what were you like when youre little? did you ever refuse to eat because you were upset? did you sleep with a little nightlight cuz youre afraid of the dark? tell me about yourself i want to know all the things that made you who you are because i lov u
Well, when I was little, I really didn't like the night. My mom kept a lot of stuffed animals in the corner of my bed, and when it was time to sleep, I would cover them up, thinking they would see me if I didn't. And the truth is, the reason I am the way I am is because of shame. I've missed several opportunities just because of shame: having a relationship with someone I knew well, having friends at school. I can't even go shopping properly because I feel like if I do something wrong, I'll be judged. But at least I have someone who loves me, but I really need friends, I would like to love myself and have self-esteem, the last time I tried to socialize they blocked me, and I was thinking of committing suicide this Sunday but I don't know if I should do it, the only thing I know is that I need someone to go out with, talk to, have confidence, tell them what I like and my problems in real life, but I don't think I know someone, I no longer have faith
And I don't think you love me, I feel that if you really know me you're going to be disgusted by me (I don't do bad things but I don't see myself as good)
>>85650840>what were you like when youre little?i was a bright, happy-go-lucky kidalways with a smile on my face, a chatterbox, always happy to help and distribute smiles>did you ever refuse to eat because you were upset?only if i was served by whoever upset mei was always a vengeful one>did you sleep with a little nightlight cuz youre afraid of the dark?sometimes, but i would never sleep with my back uncovered, if not against a walli always feel like there's something behind me and have nightmares as a result, even as an adult>tell me about yourself i want to know all the things that made you who you are because i lov uno you don't, but now you know some things others might notenjoy, anonmake sure you answer your own questions too
>>85650983i dont think youre disgusting at all!! it sounds like youve been carrying a heavy burden for a long time and im so sorry youve had to bear it all alone... :(Also plz plz plz dont do anything to hurt yourself this Sunday even though we dont know each other very well ToT.. If you need to talk about anything, Im here for you T_T
>>85650840i was really into cod zombies in elementary so in class id scream at kids like one of them which is probably why my parents thought i was autistic
I grew up in a house where the windows were covered with thick dark blankets to keep the sun out. Depression ran in our family and the death of a loved one made it very apparent. Darkness was comfortable -I was born in it, molded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me but blinding!
>>85650840i was an annoying little shit that deserved to be thrown off a bridge
>what were you were like when you were little? i was a quiet kid mostly. kept to myself in kindergarten. i was also a "gifted" child so i spent most of my time reading books in kindergarten. the kindergarteners actually thought i was depressed bc i had no friends and made me go to a psychologist lol.
>>85650840apparently I was happy and outgoing at one point
>what were you were like when you were little?my childhood was basically just watching pinkie pie mutilate rainbow dash on dailymotion because the youtube version got censored. i still can't hear the smile song without thinking of blood splatters.
>>85650840I was kinda awkward, liked 2 make sounds with my mouth and play with shirts and blankets
>>85650840i refused to eat hamburgers until i was 13 years old. my family had to shame me into eating one>1-9massively autistic little sperlord troublemaker who would have meltdowns at social gatherings. had quite a few frens somehow>10-16normalfag-passing skaterat kid>16lose all friends, switch schools to try and start over, beginning of the end. get a dog>17 major depressive episode stop going to school entirely and spend all day in bed watching lain. still relative normalfagdog is my only friend>18-20barely graduate somehow, more or less a full blown anxious shutin at this point. get into drawing because of drawthreads, become completely fixated on gitting gud at art to try & redeem myself as a person. still semi-normal>21living situation collapses, end up homeless, try to anhero. get formally diagnosed as autistic>21-30become a complete hiki drifting between periods of hardcore artfagging and heavy burnout. can no longer fake normalfaggotry. get neetbux. have spent more years alive with no frens than i ever had any >33dog dies
>>85650840I was a little crybaby child afraid of everything except food.
>>85650840>i lov uwhat have you been taking to say this to strangers on the internet, molly? ecstasy?
>>8565111 Thanks, but today is Sunday and I don't know whether to do it or not. I have the rope and everything I need. I was wondering if things would improve in the future, but with the way I'm going with cigarettes and beer, I don't think I'll even make it to university. But thanks a lot for listening, and if you want to talk to me, psss, give me some social media.
I was very shy as a child. I didn't refuse to eat, but I very much despised the food I was given. I slept with no nightlight on. Nothing really notable happened to me a child. Just basic name calling and that was it. Now I'm a boring adult. Oh well.
>>85650840>what were you like when youre little?homeless>did you ever refuse to eat because you were upset?no, though i never starved or struggled for food until after college>did you sleep with a little nightlight cuz youre afraid of the dark?no>tell me about yourself i want to know all the things that made you who you are because i lov uI am the Bad Guy, pleased to meet you.
>>85652648your life sounds very peaceful anon sani guess art fags are kinda crazy though
