Im 21 now almost 400lbs (6ft2 tho) graduated highschool barley. Smoked weed , messed around wasted my time. Just feels like ive been getting rejected or told im wrong . I know hypergamy and all but damn. Women no , parents and peer respect my business ideas or any ideas no .But that's all sissy shit . My main trauma is my skitzo brother who would always have mental breakdowns , break shit , scream get physical. I used to be the one to fight him and hold him back from hurting anyone. But he wasn't always that way. He always had a sadistic side enjoyed others suffering a little but I felt like he was trying to itachi method. He lost alot of weight in middle school. Starts hanging with bad crowd . Gets into drugs , and bad people. Grows into a wanna be gangster. Gets into arguments and fights with my dad about smoking inside the garage or near the house. ( ps why the fuck would u want your kid to go to the streets instead of being at home safe smoking . Some fucking bullshit pride . Piece Of shit dad was a hypocrite Muslim liked the appearance of normal family. That bitch had a weed vape . And vaped religiously so I never understood why he was so against it) basically saw my brother on a slow decline on quality of life. Starts trusting wrong people . Gets backdoored by most of his friends ( backdoor means betrayal of close friend in hood language) basically he gets cucked by his best friend and laced . Goes fully skitzo retard. Its been years of his mental health declining. He just crashes out of years of despair. Grabs bricks from front lawn. Starts throwing it at window and china cabinet. Hits my grandma in her back with a brick and my dad on the arm. Left bad bruises. Dad was sick and couldn't fight supposedly he pulls out his gun to threaten him.iwas recovering from a bad injury. I tried to rear naked choke my bro to stop him. He escapes . Dad ends up shooting him dead one bullet.so ye this me!
