Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportyo fellass hey>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
cool helpful links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>85473698Hi cat bro. I'm doing ok today I guess, not really up to much. I went to a concert alone on Saturday and a drunk guy said I'm the coolest person he's ever met because I had the confidence to go alone. If only he knew what a loser I actually am lol
>>85474156heyo btw would you like to play wome sven coop some time with other ppl?>said I'm the coolest person he's evethat's nice ^^ye lots of people struggle with stuff like eating or going to the movies by themselves >If only he knewI think that's subjective you still can be cool and not do wellbtw how r things? like it general, friends, job ectyou don't have to talk about it if you don't wanna but I don't know that much about you so I'm curious
>>85474646Wome sven? What's that?And I'm friendless and unemployed cat bro. I'm pretty much a complete neet nowadays. Used to have 2 close friends but we all grew apart
>>85473698>yo fellasshey, dude. had a really annoying day and am still really mad. >:[hope your was better.>>85474156hi mr meow!>I went to a concert alone on Saturday i've never even gone to see a movie on my own. thought never even crosses my mind, but hey. as long as you had a good time.>a drunk guy said I'm the coolest person he's ever metdrunk people usually tell the truth, so you got a fan there. he might not remember, though.>If only he knewjust take the compliment for what it is, will you?
>>85473705I was copying some stock market portfolios from rich stock investors. They are public. Maybe to invest 500 euros and earn 70 yearly if I invest useless attention on the market. Since I failed a subject on third collegue course (I'm maybe the only one who did in the third course of my private university), I couldn't finish other subjects on 4th course that had the same times. and now my classes start tomorrow and I don't have the contents from the course because of a bug. I really hope for the government worker exam, it's my only hope :(. Specially given how easy to scam I am.>>85474156>guy said I'm the coolest person he's ever metDid you ask him for his phone number ?? I would go to a concert if I had friends and a job. However I don't have close friends, only remote ones :(. People always say I should go to activities to meet new people like going football or learn cooking, or whatever. But last time I tried to go out alone I found 14 year olds and they laught on me. I felt pretty embarrassed.>>85474817Do you have some studies / career. Do you know some local apps to search for easy employment for inexperienced people ? Linkedin won't work.
>>85473698hello cat>>How are you doing today?tired. sick of working.>>Any plans for today?sleeping and then going through applications.>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?maybe soon. I've thought about doing so for a day off work.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I'm so done with all this bs, I feel like I'm gonna crashout and become a hobo for a year.>>85474822hi yu>had a really annoying day and am still really mad. >:[I hope it's better now that you're home.
>>85474982I still have maybe 6000 euros in my bank account. It could be enough to go to a concert and get some gifts. I cold even try to get friends in my university
>>85474982hey birdy! o/>I was copying some stock market portfolios from rich stock investors.good luck with that. hope it works out for you.>and now my classes start tomorrow and I don't have the contents from the course because of a bug.hope they can sort that out and get you the stuff you need. sorry to hear you failed on that subject on the other course. can you make up for it somehow?>>85475006hi cynic!>tired. sick of working.word. and i need to go to bed soon so it can all start over again tomorrow morning.>sleeping and then going through applicationsfor me it's just the sleeping. good luck with the applications. rooting for you, dude.>I've thought about doing so for a day off workjust don't be too hard on yourself, ok?>I feel like I'm gonna crashout and become a hobo for a yeari hope it won't get that far. :[>I hope it's better now that you're home.sadly not really. clenching my teeth really hard and feeling that lingering kind of anger in my guts. i'm trying to let go of it, but it's really hard.>>85475019just make sure you still have enough for yourself.
>>85474817sorry meant sven co-op it's a game:D
>>85475239>can you make up for it somehow?Yep, my mother can make up for it>just make sure you still have enough for yourself.Yes I have. As a neet you don't have lot's of expenses and my family often gives me money so I can buy things on amazon sometimes . I could try finding cheaper alternatives to amazon (*Shein* for example). But it feels deppressing and at the same time relaxing being a neet. Thank you for your honest answer ^w^.
