Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportHallu>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Linkss>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>85537318Hi Togata! Do you usually make the threads? I thought cat bro did?
another togata thread hello :D>>85537318>>85537558I was busy watching yani neko, gomen^^'
Hello friends. Today I got the worst haircut I've had in a while. Won't be leaving the house without a hat for a while...How are you all doing?
>>85538538noo what did they do to you?
>>85538543They massacred me, /cat/.I think the guy doing it severely underestimated just how curly my hair was. It looked alright until my hair dried, then it looked awful. Paid the equivalent of 1.5 video games for the privilege.At least I won't need to go for another four or so months.
hey everyone! i'll be so happy when this damn week is finally over...>>85538538rip dinon's hair. o7 sadly i can only blame myself if anything happens to mine
>>85538606rip :<>equivalent of 1.5 video games for the privilege.DDD:it should be more normal to request refunds I think it's not uncommon to get a bad haircut but everyone's too anxious to get refunds >go for another four or so months.hm I got it's something how many hats do you have?and how was your day besides that?>>85538756hello :>something bad happened today?
>>85539228hi catbro! how was your day?>something bad happened today?nothing bad in particular. work's grinding me down and i just want it to be over. ate a lot of tacos to make up for it and now i'm in bed, waiting for sleep time.
>>85538307I hope you had fun friend!>>85538538Did you tell the barber the cut was bad or did you just say "looks great" while dying inside like I do?>>85539310Yay yummy tacos!
>>85537318i've been clean since december of 2024 but i think i am going to relapse tonight. should i?
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>>85538756>sadly i can only blame myself if anything happens to mineDo you cut it yourself? Probably less of a risk than having someone else do it.>>85539228>hink it's not uncommon to get a bad haircut but everyone's too anxious to get refundsYeah. To be honest I don't think I've had a single haircut in my life where I've said "this actually looks good" afterwards. It's such an awkward social situation.>how many hats do you have?Only two here, and I'm afraid of losing one so I rarely wear it. I should probably get some more.How about you?>and how was your day besides that?Pretty good if I'm remembering right. I went to a small shopping place that was a converted from an old school, that was cool.How did yours go?>>85539772>did you just say "looks great" while dying inside like I do?Of course. There's no other response you can make.>>85539928I wouldn't recommend it, anon. What's on your mind?
I didnt sleep at all yesterday, spent it scratching up my back and chest. It's a serious piss off how little time I'll have to redeem myself in their eyes before I'm out of sight. Keeps me up most nights...>>85537558Hallu meow>Do you usually make the threads?Nah I don't normally, its just it was 12PM my time and there still wasn't one up, so I baked one.>>85538307Hallo>>85538538Hallu discanon>How are you all doing?Well enough. Starting on gym again tommorow, and also returning a book to the library.>>85538606>SpoilerHighway robbery I pay like 30 CAD for my cuts not counting the tip. I hope you aren't cheating on your barber...>>85539928>should i?Probably not.
Yay new bread, I'm the new anon from last one. I'm curious about the history of this general, how long have you guys been posting here? Seems like there's some long-time regulars.>>85539928Obviously no, but if you are anyway, make sure you're safe and hygienic.
I wanted to post here about some feelings but I ran out of effort to do so. I'm sorry anons.
that probably happens a lot but you'd never know
>>85542297It's ok new anon, happens to all of us!
>>85541193>there's no other responseOne time I was at the barbers and a guy getting his haircut responded "no this looks awful" and the barber kinda just short circuited like he's never been met with that situation before.I wear glasses so it's always awkward when they ask because the mirror is just a blur to me
Cut myself repeatedly today. Planning to do the same tomorrow
>>85537318>>85537318My parents don't come home anymore. Maybe they leave home at 7:00 of the morning and enter home at 1:00 of the morning. They work all they and leave me food. They do this every year for a couple of weeks in high demand times..
how are you?I got a haircut today now I'm just gonna game and reply to you all later
>>85542498Please be safe anon>>85542970I hope you're not lonely bird>>85543138Was it a good haircut or bad like discarded's?
>>85539310heyhope you survived today okay and can enjoy the weekend >>85539772eyayep it's always fun :3>>85539928helloGood work being clean !!but why do you feel like relapsing? is it something specific or you're just generally unwell?>>85541193>"this actually looks good" afterwards.what if you didn't go and just grew your hair out?>afraid of losinghow? like leave it somewhere and forgetting about it ?>Pretty goodnice ^^>How did yours go?just taking it slow and steadyplayed games, got a haircut that's okay I'd say and chilledalso got a small strawberry cake >>85541450>little time I'll have to redeem myselfscary stuff nothing worse than having a timer constantly counting down over your head>>85541735hello anon o/>have you guys been posting here?doesn't feel like long but I think it's been like 3.5 years now and before us there were others people posting this general in like 2020it wasn't planning or anything just sorta happened >>85541845understandable maybe you should note down your thoughts in a notepad whenever you feel the motivation to do so for later use>>85542498hey anon why?are you patching yourself up?>>85542970sounds terrible desu hopefully the like their jobs >>85543494heyait's okay a little too long I'd say but eh it'll be winter soon anyway and longer hair+hat looks good
>>85543681They don't like their jobs. My mother is government worker so she took free days to help my father. My father has his own store and warehouses there. He sells books, trading cards and school material. So they basically manage the store and serve the customers they have so many customers that they basically have endless queu these days. But I'm basically here at home all day and i don't feel energetic when I'm alone at home.
i had a daywhat a daywanna feel something nice, does anyone have something nice to talk about?
