im sorry momim sorry dadwhen i was a kid, remember how I told you that I wouldn't forgive you for drinking?i was wrongi wish that I could go back in time and never say those wordsif only I had known just how horrible the world was, I would have never said something like thati need to drink to forget, toothis world wasn't meant for the innocence of childreni belong here now, with youim so, terribly, sorry for destroying the hopes you laid at my feeti tried my best
bumping my own thread because im lonely fuck you
>>85845906I have had this thread open for the past hour.I should have replied but didn't because i could not think of anything.
>>85846004can you just hang out? i don't want to down my 4th beer alone.im playing alan wake on my other monitor what are you up to?
>>85846073Maybe #5 then...
>>85846267maybe #6 then...
>>85846073as long as you're alive, there's still hope. enjoy that fucking beer and play that goddamn game and take solace in the fact that you can indulge in the small things of life. worrying about the future and regretting the past has only ever worked to drive one insane, and worse yet, to an early grave
Go to a bar since you already have a buzz, talk to some randos, it doesnt matter anyway, whats the worst they can do?
>>85846338An early grave is about tue most wonderful thing I can imagine. I think about having no more pain forever and i start to cry tears of joy. Plus, I'm already insane. It's a lot worse to be lonely.>>85846369Theres no bars where I live. I guess I could go down to the park but if I pass out outside I'l probably die
>>85846388>Theres no bars where I liveOh yeah im also in a foreign country so if i went tocthe bar theyd just hate me
>>85846422Why are you in a foreign country that hates people like you then?
>>85846443the person i was edating imported me
7 is it then
>>85846467couldn't you just move back to your own country then?
>>85846637i'm probably going to have to. my visa is probably going to be revoked soon because i'm a failure.i think my next arc is going to be a hermit hippie arc. im going to join a cult and hopefully get murdered
You are drinking not because it makes the world better, not because it makes your life better, but because you are either already, or a future, alcoholic. The child you was correct. Alcohol is a neurotoxin, it drains your wallet, and it doesn't actually improve anything.If you need an escape, I implore you to consider something, anything, else. Exercise to the point your mind blanks, non chemical escapism, anime, hiking, whatever
>>85846658i know child me was correct, that's why it hurts to much. but idk i spent like what, 10$ on a 15 pack of beer? thats not so bad.i mostly feel bad because i promised to never end up like them, but i have no other way to cope.>Exercise to the point your mind blanks, non chemical escapism, anime, hiking, whatevermaybe i'll go for a walk rn, idk. i guess i will. i'll go do that.
>>85846422>>85846467Grim. Happened to me.I'm back home now. It's not so bad.
>>85846670I don't mean a single night of drinking is bad. I wouldn't put one night past anyone, especially if something bad happened. But i know alcoholics. A bottle of wine a day adds up. I think my father said he's spending $300 a week on wine? I may be forgetting the details. Stepmother is also suffering health problems now. It's best to nip it in the bud while you can.
>>85846675its not human trafficking because its discord
>>85846670As far as coping goes, beyond walks, consider meditation, YouTube lectures, and asmr. If you focus on learning stuff you're not overthinking. If you're rural you can do things like starting a chicken coop; increased responsibility helps, and they give you eggs. At the very least a plant or something.
>>85846675No i just meant that edating then assumed breakup is bad because life change that didn't work out. At least a normal breakup doesn't have you needing to move or possibly change jobs.
>>85846700Was for>>85846685But yeah. Good luck, everyone's going through something. Idk maybe even try prayer, helps some people apparently
>>85846670sorry im a liar. im gonna charge my fone a bit before i go.>>85846684>It's best to nip it in the bud while you can.i usually doi ususally say if im craving alcohol then i shouldnt be drinking it and live that waybut today was too horrible. my whole life is falling apart. oh well. im still drinking beer to keep it partially under control because liquor kills meirish family eh>>85846689i used to be rural but i live in a city now. im not used to all the people and they scare me. i used to be alone all the time and now im surrounded by people all the time. i dont like people at all. i like birds. there are birds here but there are more people than birds>>85846700im not broken up but my visa is probably fucked. i ve basically attached myself at the hip to this persn even though im not really sexually attracted because i need a way to get away from ym home life. theyre morbidly obese and have a rotten foot that smells so bad i can hardly stand it but i still have been putting up with it just for the sake of beign loyal because i don't want to be a shallow person.
