Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supporthelloLucky thread edition!! :D>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
The links, for you>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Watched Cyber Edgerunners season 2. Lot of people saying not as good as season 1 by any means. I don't know how I feel overall, but I like the new girl than any girls from season 1.Also sorry if I missed replying to anyone last time. Been in and out of thread again>>85832997heya cat how you doing?
>>85832997>How are you doing today?pretty good, some good news today regarding college and salary day!!>Any plans for today?chill, do some housework,(alr did!) and play games :D>When was the last time you hurt yourself?yesterday>Is there anything bothering you right now?not especially, which feels pretty nicehru cat? :]>>85833483hii officeanon! i also saw season 2 came out, i still need to finish season 1 though.. on ep 7 rn i think. how was your day?
>>85833483hayaa>Lot of people saying not as good as seasondoesn't matter what they're saying if YOU liked it then it's good (for you)>sorry if I missed replyingdw>how you doing?goood, messing around with the map and also played a little with meowster and ali and had fun>>85833948heyoo>good news today regarding college and salary day!!yaywanna say whay?>and play games :Dwell I know how that went>not especially, which feels pretty nice\o/>hru cat? :]good, just chilled, now I think I'll mess around with my map a lil
>>85834233>wanna say whay?ill tell you in private>well I know how that went^^>now I think I'll mess around with my map a llmk how that goes!
closed the tab with my fully typed response>>85834233hey meowster!>, some good newsalways exciting, especially in regards to that topic>play gamewhat you play?> i also saw season 2 came out,I slept on it at first, then watched it all really quick. I enjoyed it. Season 1 is special too though so enjoy that> how was your day?work being work as usual. Not much else to be said just tired>>85834233>doesn't matter what they're sayingyeah i know what you mean. I get people have a hard time not comparing things (i mean it is a season 1 vs season 2) but they are completely stand alone and find both worthwhile for what they are. >messing around with the mapwhat map you working on?> played a little with meowster and ali and had funglad to hear it
>>85834302>closed the tab with my fully typed responseouch happens, i usually copy mine if its long>always exciting, especially in regards to that topicyeah :D !!!>what you play?played roblox with cat and ali, first we played this illegal soccer game, then this h1k1 like game thats a battle royale.> then watched it all really quicki mean same, i watched the 7 episodes the same night then i kinda forgot to watch the rest.>Not much else to be said just tiredhope you have a calming evening then :]
Uni security performed a wellness check on me and took my razors away.. frustrating
>>85834246>how that goes!i did :>but I had to stop because it's latenow I'm in bed>>85834302>closed the tabDDDD:>what map you working on?I turned off my pc but I can show you some pics tomorrow nothing big just basically putting together whatever ideas it have on my mind>glad to hear itgotta get you guys on roblox>>85834685hey anonhow did they notice?
>>85832997>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Last night. Last time before that was late July; every time I try to quit I do it again three months later. Last night's was the 31st "session" since I relapsed in June of last year (that had been six years since I had done it before); I know I can't stop now because I hate that number since it's prime and I prefer numbers divisble by five, and I know how I sound right now and it's making me feel worse about myself. I feel like people are going to think I'm joking or that I just want attention, but I can't stop this wave of sessions until number 35, but I have enough blades (I only use one at a time; single use, throw away the used one in a safe container) until number 50. I hate doing it, but leaving it off at a number that isn't round -- let alone a prime number -- makes me feel uncomfortable. Nobody else knows about this.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I'm a 29 year old dead end that makes $1950 in a city where rent starts at 1000 for a studio and you need to make 3x, I don't have a car or license, I dropped out of college, and I still live at home with my parents. My dad's been a doctor his whole adult life and has been a respected physician in the local area for decades. A few years ago his hospital (the nicer of the two in my city) was absorbed by some out of state chain healthcare company (naming it has like a 1% chance of doxxing me, but fuck it: Aspirus), and their administration has been running our local hospital into the ground. One thing they've been doing is replacing general practitioners with nurse practitioners, which are basically "budget doctors" that can exam patients and do fuck all else. My GP was given the axe earlier this year so I haven't been able to get my Sertraline refill, and for three weeks now I've been off it for the first time in 15 years. Today my dad was given his six months despite being two years from retirement. 1/2
>>858350762/2I've always had problems with anxiety and fear about the future and unknown, which has paralyzed me from doing anything, because I just know the worst is going to happen. The current circumstances have made this worse. I'm sure I need a therapist (I want one until I think about how it could all go wrong), but I don't have faith that will do any good. My experience with doctors is that they're apathetic and have too many patients or tasks for human connection. I also really, really don't want to go to a psych ward, because I've only ever heard the worst things about those places, and mental health facilities in my state are in terrible shape. I also don't want to become fat, impotent, or a zombie from drugs; Sertraline didn't do any of those things to me, but it didn't do much help either, just numbing me a bit. Again, I've been off it for the first time in 15 years, and I feel disoriented, I have mood swings, my emotions are more powerful (last week I teared up because I happened to remember that movie "Gran Torino"), and I've been very irritable. The season doesn't help. Everything's cold, dark, and dead. I just feel like the best of my life is over. If I don't kill myself (doing it by the time I'm 30 is an idea that's been stuck in my head for some time, and I want it out now that I'm getting close) I'll just keep rotting in a world that gets worse. Sorry if I said too much or "trauma-dumped." I don't feel comfortable talking about my problems without anonymity, and I hardly ever post here.
>>85835135>Sorry if I said too much don't worry about it anonit's not a problem though it is a bit much to respond to wehn I'm very sleepy rnbut wishing you the best