>>85541735It's just one guy spamming, add him to discord instead of spamming too
>How are you doing today?Good! Walked with my aunt's dog, since shes on vacation, the dog is kinda retarded tho, since she doesn't really takes care of it>Any plans for today?Maybe play roblox with my bf (?) I don't know, or maybe draw something>When was the last time you hurt yourself?october 2025! >Why did you hurt yourself?I don't remember that much, but I was kinda bored too, I remember that part>Is there anything bothering you right now?I need to clean my rats cage, its nasty
>>85541735Hallo newanon>how long have you guys been posting here?Myself? Only about a year since I started posting last November. The general itself been around way longer. >Seems like there's some long-time regulars.It's comfy.>>85543681>nothing worse than having a timer constantly counting down over your headSeriously....>longer hair+hat looks goodN rocks it better than anybody. I've been taking better care of mine, I usually cut most of it off for convenience, but I've been taking proper care of it lately. Loose curls soon...>>85544768Hallo rm>what a dayWhathappen?>does anyone have something nice to talk about?I saw a snail on the sidewalk and moved it to the grass where it wouldn't get stepped on :D
>>85545031>Hallo rmhi>what happen?silly thingsthe way a person's mood could suddenly change into a gut wrenching feeling is interesting >moved it to the grass nicei remember i saw a snail once on a wall in a streetdidn't need to move it i guess
>>85543894>don't like their jobshm :/at least the store is doing well ig>don't feel energetic when I'm alone at home.I feel it'd helpful to learn to be more okay with being alone what sort of stuff do you enjoy doing? maybe you should force yourself a little?>>85544768hey rem ^^what happened??>something nice to talk about?hm apparently there a zelda okarina of time remake coming out :0did u know?>>85544862hello>Goodnice \o/>dog is kinda retarded thothe best kind haha^^what kind of dog is it?>Maybe play robloxhave fun! and tell us if you draw anythin>october 2025!been a while thengood work:D>clean my rats cage, its nastyou have rats!? cute >>85545031>Seriously....yep just the presence ofnit is debilitating...do you wanna talk about topics like that btw?>but I've been taking proper care of it lately. nice ^^ you're gonna grow it out?>>85545031>saw a snaioh btw I saw lots of snails recently I forget those like just spawn everywhere after it rainsalso on a bikeride some longer time ago I saw a huge one with a shell
>>85539772>Yay yummy tacos!they were, but i made them way to hot?>>85541193>Do you cut it yourself? Probably less of a risk than having someone else do it.i shave what's left. should be easy enough, but there've been more fuck ups over the years that i care to admit... (>_<;)>>85541735>how long have you guys been posting here?hm. a bit more than 3 years now, i think. been less active for the last one. job's grinding me down and i've been more involved with other social activities and that's also draining me a lot, so i have less energy to be here than i used to. :/>>85541845that's fine. you can just hang around and chime in here and there. hope you're having a good day.>>85542329>the barber kinda just short circuited like he's never been met with that situation before.ever run into old ladies with brightly colored, spiky hair? for some reason, that's a style here. always looks fucking awful and i wonder how any hairstylist would even considering doing that (or why any customer would order it).>>85543138hi catbro! i'm alright. completely deflated and need to open shop again tomorrow, so already in bed because of that, but alright.>I got a haircut todayhope it came out alright. ^^>>85543681>and can enjoy the weekendnot yet. work tomorrow, but after that i'll be playing a another wargame match with my friends and after that i'll be watching the blizzcon opening ceremonie. might be cool or a complete shitshow, but i'll have a good time either way.>>85544768hi rem!>i had a day what a daysame, but i'm so done with everything that even regular days feel like that now.what got you down?>does anyone have something nice to talk about?not really. well, i like we're slowly heading into fall now. falling leaves are always a nice sight.
>>85544862hi anon!>the dog is kinda retarded tho, since she doesn't really takes care of italways awful when that happens, but you can't really do anything about it. if people realized what a huge responsibility taking care for an animal is, they probably wouldn't get one in the first place.>play roblox with my bf (?)why the (?)?>or maybe draw somethingwhat are you working on?>october 2025!quite a while. well done.>I need to clean my rats cage, its nastyrats are cute>>85545470>zelda okarina of time remake coming out :0i saw a trailer. looks... uncanny to me. i don't know, something about how it looks rubs me the wrong way. similar to pragmata. just creeps me out.
>>85545470I enjoy stuff like:1 listening to music2 chatting autistic stuff3 searching on the internet4 watch cartoon shorts and gameplays5 I enjoy running and playing beat saber6 I enjoy learning new things, and I enjoy novelty in general.Things like that, I'm not experienced in going outside or whatever.
>>85545509>i'm alrightare you?>need to open shop again tomorrow, s-_->came out alright. ^^good enough let's say>with my friends and after that i'll be watching the blizzconhave fun then, it sounds fun :o>>85545555quads \o/>rubs me the wrong wayidk why it didn't have that effect on me at all, actually I think they characters look cute but it's not a series I've been following for years or had any opinions/expectations about so I'm not emotionaly invested btw it's another game that got a remake right as I decided to play it, OFF got a rerelease on steam some years ago, SH2 got a remake and now zelda What should I play next then?>>85545644>Things like that,and yes can do those when you're parents aren't home right ?>not experienced in going outside or whatever.do you want to?
lately i have been thinking about something about my bestfriend(the friend i used to talk about. the one i made a lot of posts about here)i didnt stop thinking about him ever since i isolated myself a bit (since like december 2025), but i realized something.it wasn't easy for him to stay there for me at all, it is extremely difficult.i used to show a lot of sadness to him. thing is, when i got into the episodes where i lost my mind and felt so much pain in my chest, i didn't control my words when i vented out to him, maybe i showed him that my situation was truly hopeless, while it was not.i still get such episodes until this day, with no one to vent out to, but im alive, and im not really hopeless.being exposed to such depressing words, to seeing someone you love talking as if their life is ending, while at the same time you have to hold yourself together and try helping, is not really an easy job to do.my friend endured a lot for me until he couldn't do more i guess. he himself had terrifying episodes, it was extremely difficult to keep track on consoling me at the same time. it was difficult for him to stay in our toxic friendship.it makes me feel weird. in fact i dont feel much, or maybe im just not able to understand this feeling. i didn't want to yell at him for leaving me to suffer to begin with, i never wanted that, so its not like that i feel less sad or something. i just dont understand my feelings well.i still miss him.im very stressed currently.very very very very very stressed even, lel.having weird dreams lately.i have a disgustingly bad sleep schedule, one that is not easy to fix.>>85545470>hey rmhey cathow are you?>what happened??i talked about the top of the post>did u know?honestly no, im not getting most news latelyjust the usual stupid AAA games sometimes, i dont care about gta6 at all, not even a tiny bit, i hate every single post about it, maybe im just taking my anger on it right now lmao
>>85545509>hi remhi yuanonhow are you?>even regular days feel like that nowfeel like what exactly? what happened?>what got you down?a lot of things actuallysome of them i mentioned at the top of my previous post just above this one>slowly heading into fall nowyeah i like that toothe weather is nice too>falling leavesyeah i like thatand walking over them under the trees, that's nicei cant really enjoy it fully though currentlybut it sure is better than sweating while walking in summer
>>85545706>are you?no, but i don't feel like complaining more than i already do tonight.>good enough let's saymore than you can ask for.>have fun then, it sounds fun :oshould be if i don't fall asleep during any of it.>quads \o/damn! one digit off... D:>actually I think they characters look cutewatched a bit of gameplay and the characters look fine there. must have just been the cinematic trailer. just look weirdly doll-like to me and i don't like that at all.>I'm not emotionaly investedme neither. i only like the handheld 2d versions of the games and really hated the remake of link's awakening. i'm i different to this remake. just not a fan of the look overall.>What should I play next then?getting a remake sounds more than a threat these days... doesn't really matter what you decide on, though. *everything* is getting remade and remastered.>>85545827i think you realized something very important there>>85545851sorry, really need to go to sleep now. i'll reply tomorrow. pinky promise.good night, everyone.
