Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportGetting colder>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
The usual links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>85613969hello>Getting colderstay cozy!how cold was it today?>How are you doing today?pretty good :>>Any plans for today?yep play cs and watch a movie>When was the last time you hurt yourself?I don't know but probably a few months ago >Why did you hurt yourself?partially stress relief partially to check if I can do it>Is there anything bothering you right now?yep, uni shenanigans :/but idk if I wanna talk about it
>>85613961hey Togata how are you?I've been a bit busy and got sick over the weekend so not the best, but a little better now.>>85589997replying from last time>What typa things anyway if it's not pryingi can answer to a certain degree here(not as much as on discord since try to keep some things private) but honestly just going out and making new irl friends. I made some friends who are a bit younger, but have a lot of hobbies I have and meet up to hang out often enough now and have been going out late at night and actually being more sociable>never felt strongly about policing either way but it's reliable workI'd say that's a good way to see it. Lot of job paths are far less reliable now than ever, so good to be thinking about that >>85614242heya cat! Sorry I couldn't stay for the game longer. Glad you all had fun!Unfortunately, did turn out to be quite sick, but it could be worse
>>85614304eyo eyo dw^^get well soon I'm watching the new 28years later movie, there's a new part
my head hurtsi just took an exam and it was tragic that i dont even feel sad about it anymore, the thing was very difficult most of us had tragic mistakes, it became funnyanyways DUUDE im so stressed it's not funnysighgonna reply to yesterday's posts soon
>>85615338heyo>head hurtsDxalways the worse>most of us had tragic mistakesat some point it's not your fault it the slightest maybe it was just a badly made test >so stressed it's not funny:< >reply to yesterday's posts soonit's okay if you don't wanna and we can just talk about something elseI know replying to multiple old posts at once can be very tiring
I got a job!!!! Woo!!!! Yeah!!!!! Airport gas station!!!! Awesome!!!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4qp5lRBVgc !!!!>>85614242Hallu /cat/>how cold was it today?Could be colder, really want jacket beanie weather>yep play cs Which do you like most? 1.6 is and always will be my favorite tbdesu, I haven't played CS2 but I'm not too interested in it. Outside of running on everything, all the sound design and UI is perfect to me, and it feels faster to play for me than CSGO.>watch a movie28 years later seems like It'd be interesting, I love the first one so I'd have high expectations. The pacing is it's strong point, starts out kinda slow and foreboding with coma wakeup into and empty city, and slowly the brief violent encounters lengthen and lengthen until the end where it's nonstop action at the soldier mansion. Good movie>>85614304Hallo officeanon, get well soon>how are you?I'm doing pretty great actually! I had a very lucky interview just now, made possible since I came in the previous day looking for a snack and asked for a job offhandedly. I came in the next day and the owner was there, shook hands and was hired on the spot. The old boomer adage of "just give a firm handshake and good smile" was actually worth something..>have been going out late at night and actually being more sociableNice nice, I think I remember a long time ago you mentioning living in some nowhere town so it's cool having a reason to actually go out. I only have my padded cell of a city once every couple months for concerts/raves with friends, but I'm happy enough with that for now.>so good to be thinking about thatPretty true pretty true>>85615338Hallo rm>the thing was very difficult most of us had tragic mistakesDamn what was it on?
>>85609571>something more private yupaha i see>obviously old yeah well, doesn't always happen apparently>>85615370>maybe it was just a badly made testeven though i said it's too difficulti do appreciate te teacher for giving us such questions, because maybe some of those might be on the official exam paper later. the exam i took doesn't affect on gradesso i dont really think it's badly made>can be verg tiringyeah sometimesespecially on phonebut it's okayhow are you cat?i think you mentioned something about college. wanna talk about it?>>85614304how are you officeanon?>>85615516>What was it on?chemical thermodynamics
>>85614304>>85614667>>85615516Femboys kiss eachother now.
