How do you get over the constant gloom and dread of not being able to utilize your creativity or full potential as you grow older? How do you get over constantly comparing yourself to others and chronic dissatisfaction?I work 12 hours every day, I work out every day, I'm healthy, I make more money than average, I have several hobbies but nothing has really changed in my life for nearly a decade.I see tech billionaires shit-posting absolute nonsense every day, and can only think to myself, how can someone that dumb and lazy be so rich?I see kids all over social media, doing the dumbest type of content, advertising gambling to young people and making more money than our families will make in generations.I see random 17 year olds getting signed to multi-million dollar athletic contracts for kinda throwing a ball better than other people. Mediocre comedians selling out 10,000-person stadiums and raking in more money than we will make in 20 years, in one night.How do you not compare yourself to all these signs of people who became vastly successful, and if you do, how can you still feel good about yourself if you haven't accomplished anything like that?
>>85835556That used to bother me but i just ignore it now, abusing drugs can give u the feeling of being super successful w/o accomplishing anything in life
>>85835570That doesn't sound very productive long-term
>>85835556The point is always to reach as high as possible and be grateful with what you already have obviously, success is about your own fulfillment, but since that's rather vague I find it helps to find what compels you as an individual specifically, not just hobbies or fun ideas, ex. what was behind the things that interested you as a child? what can fuel you now which you can keep refining and growing, so it may charge your being in a purrdy little loop that radiates in you and for those around you. good luck!
>>85835619My job is directly tied to what interested me as a child. Computers, solving problems, games. My hobbies are tied to that as well.But that doesn't lead to any sort of deep fulfillment. If anything, it just makes time go by faster, where days blend into weeks which blend into months. 5 years pass, just like that. I'm not poorer than before, I'm not richer, I'm just at the same place by all metrics.It also doesn't stop the comparison thieving from the joy, when I see people with the same interests or job(s) as me, who are much more successful but not necessarily better. It brings up a deeply rooted envy in me, which I'm aware of, and I'm aware it isn't healthy.
>>85835556Start comparing yourself to retards who become crackheads instead.
>>85835687I can see why it's harder then, I used the example because it's easier to see the things that you actually desire when you're uninhibited by social preconceptions and experience, if this passion has dulled you can still pivot towards truth but you need to think more significantly after you're done dealing with your envy I guess. You can't really do much in terms of actual progress otherwise because that's not really just you making those choices it's also the emotionally unresolved reaction.
>>85835891I don't think my passion has necessarily dulled, it's just a lack of fulfillment and a lack of sense of progress, which yes I think comes from the envy. (This person did that in only 3 years, that person made 100x more money than I did, this person is famous for it and I'm not)It basically makes me feel like a failure, which to some extent is a good thing because it motivates me to work even harder, only to arrive at the same brick wall I've always hit. Also, a lot of the fulfilment disappears when it's a job that's needed for money. Without that, I have nothing and have to keep doing it, whether I feel like it or not.And then the cycle continues, I see someone on social media or read about someone who runs some company who does much less daily work than I do, but is infinitely more successful. Even on the lower tiers of success, people who make $500K, $1m through their own small endeavors are infinitely more successful than me, while I just couldn't pull through to that level - I don't use drugs, I don't smoke, I don't have any necessarily harmful habits other than occasionally procrastinating, yet I just cannot get to the level of success so many apparently can. Hell, I can't even buy a house without needing to take out a 20+ year loan, which I guess is just about everyone else as well, but other people just accept that reality and I cannot.
I don't believe I have creativity or great potential. The mediocrity I have achieved is probably the best I can hope for. I will just keep existing.
>>85835556I don't care about the world I'm trying to find inner peace. You'll only be miserable looking outside for validation.