>>85545827>so its not like that i feel less sad or something.hm I'm not sure what to saymaybe nothing will make you feel less sad about it but you can still learn from it>very very very very stressed:<>how are you?quite okay :>>im not getting most news latelysame it's very rare to hear or care about something like that but I started playing zelda recently so it caught my eye>gta6me too, don't really care for it and I'm not hyped don't see the point, I think people take games too seriously >>85545923sleep wellhope tomorrow goes well>don't fall asleep during any of it.at least it's something to look forward to>cinematic trailer.yeah maybe the framing of the camera and others graphical settings just accentuated things is an odd way>just not a fan of the look overall.I agree there's a bit of the hyper realistic minecraft dirt block look (yeah that's the picture my head conjures up when I think about it) but I mainly noticied it in the first area other ones don't have it as much
>>85545706>and yes can do those when you're parents aren't home right ?Yes I can>do you want to?Yes I want to meet people or go outside just I dont find any clear way to do so.
>>85545827That sounds very painful. You can give a simple apology if you want. Remember you have still a ton more to live to and that it is not your responsability to fix everything at this moment. Everyone makes mistakes and remember you are also an important person.
>>85545827It's also important that you are not taken advantage from. The best people are the ones who act by solidarity and don't want to receive more than what they give to you :). You are in a very vulnerable and dangerous position with your feelings now
eepy>>85546095cool bird!>Yes I canbut you don't wanna do rhem when you're alone?>dont find any clear way to do so.me too but just going on walks by yourself is fun too
>>85545923it's okay don't worry, would like to know more about your day tomorrow.>>85546082>still learn from ityeah>quite okayglad to hear that>so it caught my eyeare you playing the whole serie?>too seriouslyyeah some people do thatespecially for gta i guesspersonally i don't find gta something to be very excited to play opinions i guesshow are the bikerides?>>85546162>>85546178i appreciate your words, bird.honestly i don't believe i'm 100% guilty at everything, i believe me and him both did bad things to each other. yeah well, a toxic friendship.thanks for your words, bird!
>>85546351>glad to hear thatthank uand what r y doing now?>whole serie?nope only wanna play the okarina of timebut who knows>for gta i guessyeah >how are the bikerides?getting rainy and cold outside no bikerides :<
>>85546373>and what r y doing now?just chilling and watching youtube before going to bed soon>but who knowsi seeit's a long series reallyand i just hate nintendo>rainy and cold outside no bikeridesso no bikerides until spring?
>>85546305Thanks cat :). You are so good. I will try to go for a walk tomorrow. For sure will be fun.
>>85546351Thanks to you for being so open to me. I also had a failed friendship. I was always dumb all my life and always live in useless distractions that people hate
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>>85545470>do you wanna talk about topics like that btw?Huh yeah why wouldn't I want to>you're gonna grow it out?Yeah thats the plan>I saw a huge one with a shellDon't all snails have shells?>>85545555>similar to pragmataTerrible sign>>85545214>on a wall in a streetA dozen of them post up on a wall near my house during the spring its super cute>>85545923>*everything* is getting remade and remastered.Horrible...
>>85537318I was doing pretty goodSleepingAbout 8 minutes agoIt reminds me of my exNo
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end of the day and haven't hurt myself yay. it only hit me last night how fucked it was that I cut myself. do you guys do it during mental health episodes, or just whenever? I've noticed now that I've done it, I have this small urge to do it again for the stimulation it gives>>85543681>I think it's been like 3.5 years nowpretty OG then, you must have seen lots of people come and go>before us there were others people posting this general in like 2020 it wasn't planning or anything just sorta happenedinteresting, thanks for the info>>85545031hi togata>I started posting last November.hm I thought you'd have been around for longer for some reason, you have that wise vibe>It's comfy.yeah, I quite like it>>85545509>a bit more than 3 years nowanother OG huh>i have less energy to be here than i used to. :/same, I was way more active on 4chan in early higherschool. I've actually only just come back recently after a few year hiatus
>>85548239>cuteyeah, though i don't see much of them>>85549402>or just whenever?depends on personafter a while, some might think it's not that "fucked", as you called it, to cut themselves, which is a problem, and i think it's a good sign that you realized how bad what you did is. dont let your brain normalize self-harm.>urge to do ityeah and when you think about it, cutting isn't the only thing that leads to similar situations. it might be kinda like when you watch horror videos, you know it might scare you but the distress you feel while waiting for the scary moment might make you watch another horror video, one after another. but horror videos won't make you bleed, i think the intensity of the concept of cutting itself is what giving you the urge, that's all without even mentioning the mental state, now i dont know what kind of mental problem you have but you did cut for a reason, didn't you?overall i hope you beat that urge, cutting is stupid despite how good it feels because it's a trap really
>>85546571>I also hadfeel free to talk about it>in useless distractions that people hatei don't get exactly what you mean there, so yeah you can explain more if you don't mind
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>>85537318>>Why did you hurt yourself?got stressed out by my boss off loading his work onto me
Men who cut are pathetic losers and do it for the attentionWomen who cut are pure of heart
>>85549513>kinda like when you watch horror videosgood analogy, it's also similar because the fear often comes back at night hours or even days after you watched it>i think the intensity of the concept of cutting itself is what giving you the urgedefinitely, I'm not sure about you guys but I can't lie I love the intensity of the pain, it'a something you can't get from regular media or activities>you did cut for a reason, didn't you?haha yeah obviously, I think it was frustration. the final straw had been broken and I needed something to release all my emotions>overall i hope you beat that urge, cutting is stupid despite how good it feels because it's a trap reallythanks anon, I hope the same for you and everyone else here
hey guysbeen a pretty chill slow day for mehru?
