I'm angry and want to vent
Good talk
>>85714392Tell us, Anon, why you're angry. We're listening.
>>85714866Had a mental breakdown, crashed my vehicle and totaled it ($9k lost), broke my spine which is going to cost me about $25k in medical bills. All because I took my eyes off the road for a split second while being 5 minutes away from my house. I think subconsciously I wanted this to happen because I hate myself for being mentally ill and wanted to punish myself for being an objectively bad person because life is unfair and sometimes I feel like making things right
>>85714879Did breaking your spine make things right, anon? Did it undo your bad deeds and make you a better person?
>>85714887>your bad deedsNot my bad deeds. I didn't choose to be mentally ill. If life was fair and reasonable I wouldn't be here because mentally ill people should not have children. I also forgot to mention I fled the scene because of mental breakdown which is a felony and cost me another $4k in lawyer fees. Basically every fucking dollar I earned in the last 3 years of trying to do the "right" thing and work a job and be normal has gone down the drain in a split second. I can not forgive how unfair this is and I can't move on. No this has not made me a better person and I can not let this go
>>85714894You called yourself an "objectively bad person" which implies bad behavior. If you haven't sinned you can't be an objectively bad person by definition.
>>85714903Bad is a general word so yes it can. Broken beyond repair would be more accurate (just like my vehicle LOL)
>>85714879Take a deep breath for a moment, Anon; you get a new car even if it a cheap one, you have one. Your back? Screw it; you recover soon enough. And if you really do have a mental illness, why didn't you mention it to the lawyer? They could have at least had you examined. But since that didn't happen... just let me say this: you don't need to worry so much. Let it go; there are people worse off than you who have managed to overcome their situation. Try to look on the bright side, Anon. It is true that I cannot guarantee that *everything* will be fine; this world isn't all roses and butterflies. But try to stay positive however you can. I hope these words make you feel a little better.
>>85714936>mention it to the lawyer?I did and it's the only thing preventing me from being a convicted felon for the rest of my life. I try to let go but this is too much to just let go for me and it's going to make me suffer for a very long time. I do think about people who have it worse like niggers who make $100k from selling drugs and then literally waste every single bit of it on clothes and strippers, so that makes me feel a little better. At the end of the day I don't care about money it's just the principle of how unfair life is and how no matter how hard I try I can't feel "good" or "right" or "justified". I fucking hate this stupid world and all the retarded shit flinging apes in it
>>85714879something like that happened in my previous life
>>85714956I probably have PTSD from a previous life (soldier in a war or something) which has completely fucked my brain
>>85714960Oh hey I think I was in a war in a previous life too, I was definitely speaking German in that one