>>85615516>Airport gas station!!!! Awesome!!!!whaaat??? like fueling planes?!>really want jacket beanie weathersoon fren!>Which do you like most?1.6 of course ^^tho I wish I experienced source when I was a kid and it was still popular I really dislike the focus on ranks and competition in the new games plus gambling >sound design and UI same!but I've played a lot ofnit as a kid + lots of half-life so that sounds and everything just feels like home to me>years later seems like It'd be interestingit's very very different to the first onebut I was looking for something different >>85615668>the exam i took doesn't affect on gradesooh ao it's not important??>but it's okayokay >how are you cat?pretty good I was on a walk, played games, watched a movie and now just chilling >wanna talk about it?not really :< because it'll make me sound stupid, I don't wanna say much, just that I know what the smart decision is and I should take itbut I'm too tired to try anymore >>85615683femboyanon you're still alive? how's it going?
im just pissed off nowi barely sleep and i barely have time for that nowsighnow i have around five hours to sleep and then i might have a long daytorture>>85615761>so it's not important yeh kinda>on a walkyou didnt feel like bikeriding today?>just chillinghm are you drinking something?i had a soft drink like an hour ago>not really>to tryi understand. you don't have to say anything. i wish you the best and i hope things go easy for you
>>85614667>get well soonthanks. I need it since I'm feeling rough a bit rough, but it will pass soon>atching the new 28years later movie,how'd you like it?>>85615516>I got a job!!!! awesome! Really happy for you and hope it isn't too bad!>get well soonThanks!!!>The old boomer adage of "just give a firm handshake and good smile" was actually worth something.that's actually hilarious but awesome it worked out! Wish more boomer saying worked the same way> living in some nowhere town so it's cool having a reason to actually go out.yeah, I gotta drive pretty far some times, but I don't really drink a ton even when I do go out and am sometimes in other cities where i can use transport so it's worked out>once every couple months for concerts/raves with friendshonestly, think even that's enough. Hard to do things every weekend>>85615668hey rm! Good to see you! I've had the hardest time posting for a while but trying to take more time to.How have you been?sorry you had a rough exam, but don't one hard exam make you feel too bad
goign to sleepp goodnight >>85615990>then i might have a long day:< >bikeridingweather wasn't nice>drinking somethingwater ;Dalso have apple juice in the fridge >soft drinkoo what sort? do you have any favorites?>the best and i hope things go easy forthank you thank you frensame to u!>>85616119>feeling roughis it a cold?>how'd you like it?I enjoyed it ^^flew by pretty quick
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>>85615761>whaaat??? like fueling planes?!Nah nah, it's just a gas station by the airport. It's light work, I'm mostly just checking people out when they buy snacks and beer.>I really dislike the focus on ranks and competition in the new gamesPretty true, also miss the community browser it's way better in 1.6>>85616119>Really happy for you and hope it isn't too bad!Thanks thanks, 40 a week graveyard shifts so it's mostly quiet. My only concern is if I'll be able to get the time off I want for a short UK trip, other than that I'm golden.>Wish more boomer saying worked the same wayTrue trueyk everyone always talks about how out of touch boomers are, but I only get it on paper since I've never actually had to be around any
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slept for like 5 hours then i had to spend like 5 hours of information. i can finally take a nap and rest. my head genuinely hurts and i didnt have anything to eat or drink for most of the time>>85616275>weather wasn't niceoh it was raining?>waterhydration!>apple juicesounds nice>do you have any favoritesdepends on the mood reallybut the one i talked about yesterday was uhh maybe lemonhow are you today?>>85616119>Good to see youwhere you been? it's been a while>trying to take more time towell, i hope things go well with you>How have you been?im fine im just very stressedyou? >don't one hard exam make you feel too baduhh i dont really understand what you mean to say
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i feel very sad cause i do only small cuts. so i think im poser and mmm retard lmao.I LARP CUTTING
so i bought razor blade, i was disappointed at first by touch it was like paper but when i cut HOLY SHIT ITS SO SHARP 10/10 anyway i want to perform judgement cut on myself somewhere
>>85620523>>85620549are you the same anon?anywayswhy do you care about this? what does cutting deep mean to you? what does not cutting deep mean?
>>85620619yes im the same person just in manic episode rn thats why spamming shit>why do you care about this?i just saw darm wemb thread on another imageboard and people cut really deep and i feel insecure, its like you got exposed with micropenis lol >what does cutting deep mean to youreflex. im retarted and have no other idea how to cope with emotions>what does not cutting deep mean?i cut not deep, basically cat scratches thats make me feel sad, idk desu do i cut for attention or im just retarded dont say that im esl lol
>>85613961I need more menhera images. Is there no autumnal menheras?Have not cut for a few weeks. The colder fall air does not feel great on the open wounds. I tend to cut more during summer.