>>85474817>friendless and unemployedyeah same >2 close friends but we all grew apartwhat happened? also how are you spending today?>>85474822hello>really annoyinggrrrrr >:3what in the dang happened?>your was better.yep chilled mostly >>85474982heya>classes start tomorrow and I don't have the contents man sounds like lots of annoying things :<sorry about that>government worker exambest of luuck!>>85475006hey>sick of workingdumb workwhy does it have to suck so much >going through applications.hope something good comes up>doing so for a day off work.can't blame you when everything is so frustrating >crashout and become a hobopenpennekomaxing
>>85474822Sorry Yua... I'll try>>85474982Sorry you got laughed at, if it helps just remember teenagers are really insecure so they make fun of everything. I've got a degree in computer science but struggle to keep/find a job because of mental instability desu>>85475322I'll look it up!
>>85475412Today I just helped my dad break apart the old fence and take it to the dump. I was really tired today for some reason so I slept a lot. >yeah sameWell I think you're really cool and if I knew you irl I'd want to be your friend>what happenedI did some bad shit from ages 19-24 after like years of mental instability (from age 14). Not trying to excuse what I did at all, I take full responsibility for the shit I did (I'd rather not get into specifics sorry). Caused me to lose my friends, job and family besides my mum and dad.
I'm gonna head to bed now, goodnight everyone
>>85475436It's never over. Search for job opportunities in infojobs. Ask non profit organizations. Some non profit organizations and shelters are great to give jobs to lost people, I saw some experiences people with no jobs got one in one day in a foundation. Ask for your teamates for curriculum examples at your level. It's good that you helped your parents. They may also help. What the proffesional of abanca said to me is, as a person without experience, find example that demostrate what you are able to do, you abilities, what you give to the team, are you good at communicating, name your soft skills with examples, even what you did to a classroom project or to help your parents. You could secretely modify those soft skills to be appropiate to the values of the company. Then find websites appropiate for someone with no experience, like infojobs. They did certainly not recommend something like copying a freecodecamp video and posting that on a website in aws unless you want a high paying hard to get job.
>>85475378>Yepthat's good. can you just repeat the courses or how does it work?>But it feels deppressing and at the same time relaxing being a neet.i get it. i was a neet for most of my 20s. still mostly the same, but now with a job. it slowly grinds you down either way.>Thank you for your honest answer ^w^anytime, dude.>>85475412>what in the dang happened?long day and the boss got a notice from corporate that the ukrainian woman i kicked out some time ago filed a complaint via a human rights watch organisation and now we have to make a statement. she omitted a few details i'm happy to fill in.>chilled mostlywhy just mostly?>>85475436>Sorry Yua... I'll tryi think that read differently than i intended it. we know you're a good guy, even if you're down on your luck atm.need to sleep now. good night.
>>85475412>best of luuck!Thank you :') !||!!!
>>85475754>that's good. can you just repeat the courses or how does it work?I did complete the subject but that disallowed me to do another subject and the end of degree project, which is not good. But I guess I could study for the exam while I finish this.
>>85473698Going to try to make an effort to post again if I'm able to find the time. Been a very overwhelming time at work past few weeks, but hoping next few days are slower.Good to talk to everyone still and play games the past weekend. Hope everyone is well.
I've been feeling shitty lately but seeing everyone looking out for one another on this thread makes me feel warmer inside. Just a little bit.
bumping before I reply
>>85473698Hallu /cat/.>How are you doing today?Meh. Interview wasn't today, so I'll have to wait to find out when it really is.>Any plans for today?Sleeping, it's 2:30 AM.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Many months ago.>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration. Like the Soft Cell song.>Is there anything bothering you right now?Feels like talking to my friends is more of a time waster than anything else, I'd really rather dissappear but I got commitments....>>85474156Hallo meow>went to a concert alone on SaturdayWhat band? I'm seeing Mass of the fermenting dregs soon myself.>>85474822Hallo yuanon>i've never even gone to see a movie on my own.Only way I'd want see them, though I have never gone with friends.>>85476299Hallo officeanon, long time no see.>>85475754>human rights watch organisationSounds like annoying paperwork, hope you can get out of it. A while ago my employer for some temp job tried getting me to file a police report cause I was threatened while working, turned it down cause sitting at the station for hours seemed like a headache.
aaa bemp
nyellogoing on a bike trip on the trian rn !
Waiting a few hours until class start. Dont know if trying to join random people or just study.
