My life feels bad but in a weird way. Like I am not going through any major problems that makes me feel like I should feel like this but I have not been able to stay happy. Like I will have days where I feel like my days is wonderful but I am unable to stay that way. Especially when I am alone, I just feel in a bad state. I do not think it is depression because I know I will not ever end my life but I do not have motivation to do simple tasks and school work keeps piling up and I feel somewhat overwhelmed. To add on to that this girl who I thought had liked me back out of nowhere has been ghosting me lately and I do not know what I could have possibly gone wrong. It is like one day we were fine and talking and the next she just hated having my presence. I feel like my parents hate me and only reason they somewhat care for me is just because we share blood. But they forced me to cut my hair because they thought it was too long, they call me a shitty person all the time, call me names, and I just feel like they hate me. It is not like they neglect me like maybe it is not intentional but is has affected my mental so much recently. Like my hair it was not really long but it was something that made me happy and my parents made me cut it because they thought I looked like a bum. Life just feels horrible right now and I do not know how I am supposed to cope with it.