>>85620661>people cut really deeppeople who do that are either just really depressed and maybe are having conditions that are not normal, or people who just feel like doing it.you see, some people show it off like some kind of trophy and might get annoyed if someone made fun of their cuts, because they're missing the point to begin with. anon, the problem is not how deep you cut, it is that you CUT. i would not tell you to keep cutting but let's say you didn't stop cutting and i had nothing to do about it, i would tell you to avoid deep cuts.the micropenis thing honestly can sometimes make more sense than the cutting insecurities. it's not that this kind of insecurity is not real or something, but, my question here is, don't you feel like you are missing a point when the thing that you care about is how deep you cut? and for what? for people not to make fun of it?
>>85617978hello >nah, it's just a gas station by the airportooh okdo you think it'll make very busy because it's near an airport >it's way better in 1.6agreed it encourages making communities and fun like servers with custom gamemodes >>85619460heyo>then i had to spend like 5 hours:<>finally take a nap and restI really hope it helps you feel better >was raining?yup^^luckily umbrellas exist >sounds niceindeed :]>how are you today?I basically took apart everything in my room to clean everything thoroughly >>85620523hey anonIt doesn't matter, regardless of the depth of the cut it'll always feel too small if you're concerned about itSmaler cuts at least don't take weeks to heal or days to close up and it's pretty unlikely to get an infection also if you go too deep you might need to visit a hospital >>85620549>judgement cut on myself somewherewhat? where?>>85620903hey kirahow are you? >more menhera imageshm maybe you should make a thread about it on some other board? that might be helpful >colder fall air does not feel great on the open ware you happy about summer ending?
>>85621235What board do you recommend? Do you think anime cute will have the stuff?I'm happy and sad. The heat is terrible, but I'll miss swimming at the water park.
>>85621235>umbrellas existi like them>indeedi bought peach juice >to clean everything thoroughlynicedid you clean?i cleaned a bit of my room a few days ago too, but didn't really take things out of the room
Hello friends, hope you're all well.I'm back from my trip to Japan. A lot of stuff went horribly wrong (the train to Narita was especially horrendous today) and I probably spent way too much on records but overall it was a fun adventure and I've made some nice memories. Plus got a bunch of promotional tat at Tokyo Game Show.>>85614304Get well soon, officeanon!>>85615516Congrats on the job! Will you be working regular hours or the nightshift?>>85615761>I really dislike the focus on ranks and competition in the new games plus gamblingGotta keep those retention metrics and revenue streams up somehow. Can't just get a game and play it, that would be too simple.>>85619460Lack of sleep is never fun, especially if you need to focus after that. At least it makes you appreciate naps just a little more. Hope you had a good snooze after that.>>85621498>>>/c/ might be an appropriate place for a thread like that, but you might get more results if you surf various boorus or Pixiv for stuff like that.
>>85598548>I can't imagine ever having my feelings of anger lessen, even if i grew older. i get angry about plenty of stuff, it just feels pointless. maybe that's just me, though. i don't know. thinking about it, guess i've always been this way.>which resonated with me, even applied outside videogames.the real trick is to play games you don't care if you lose. only games that really made me mad were mobas, so i stopped playing. just wasn't worth it >I've never seen any of those youtubers besides AVGN tbdesumaybe for the best, but it's kinda wild how big the channel awesome people once were and now they're just kinda there.>I was involuntarily grinning ear to ear the walk after mine today, good feel...really is. i need to get out more.>>85599073>This year, I've made strides in physical therapy(*^*)9>>85600105>isn't that a problem too?probably is, but i'm not sure why that matters.>unhealthy things are filling a lot of timethat's true. for some reason 10 minutes of exercises is harder to fit in your day than hours of shit that make you feels worse.>do you consider it the average work out?no. i'll head out with some friends on the weekend and we just work out for a few hours. i just do very short sessions the rest of the week.>>85602954>Prepare for an important examhope studying goes well.>>85603257>bpdhoonianoncourse i remember you. pretty sure you're the reason i'm here in the first place. ^^>>85604097hey buddy. have fun.>>85605854>havent been here in years.you're always welcome here.hey everyone! hope the week's been treating you well so far!