>>85537318>>How are you doing today?Very tired and exhausted. >>Any plans for today?I got a second round of interviews.After that I just wanna collapse and watch anime.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?My apprenticeship program is laughably simple. I should've been allowed to test out of this. Instead, I'm stuck wasting 4 hours each night after a 50 hour work week. A new job can't come soon enough.>>85538307hi catI was busy watching yani neko, gomen^^'it is an addicting show. I got the next ep downloaded already
I love all of you but i'm gonna nap. If thread is still up later I'll be back
>>85546425>youtube before going to bed soonhope you slept well>just hate nintendounderstandable but it's like little I pay for the games so>bikerides until spring?hm idk maybe I'll manage to go on one next week even :3>>85546548heya did you go on that walk?>>85548239>why wouldn't I want tomaybe it stresses you out too much and you'd want to talk about something else to distract yourself >thats the plan\o/>snails have shells?ohh true in english there are snails and slugs >>85548323hey anonglad you're good, what sort of fun things are you doing?also hopefully you patched yourself up>>85549402>haven't hurt myself yay.yay ^^good job >episodes, or just wheneverI rarely do it nowadays and never when someone or something makes me sad or angry, can't let anybody have this much control over me even if they don't realize it>have seen lots of people come and goyep it's pretty normal for people to post for a few weeks and then disappear >thanks for the infono prob :>>>85550456>boss off loading his work onto meman your boss sounds like an asshole what if you did do that work? >>85551835eya>tired and exhausted.at least you can relax a little now>wanna collapse and watch anime.and nobody better be bothering you :<>stuck wasting 4 hours each night:/>got the next ep downloaded alreadyalready!? how? no spoilers pls >>85551849have a good nap!
>>85549540He doesn't like internet things, easy things or autists. He prefers real things and do real science in real life and he needs hard things, not easy ones.
>>85552007Yes I did and I liked it :)
>>85552358:D how was it? did you see anything cool?I went on a short little walk too when it got dark, it's getting really chilly outside already, also noticed on part of the street they installed new streetlight with a different light color, it's very white, walking there feel like it's day but the sky is dark, it's kinda fun tho I like the relaxing yellow street lamp light a little more
>>85552572No, I did not enter the city so there was nothing. I just saw cars, some trees and eucalyptus smell which was good. It's a bit deppressing and ugly those gray roads and dirty cars. If you go the city these small appartments can feel even worse. The town feels extremely empty, you only see cars and with rarely events where you see someone. Overall Pontevedra feels a bit old, although is not bad and food is tasty and cheap. Vigo is even uglier. I like more how Santiago de Compostela and A Coruna feels as they have better and bigger gardens and buildings.
>>85552572Yes they often decorate the city here too. Specially in christmas and so for. When went to the city I even often see attractions for kids to play and music playing. Glad you liked that :D
Hello friends. I visited a new part of my city to find a hobby shop to get some paint for my gnomes.It seems like a nice place and the owner was very helpful when it came to suggesting paints even if they did cost a small foture. Seems like a nice place.Hopefully I can fix my sleep soon.>>85541450>Starting on gym again tommorow, and also returning a book to the library.Good luck with keeping consistent with it! What kind of stuff are you looking at doing in there?>I pay like 30 CAD for my cuts not counting the tipThis is the burden I carry by needing to go to an expensive expat barber because I have long, curly hair. They can basically charge what they want.>>85541735>how long have you guys been posting hereSince November-ish. I still feel like a guest here despite it almost being a year. I may be here forever...>>85542329>a guy getting his haircut responded "no this looks awful"Might be the single most autonomous man in human history. Good for him.>>85542970Do you get lonely or do you like the privacy?>>85543681>what if you didn't go and just grew your hair out?Usually I go when it starts getting unmanageable or I start to have difficulty seeing. It's pretty shaggy most of the time.>like leave it somewhere and forgetting about it ?Yeah, that happened once before.>>85545509>i shave what's leftI suppose the Norwood Reaper comes for us all at some point...Could you use something like Nair or is that an awful idea?>>85545827I can definitely relate to that post having been on both ends of it. It's not a nice feeling to sit with but it is a learning experience.Do you think there's any chance of reconciliation. If not now then maybe in the future?
>>85552798>>85552798>Do you get lonely or do you like the privacy?That depends on the day. I like to try new things and go to new places. Although I don't think I could meet new people just going outside if I don't act a bit weird. But the city has fun things to watch. Musicals, attractions for kids, events to sell things. I just prefered going to the highway today as the first time I had low battery and the second time I went It was already the evening
>>85552798>Might be the single most autonomous man in human history. Good for him.I once tried to cut my hair using the thing in my razor that looked that It could be used to cut hairs. Sadly it seemed it had at least one position in which it cuts hair completely so my parents went mad when they saw the back of my head xd.
>>85552007>already!? how?i check on the weekends. I saw ep 10 was out.Don't know what day it normally releases.