>>85846713Im confused on if you're a woman or not. Since this is the internet i'll assume youre maybe the only mail-order husband in existance
i ttook all the kkeys off my keyboard because im angry and need to go outside. im such a computer addict im typing this on the raw keys tho>>85846736im a girl but i have the heart of a man
For a walk
>>85846467>the person i was edating imported meWhat happened to your relationship, failed normie?
Alcohol isn't bad but having a lot of it all the time is bad.If your parents were both Alcoholics all the time, they were bad people.My father was an alcoholic and he was just a horrible person and a horrible parent compared to my mother.If both your parents were like that, you were just dealt a shit hand and it was probably very traumatic.But I'm not gonna judge you. Everyones got something they use too much of thats bad for you to cope with this shitty life / shitty situation.From what you've said, you edated someone and moved out to them to escape? This reminds me of someone I know in my life. They moved from America to Australia by marrying this big fat guy. But according to her, shes very happy now. Gets proper meds/treatment and has a nice job etc.If you moved in with this guy to escape and its not working for you, you need to find or do something else. It won't get any better.
>>85846713>because i don't want to be a shallow person.Having standards isn't being shallow. You wouldn't stay with someone who cheated on you right? Even though staying would mean being loyal?>>85846752>typing on raw keys because ???Congrats i believe u r gril
Funally founf a bathroom and iy feels like a save point. The light shut off on me while im in here tho. I was gaving hallucinations and had to leave where i was. Im not sure where i am anymore, i think im lost.>>85846885What dk you mean its going fine. Everythings fine.>>85846901Hey i iimported that image to 4chan.Pog. I dunno. Everything was terrible but I am too. I deserve horible things. I wish that they would happen so i wouldnt have to deal with this life anymore. I cant. Blame my parnts. They loved me, a little too hard sometimes.
>>85846964>its going fineI thought she had dumped you after you went to her country. Why the fuck are you complaining then, normalfag?
>>85846964stop saying you deserve to be horrible its not true!things are sad and bad right now but it might not always be like this.
>>85846976Mixing up people. This one is apparently dating a rotting ball of lard.
>>85846989Yeah keep your chin up.Things can get even worse!>>85846964Some of this is the result of your own choices, not those of your parents. Aren't you the one who decided to move with the guy?
>>85846996knock it off anon we can see what you are
>>85846996>. Aren't you the one who decided to move with the guyOg course it's my ffault. Of course it is. Its my fault. All of it is. I hate nyself a lot. I hate myself for being a liar too. I can honly be onest after a lot of drinks. You tyink i blame others? Irs all me. All my fault. Thatswhy alcohol is my friend. Im gonna find the next bathrorm
>>85847016>responds to the negative post ignores the positive onesyep typical tranny.
>>85847013I don't get it. Am I supposed to be the fat guy here? All I'm saying is to not blame your parents for everything. My mother was a drug addict but at some point the ownership of my choices falls on me.>>85847016I'm not saying to hate yourself. I'm saying to stop running from yourself. Escaping into drugs or alcohol is what will destroy you. The high will fade and you will be left more poor and in a worse state. I've had my fill of trying to help those addicted to drugs or self loathing so i will drop this thread here. Just stop running away.
>>85846467edatingyou got what you deserve since that's not a real relationship >>85845461I can't believe I'm not dead from all the vodka and Diphenhydramine I take I'm probably as old as your parentsCheers!
At a place i regognize Further than here is unknownMaybe it will be a good place>>85847020Trvke>>85847038>Just stop running awayIm far away now and i feel better. Im father than ive eer been>>85847045Cheers Ill drink to that
I am lostBut found a gloveIt is warmWhere am iIdk
>>85847539your obese bf is worried sick! where is my trans girlie? i need my cheeseburger.
>>85847539keep going, youll find a bottle of beer eventually. alcoholics always magically do.
>>85847583I brought teh berr wuth me. Chunking some cheetos doe>>85847557Lol
>>85847648is this you? ;3
I shouldn't be drinking I have to wake up for work in 5hBut im toooo dru k
Ifound my way home. I was in the next town over.The bars had closedI found a man outside the bar asking for a beerI gave him a beer from my bagHe called me a sweetheart11/12 beers then.I decided that was the sign i should come home>>85847752Gay lol but not far off>>85847789Eat sum eggs
I got cold. Im glad im not really homeless. A warm place to rest is like a safe room irl
Everything sucks, but wine is cheap and makes things suck less. Some people go to doctors and therapy as a hobby. My box or two of wine and 24oz twisted teas are much cheaper and probably less harmful than a cocktail of anxiety and antipschychotic and antidepressant and ozempics, statins, bloop pressures, and random meme vitamin supplements.
