I genuinely feel subhuman for my inability to talk to people, have friends or get a girlfriend. I'm not meant to be in this world
>>85455386I can do all of those things, and have, but I still feel barely human and struggle to exist. It never gets better.
>>85455386https://vocaroo.com/110XjRsYSRzi
>>85455407How so? If I had friends to talk and had sex with someone I feel like my problems would all be solved
>>85455412Thanks lol. Aren't you the guy that was getting clowned on in that one thread the other day?
>>85455386Should I ask this redhead chick I went on a date with but was turned down for a 2nd date if she wants to just casually hook up? I feel like I don't have much to lose by just asking but I'm nervous
>>85455419Friendships are too much work to maintain. Every time I develop a social circle, I just give up because I lack the physical and mental energy to do anything. People are either dramatic, petty and obnoxious, or empty vessels waiting for you to lead them towards entertainment and purpose. It simply is not worth the effort. Sexual and romantic relationships are similar. Ultimately, I hate myself and I am afraid of everybody else. Nothing makes it better. Every interaction I have with another human being feels like a test where I am expected to give all the right answers, or they will turn on me and permanently think less of me (which happens).
>>85455429https://vocaroo.com/1krNSMA95tg3
>>85455433I know it's hard, but I wish it wasn't. I wish I were normal
>>85455441For what it's worth, normal people are pretty unhappy too.
>>85455450Yeah I guess so eh. Messed up world we live in
>>85455386Same. Though, I'm happy we can talk a little here. There is less pressure. I hope you find your place one day.
>>85455568You too anon. I'm embarrassed to admit this is pretty much the only place that I socialize with others
>>85455433I think, maybe if I had real life friends that I could see and hang out with on an atleast semi regular basis I'd be willing to put in the work to maintain the friendship. But finding people has been the difficult part
>>85455386what would change if you had friends or girlfriend?> do stupid shit> have friends and girlfriend> do stupid shitliterally replace with anything else, no biggie
>>85455953frens and gurlfrens are what make life worth living, they're what life is all about. Not being a resentful fucking loner hermit like I am rn
>>85455386You're in the same boat as me. Work on improving yourself. Overcome the part of you that wants the world to accept you for who you are. You will never be truly loved.
>>85456019>You will never be truly lovedWell shit bro, that doesn't make me feel any better
>>85455386real. i do this thing where i try to settle in with a group of people and my brain makes my hyper analyze them and run the fuck away at the slightest provocation. its like i literally look for reasons to have issues with people sometimes. its very odd.
>>85455433>>85456057>feels like a test where I am expected to give all the right answers, or they will turn on me and permanently think less of meYeah I wholeheartedly agree with you there, normies are psychos and it's hard to find people that are truly worth being friends with in this cold cruel world
>>85456066well, sometimes its justified, sometimes it isnt. my brain just does it for no resaon. sometimes, its completely right, though, so i guess it is what it is. i dont view social interaction as a test personally. everyone already hates me anyways.
>>85455386Oh Pee i too feel this way. I cant even talk to people online other than through an imageboard.
>>85456099Practicing one on one convos on discord is a good place to start off. That's what I did, I actually had esex with a chick I met on there. Definitely helped my socializing even though it was just online
>>85456077>my brain just does it for no resaonI've caught myself doing it before too>everyone already hates me anywaysNo offense, I understand the mentality. Call me naive or stubborn or whatever but I just refuse this mentally. I will not stop trying to get my shit toghether and find my people
>>85456170but i have nothing to talk about.
>>85455412just came to ur voice thanx anon :PPP
>>85457160yw anon, orgigallly
>>85456673Well thats apart of the learning process anon you've gotta figure that out
>>85455433>People are either dramatic, petty and obnoxious, or empty vessels waiting for you to lead them towards entertainment and purposeThis. At a certain IQ level, you see people for what they are and just become too detached for friendship. I remember, back when I had friends, we were playing LoL together. It was usually 3 of us and 2 randoms. Every game I would hear my friends on voice chat talking about how bad the 2 randoms were and blaming everything on them. I would always look at the KDA after hearing them complain and they both usually had the worst scores on the team. When one complained the other always jumped in to back him up and say "yeah that rando is retarded" or whatever, but I knew that wasn't really the case. I knew I was supposed to always just back my friends up whenever they complain and blame everyone else. I just didn't. It just felt performative to me.You have to hype up your friends and completely ignore all their flaws when they're just normal people like everyone else. They're not special, and when there's nothing special what incentive do you have to maintain those relationships?I think most normal people are able to do it because they just don't have the same ability to look at things objectively, so it's not really performative for them.
>>85458275nta, but when I listen to normies talk about things they seem so diverse with their knowledge and ability to connect with one another. It feels like the whole time I'm either just agreeing or going along with what the other person is saying. I've heard advice like "develop hobbies", but that doesn't really work if you have a boring personality like me (i.e., have tried to pick up multiple hobbies and it has never worked out or never clicked with me).
>>85458599Well shit, I don't have any advice to give you then if that didn't work out. I've been learning new things and trying new hobbies to help with socialization
>>85458479Do you ever wish you were just a normie somadays? I know I do, I often wonder how extremely different my life would be
>>85458700I hope it works out for you, anon. I like to eavesdrop on normie conversation and they really seem to love it when you're into a wide variety of subjects (e.g, food, travel, sports, etc.). If you are passionate, it'll probably come through.
>>85456279>No offense, I understand the mentality. Call me naive or stubborn or whatever but I just refuse this mentally. I will not stop trying to get my shit toghether and find my peopleokay
>>85458839>>85458919Thanks, I'll try my best. Even though I've said that before and ended up right back here again lol. Good luck to you too