>>85621768>hope studying goes well.It went horrible. Never happened to me anything similar. I didn't study and I don't know why I should. At lesst I leave the position to another person who deserves it more. Anyways I could live off being a nini because of my parent's properties. I just spend my day playing video-game. I guess I should also deactivate my needs to have friends as people will stop talking to me as long as they see how an error I am. We still have superavit of food. If there is luck and productivity with ai encouraging higher intelectual cooperation, in the future I may be inmortal as long as I don't stress out and mantain a high lifespan. If there isn't, I don't think there is much more as what I could get playing pirated video games at home and living through my parent's and grandparent's properties anyways.
>>85621498>board do you recommendthey whichever one you want, maybe even multiple like wsr and s4s>I'll miss swimming at the water park.sounds nice, you would go there often?>>85621519>peach juicedangg I don't think I've ever hard that>did you clean?yuppI rarely clean besides that lol everything's dusty>>85621645haya>Japanglad ur back, isn't there supposed to be a taifun causing trouble over there soon>>85621768hello yuanon ^^how's it ?
>>85621936sorry to hear, dude. we've all been there to a degree, so i get where you're coming from. still, i'm sure you'd feel better about it if you sat down and tried to study, even if it's just for a while. and don't bother too much about ai. whatever some techbro tells you, you're better of doing the exact opposite.>>85622034hi catbro! :>>how's it ?it ok. bit tired from work, but overall it's fine. finally was able to get back to my weekday workouts. as short as they are, i feel better when i can get them in. you doing good?
>>85621645hey dinon! welcome back. :]>A lot of stuff went horribly wrong (the train to Narita was especially horrendous today)how so? you always hear about trains in japan being great? :0>it was a fun adventure and I've made some nice memories.what it's all about in the end, isn't it? what records did you get?
>>85622232>was able to get back to my weekday workoutswoo \o/sounds nice what did u do?>you doing good?yep, spend most of today taking apart everything out on my room like furniture and cleaning everything up well
I'm getting better at this...
>>85622391hey anon make sure to patch yourself up well laterWhy did u cut today?
>>85622322>sounds nice what did u do?https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rK9NdlgY41U&pp=ygUVc3RyZW5ndGggc2lkZSAxMCBtaW4g>spend most of today taking apart everything out on my room like furniture and cleaning everything up wellthat's a productive day. good job. don't remind me, though. i need to do that as well... that reminds me: did you have issues with silverfish again or did you get rid of those for good?>>85622391looks like it. just make sure to patch yourself up, ok? how's it going?
>>85622549No reason really. I'm not even sad.
>>85622232>we've all been there to a degree, so i get where you're coming from.No there were 16.000 people out there and no one was doing anything like me. My mother gives me all the study material, it's about 300 pages easy, however I was not feeling any good there.>don't bother too much about ai. whatever some techbro tells you, you're better of doing the exact opposite.As a software developer you must be working with AI. it copies from anyone using that ai. They are also firing cashiers in my area. People can buy their things without a cashier now. It recently solved the milenium problem 1 million price math problem using a mathematical discovery from another matematician and 10 million in computation. That demostrates how AI advanced in the last years. If you have paid chat gpt it can write 300 pages long tests, books, anything.... It filters future games, everything. So companies are using local models now so they don't steal your job. Sam altman is acting suspicious, I don't trust him. I gave some AIs 5 pdfs with 50 pages with instructions and it does ok. That was unthinkable a year ago. Software development scales by copying from other's. Always was that way and there are already some humanoid robots industries in China. This is crazy and it may change every incentive.
