I used to be a awful and judgemental person. I would make fun of and talk bad about people who never did anything to harm me. An example of this was about a year ago when I was partnered with these two girls in science and I believed that I was way smarter than them. I would talk loud and tell everyone that they were dumb and how I was hard carrying them. I did it all for a few laugh so I would feel better about myself. Now I have been talking to one of the girls more and I have developed feelings for her. I looked forward to talking to her everyday and my stomach feels weird when I think about her and she is not around. But, I can not stop thinking about how awfully I treated her last year. I wonder if she thinks about that everytime she talks to me? I wonder if she hates talking to me but feels forced to because I do not shut up? I wonder if I even have a chance? No way. There is no way she could ever look at me and think of me as a love interests. I will probably just sit in my room like I do everyday and think about her.
>>85718998she probably likes you more because of that lol
I don not get it though. How would me being a absolute jerk to her make her like me? I feel like if anything it would just make her disgusted by me. Why would she want someone who was so hateful to her be her lover?
If you never feel comfortable enough to talk to her about your feelings regarding this or regarding her, she's not your ideal future wife. If you never try, you'll regret it imo. You'd be surprised how much people can forgive, and if she can't, well, she wasn't going to anyway, and you have your answer
