funny how my life has been completely stagnant for the past 10 years when I wanted to do what I wanna do now and been doing kind of (go back to study to make myself employable)yet was held back and forced back by the systems and government by multiple levels, no help from anyone family to help my situation, just completely stagnant and held back while everyone else improved their lifes and were on rails and moving along just fine (reading making money, while I was just held back and was rotting in shit (read no money)and I wanted to and tried to solve my situation then too, explained what I wanted to do and could have gotten out of it way faster but again ,was held back and blocked from just fixing a few thingswere there things I could have done in retrospect? sure I could have summoned energy and gotten out of obvious depression and just solved all my issues with the knowledge at hand if I had the energy too, there is always solutions, I could have also gotten jobs out of thin air at the timeanything is possible surepeople just enabled and lost me all that time without nothing, into thin airthat's why I don't fw niggas anymoreanyway
I get that,not long ago, for the first time in my life, someone in my family realized what I try to pull off and helped buy me tools for the task, so I can fucking get on with my life and contribute down the line. Funny how it seems it's never the parents who are open to helping you out and would rather put pressure on you to get a minimal wage job and bootstrap yourself from the lowest level of hell you are about to fall into.
>>85565466I went through the exactly same, years and years of trying to make something out of my life interrupted by "there is a cashier job available anon why don't you leave whatever you are doing we dont understand but will forcibly interrupt"
>>85565527keep in mind the timeframe which I am speaking of here when I wanted to do what I'm doing now I was late 20s now I'm looking at being 40 and I'm not even employable yetthe urgency of things increase by alot, not even comparablebefore like it was ok I got timeand even now, even now I am getting a inferior treatment at every place, people younger than me get preferential treatment and moved ahead of things and they act like I got even more years to wasteit's actually insane the shit you have to deal with set backs every where you look, I don't know how this is even possibleeverything I wanna do just takes twice as long by default, and people constnatly getting in your way and completely fucking up your shit. even though you try to fix your shitit's actually unbelievableIf you need the "approval" of someone to do something they will ALWAYS make it the worst possible thing for you, you can't fucking get any slack anywhere, not even the same treatment as other people, it never fucking ends man, just accept getting fucked non stopand when you are older now you definitely feel like shit and less worth because even the youngest zoomers have careers and are out earning you it's getting tiring man
>>85565584I would have taken shit jobs but there are no jobs, If I had a shit job my situation would have improved much faster too, you can study while having a job, I was stuck in wellfare hell and they were blocking me from studying, unless I did it on my own that isalong with many more life issues at the same timeyou only have so much energy
