Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportSlow daze>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Usual links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>85586530I was just working in a team project because I can't think of anything more important than pleasing girls in this world to pay for my autism. I really belive being free is a torture and pleasing girls is the only good thing worth living :(. I'm too autistic for this world. Girls are so good and they work so hard. I'm just underevolved and should obbey.
>>85579468>Manhunt or sawI see it kinda, tho all I've seen of either are random clips. Saw doesn't interest me all that much, but I get tons of manhunt on my Instagram. Could be worth checking out when I get a computer capable of emulating the PS2.>no but I weirdly have a lot of dreams about fighting peopleI have fighting dreams too, but it's always something inhuman. Demons, zombies, spirits etc. I wish they were real vampire hunting is sooooo cool.>>85586677>can't think of anything more important than pleasing girls in this worldProbably doing well for yourself>to pay for my autismHuh? What's that got to do with anything...
>>85586799>Probably doing well for yourselfI'm just underevolved. Nothing in me is worth for any girl in any way. Why should I continue living in that situation ? Women are always hard working, care about important things, succesful in academy, in everything they do. Men are doing everything to destroy civilization :(. They lack jobs, they distract. Women are the best being in the world. I don't know why I should do anything besides pleasing them. They always do the right thing.>Huh? What's that got to do with anything...I hate myself :(. The only important thing is this world is to please girls and women. Can't think how to do that because I'm a boy so I'm so dumb and autistic. I'm a failure because the girls are so smart and important. They always enjoy the right things
The new strategy game FIRE EMBLEM is online !! Yay
I have returned from a long hiatus >>85586530Hey Togata! Sorry I think I replied to you once since you came back and dropped of the thread. I've been moving around and traveling a bunch, combined with being very busy with both of my jobs, it's been very chaotic keeping up with the thread and everyone.Hope things have been going well for you and good to see you!>>85586677>>85587005hi HB(How i'm abbreviating your name)I think we played Sven Coop together but first time talking in thread if I'm not mistakenDon't be so hard on yourself. I think you're overstating the value of women and understating the value of men a bit, though society has started to push such ideas to reduce people in your state to this.>Men are doing everything to destroy civilization Men built civilization, but will say there is a problem with weak and immoral, self serving men in the modern age.>They lack jobs,as an employed man, I beg to differ xD though the biggest problem is the desire for corporations to destroy jobs and reduce work to something they bestow on people who pass their loyalty tests, rather than the hardest work.In all seriousness though, try to relax
>>85586530hey togata! how's it going?>>85586677hi birdy!>I can't think of anything more important than pleasing girls in this worldthat's a very kind thought, but don't let them take advantage of you, ok?>>85587732have fun!>>85588018hey officeanon! good to see you again! :D how have you been?
>>85588018>you're overstating the value of womenMen go to less collegue degrees. Men get homeless more. Men are more violent. Men do less home chores. Men are 94% of people in prision. You can't overstate the obvious>society has started to push such ideasSociety is manipulating society through X algorithm which is obviously more efficient at manipulating people that anything the government can do. Think about everything you see on the internet and what image does it sell.>Men built civilizationThat's not true. Men just were more violent so they stole more land. Girls made everything good from the cloth you wear to the company you have. Men do everything bad like cars, pollution and war tools.>the biggest problem is the desire for corporations to destroy jobs and reduce work to something they bestow on people who pass their loyalty testsAsk what sex are the ones managing all of that
>>85588378>that's a very kind thoughtty. I'll do c:
smoking a cocoon fulla loud like some thunder>>85588018Hallo officeanon, welcome back.>it's been very chaotic keeping up with the thread and everyone.Sounds like a good busy and not a bad busy at least. Travellings always fun>Hope things have been going well for you and good to see you!Likewise, nice to see you again. Things are mostly the same save for a career goal change. Working towards becoming a detective now (which means learning French and becoming a police officer here). >>85588378Hallu yuanon>how's it going?Well enough. I'm fired up today since I saw a cousin of mine at the gym today and they were just a little stronger than me. It's a good feeling. Also beat DMC1 yesterday, onto hard and dante must die next... what about you?
