soap and warm water before applying those. Shower after every exercise.

Be diligent and you should avoid any permanent vitiligo, unlike me (it's not the end of the world and some girls like it because it reminds them of animal penis and foids are degenerate like that). Also dab your dick with tp after you pee.

>>85447180
>And I feel disappointed.
Same here, computers (and especially laptops) are just worse than they were at the end of last decade.

>>85447180
>upgrade my main computing device for the first time in 9 years
I'm on a 1070 / stuff from 2016. I'm hoping to hold out until the 6xxx or 7xxxx series. There's too many other potential life expenses and I don't even really care about GTA6 that much. I'd rather they made offline content for rdr2

I miss the 2014-2019 era. Those were a vibe.

>>85448682
>2014-2019
oh man
>First proper job
>Made lifelong friends
>Finally had sex
>Traveled
>Finally started becoming who I wanted to be

>>85448682
We didn't know how good we had it. But obviously someone did, because they decided to blow it all to hell.

>>85447500
Maybe you need to some type of brain wave pulse or was electric therapy?

>>85447454
Use a condom. Stds are on the rise

>>85449005
No idea. Sure, why not?
I think I've been fundamentally broken since the age of 5, but I didn't really recognize it, or recognize why, until my 30s.

>>85449095
>but I didn't really recognize it, or recognize why, until my 30s
Same, where do I sign up for the 1950s style electroshock?

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My co-workers figured out that I am the only one among them that isn't engaged or married.

>>85449651
In the past they would have set you up with someone already.

>>85447180
Modern technology sucks and the fact that you are using the pile of shit that W11 is does not help either.
I'm actually thinking about going back to an older computer of mine, installing windows 7 and just turn my back ok anything made past 2010.

Do you guys think some people genuinely function better as addicts? I got sober because I was essentially forced to with people adamant that things would be better but life has gotten worse.

i recently realized i'm turning 38 in a few months. i work a low paying job and still live with my parents. i don't know why i thought i was still early 30s and had time to change things around.

>>85441117
No point in planning it again anyway, time speeds up even faster and the next 30 years will feel like 5

>>85449892
>i work a low paying job and still live with my parents.
Same but 34 (still young), I only just "realized" that I was mid 30s.
I wouldn't care that much, but I had an older brother and sister doing a lot better than me. House, married, 2 kids each.

>>85440966
Gotta stay away from my local park at night, one of the few near by I go to drink alone. Last night some niggers technically ran me off from the park but they really walked me off from the park and they didn't even confront me. But they were walking up the block towards one of the park entrance all three of them yelling 'yoooo'. So I knew to get out before I could see their faces. Took me awhile to realize it was directed towards me, and still wasn't sure as I was leaving, but once I left the park and was out of sight from them, I didn't hear yelling.

>>85450060
Fucking niggers. You better start carrying something to protect yourself. Stay safe anon.

Do you guys in your 30s have hopes of meeting a fembot someday?

>>85450368
i'm a 37yo kissless virgin. at this age my only hope is a cheap hooker in thailand.

>>85450384
I'm 32 and I feel ugly but maybe if I get in really good shape I might get something. Idk it feels like a long shot.

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Hii I'm chi*ckn anyone wanna say anything to the autist fat latina?

>>85449651
>My co-workers figured out that I am the only one among them that isn't engaged or married.
That's kinda obvious?
>>85449659
nah he and even normies would be frontline fodder for some retarded lord depending when you want to say the 'past' is.
>>85450368
A friend told me a 38 year old friend of their brother kissed for the first time

>>85450457
>A friend told me a 38 year old friend of their brother kissed for the first time
Yea but a kiss is nothing. Like I've had kisses before and never been able to tie anyone down.

I turn 30 in a few months but I went to college for cybersec during covid. Had the internships, certs, whatever. Lots of promise. Then it all just stopped and I've applied to over 15k jobs and its nothing now. I'm glad I tried but it was for a waste and I'm arguably worse off financially than people who did nothing. Idk what to really do at this point. Been the most sober the last ten years than ever so I got that too I guess.

>>85450368
No, I'm way past the point of that.
Hell I'm past the point of this >>85450384

>>85450449
Yes, go fuck yourself and never return.