>>85622720>there were 16.000 people out there and no one was doing anything like me.you're quite unique, then.>I was not feeling any good there.that's fair. sometimes you just can't force yourself to do it. don't feel too bad about it.>As a software developer you must be working with AIsure. i'm not saying there aren't any use cases for it, but we're still finding out what people will accept and what not. we'll see. anyways, i'll go to bed now. i'm super tired.good night, everyone.
i finished reading an absolute tragic story, that had no happy ending in any way and hit some very sensitive emotional triggers in me. lmao i havent read something like that in a while. hm, last time i did i think it was last year around september or august.i dont think its a good idea to expose myself to such things right now like i have a ton of things to do and take care of and im already stressed enough but uh well it happened.gonna chill a bit before sleeping ig, might wake up three hours later then take a nap again before starting another kinda long day.>>85621645>appreciate naps just a little moretrue sometimeshow have you been disanon?>>85621768>not sure why that mattersmaybe i was overthinking it, maybe i just find it a bit uncomfortable to sleep while the phone is still playing something>that makes you feel worseliterally>a few hoursso you do consider it heavy for one session, am i right?how are you though?>>85622034>ever heard thatlol yeah thinking about it it sounds a bit strangebut i guess it existsidk how fresh it is though>everything's dustyi feel youmy pc is sad to look ati really have to clean it>>85622391patch it up anoni hope you don't think of doing it anymore
sleepy goodnight >>85622807>dont think its a good idea to exposeit may not be though maybe it's a different kind of feeling ?like watching a horror movie, it makes you scared tho you're not actually scared>chill a bit before sleepinghave a good chill friend>another kinda long day.:c
feeling good good bumps about you
>>85621235>do you think it'll make very busy because it's near an airportHopefully! Last job 90% of my time was spent walking around doing nothing, wouldn't mind some busywork.>encourages making communities and fun like servers with custom gamemodeYuuuuup exactly>>85620549>judgement cut on myselfEpicwhich DMC games you play? I'm getting my ass kicked on hard DMC1, wanna beat it before moving onto 3.>>85620523>so i think im poser and mmm retard lmao.I LARP CUTTINGI used to feel this before, not so much nowadays. Like you'd see people who cut themselves deeper and more frequently as having feelings and struggles more "real" than yours. It's really not a competition...>>85620661>basically cat scratches thats make me feel sadBetter off that way tbdesu, you'd be hard pressed to find someone happy they cut super deep after it's healed over.>>85621645Hallo discanon (or I guess recordanon today hehehe)>Will you be working regular hours or the nightshift?Graveyard, 12AM to 7AM. Restructuring my sleep around this'll be a bummer, but it's worth it for my future plans.>Tokyo Game ShowAnything catch your eye? Can't say I'm excited for anything Capcom or Konamis putting out, which are the heavy hitters there if I'm not mistaken.>>85621768Hallo yuanon>i get angry about plenty of stuff, it just feels pointless. maybe that's just me, though. i don't know. thinking about it, guess i've always been this way.I can't yet comprehend why, but your reply stirred something somber in me... I'll be thinking about this.>so i stopped playing. just wasn't worth itAs Reggie once said, if its not fun why bother?>>85622807What's the story name? Last thing that stirred me was a line in confessions of a mask by Mishima, on St. Sebastians death as he'd come to see it through a painting. Word limit cuts it off but:>His was not a fate to be pitied. In no way was it a pitiable fate. Rather was it proud and tragic, a fate that might even be called shining.A death like that...
goood morning guys
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>>85622034>isn't there supposed to be a taifun causing trouble over there soonYes, one hit while we were over there. Fortunately for us in central Tokyo, that just meant a lot of rain and some delays. Further out the flooding was very bad and that meant significant delays and cancellations on some trains. I saw some building almost completely submerged on the way back to the airport.>>85622246>how so? you always hear about trains in japan being great? :0Generally they're fine but enough water will stop them from working properly.what records did you get?Mostly stuff I've been meaning to get for a while at a good price, plus some soundtracks>Tadaima by Akiko Yano>Sgt Pepper>Hunky Dory by David Bowie>In the Court of the Crimson King>the Mother 2 30th anniversary concert>the soundtracks for Girls und Panzer, Evangelion, Panty and Stocking, Persona 4, and MinecraftI didn't quite realise how much I'd dropped on everything until I got the tax refund and the guy started counting out bills instead of coins...>>85622807Hope you had a good snooze.>how have you been disanon?Sleep-deprived to the point of hallucinating small chefs tidying my desk up, but otherwise good.>>85624603>Graveyard, 12AM to 7AMI like the quietness of those hours but I know for most people it's really hard on their body and social life to work them. Hopefully it won't be too bad for you. The adjustment might be quite painful.>Anything catch your eye?The Persona 4 remake was the only thing I desperately wanted to play and it eased some of my worries about it.There was also a coomer strategy game called Miresi which was pretty fun. They gave out a lot of freebies.
