i hate myself so much, but i don't want to die.we should make a word for this feel.i really hate everything about myself. i can't stand being me or that i exist or that i have affected the world in any way, i hate everything about myself. i can't stand it, but i don't want to die.do you know this feel?
>>85713647I'm horrified of dying because I think I have amassed uncountable karma. I don't even consider myself a bad person either, I just think I will face horrifying projections of my karma after I die and that makes me afraid of dying
>>85713662yeah me too, i'm really stupid and have made a bunch of mistakes that caused a lot of people to get hurt so now i believe i have amassed a negative spiritual energy, i'm in spiritual debt basically.
>>85713647Depersonalization or derealization>>85713662https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NWBYJhJUOc
Karma isn't real you spiritual cuck.
>>85713679It doesn't seem real if you don't recognise patterns. Karma exists in the material world as well, it's called cause and effect, ie. Newton's 3rd law. The microcosm mirrors the macrocosm, that is just the fractal nature of reality.
>>85713679squishma is though*squishes your arm flab*
>>85713671i thought depersonalization was leaving your body and derealization was feeling like you were dead and this was some weird limbo world, i think i've had derealization once at a hospital, i thought i was dead in a simulation i was delusional.
>>85713693anon... what did I tell you about SQUISHING!!!! how many flabby Apus do you think suffered due to YOUR actions!!!!!
>>85713714i couldn't help myself, he was being mean so i thought i'd squish his arm flab.
>>85713719ev&doe you were being mean first!! to the OTHER Apu who's arm you squished!!! karma!!!
>>85713725ok ok i'll stop, i'll stop squishing arm flab.
>>85713738Yippee!! no more squishing.
>>85713647If you have even a small amount of hope left, don't give up. Try to improve your life to the best of your ability. It's not over for you yet.
>>85713670>>85713662What did you do that caused you spiritual debt?
>>85713873like i said, i've been basically the catalyst to a lot of people being hurt because of my mistakes and stupidity. i don't think i need to go into detail.
>>85713647I'm not real, I don't exist. We all died in 2012
>>85713670>>85713873>>85713899>>85713662>>85713691>>85713679http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmxGvlsHLg0
>>85713899it's ok I forgive you and love you
