>be me, 18m, incel, drug user>damn my 15yo cousin is hot>damn i'm really fucked up, i should tell my cousin i love her and send her a dickpick>wake up in the hospital, overdosed that night>phone full of disgusted cousin's messages>dad gets me in rehab>ffw 6 months, out of rehab, apologise to cousin, all good>talk with her friend, she tells me my cousin was kind of attracted to me once i dissappeared (stopped giving her attention)>now she is not a virgin anymore and has a bf>blocked on social media for not being a simp to my own cousin.what the fuck? is my whole family full of horrible people? is it a female thing? should i seek therapy? already going to psychiatrist but this may be beyond what pharma can fix.
>>85565957What drugs are we talking? Just weed or hard shit?
>>85565999>UpdateXans mainly
>>85565957The friend was probably fucking with you.
>>85566010Benzos? Yeah you're fucked man. Try finding out if they are any stores near you that don't have Xanax or other meds stocked so you don't get tempted when you go to them. I'd say move to a new area to cut contact from any dealers you may have but that isn't an option in the Modern Day Cucked Housing Situation.As for therapy and a psych- they are memes bro. They'll just dose you up on more drugs to "fix" the problem (making you more retarded and keeping you coming back so they get more money from you). Commodifying compassion is also gay as fuck.Is there ANYONE even REMOTELY trustworthy in your family, both immediate and extended, that you can open up to? Or no, are you fucked there too? Could even be some distant relation you vaguely remember as being chill or something.
>>85566024idk, my cousin is weird, i think it is a family thing, i hope i don't get any backlash from not being that nice to her tho
>>85566035grandma never fails, also my relationship with my dad got a lot better in rehab, i'm feeling strong when it comes to staying sober, but even sober i know i can fuck up for being a little perv, i'm actually going to go no contact or minimal if even needed contact with my cousin just in case.
>>85565957>therapyFuck no. Move on and find some other (of age) girl to fuck up with, and continue cycle til success. Never tell her any of this.
>>85566035>Try finding out if they are any stores near you that don't have Xanax or other meds stocked so you don't get tempted when you go to them.lmao. This is only a concern in Mexico.
>>85566070Your grandma on the paternal or maternal side? If she's one of the Sapient Boomers yeah you can rely on her a fair bit. Stay close with your dad too if he's got his head screwed on tight.
>>85566071ascend and forget, some would say, definetly will do this
>>85566093Paternal side, my maternal side of the family sees me as this kind of monster just because of this, won't even invite me to anything.Yeah, dad is that kind of man, i don't deserve him
>>85565957tell a true story next time fag
>>85565957>should i seek therapy?why?stop using drugs and leave your cousin alone. you think therapists are these high iq people with expert knowledge of the mind but really almost all of them are out of their depth the moment they get someone who isn't just a stressed out woman wanting to vent and cry in front of a stranger. like if your therapist actually gives a shit they're just gonna say the first thing i said but almost all of them would rather have you say a whole bunch of shit out loud so they can react by putting you on some list.also her friend was almost certainly fucking with you.
>>85565957When you ask your white friend "hey, how's it going?":
>>85566905nah its more of a brown thing