They gave me the dorm room....i crashed out for basically no reason it looks like. Dont get me wrong at that time it looked like my whole life fell apart.But now everything is awesome.I dont think i regret cutting tho. Is it weird to not regret it? I just take it like a coping mechanism, if i didnt cut, i would do smth even worse i guess.And also its the feeling of "home" not good home, but back where i know it and its "safe" not cutting feels for me like exploring whole new areas. it feels comfortable to return "home" once in a while, even tho it destroys the progress i made. Idk what do you guys think about that?
self harm lead to suicide so be careful anons
>>85623747hey glad pt hear you're feeling good>>85624603hello>doing nothing, wouldn't mind some busywork.well better than being overworked you can always listen to some podcast on your headphones to pass the time>>85627107heya>Further out the flooding was very badman that sucks >almost completely submergedscary >>85627689hello cas!>gave me the dorm room....yay \o/>basically no reason itwe'll you did have reason to worry >to not regret it?I don't think so, I never regret it>tho it destroys the progresshm I don't have it destroys any progress at worst it only delays it in my opinion >>85627758thanks though I'd say it's more like whatever leads to self harm might also lead to suicide
>>85627852hi cat :)>I don't think so, I never regret itsame, i just don't get why. should i regret doing it? its not a good thing to do, shouldn't you not want to do bad things?>hm I don't have it destroys any progress at worst it only delays it in my opinionYou might be right
>>85628263>should i regret doing it?idk but I think it's good you don't, if you did feel bad it'd only make you cut more because you'd feel guilty and more sad>might be rightyep ^^btw how are things going? how was your day today?
>>85628689>btw how are things going? how was your day today?good, i got accepted to the dorm, as i said, and nothing else rly, i did cook up some good food, so that was nice as well, and lately i started playing Valheim again. Its so peak, i played it once before full release, so now im replaying it. wbu? how was yours day?
>>85628710>accepted to the dorm,oh how does it look like btw? do you have roommates?>replaying it.woa sounds like you really like it>wbu? how was yours day?pretty good, I want to the store and get some crap plus I got snacks to eat when watching the new chainsmoker cat episode :]besides that I played some cs and mapped a little bit, I'm remaking the mini game from yume nikki in hl2
>>85628745>oh how does it look like btw? do you have roommates?idk how it looks like yet, im going there tmrw, and i should have 1 in room, and other 2 in some other room, i think... im not sure if i understood it correctly.>I'm remaking the mini game from yume nikki in hl2YUME NIKKI???? i have roamed for quite a while in yume 2kki online, but i never like researched anything about the original one, i downloaded it and imma take a look soon into the Nikky one
>>85628762>idk how it looksooh okayhope it's comfy>have 1 in room, and other 2 in somehopefully you get along amd they're not annoying >YUME NIKKI??yepp :D I remade the room some months ago and now I decided to do the minigame too>but i never like researchedYK it's free on steam so you can download and play it whenever u feel like it :D
>>85622807>i dont think its a good idea to expose myself to such things right nowsame for me. i'm just not mentally stable enough to get worked up over media that upsets me. sometimes it hits you out of nowhere, but i try to avoid it if i can. what was the story you read?>i just find it a bit uncomfortable to sleep while the phone is still playing somethingoverall it's not a good idea for your sleep's quality, but for me it's better than to keep focussing on stupid thoughts before bed.>am i right?yeah. it's the heaviest weight i'm working with and i train to my limit as often as i can.>how are you though?not well. i'm just demotivated. can't find a reason to keep doing the things i do. don't have the energy for them in the first place. just going through the motions as best as i can. hope you're doing better.>>85624603>I'll be thinking about this.tell me if you come to a conclusion. don't let my negativity infect you, though. at least getting fired up about stuff makes you take action.>if its not fun why bother?that's the weird thing. it not like it wasn't fun, but the result of the games just affected my mood way too much. the juice just wasn't worth the squeeze.>>85627107>enough water will stop them from working properly.i guess that's the case everywhere. water is one of those things that need to be just right. too little or too much and everything turns bad really quickly.>Mostly stuff I've been meaning to get for a while at a good price, plus some soundtrackscan't say most what you listed rings a bell, but i'm not a music guy. glad you got what you're looking for though and i'll screenshot your post just in case i'll get in the mood to listen to something that's new to me. :]
>>85627689hey cas!>They gave me the dorm room....phew. that's a relief. is it a good one?>i crashed out for basically no reason it looks likeah, don't worry about it. at least you got some stuff out of your system like that. maybe it made you a bit calmer afterwards?>Idk what do you guys think about that?kinda makes sense. sometimes going against what you know would be the right thing to (not) do makes you feel good. like your in defiance of what everyone expects if you. not a smart way to go about it, but we can't always make the smart choice, can we? ^^' don't thing it destroys or invalidates anything, though. you made a lot of experiences in that time.>>85627852hi catbro! how's it going?