>>85450368
I have zero hope, but I still try. I am talking to 3 foids close to half my age right now.
Will these result in anything? No, I have no fucking clue what I'm doing. I am still going to try.

>>85450762
>half my age
I don't even know how you have the stomach to be anywhere near people that age.

>>85450368
Haven'teth any hope

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Hell is when you lose all hope. When you have nothing let yourself at least have hope. I will get this remote job. It will be tolerable. It will be enough money to pay my share of the rent. Things will be okay and I will make them better. I can do this.

>>85450795
Because I am an immature, inexperienced-at-life man in his 30s. I may have the years on them, but about the same mileage.
It is not like men haven't been dating women 10/15/20 years younger than them for forever.

>>85450368
Some mentally ill woman? I've got better things to do.

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I'm amazed at how easy is to make normies part with their money. On top of paying for literally any subscription based service when these days pirating is easier and more convienent than ever they burn money on the most retarded shit ever when going out.
I went out yesterday with some friends I had not seen in a while yesterday and one of them paid 8 bucks for a can of craft beer that tastes like shit, when the average price for a beer at a bar/pub here is around 2-3 bucks. He was also talking about "auteur coffe" from this new hipster place that charges you 3 bucks for what could be a coffee for ants. Also this is just performative bullshit and he just does it because people around him do it, I know this guy and he would drink rain water from a gutter if he thought it was beer.

>>85450973
Wishing you luck, uniquely.

>>85450449
You are not even 30, get a life, I thought you werent gonna post this often for your boyfriends sake and honestly for yourself, quit whoring around, lose weight

>>85451282
Money exists for the sake of itself. They spend to justify their forced 40 hour work week. It is evil. We have been enslaved by novelty.

>>85451457
It just doesn't make any sense to me. Almost everyone I know keeps spending more and more as soon as they get a bigger paycheck, while making sure to let everyone know about their lifestyle. You need to go out for fine dinning, pretend you know shit about wine and pay absurd prices from anything even moderately exotic. As idiotic as it can be for a comparison it feels to me like levelling up in Oblivion. You level up and so does the world so it feels kind of pointless because you never feel like you're on top.

>>85450368
No. None at all. Any woman that would likely show interest in me is far below my standards, not simply physically but psychologically. I want to end me genetic lineage

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Every now and then I go on street view to look at places in the past like my hometown. Its the weirdest feeling. Seeing the place you grew up in, frozen in time when you still recognised it. Thinking I could almost reach through the screen and touch the memory. Maybe I'd see my younger self there. Remembering what it was like to be younger. Everything that mattered so much and seemed like the biggest deal, and how much ultimately none of it really mattered. I probably shouldn't do it but I can't help myself. Its like looking through time to a home you can never ever go back to. I'm still there, somewhere.

>>85451531
they're badges of social status, tickets past the gate. any social group worth a shit gatekeeps, so you have to show and continue showing that you belong. sometimes it's displaying your wealth, sometimes it's knowing the insider jargon, sometimes it's some other bullshit. be cool or be cast out

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>>85451775
I drove through my hometown awhile ago and discovered my old elementary school was bulldozed and turned into a gas station, thebhighschool was bulldozed and is now an empty lot and the middle school building is now this fucked up house that jack built monstrosity with some kind of health and fitness business attached to it for some reason. Just another utterly cold depressing and sobering moment for me.

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I gave up on buying a nice big house and got my self a comfy cheap place and I have achieved what many grown men can only dream of, being able to play Ultima VII on your underground and jacking off to trap porn in the living room.
At this moment I am euphoric.

>>85451282

This so much. I have a coworker that makes more than I do but has practically nothing to his name. Spends at least 800 a month on food, is constantly talking about buying new stuff like an electric bike or a motorcyle for the next summer.

Its a fun game because it seems like he is winning, because there is constantly something to talk about. Meanwhile I own my 300k apartment without debt but there's nothing to talk about and no one ever sees it.

Anyone else been insanely fatigued lately?

Like I've tried fixing my sleep and I can wake up at 9 but if I don't have something urgent I have to do I fall back asleep and wake up at 1. Then I can't sleep at night.

Like I wanna pull an all-nighter with uppers just to try and reset myself but I know the sleep debt might fuck me hard at this age.

>>85453918
>Anyone else been insanely fatigued lately?
Yes but I don't think its the kind of fatigue sleep can fix. I'm tired of being alive.