>>85552007>little i payi seethough it really is a bad company>next weekwoah how?no rain next week?>>85552259>not easy onesoh so the friendship failed because you two couldn't get along?>>85552798>have been on ends of iti actually tried both sides too, but i was more of a talker, because he avoided venting out to me several times.and i agree, both experiences are tiring>any chancei didn't isolate myself with the intention of permanent leaving.but currently i need to focus on other things stressing me>Hopefully I can fix my sleep soontwo things to relate to in one post
>>85553017I don't think he was angry. He was just bussy and had greater ambitions. We get along well
>>85553017I still chat in a whassp group. And he still sees my messages but won't do thousands lines long messages anymore
>>85553076i see. don't you know what made him like that? like did a fight happen between you two or something? or it's just that he's busy and he doesn't mean any hard feelings?
>>85553117>did a fight happen between you two or something?No, a fight is a very strong word. But he doesn't like my way of life either. He wants to be a scientist, not a government worker. He doesn't want to use social media or any digital things and he wants to be someone in life and be mature
>>85553185well that's something we can't really do much about, right?i hope you don't feel bad about the friendship though
>>85552706>eucalyptuswoa we don't have those here>bit deppressingespecially with tintrt approaching but I think it can be comforting on a way>I like moredo you think you could go there for a walk some day?>>85552798heya>like a nice placeglad you enjoyed yourself >did cost a small foture.D:warhammmer fans are like furriesthey all can afford extremely expensive stuff for their hobby somehow >can fix my sleep soon.best of luck! how bad is it?>pretty shaggy most of the time.I see >that happened once before.maybe tactic is to never take it off>>85552987>check on the weekendI see, the episodes come out every thursday actually, cathursday >>85553017>seeI meant to say, "not like I pay" because I pirate everything >rain next week?there's supposed to be a day or two of good weather
>>85553117His messages were tens of thousands words long it's almost a book can't send everything but he wasn't angry
>>85553209>i hope you don't feel bad about the friendship thoughI felt very bad but it cures with time I guess
>>85553249>especially with tintrt approachingtintrt. what is that ??>do you think you could go there for a walk some day?Yes I could. I could go by train and it is very easy and cheap.
>>85553266>tintrt. what is that ??aaa I can't type winter*
>>85553249>not likeoh lol, i thought you had their console>of good weatherdont you like rain? i like it so much>>85553255>>85553260>wasn't angryyou know? despite how painful it is for you (which is totally understandable), i think it's good that the friendship didn't end over something like a fight, oh and it didn't even end, am i right?i know what you feel, but some time should be enough for you to forget about it. i hope the best for you!
Sometimes friends just grow apart because they want different things from life tbdesu
im pretty sure i should just die idc if you say i shouldnt i you dont know my life or me
>>85553266>could go by train and it is very easy and cheap.have you done that before?>>85553462>thought you had their consolepff nope I don't have money for thatHow are you today btw?> you like rain? i like it so muchit's okay but not for bike rides>>85553644hey meow how are you?>>85553762hello anon>should just diewhy do you think that?
>>85553782I did went to collegue alone that way but I didn't went to Santiago or A Coruna alone. I did went with my mother. Good night cat :). Thanks for caring about me
>>85553890goodnight cya
>>85552798>What kind of stuff are you looking at doing in there?It's just a basic push pull legs routine.>>85552007>ohh true in english there are snails and slugsHaha yeah I guessed that it'd be a language thing makes sense.>>85549402>do you guys do it during mental health episodesIn early mornings, yeah.>>85553249>warhammmer fans are like furriesfunny
>>85537318Hello bros. I had the worst weeks in years, my mental health has been deteriorating due to a slew of factors. My girlfriend of 2 years started pulling back, and trampling over my deepest fears and insecurities, and for once she's the one doing well and i'm the depressed retard. I guess i fell for it. I've noticed how small i've been making myself to accomodate her comfort and I just can't do it anymore. I'm more like a parent to her. She just keeps pushing the boundaries and I accomodate like a moron, and instead of working to get better, she sets up shop in this new low. I thought about carving into my chest today, i want out of this stupid body and to forget everything about her. I was screaming-crying today for the first time in ages, she was the first one who I trusted with my vulnerability and she showed compassion, supported me, but now it seems like it was a huge mistake. She clouded my mind with promises and now, she dropped some new circumstances on me that leave me in limbo for "until she feels like it", and I can't ignore the resentment that has been building. Fuck you. I just can't, I fucking can't anymore. For the first time in my life my self-respect and dignity woke up, and I want out. I'm going to dump her, she doesn't give me anything, she only takes takes takes. I arranged a therapy session on tuesday. I feel like fucking dying, of shame that I let myself get lead on for so long and that I didn't quit sooner, of what a pathetic faggot i am, and because the future we both earnestly saw with eachother is not happening. I'm losing my mind. I've been clean for a year and a half, but I'm fucking frothing at the mouth
>>85553762Then tell people about yourself, what do you expect otherwise?If i say you should die, that holds just as much weight as me saying you shouldn't because as you said i don't know you. What do you want?
so how do i explain scars TO psychiatrist? to apply FOR A JOB TO BECOME WAGIE KEK LOL
>>85554116That sounds a clear case of people taking advantage of you. I lived through that. She lied to me saying she was in need later when I asked proofs she kept making axcuses until it was clear she was lying. When it was clear she almost told me all her plans and tried to extort me with my fears with another account. It is awful and disgusting. They lie to you. What is she asking ? What were her promises ? And why can't she love you unconditionally ?
>>85554116Like she refused to send me proper screenshots of her expenses in time and later I was able to see all her reddit messages with the people she scammed (it showed it to me for 2 days). As she supposedly had tons of student debt (it was all false) Don't trust her !! Try to find another person that just doesn't want to receive too much from you. If she is only for money it's not worth
>>85554138Later in an account in which it was clear it was the same person she extorted me saying I had viruses in my device
>>85554138They usually start sending messages appealing to right wing people. For example she said she was in a private university etc. I guess they think right wing people deserve the most being scammed and I had friends who think that way for a bit. I didn't cared enough when she fabricated a ton of false proofs but then she sais she was tired of fabricating proofs.