>>85588390behind every bad man stands a woman who's 100% on board with all the heinous shit he does as long as she profits from it. where a man can be openly brutal because he's strong, a woman has to be manipulative and deceitful. both sexes are capable of good and bad behavior. it's just not symmetrical.>>85588513>smoking a cocoon fulla loud like some thunderhaving a good time?>I saw a cousin of mine at the gym today and they were just a little stronger than me. It's a good feeling.yeah. it's interesting that you can mobilize more strength when you train with other people. guess your body just knows it doesn't need to impress anyone, so it leaves some reserves. you'll get him next time! (*^*)9 >Also beat DMC1 yesterday, onto hard and dante must die next...nice and good luck. o7 i don't think i've ever played that difficulty.>what about you?had the day off, which was nice. got some groceries, did some chores, played some games and watched some vids. overall pretty chill.
hey guyshow r u?>>85586677hey>anything more important than pleasing girls in this world to pay for my autismthat sounds very unhealthy fren>>85586799>tons of manhunt on my Instagram.there's interest in that game?>capable of emulating the PS2.do you have a pc?I'm sure you could fairly easy find it and run it on anything >it's always something inhuman.sound cool!
>>85588763hi catbro! o/>how r u?i'm good. finally in my comfy bed and just saw that the avgn released a new video. haven't watched anything of him in ages, so i'll be watching that now. what did you do today?
>>85588378Hey yuanon! how are you?>how have you been?Good for the most part. Obviously I've told you about a lot of what I have going on already, but been relatively busy with work on top of that. Nothing bad, just busy. >>85588513>Travellings always funFun, but tiring and takes a lot out of you. Honestly, been doing some pretty crazy things I'd never see myself doing in my life, especially at my age, but having a lot of good experiences that I'm glad I gave a chance to do. I was always a bit hesitant to go out and do things when I was in my 20s, so I'm glad I'm managing okay even in early 30s to make up for some of that.> Things are mostly the same save for a career goal change. I'd say changing goal itself is a big step at least. Pretty neat direction you're heading and wish you luck with it. >>85588763hey hey cat! Good to see you, how'd your day go?
>>85588390like yuanon said. It's a very complex thing. I think thinking too much about one sex vs the other is an inherently negative loop to fall into though and am just cautioning that you should try not fixate too much on that.
>>85588688>both sexes are capable of good and bad behavior.Girls are just smarter in doing so c:>>85588763>that sounds very unhealthy frenI value my health. But girls health is just more important.>>85588978I just belive some beings in life are very valuable. More than me. It is not negative to value what it is good. Do not fall in libtardism or nihilism. Just defend and build what it is more beautiful and valuable. The world has already gotten too much uglyness and spiritually death enviroments.
>>85588930>how are you?could be better, but ok overall. work's been rough and been really getting to me. i've just started to recover. today was good, though. posted what i did in my reply to togata above.>I've told you about a lot of what I have goingtrue, true. ^^ i'm just asking for the sake of catching up here. >Nothing bad, just busy.always good to hear.>>85589047>Girls are just smarter in doing so c:pretty muchgonna head to bed now. good night, everyone.
>>85589247Good night Yuany. Thanks for existing one day more ^^. The world is a better place with you.
>>85588870glad to hear you can enjoy your evening in peace and sleep well>>85588930eyoI didn't do much today had fun doing a bit of mapping and watch yani neko got very frustrated with zelda water temple grrr>>85589047>health is just more important.untrue why you think ur like that?aloso how way your day?>>85589247goodnight
>>85586530i was clean for almost 2 years but i've fallen into the habit of cutting againi relapsed first last thursday and i've done it 3 times since then i think it's becoming a habit againi'm 19 and in college and i have very little hope for my future. i have autism and it's quite bad. i can barely talk to people. i don't have any friends. i don't know if i ever will. what's more concerning though is my career prospects. i'm afraid i'll never have enough courage to go to a job interview. i've never had a job before. all 3 of my siblings have, including my younger sister. i feel stupid and useless. i'm afraid that i'll never get over my social inhibition. i'm a sophomore in college and i still have no idea what to major in. i very badly want to get a good degree and get a good job and not be a parasite but it's so daunting and i don't even know where to start. i just feel useless and stupid. recently i've been thinking about killing myself. i'm also scared about the economy. the gas prices thing scares me. not because i drive a lot and it effects me directly, but because i think it might be like the 70s where an oil shock caused a very long period of economic hardship. i'm afraid that i'll spend all of my 20s trying to establish myself in a recession economy.picrel old scars. i used to only cut my legs but now i'm doing my arms. do you think having cutting scars on my arms will make it harder for me to get a job?
