>never obsessed over anyone this much in my whole life>makes me want to kill myself that he will never be mine>never even got to see him once in real life>we haven't talked in 11 months>broke up with him last year while i was having a bpd episode>blocked me everywhere>still think about him every single day>wanted to marry him and die by his side>tried to move on>cannot feel a thing for any other man>couldn't stop thinking about him today and crying in the shower>will ever be able to find anyone like him againthe brutal truth is he deserves better than a piece of shit like me. i really really really hate myself and wish i was worthy of him. i wish i could drop dead and be reborn as someone who could experience true love again
>>85456879>doesn't dare to say why he left her
>>85456905i said i>broke up with him last year while i was having a bpd episodei don't want to talk about it, it was the worst time of my life
>>85456879That sucks anon. Where do I find a femanon to obsess over me and marry me?I'm 34/m
>>85457192You mean... You were 15... Right?
>>85456928yeah but what did you do, you cheated on him right? physically or just online? have you been whoring out since?
>>85457192enjoy your ban kiddo
>>85456928Good. Bpdemons like you don't deserve these guys. Good on you for realizing that and making sure be could go find better. He dodged a bullet for sure. Guys need to stop dating your types for real.
>>85456879Bitch, this is a MALE BOARD. FUCK OFF with your woman problems
>>85456879the man you invented in your head doesn't exist. By which I mean he isn't as perfect as you're imagining him to be. the sooner you mourn the death of the fantasy the easier you can move on and find someone you actually know and like.You never met him in real life, why do you want to marry and die by his side so badly? There are some things you can't know about a person until you've actually met them.Mourn the fantasy and move on. There might be an anon (me) who might be a better husbando anyways
>>85457354you're wasting your time anon, she cheated on him and then turned herself out to "cope" she's a complete waste of space
>>85457056we met on /soc/>>85457312why would i cheat? he was perfect and i have never wanted another man since we met>>85457354maybe i am obsessed with a fantasy and i never really knew him. he might not be flawless but how bad could it be. i have never been able to love someone so much. i wish he could have been mine so badly and knowing it will never happen is unbearably painful it makes me want to die. even if he came back, we could not be happy ever again after all of this pain
>>85457436so it's been a year and you haven't helped another man cum since? you haven't sent lewds at least? Also if you didn't cheat on him, what could you have possibly done that was so bad he wouldn't take you back? are you fat or something?
>>85457447wtf are you talking about? what is your problem?
>>85457458I asked you if you've been whoring out and sending nudes since, and if you are fat
>>85457436>/soc/femanons actually browse that? I hate the concept of posting my actual disc there but maybe it's time to just jump in.
>>85457436Oh I haven't had much luck on /soc/I tried adding some femanons but they ghost or just aren't interested.I even tried adding a local one that spams threads sometimes and she wouldn't even meet up for a movie or anything.
>>85457436> i have never been able to love someone so much.you love an image of a man not a man. trust me, you have no idea if he's someone who's actually secretly quick to anger, or someone who's actually very sloppy behind a clean exterior, or someone who's actually emotionally very manipulative etc. These are not things someone can hide indefinitely in-person. And they're also not things you could possibly know online.he's basically a 2D husbando that responds to your messages. you were in love with an avatar and a notification
>>85457476I think the meta is that femanons lurk and just add the potential anons they want to chat. any femanon that actually posts asl will just get spammed
yeah she's fat as fuck, that's why she wont answer, and why he doesn't care about her.
>>85457490Yeah but they rarely add me. Like 2 in 5yrs. Very unfortunate.
>>85456879>broke up with him last year while i was having a bpd episode>>blocked me everywhereHoly based. Finally these crazy cunts receive some consequence
>>85457522no she's literally just fat, guy was probably just looking for an excuse to leave, or he realized he can get a skinny girl while he was blocked
>>85457518just lie more dumbass. you don't get brownie points for being honest on /soc/
>>85457532I think she's saying she doesn't actually post on soc and just tries adding contacts
>>85457463no you fucking retard>>85457469>>85457476the board is full of weirdos. but sometimes you get lucky. meeting him and immediately falling in love was unexpected but i immediately unfriended everyone after that. we haven't talked in almost a year and i still check discord every day hoping that he will come back to me. i wish he would see this thread and realize that no one could love him as much as i do and we could start all over again>>85457487even if that is true how am i supposed to move on from that?
Sounds like my ex gf. She was bpd and I had to leave her because her bpd meltdowns were getting worse and she was becoming abusive. Remember that it's 100% your fault, he told you to stop being abusive and screaming at him you didn't listen.
