I don't want to ruminate over women or sex or my inability to obtain these things anymore. I have accepted the truth that people like me are just not made to be loved and want to move past it and pursue further meaning in life. But it feels impossible when literally every piece of media or entertainment displays it in some form, and serves as a constant reminder of what I lack. I wish there was a way to chemically castrate myself and get rid of these thoughts completely without nuking my testosterone or getting hooked on SSRIs.
everyone can and should be loved. i feel the same way sometimes too. but dont give up
>>85841735you can literally just stop caring. thats what i did for years smoked weed and gooned and did not care about love or companionship whatsoever it was peaceful and i enjoyed my own company with no desire whatsoever to interact with another human being. some of the coziest times of my life.
>>85841804>everyone can and should be lovedThis is such a silly idealistic normie statement and not grounded in reality at all. Some people genuinely possess features that are extremely grotesque and render them unlovable by practically anyone.>>85841868I don't want to goon. I don't want to do drugs. I don't want to use escapism to cope with these feelings. I want to stop feeling this way altogether and be more productive and goal oriented with my time. I have wasted so much mental energy terrorizing myself over this and I wish it was as simple as saying just stop caring but it's not. It's like telling a starving man in a room filled with food just out of his reach stop being hungry. I have a naturally very high testosterone level and I have been a porn addict my entire life since the age of 6. It is impossible to simply stop thinking of women.
>>85842167well actually my traumatic childhood and natural tendency to be alone is why i didnt care about any of it. gooning and weed was FUN not escapism. i just partook in my activities and had fun. thats all. perhaps it is your temperament, theres no changing that. im sorry for your predicament fren.
>>85842201Understandable, I too live in solitude and prefer to be alone and have little contact with people. I just don't see the point in chasing muh fun when it prevents you from achieving actual purpose. Sort of like how Thoreau believed that human beings possess both animal appetites and higher capacities. Energy spent on pointless pleasure seeking and desire fulfillment prevents us from becoming the greatest version of ourselves. Imagine what a great loss it would be for the world if people with immense potential like Linus Torvald just wasted their lives away gooning and smoking weed instead of harnessing their energy for creation. Sadly I feel that will be the case for a great deal of the coming generation.
>>85842386when you experience real deprivating depression you will stop caring about shit like potential or purpose it will literally be about am i capable of enjoying something or do i not want to kill myself. that is real happiness. im not belittling your ideas, its just really that simple.