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>/soc/ contact I washed out with contacts me a month after we broke ties
>sends an unsolicited nude
>makes me feel bad about thinking we're on again and being forward
>talks up potential plans with me
>drops me
I guess the stupid bitch just wanted attention and was low on retards giving it to her. Me and my big ideas.

>>85450795
Please. Try dating women your age at 35+. Jaded, walled, tatted, kids, bossy, and just as prone to crashing out as any woman half her age. Only now they'll politicize and apply pop-psychology to it. Arguing with a pseudo-intellectual midwit foid is one of the worst experiences you can have. The childless ones are quirk chungus poly uggos or insufferable Lainey Molnar clones. I'll just try my luck at <30yos and if I'm meant to be alone then that's just that.

>>85440966
>alcoholic
no
>unemployed
no
>angry
yes
>loner
yes
>is just living enough?
Not really. Work pisses me off and I'm anhedonic on my days off. I'm in my early 40s and it's a very real possibility that I've seen my last relationship. I've hooked up a few times since my fiance split with me and had some almosts on /soc/ but it's always something. They walk away or I do. I'm living for my cat and some days I wonder if that'll be enough at 45+

>>85452351
>trap porn
What happened to you?

>>85451282
>his is just performative bullshit
That's the main problem assuming he isn't living off debt, and not saving a good chunk as well.
I like craft beer, I love specialty coffee and an evening in a restaurant. However I don't pretend to enjoy any of these thing because it's genuine interest.

I have a very mature hairline nowadays and I still grow out my hair to try and look young and I just look very stupid sometimes. The thing is that I can make myself look young (sort of ) in certain lightening, but like I've also taken some very unflattering pictures with hard lighting and it makes me look so disgusting and stupid. I'm conflicted, I know I wont like how I look like with short hair, and the long hair I have sometimes makes me feel good about myself.

>>85452351
>comfy cheap place
I've been recently driving around small nice(ish) towns in the hills/mountains and seen a few small houses I'd happily live in.
Read, walk in the forests and along the rivers, build models, go t' pub every so often and await death.
I don't have much money though, the only flaw in the plan.

Have you changed your diet at all as you get older?

>>85455034
I've experimented with OMAD to stop myself from getting fat. It's kind of a scam though because I just end up eating three meals at once.

>>85455034
lmao. I was just going to say how Guinness shits are real and horrific

>>85440966
When I was 30 no one asked me how old i am. Now that I'm 40 every single last faggot is always pestering me asking how old I am or what I do for work.

>>85455136
What do you do for work mr unknown age?

>>85455144
I don't have a Job!! They're always judging me on that.

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>>85440966
i have run out of stuff to post that i have not already posted. the older i get, the less i have to say.

>>85455250
Then stop shitting up places with your presence.

>>85455271
it seems i'm not allowed to leave. 4chan needs to die faster.

4chan has become immensely boring since i started taking my normal pills but i still default to using it because i don't know what else to do. i miss believing that i am the main character of the simulation and at the center of a grand conspiracy.

>>85455323
Why do you take normie pills? Who's making you?

>>85455426
if i don't take the pills completely, i become completely unstable and a danger to society. if i skirt the line between mental illness and just barely being functional, 4chan becomes a lot more interesting but not in a healthy way. i'm not really complaining because it's not fun anymore, there's just a big void in life that pure mental illness used to occupy and i don't know what to do with myself.

i have tried hobbymaxxing, i just don't have the spark for anything.

>>85455152
>I don't have a Job!! They're always judging me on that.
It is odd. I don't drive and people do ask why that is, because it is odd/rare

I would never take pills that dull my divine spark

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>>85450368
No, I want a woman that's exactly like Revy to go together commiting stuff and maybe get killed in action together

Everything is going to be fine, all I need is some one to give me 5 million dollars.

>>85455929
50,000 would be enough for me

>>85455034
Not really, been meaning to learn new recipes but haven't found the effort. Been at the same weight since I was like 17.

>>85455965
I'd happily take 30k, but if someone wants to add a couple zeros I'd be fine with that.

We should really up the age limit by 5 years again. Too many zoomers here. 35+ is comfier

Just turned 36 yesterday. Strange how gloomy anxiety always gives way to a joyful optimism.