>>85554380>>85554367>>85554345Dawg stop making 3 posts for every reply just make it all one post
I'm a fucking piece of trash. I can't stop crying. I just want to be loved by someone who knows who i really am, soneone who i can be vulnerable with. Is it too mucbt to ask for. Im buying a boxcutter tomorrow, i want to fucking shred my stupid chest and arms, i'm such a fucking neurotic stupid freak, how could i ever think it could work. Please someone. I want to pay a prostitute to take my virginity, fuck ny stupid feelings, i want to be raped. I dont deserve vulnerable intimacy
>>85554634Don't hurt yourself :(. Do you study ? Do you have a job ?
Go on then, have a bump on me.
>>85554345>>85554367>>85554380>>85554394I have no idea what you're talking about dude, i'm not in some online scamming scheme, i'm talking about my avoidant irl girlfriend. I have been sapped of my energy and self-esteem>>85554827I don't have a job. I'm studying remotely from home. I have nothing.
>>85556139>I've noticed how small i've been making myself to accomodate her comfort and I just can't do it anymore. I'm more like a parent to her. She just keeps pushing the boundaries and I accomodate like a moron, and instead of working to get better, she sets up shop in this new low. I thought about carving into my chest today, i want out of this stupid body and to forget everything about her. I was screaming-crying today for the first time in ages, she was the first one who I trusted with my vulnerability and she showed compassion, supported me, but now it seems like it was a huge mistake. She clouded my mind with promises and now, she dropped some new circumstances on me that leave me in limbo for "until she feels like it", and I can't ignore the resentment that has been building. Fuck you. I just can't, I fucking can't anymore. For the first time in my life my self-respect and dignity woke up, and I want out. I'm going to dump her, she doesn't give me anything, she only takes takes takes.I was talking about this
bump, bring forced to phonefag is the worstmods are gay ive literally done nothing for me to be banned and i cant even appeal the ban
>>85554173r u the guy who made the thread about getting a job as a retail manager, or something?
What do you /cut/?
>>85557800myself>>85557488no.
bump nyaa
>>85558738If it's this slow a day it's probably better to let the the thread desu
ebay charged me 205 in fees for a sale. I guess I'm done being a reseller now.>>Any plans for today?changed oil, did laundry. Now I'm just back to writing and drinking, but if i have time, I'll get my own fruit fly simulation set up. >>85554116hi DM>I had the worst weeks in years, my mental health has been deteriorating due to a slew of factors. It's okay, just keep your head up.>I'm more like a parent to her. She just keeps pushing the boundaries and I accomodate like a moron, and instead of working to get better, she sets up shop in this new low. was there anything good about this relationship to you?>For the first time in my life my self-respect and dignity woke up, and I want out. I'm going to dump her, she doesn't give me anything, she only takes takes takes.I'm glad you stood up for yourself.>>85554634>I just want to be loved by someone who knows who i really am, soneone who i can be vulnerable with. it'll be okay.I went through this for a while. I never quite got what i was looking for, but it will be okay in the end.
>>85545851>how are you?could be better. last two weeks have been rough and i really felt it this weekend. next week will be better, but i'm still not looking forward to having to go to work tomorrow.>feel like what exactly? what happened?bad. just have to do more and more work in less time. wears me down.>some of them i mentioned at the top of my previous post just above this onei see. as i said before, i think you figured out something important there.>the weather is nice toostill kinda weird here. constantly switching between rainy and sunny. made work even worse.>i cant really enjoy it fully though currentlywhy's that?>>85546082>hope tomorrow goes wellwork sucked, playing with friends was nice (i won :p), blizzcon was a disaster, so 1 out of 3. could have been better. ^^>it's something to look forward tosadly, i was mistaken. should have just went to bed.>hyper realistic minecraft dirt block looki think i know what you mean, but i have to go look it up. is the new zelda game ue5?>>85546351>would like to know more about your day tomorrow.sorry i broke my promise D:>>85548239>Terrible signlots of people seem to enjoy the graphics, but i don't know. just way too uncanny for me.>Horrible...and it's getting even worse. those talentless hacks now go back and inject their shitty ideas for games into the classics. sometimes you get a gem like aoe2 de, but that's definitely not the norm. most if the time it's just shit.>>85549402>another OG huhi guess so, but i never saw any of the threads before catbro was making them.>I've actually only just come back recently after a few year hiatusfound a good thread to hang out, then. :]
>>85552798>>85552798>get some paint for my gnomes.let's gooo! :D>even if they did cost a small foturewhat brand did you get?>I may be here forever...one of us! one of us!>I suppose the Norwood Reaper comes for us all at some point...well, could have waited a bit longer than 20, though... and my father still has full hair in his 60s. shit makes no sense.>Could you use something like Nair or is that an awful idea?probably could, but i'd rather not use chemicals like that on my head.>>85554116hey dm. sorry to hear your girlfriend turned out like that, but don't blame yourself. don't let her trample all over and keep your dignity.>I'm a fucking piece of trash. I can't stop crying. I just want to be loved by someone who knows who i really amas sad as it is, no one ever truly knows you the way you want to be understood. or at least it's extremely rare to find someone who won't use your emotions and vulnerabilities against you. gotta be more careful with what you share irl. it's a trap more often than not.>i want to fucking shred my stupid chest and armswould be good if you could keep it superficial at least. don't be too hard on yourself.>I want to pay a prostitute to take my virginity, fuck ny stupid feelings, i want to be raped.just a waste of money and don't say that. you deserve a healthy relationship as much as anybody else.>>85558785hi cynic!>ebay charged me 205 in fees for a salewtf did you sell? maybe it's about it being private or commercial?>changed oil, did laundry.good job taking care of your chores! (*^*)9>I'm just back to writinghow's that going?>and drinkingwhat are you drinking? made myself a historic old fashioned again tonight. really enjoying it.
>>85559198>wtf did you sell?I meant to write 20%I didn't realize it was so high now.But it was a selling a laptop. It had some accessories missing and a bend cover. But it's designed to be repairable, so I tried selling it as is. I would've been at replacement value with the other thing a bought, but the seller fees fucked me on that one.>how's that going?I keep getting stuck on minor parts. Like a whole implied back story for a character I know I'm only mentioning once. They just exist for an inciting incident. I feel like I'm wasting time on world building that's largely irreverent. >what are you drinkingJust some shots mixed with tea. it's simple. better than Aruko's recommendation.>made myself a historic old fashioned again tonightMaybe I should try mixing a proper drink.