>>85586530is it self harm if i chronically jerk off to cuckold, humiliation, trans porn and overindulge in sweets & junk food?
>>85589781no that's just called being a huge loser
>>85589834wtf? that's not fair
>>85589961lol aorry
>>85589710>pls be a foid>pls be a foid>pls be a foid>pls be a foid>pls be a foid>pls be a foid
>>85588688>having a good time?It's a lyric but I wish I was https://www.youtube.com/watchv=RDB6j7L99Gg hundred on tha dash getting head while I'm steerin>just knows it doesn't need to impress anyone, so it leaves some reserves.Makes sense actually, I ended up going past empty even and almost dropped the bar on my neck.>overall pretty chill.Nice nice. On AVGN I watched his old videos ages ago after re-watching his new ones, and I kinda wish he got more serious over time? Like I think the the first 4 or so seasons of avgn were the best for The Nerd character but as it goes on the persona feels more "forced" if that makes sense. Like the games are still shitty and suck ass, but he doesn't seem as mad. That, and older AVGN spliced in slower more genuine segments critiquing the game alongside the skits while new nerd just seems mad all the time. Could be wrong tho this was ages ago>>85588763>there's interest in that game?At least on a surface level, yeah. I've seen reels of it get over 8k+ likes pretty regularly, just edits of the game.>do you have a pc?Like a desktop? Nah, I'm stuck with some 2016ish laptop. I get frame drops playing sven lol....>>85588930>Honestly, been doing some pretty crazy things I'd never see myself doing in my lifeAwesome!!! What typa things anyway if it's not prying>Pretty neat direction you're heading and wish you luck with itThanks thanks. I'm just neutral about the job, never felt strongly about policing either way but it's reliable work. Only barriers to entry and fitness and not coming off as insane. Also downloaded a buncha cop and detective films to get myself more into the idea, maybe I'll even grow to like it...
>>85589995tranny sorry
>>85590041well at least you look cute below the penor
>>85589710>do you think having cutting scars on my arms will make it harder for me to get a job?Could always wear long sleeves to job interviews or maybe conceal it with makeup. Also I've seen employees at the mall with scars so it's not the be all end all, if they're hiring they need the help badyly enoughto not care. Should probably stick to cutting somewhere less visible anyway>i'm also scared about the economyIs there a point to? If it's going great or terrible you still need to get your money up so theres no use worrying. Like if a super recession comes or things stay the same your goals shouldn't shift much.>i'm afraid i'll never have enough courage to go to a job interview. i've never had a job beforeHave you applied to any even? Unless you've bombed a million interviews I dont get stressing over hypotheticals>sophomore in college>autismIf your college has an anime club go there>very little hope for my futureThrowing in the towel at 19 is kinda dumb when you got dudes nearly double your age also starting college. Like if they still got hope for a better tomorrow why not you?
>>85590125the anime club would probably be most allistic normgroids plus i feel uncomfortable in mostly male spaces
>>85590170>anime club would probably be most allisticI used to go to one and thats not really the case. If it is you can also just stop going lol
final bump 2 stay tha nite
>>85589396 #>untrueIt's true O.O. Girls are so important. Girls always surprise me being so aware ^v^. I just need someone like them motivate me to keep going and tell me everything is going to be worth it.>why you think ur like that?My way of life is disgusting. Being alone is disgusting. I just can't stop being so mentally ill ^~^.>aloso how way your day?I chat a bit with class teamates joined a discord group, collaborated to the team project, studied a bit and did a bit of exercise. One day I'll gonna try to watch Yani Neko. Maybe next Monday. Maybe later.How was your day catty ? Did you sleep well ? You really deserve to rest so nice.>>85589710 #>i'm 19 and in collegeYou are very young. For sure there is a way to make friends in collegue>i just feel uselessIt's normal at that age. But you are in collegue and making progress. There is always time to try luck with job interviews.>job before. all 3 of my siblings haveThat's an easier start.
good meowrninghope your friday is going well!ya guys got any plans for today?
>>85592765my plans for today are fucking cut myself
Well bad news is I cut myself a bunch, good news is I used up all the best spots so I'm not gonna do it anymore (out of boredom at least).Also I guess I should start namefagging.>>85592765House clean up, and I think I'm gonna do some video editing, haven't done any in a while.
bumpgonna go on a bike ride