Getting to the age where it becomes difficult to justify continued existence without long term commitments like a family, a career, or whatever. Without those things there seems to be nothing to look forward to but getting older alone. Been waiting for that epiphany of what to do with life, but it never comes.

At 31, how much time do I have before I should just accept it and throw myself off a bridge?

>>85456062
What are you doing these days?

>>85456095
31 is a good mature age where you should still be able to go in whatever direction you choose. wouldn't recommend throwing yourself off a bridge ever but that's up to you.

>>85456147
The thing I want to do really is die

>>85456095
>how much time do I have before I should just accept it
Really depends how far you have between whatever the fuck gap you're thinking of

>>85454305
I've been jacking off to traps and I see no reason to stop now.

>>85454816
Sadly there are no decent rivers around here. About the money, can't you just finance the house and invest some money to try and make up for it?

>>85455250
For me, the older I get the more I have to say and the less I want to hear what others have to say.

>>85456181
If you really meant that then you wouldn't be here.

>>85453918
yeah, it sucks. I can barely stay awake for 6 hours without needing another 4-8 hours of sleep. my move 3 months ago and all of the bullshit surrounding it was extremely stressful so hopefully time and rest will get me sorted out again

>>85440966
I don't care anymore but not in a sad faggot way, more like it's my life and I do what I feel like way. Started making my own money and living on my own, even if I have to be a wagie, better than being submissive to my parents forever.

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Hard to find motviation

>>85457110
From personal experience motivation sometimes isn't the fire starter but appears after some traction later. For example, I didn't really have any motivation to draw but after some weeks I got better at it and I started enjoying it and wanting to do it more. Also I never feel like working out but I always feel better after doing it.
Also since motivation can be affected by your mood and external factors you shouldn't rely on it. Discipline and building an habit is a much better tactic to get something done and keep doing it.
So, just do it and get the ball rolling.

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>38 yo friend is addicted to tiktok and thinks he has a relationship with an of whore
Somtimes I don't feel so bad about my situation.

>>85456778
but why? Was it inherently alluring to you from the start? Did anything happen to you to make you a little gay or is this just the way you are?

spent another weekend watching anime

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>>85457758
I did have an idea for a drawing, made a concept drawing to see if it would look cool. This idea for a hand drawn fractal. I have so many ideas though and I wanna put all of them in one drawing but I probably can't, still I'll try to make a really great drawing one of these days. I also wanna write music but it's hard to start from zero

>>85458146
better than spending a weekend staring at the ceiling

>>85457826
The OF shit these days is brutal. Since being single there's been a number of times a match or whatever turns to
>hay wanna buy content?
On one hand it's incredibly annoying and twisted that this has become normalized, everyone involved deserves to face the wall. On the other I'm living comfortably in a house I've paid off with savings to go NEET for probably all the time I care to be alive, honestly. I can't imagine being so desperate as to offer randoms butthole bucks for pocket change. Some of these women have kids. So much for not needing a man. Now you're at the mercy of every man and the government because you couldn't be a team player for your kids' sake. It's always funny to send these low-lifes packing with "I've done better for free"

>>85458150
It's 100% just diligent daily practice which unfortunately means failing over and over and being utter shit until you become mediocre and then you keep going. People think artists are all naturals it's not true at all 99% just banged their head against the wall until they made something work

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Turned 32 and I think I need therapy or something to manage my ADHD.
>Struggling more than ever to keep my life organized
>Depressed
>Can't make myself do ANYTHING productive just doomscroll all the time
>Not eating well, starting to look like shit
>Overwhelmed at work constantly and just get off and veg because I'm so exhausted
I don't know, man. My life got blown up by some unfortunate shit when I was a bit younger and I think it really permanently altered my life path for the worse. Anybody here really managed to deal with something like this? I feel like I can't even find the way to take pleasure in life anymore either. It's really fucking me up.

>>85458231
>therapy
No, ya don't. It doesn't work. All therapy does is romanticize your issues and will make you wallow in them more. What you should do is find various problems, annoyances, and less-than-performant things in your daily life and find solutions for them. Just commit to that.
>looking like shit
Jog around the block every day, do pushups and situps on break.