>>85628887cool game 10/10
>>85628966helloI've had a good day, got snacks for cathursday and chilledhow r u?>>85629020:Dyou're playing it now?
>>85629046>you're playing it now? maybeee >:)
>>85629092>maybeee >:)^^ how new for u are the things ur seeing?
>>85629160>how new for u are the things ur seeing?confusing, but i guess thats the point, i like it the music is genuinely so goooood
>>85629160someone touched me and put me in prison :C im gonna go sleep and try more tomorow. gn gn
>>85629180>confusing, but i guess thats the point, iyep :3have fun>touched me and put me in prison :Cnooooo D':>sleep and try more tomorow. gn gngoodnight sleep well!
>>85629046>I've had a good day, got snacks for cathursday and chilledyou have a lot of mental strength. i couldn't buy snacks a day in advance. i'd just eat them right away...>how r u?at this point i'm just tired, but not much happened today. just work at that's it. played a few solo missions in drg. bit of mining, shooting some bugs. still fun enough. can't find anything to watch, though. you got any idea?
>>85629257>just eat them right away...^^I'd say I'm testing my mental strength but honestly if they're not out in the open them I'll just forget about them until accidentally discovering the next day xp>i'm just tiredhope you can rest nicely at least you had some fun gaming >though. you got any idea?wait a secy ill look
>>85629257here y gochill g mod map exploration https://youtu.be/SnPoEy2cSJcold bike racehttps://youtu.be/BHzUN-kViQcI like listening to this guy about trains https://youtu.be/id3kjC_bVWU
how do you truly stop the desire to hurty ourself its too much i cant bear anthing idk hat nymiore i think its over. am already an alcoholic i dk what to do
>>85629564hey anon>am already an alcoholic i dk what to doit sounds very rough honestly you probably need some professional helpHow does your life look like?
>>85629837if im honest im too scared to seek help. and i dont speak to many people i just mainly drink in front of the computer and listen to music. i feel like a waste and idk what to do anymore. i dont serve any purpose. ive never really hurt myself before but i used to do alot of drugs and stuff so my body will probs shut down by my mid 30s. sorry if i made any feel bad i just dont have anywhere to speak about this stuff
>>85629943>honest im too scared to seek help.hm yeah sounds like a problem >feel like a wasteyou're not anonwhy did you start drinking?you're talking about the drinking being the problem but there has to be a reason you started, and is it still there?>idk what to do anymoreI'm not sure what you could do desu I don't have any experience with that sorry>if i made any feel baddon't worry about it, you can talk about whatever you want toI'll be going to sleep so goodnight
>>85629969not really sure the reason, grew up around a family of heavy drinkers and some family members died due to alcoholism so i think it was really normalised in my life. i dont think ive been sober for longer than 2 weeks since i was 15 and im 23 which makes me feel really ashamed.> I'll be going to sleep so goodnightpls sleep well i hope you sleep well
Do you guys ever think you're on a clean streak, but then you realize something you're doing probably counts as self harm?Like, hypothetically, ripping your nails out?
>>85631012>Like, hypothetically, ripping your nails out?thats bullshit, only cutting is a valid self harm
>>85631373Thank goodness, then I'm still streaking