I'm just unable to say anything XDD
>>85478069>what band?Wolf Alice!
They are talking about the jobs they have and accusing one guy of dying his hair. But I dont have a job ._.
And also mention a lot of places to go to take drugs and music but I am unable to understand fully, also they have driving permit unlike me
Ok leave to study
Oh there is a single guy in the AI degree with me. But they are a lot more introvert I guess
Peiple in the AI degree always say to me that I shouldn't sit next to them
Ok they already fixed the bug and gave me the contract. We'll do nothing today. Can study all class
I was wrong I have a bunch of guides of 40 pages to do in class about how to do a project that will count 25% of my mark and I have to deliver the idea in this class for 0.25% of the final mark. I forgot how horrible my university was ._. every day I have activities before during and after class and given how dumb I am it is horrible.
Have to read lot's of guides like this
How am I suppossed to choose a simulation to make with data if I did not take the course yet ?
I don't know if I would be able to simulate a real heart because I literally did not take the course
Collegue can ruin every fun thing in the world
I'm always unable to go outside with people because they go out before me. So I was the only one who went out alone running. But some people gave me a Hello Iago !
Is 28 year old to old for self-harm? I feel like it's so cringy whenever I do it but it feels so good to forget the mental pain. It also seems like everyone that notices it don't react the same as once I was young. Now they literally don't act on it at all and it seems more like they give me the eyes like "Just get it over with you larper".My psychiatrist won't answer her phone anymore whenever I call her and a have been getting a lot of sick cancellations from her for like 3 months now.
>>85479897How are you feeling lately ?Do you need a hug ^^ ?Can I recommend you some free GABA sweats ?
>>85480074>>85479701>>85479541Stop flooding the thread by talking to yourself smart guy get a journal
>>85480179I'm not even smart
>>85475850>that disallowed me to do another subject and the end of degree projectsounds like an odd system. maybe it makes sense and i'm just missing something here.>I guess I could study for the exam while I finish thiswould be a good use of your time.>>85476299hey dude. good to see you here, but as always: don't stress it.>>85476327hi okabe! what's got you down?>>85478069hi togata! o/ how are you holding up?>Only way I'd want see them, though I have never gone with friends.i guess it depends on the quality of the movie you're watching. you can talk shit about a bad movie with your friends for hours, while after seeing a good movie everyone just goes: "it was good">Sounds like annoying paperworkmostly for corporate. boss just needs to make a counter-statement to their claims.>turned it down cause sitting at the station for hours seemed like a headache.usually the reason why people like the guy who threatened you get away with it. it's just way too much of a hassle to bother.>>85478775hope it was fun. :]
>>85481041 #>sounds like an odd systemYes it is XDD. But they didn't want to change teacher's timetables in order to allow me to do both subjects which I understand is also very hard.>would be a good use of your time.I'm just not used to reading 100% of my time. And not sure if it could be good for my brain. I may become even more autistic if that's a possibility. Can't imagine how weird is the law language XDD. I find it fun but also don't like it being so passive.
>>85479897>Is 28 year old to old for self-harm?i'd argue it's something that shouldn't be necessary in the first place, but if that isn't an option and you need it to keep going, it is what it is. i feel like no one is ever truly free of self-destructive behavior.>it seems more like they give me the eyes like "Just get it over with you larper".maybe it's more like they think you should be over it by now. >My psychiatrist won't answer her phone anymore whenever I call herhave you called her a lot? i mean, it's her job, but having to deal with other people's mental illnesses every day is exhausting. maybe she is burned out herself at this point.>>85481141>they didn't want to change teacher's timetables in order to allow me to do both subjectssadly, that makes sense. that would be disruptive to way more people. sadly you got thrown under the bus instead. :/>And not sure if it could be good for my brain.gotta have some fun or even just boring days here and here, too. training is important, but so is recovery.
back from mah bikeride ^~^
>>85478069hey togata! Good to see you tooUnfortunately I end up so swamped with work I have a hard time replying and posting. I was traveling around different cities for a little bit too which was fun.Either way, good to be back even if might not be for long>>85481041hi yuanon> don't stress it.I know I know. but I like being here time to time when I can make it>>85481565hope you had a good time!