>money isn't the issue
>getting women isn't the issue; I've gotten laid and in the last month and could have fucked another one if I was enough of a cad to string her along... I go like 2 months tops without a match who doesn't seem DTF
>all the ones I want don't want me, though
Why is it this way? Women really do hate being prioritized, don't they?

>>85458231
>My life got blown up by some unfortunate shit when I was a bit younger and I think it really permanently altered my life path for the worse. Anybody here really managed to deal with something like this?
Yeah. I've been dealing with recall of repressed memories for 2 years now and it fucked me up so badly, it also fixed some things but what good is that if it breaks things at the same time. Yesterday I hung out with a friend and that seems to help, about the only thing that I find helps. Decided I'm gonna try dating, mentally I'm not gonna get better but I'm determined to not stay in this hole and try to get my life started after the train wreck that it, well it was that my whole lfie.

>>85458231
Sort of, in addition to everything else that happened, 2020 was the absolute worst year of my life due to several personal losses I endured during it, and into 2021. I have spent the last 6 years unable to do anything but regret all that came before. It happens, I went from someone who was actively trying to be social to an isolate that doesn't let anyone in. It seems the fate I've been assigned, so nothing to do but accept it.

>>85456800
I want to die but I can't put my mom in a mental hospital over it

>>85458134
>Was it inherently alluring to you from the start?
Probably a mix of the taboo aspect and novelty.

>>85458182
>everyone involved deserves to face the wall
I agree with this and any guy paying for this shit should be ashamed of it. I refuse to enable this soulless whores to live on easy mode. I wish this shit closed and they were forced to suck dick for pocket change.

>>85454091
you think you can find someone off that god forsaken board?

>>85458668
Now that I've given it a go for several months? No, not really. I just want to bag one UwU alt-core anime/vidya grrl under 150lbs just to say I did, though. I don't know why this bag is so hard to secure for me but I fuck it up every time. I've fucked nearly 50 women but this type is elusive as balls.

>>85458520
The silver lining is that they most likely aren't living on easy mode. I picture women sending content offers to hundreds of dudes, barely making rent despite all the help they're probably getting from simps/welfare/their parents, living in fucking squalor and chaos. The world would be vastly better off without them, but at least they aren't happy.

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Anyone else just gave up and chose to embrace the path of escapism and avoidance?

I just got back to the US after traveling around the world and the dating has never been grimmer. Everyone is either a single mom or doesn't want kids at all. Also, there's like no women under 28 who show up for me as someone who's 34. I don't remember women being this picky about age 2 years ago. The only ones younger are usually like 18 or 19 and blatantly just looking for sugar daddies.

I had a brief conversation with one girl I matched with, and she was so fucking retarded. I had better conversations overseas with some girls who barely spoke English it was that bad.

I need to just move overseas permanently.

>>85458938
I'm playing video games as much as humanly possible, yeah. No regrets.
There's no point in trying when everything's rigged as hell.

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>>85458977
>>85458938
I wish I could get the motivation to even do escapism. I can force myself to play a game for half an hour, I'm just always so exhausted, something is broken

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>>85458938
I've been down this path for over a decade, to the point that if I want to actually try an achieve a normal life I wouldn't even know what to do.

yo niggas what up forizza mah nizza nigga nigga nigga nigga.

So, what has gate kept you from integrating into society? For me, going to be some strong ass schizophrenia nigga hallujcinations and sheet.

I'm playing a multiplayer zombie game lately that's cross platform. Something kinda comforting listening to normie console fags hooting and hollaring from their living rooms. Reminds me of highschool a little

>>85442271
>3 years ago
Looks a little herpish, on the tip it would be an 'ulceration' like that and not clear blisters, but not likely to take 3 years to kick in. Probably just another skin infection/friction damage from your poor hygiene and gooning practices

>>85446345
I have some kind of sex addict psychosis, or a self esteem problem, I need to be able to tell myself I'm "seeing someone" even if it's extremely tenuous
>have gf for ~5 years
>we fuck once a week or so, it's depressing maintenance sex usually but carries on as scheduled
>this is miserable so I break up with her
>after a few months of not talking at all we start seeing each other once a month ish and fuck then
>for some reason i am more satisfied with the once a month schedule than the once a week schedule
to the point: this is some kind of optimum for me where the actual time investment is minimal but I still feel like I'm "seeing somebody". in the time we were not talking i had to desperately, compulsively tinder swipe and talk to whores because i can't live with myself if i'm just fully single and don't have any prospects lined up. its such a nightmare

>>85448993
if you hated the covid lockdowns you are a normalfag in your heart, real ones yearn for their return

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how have you guys that reached 30 not kill yourselves yet? what kind of realization do i need to not want to blow my brains out at that point in my life?