>>85457541if you're not fat, and you're not a whore wtf did you do to him?
>>85457542how is it abuse. he never complained about my behavior. he was the most accepting person i have ever known and loved me even more than i love him at one point. but right now he acts like i am dead
>>85457529Probably. I just love that a crazy cunt actuall had to dral with the consequences of their actions for once
>>85457558ok then obviously he didn't love you, probably what happened was he was talking to multiple girls and love bombing them and when you blocked him one of the other girls got more active and he didn't need you anymore. Again assuming you are being accurate, and that weren't fat, abusive, or a whore. Post waist, I really can't believe you're not fat.
>>85456879I miss her... She probably doesn't even think about me.
>>85457558He complained all the time but you did not listen. He told you to stop screaming and stop being abusive multiple times. You just memoryholed them.
>>85457558If you're being serious, then yeah how could he have loved you? obviously he was lying. Nobody on the planet functions like this. You literally have one of the worst disorders for interpersonal relationships and you would never ghost someone you loved for a year, just because they blocked you once. Especially if this is someone "understanding" The only reasonable conclusion from this (again if you were not abusive, fat, or a whore), is that he must have been lying that he loved you. What is your opinion on that?
>>85456879>never even got to see him once in real life
>>85456879YOOOO MY NIGGA BJORN FROM THE HIT GAME PEGGLE!!!
>>85457560i didn't even do anything to him>>85457575i don't think he is talking to other girls because why would he do that, i already exist>>85457603he did not have a problem with my bpd behavior>>85457619he definitely loves me and at one point, loved me way more than i love him even. i know that our last conversation might have soured him but still, he did love me and was the only person to accept me for who i am
>>85457541>even if that is true how am i supposed to move on from that?can't help you there but I would assume most women who have 2D loves still find a 3D to ultimately marry. Just treat him like a husbando or find an actual anime character to replace him with
>>85457657Ok so then you explain to me why if he loved and understood you why have you been ghosted for a year?>i don't think he is talking to other girls because why would he do that, i already existIts common for males to gamify girls, its just a statistic thing. You are more likely to meet a man who gamifies girls because they talk to more girls. A good man doesnt really talk to many girls at all. This leads to a massive disparity in terms of what either gender experiences since girls often rely on being approached. Are you just bpd btw? The question you asked was npd coded idk. I also never saw a pure bpd foid present herself so blamelessly.
>>85457670but he meant so much to me. i have not met him yet but he was a real person. i understand the cope but still>>85457827there is nothing narcissistic about being in love. i don't know why he is not talking to me. i still don't have an answer
There was just the girl. I think maybe I fucked up. Honestly, I did by not being attentive enough. I should have been better. She didn't forgive me for that. Even though I told her I changed now and I'll do everything to make it right. But she hates me. Hates me so much, you can't even imagine. She was obsessed with me. First time in love. Our online relationship run into some trouble becoming an irl relationship. I was not sure if it is still going. Yeah. I'm a bastard. But I had to constantly listen to:>maybe I should leave so you can be free>nobody can be happy with me>I will not leave you but you will>I'll still wait>someone better is waiting for youIn truth, I just didn't realize how much I loved her. Really loved. Or is it a delusion? Maybe after some time apart thinking she killed herself over me I just started to believe that she's just too amazing. I always kind of knew she was. Lately she just said that she hates me for completely ruining her life. She says she scared to even talk to new people online. She says she's almost dead now. I never did consider anyone else as a romantic partner. I thought that this is it, I won, I have a girl and I just have to be with her forever. I feel like I could move on if I just thought she was okay and can move on too. But I love her and she's suffering and rotting away.
>>85457884Oh yeah youre fucking useless. Even therapy wont be able to help you>>85457899You sound like a faggot who just misses having someone obsess over them
my fantasy is meeting a girl on 4chan, falling in love, travelling a ways to have a romantic first meeting where everything is easy and perfect more like a reunion than a first date and staying together forever
>>85456879touch grass (unironically and sympathetically) fellow bpdemon
>>85456879Get help op if you legit have bpd. Take Dialectical behavior therapy it'll help you. Maybe he'll give you closure after you've gotten treatment just don't get your hopes up. You really should have been more mindful of your crappy behaviour. Remember bpd is not excuse to justify behaving or acting shitty. Okay, op?
>>85457657>i don't think he is talking to other girls because why would he do that, i already existHOLY NARCISSISM
>>85458245You must be a loveless piece of shit
People with Bpd generally dont deserve relationships so its for the best nona
>>85456879good, now you feel 0.0000012% of the hurt you put normal functional human beings through.die BPDemon, you have no place in this world