>>85481565man, that was a long trip, wasn't it? :0 where did you go?>>85481659>I like being here time to time when I can make itsame. just wish i wasn't so tired. you having a good day?
>>85481659i didhow are you??>>85481721yebit whas a bit we went to some old castles and a place with cool cliffs then how was your day?better than yesterday?
>>85481801>we went to some old castles and a place with cool cliffsi like castles, but sadly most of them aren't open for visitors here. just crumbling ruins. guess you where in a place with hills and valleys?>how was your day? better than yesterday?still tiresome, but definitely better at least i'm not that mad anymore. just very sleepy.
>>85481882>guess you where in a place with hills and valleys?yep yep :>>definitely better yay \o/btw about yesterday, I think some people just like wasting others time >just very sleepysleep well then !do you have to wake up early tomorrow
>>85481977>some people just like wasting others timeword. for now i'll just try to forget about it. >sleep well then ! do you have to wake up early tomorrowthanks. you, too. and yeah, i need to get out early tomorrow as well. will be like that for a while now. anyways, i'll try to get some sleep. good night.
>>85482256>just try to forget about it.good decision>need to get out earlDDD;sleep tight
Hello guys, i have a question, im 5 months clean, but i had dreams about cutting myself.like visually, it looked real, i felt my stomach drop whenever i just looked at it, the emotions were real.what do i do, do i just ignore it? i mean what else should i do.idk im just super disturbed, and i feel not good. idk what to do. i ask you for advice please.
today was a bit different i feel like im losing some of the things i used to hold fast to. feeling a bit scared because of that.my life lately is just me making rules and forcing myself to follow because if i didn't im prolly gonna be overthinking until i crashi just need more patiencesighi wonder how stressing feels without fearthis combo of both fear and stress is really annoying
>>85482314hello cas !>what do i do,I'd say just live with it, I don't think dreams are really something to get concerned about tho it does affect your in a negative way>and i feel not goodhmm I don't know really I don't think it's possible to make yourself stop dreaming about something unless you forget about it what I said is probably not very helpful..>>85482338hi frensorry to hear things just keep being stressful
eepy gonne sleep>>85476327hey okabe man sorry to hear things aren't any better >>85476327>>85482314>>85482338btw would you guys like to play some sven co-op some day?
>>85482632i mean, sure, maybe, idk im kinda shy sometimes, but we can try it
>>85482632Sorry cat bro I can't play Sven anytime soon (i'm console gamer rn) but hopefully someday!
Wanna start cutting myself again but i hate the old scars i have, i dont want more.But i cant seem to find anything else?
>>85481041>hi togata! o/ how are you holding up?Well enough. Gonna spend today as my last night drinking for a while, gotta lock up for police training.>can talk shit about a bad movie with your friends for hours, while after seeing a good movie everyone just goes: "it was good"Pretty true, tho I also feel like being able to immediately talk about a movie you've freshly seen lends itself better to discussion than one you've seen months apart.>usually the reason why people like the guy who threatened you get away with itThe small irony of policing being slow bureaucratic it helps criminals...>>85479140>Wolf Alice!Listened to some songs, sounds dreamy.>>85481238>it is what it is.I'd cut myself more if I was prettier, it's really macabre....>>85481659>hey togata! Good to see you tooLikewise, it was fun discussing manga with you and yuanon, made my college days much less of a drag :D. Travellings super fun, I've only visited the U.K and Switzerland but they've definitely changed me for the better. Where did you head off to?>>85482314I had those for months before joining this thread proper, partly why I started posting.... you're better off not listening to them, treat them as a sign to keep an eye out for these thoughts.>>85482338>i wonder how stressing feels without fearThese things go hand in hand, no? Fear of the outcome anyway.
>>85483665>But i cant seem to find anything else?Play difficult video games
quick lul bump to stay the night
>>85484215The concert was good but the opening act was really bad desu Also I made a yummy omelette for breakfast
good morning !!>>85482902dw we're not using vc anyway:>what's your discord? >>85483215aw too bad ye maybe some day ^^>>85483665hey I feel like it's like a loop for you where cutting more and getting more scars will only stress you out and make you wanna cut even more :/
>>85485606im not gonna send discord.its against my internet safety paranoia list. sorry
>>85486070that's understandable so where could I contact u to send you instructions how to join the server and the passwords?