>>85459921
If I kill myself I'll hurt the people around me and make them mentally ill forever and my cats would have to find new homes. Truth is I'm kind of trapped here so I might as well keep trying.

>>85451818
this is just freeing to me. if you were happy when you were young then fuck you.
>school bulldozed
>shitty slop shop bulldozed
>relatives dying
every one of these things takes a little bit more weight off my soul as it eradicates traces of my past. maybe it can all be gone and i can be free for one day before i die.

>>85454139
You are based for this. There is genuinely no benefit to going older. They are not easier to fuck, they are not easier to talk to. They have nothing.

>>85459937
The suffering of others won't make your life any easier or better. It's not the way.

>>85458323
>girl I don't like
>obsessed with me
>girl I do like
>ghosts me
I really don't know if this is women hating men who like them, or if it's just as simple as
>girl more attractive than me (i like her, she can do better)
>girl less attractive than me (she likes me, i can do better)

>>85459957
I don't care if anyone else suffers, or not. I just want every reminder of my life before age 30 completely eradicated

>>85459984
Okay this is just some mickey mouse shit grow up

Well, here i am friends, a 52 yr old robot. feels weird to be this age. ive accomplished absolutely nothing in life. no job, never had a gf, no friends, virgin, no hobbies to speak of, no money. one might say ive spent my whole life avoiding living, and im ok with that. I feel strangely at peace for some reason. Ive "surrendered" , if you will, and ive felt a lightness of being ever since. Ive no desires or wants , no cravings. I dont think about sex or women ever. i sit on the porch and smoke cigarettes and stare off into nature, and i walk my dog in the morning. somehow its enough. in a way i feel liberated from the rollercoaster of life. I enjoy siting in silence and simply being.

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I wish I was young and vital again. I'm trying, but I'm so jaded and I can't help but feel like its over. I was always depressed, but the weight of time is crushing and the world is so much worse now.

>>85460138
Do you have a job? I want to live with the same feeling but I don't have any permanent employment. It feels impossible finding something that pays well enough to keep a room over my head. My current work is on a contract that runs out in a few years and then I'm back at square one. One of these days I'm going to end up homeless

>>85459921
You have to just learn to enjoy the little things. The joy in my life comes from anticipating my next meal, the next bit if free time to work on my hobbies. The shadow of potential lay offs is the only thing causing me stress right now, other wise i'd be incandescently happy

>>85460138
Don't you ever dwell into negative thoughts? It gets harder for me at midnight. I keep thinking I have time to turn things around but I drift futher from everyone and everything by the day.
I'd say that if you find comfort in your situation there is a victory in that.

>36
I own my house and have a steady job, maybe I drink too much alone
this weekend was hard missed my mom on the lazy saturday than usual (she died in march)
otherwise, work keeps me distracted and my hobbies fill the rest of the time until sleep

>>85459912
recognizing the comfyness of the lockdowns and forcing normalfags to live like us for a change doesn't prevent me from noticing the rapid societal decline in the years since.
Ans I have reached the point of being an accelerationist. Things need to get worse.

>>85460638
>the comfyness of the lockdowns and forcing normalfags to live like us
>noticing the rapid societal decline in the years since
>Things need to get worse.
that is to say: we need more lockdowns

The lockdown was, along with the year I was unemployed, the best time of my life during the last decade.

>>85460531
Sorry about your mom. I couldn't imagine life without mine, she's my only friend

>>85460638
Accelerationism is retarded. People won't wake up and react, they'll just get used to things being worse than ever.

>>85461063
Accelerationism isn't for the people to "wake up" or whatever. Yeah that is dumb, never gonna happen.
It is for things to get so bad the current systems and structures can no longer function, so we regress and fragment as a society.

>>85460770
Same. The only thing that would have made it better is that I had a work-from-home gig but I was (and still am) too much of a brainlet for anything other than blue-collar jobs.
What I miss the most is the silence and emptiness; sitting at my porch at noon with not a soul in sight.