>>85559554>I meant to write 20%still bad enough.>the seller fees fucked me on that one.at least you're kinda close to replacing it now. do you have a laptop in mind?>I feel like I'm wasting time on world building that's largely irreverent.hm. it's a gamble. people will either appreciate it that you went the extra mile on something like that or the might think of it as indulgent. like everything, it depends on the execution. then again, who knows? maybe you'll use the character again somewhere else in the future.>Just some shots mixed with tea. it's simple. better than Aruko's recommendationsounds nice. i had an awesome oolong hai once. couldn't recreate it, though. who's aruko and what do they recommend?>Maybe I should try mixing a proper drink.this once super easy: small spoon full of sugar, enough bitters so the sugar is fully soaked, 1 part whisky (preferably rye), 2 parts water and a some nutmeg to taste, no ice.probably my last post. good night!
>>85559554>I feel like I'm wasting time on world building that's largely irreverent. *irrelevant, actuallyBut same, if anyone knows how to stop this shit from happening i'd love to know
Today I did the arduous task of cleaning my room. A lot of old boxes were removed from my shelf and despite removing three trash bags worth of stuff it seems to have generated no additional space.Also my sleep is still messed up.>>85552848>I don't think I could meet new people just going outsideIt's pretty difficult to meet anyone by doing that. Usually you need to see people somewhat regularly.>>85553017>but currently i need to focus on other things stressing meThat's fair enough. I hope you can get where you need to be sooner than later.Same with the sleep!>>85553249>they all can afford extremely expensive stuff for their hobby somehowAt the end of the day, both are made up rubbish for engineering students. People that end up in well-paying STEM jobs with very low expenses because they don't leave the house much.I think if someone bombed a furry convention half the country's IT infrastructure would be down in a week.>how bad is it?I need to shift it back about 8 hours, I'd say.>never take it offI suppose so, but that's bad manners. Although at this point it's what I must do to hide my awful haircut...>>85554040>It's just a basic push pull legs routine.Good on you for not skipping leg day.>>85554116That sounds pretty awful. I hope you can get something out of your session on Tuesday, whatever that may be.No matter what you end up doing you'll always have this thread to talk to, and they'll probably push you in the right direction.>>85559198>what brand did you get?I went in for some Vallejo but got duped into buying Two Thin Coats and some Citadel paints for the colours that were out of stock.Now that I think about it I didn't get any browns for their beards. So I guess I'll need to shell out a little more...>my father still has full hair in his 60s. shit makes no sense.I heard that baldness is inherited from the mother's side but I have no idea how true that is. Not that that makes it any better.
I didn't go through with it. I'm feeling a tiny bit better, but there's a passive tightness in my throat and chest that need to be let out. My skin feels constricting and dirty. >>85558785Hi cynic. I'm sorry to hear about the ebay thing, sounds annoying when a fee like that shows up.>keep your head upI'm doing my best, I really am. I was either strong enough or too lazy and didn't cut, but the thought won't leave me.>was there anything good about this relationship to you?Yes, a lot. I don't want to go into it right now, it hurts too much. She's so magnificent, but she is overwhelmed and is hurting me so much in her confusion. She's not being malicious, just very scared and lost in her head. She has no capacity for the relationship as of late, so i want it to stop before it kills me. She lowered it to the point where all that's left is that we technically love eachother, everything else has fallen away.>I went through this for a while. I never quite got what i was looking for, but it will be okay in the end.I hope so. And i'm sorry you didn't find it yet. How old are you cynic? Don't say "in the end". I'm 20, i've been with her since 18, and I feel like I missed out on teenage love, where i'm allowed to be scared and inexperienced, and i'm running out of time. I hate myself for being so petty. It's just killing me. She said she could imagine moving out together, and me and her were doing our best. But now she's doing barely the minimum, and I could wait for her, if she wasn't actively questioning whether she wants to be with me at all, and just dropping this raw confusion onto me every month or so, before whiplashing back to superficial normalcy because she gets scared, leaving me to pick up the pieces of my nervous system alone. I'm done.
>>85559198Hi yuanon.>don't let her trample all over and keep your dignity.I'm mirroring her amount of effort right now, I don't reach for her at all and don't write her anything unless she asks. I'm protecting my boundaries and my nervous system. I'm so badly burnt out emotionally. >it's a trap more often than not.I thought she was exactly the person i could trust. But turns out she doesn't have to be malicious to hurt me, just clumsy and neglectful.>just a waste of money and don't say that. you deserve a healthy relationship as much as anybody elseI allocated the money to actual trauma and sexual therapy, it's the same price. I have an appointment on tuesday.I really don't think i deserve anything. it's my fault for being a scared pussy and making it so important. I would much rather cauterize this wound instead of healing it, but i probably would only feel worse. I just think a prostitute could help me at least overcome my mental barrier and get on with my stupid life. I never felt safe nor cherished, maybe i'm not supposed to>>85559554>I meant to write 20%Oh damn okay that sounds better than 205 lol>>85560471Thanks anon :)
>>85559031>just way too uncanny for me.Same. All of Capcom new titles are made with the RE engine, the realism takes away from ny unique artstyle these games could have had. It's only a step above unreal 5 to me lookswise...>shitty ideas for games into the classicsCE anniversary comes to mind what a shit game. Murders the simple shapes and colours of the game with superfluous details like jutting armor pieces and lights everywhere. >>85557800My chest.>>85560471>Good on you for not skipping leg dayPeople always joke about skipping it but I never understood tbdesu, like even if you're lifting purely for looks muscular legs are esthetically pleasing. I was even more surprised when I found out people actually did
final bump to stay this night
Hello long time lurker never bothering posting/interacting but this caught my eye. My plans are too go to bed soon wake up go to work come back and play videogames until like 5am and do the same thing tomorrow, Haven't hurt myself in a while but I mainly just stay up all night get a solid 3-4 hours of sleep been like this for the past 6 months now maybe more idk, forgotten why i hurt myself now looking back was prolly just being an attention seeking loser, but yeah idkNothing is bothering me now, I've grown use too being stuck in my head negative thoughts and all usually look at cute animal videos on instagram while at work to cancel it out but otherwise im fine i think, sorry for this reply probably doesn't correlate with this thread but i wish you all a goodnight and sweet dreams.
