My siblings birthday was yesterday, somewhere around this time next year i will be most likely killing myselfI was the only one called to take pictures with them while they cut the cake because everyone else in the family is infighting, my aunt and one of my uncles took the pictures. It dawned on me amidst the thing that i might not be for them there next year and things will only get worse in the family so that time i will be actually the only oneI had to give them a small little talk, telling them i wish they would turn out better than them, to put more effort into things and take every oppurtinity they're fortunate to haveMan why do i have to be such a selfish nigger. I cant do anymore of this either im long overdue killing myself but fuckBest i can do is leave them some money and my computer behind, i hope life treats them way better than it did to me