>>85563442Hey Bourb, nice to meet you. Don't worry about whether your reply fits or not, it's good to have you here. I'm glad you've been clean for a while, your sleep schedule is something you can work on when you have the energy to spare, if you can't be bothered right now that's okay.
>>85550705ah was about to be 2 days clean but I just did it again, and I'm definitely developing an addiction. hopefully I snap out of it and realise how bad it is soon. took a few days last time.>>85563442dw, ur reply was fine. I'm a newfag so I can't speak much but seems like these generals are for chill convos about life anyway. glad u haven't been cutting urself, and hope u have a good sleep.
hey everyone!how's it? any plans for today I might go on a walk in the evening again, it gets really cold and dark quickly now, summer is leaving >>85560678hey DM ^^the stuff you gotta deal with sound very difficult, it'd give me ptsd ot something honestly I hope the therapy session works out fren>>85563442hello >3-4 hours of sleepand you feel okay after that?>attention seekingidk man people always use it as an insult as if doing it is nothing to be concerned about but think about it, if someone needs attention so much they hurt themselves it's not normal, it concerning >look at cute animal videosbased^^ do you have any pets?>sorry for this replyooh don't worry!>you all a goodnight and sweet dreams.sleep well!
>>85563442Like /r9k/ lurker or /cut/ lurker>>85564380Hallu /cat/>how's it?Pretty good actually.>any plans for todayLabbing street fighter 3: 3rd strike, nothing else out the ordinary.>really cold and dark quickly now, summer is leavingYeahhh that makes walking out late more annoying. I go in the evening to avoid cars, but it'll be too dark for that soon.>summer is leavingIf not for the difficulty walking winter is my favorite season. I love Christmas...
>>85564520heya>pretty good\o/something nice happened?>3rd strike, nothing else out the ordinary.have fun!I'll probably play some zelda>Yeahhh that makes walking out late more annoyinI actually like it when it's cold and dark on my walks, I can put on cozy clothing and feel the cool air, it's nice >walking winter is my favorite season. I love Christmas...i get uyou get a lot of snow?
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>>85564380thanks kitty/cat/. I hope you never have to deal with shit like this. I'm doing considerably better now tho, i think therapy will indeed help. It's a new guy tho, and I never did sexual therapy. I hope i can manage to open up.
>>85565899no probs>never have to dealdw I won't ^^I pretty much stay away from relationships >doing considerably better now tho,glad to hear thatdid you do something enjoyable today?>hope i can manage to open up.maybe the day before you should write some notes in case you can't focus when you're there
>>85566428i wasted my day. Whatever, tomorrow is going to be better.Good night everyone
>>85567396goodnight I'll be going to sleep too
>>85560471>I went in for some Vallejo but got duped into buying Two Thin Coats and some Citadel paints for the colours that were out of stock.neither are bad choices, but, since they're all produced in europe, i wonder if there isn't a more local brand of acrylic paints you could get.>I guess I'll need to shell out a little more...take a little of the colours you have, mix them on a palette and see what colours you they make. you'll be surprised.>I have no idea how true that is. Not that that makes it any better.might be true, but i can't remember anyone on that side of the family losing their hair that early, either. just bad luck, i suppose.>Not that that makes it any better.i might bring it up here and there, but, honestly, i don't really care. makes no difference either way.>>85560678>I'm so badly burnt out emotionally.sounds to me like you're doing the right thing, though. it's ok just do the bare minimum and to try to recover emotionally.>just clumsy and neglectful.i guess sometimes we don't know how things affect us until we're confronted with them.>I have an appointment on tuesday.hope it helps. rooting for you.>it's my fault for being a scared pussy and making it so important.at least it gives you the drive to do something about it. i never did.>I just think a prostitute could help me at least overcome my mental barrier and get on with my stupid life.always an option if that therapy thing doesn't work out, isn't it?>I never felt safe nor cherished, maybe i'm not supposed toi'd like to say anything uplifting, but that's how i ended up and it's shit. you do that therapy thing or, if that fails, the prostitute. good luck, dude.
>>85561736>It's only a step above unreal 5 to me lookswise...agreed.neverything looks so samey already and i have a feeling it's only going to get worse from here. whenever i watch a reveal show it looks like the same 4-5 games being shown again and again.>Murders the simple shapes and colours of the game with superfluous details like jutting armor pieces and lights everywhere.i've only listened to some guys shitting on the remake, but i can imagine how they ruined it. i've seen it often enough. i hate how afraid designers are of simplicity. it's like they feel that if whatever they make isn't an affront to all senses in every aspect, people won't know they did anything.>>85563442hey bourb. welcome to the thread. o/>>85567396>i wasted my day.it was a waste of a day to begin with :p>Good night everyonegood night!>>85567550sleep well.i'll be off for today as well. good night.
>>85567783 #>looks so samey already and i have a feeling it's only going to get worse from here.I had fun playing outer wilds haha. It's boring at the start but then you see youself being pushed to the center of a planet with jellyfish or moving using quantum rocks.>i hate how afraid designers are of simplicity.There are many simple graphics games out there. Neon White a simple game about recolecting gifts and going through demons and parkour. Brotato is a simple game about building a potato. The King is watching a simple game about recluting soldiers. Reventure just find 100 ways to die. Do not feed the monkeys a game about "feeding the monkeys" by calling them in phone calls and doing dangerous things. If you search for it you can find millions of original games.There are calm games that are non real time like super auto pets, cloverpit, backpack hero, please do not touch anything or reventure and real time games like do not feed the monkeys
so i was gooning when reddit /cutting news notification popped outWTF ARE BEANS i hit nerve once and couldnt use arm for 2 months so its muscle but i dont remember any beans
I wanted to try coloring my drawing today but my brain kept telling me I'd suck at it and the thoughts got so bad that I gave up. How do I actually color a drawing digitally?>>85564380Hi /cat/ how was your walk?
