>>85850647
>howve you been anons?
Pretty shit t b h
I don't have nearly as much to complain about compared to most anons on this board but, man, I just can't stop moping about my ex.

>>85850720
shit, why? is it just because youve been thinking about your ex, or something else? gotta try not to think about it, keep your mind busy, etc. and youll start to feel better eventually. dont let it get you down too much anon

Relationship goals.
I am getting better mental health wise but there are stuff i am still working on, i am trying to get into other hobbies too like cooking.

>>85850647
>griffith posting
Fall down some stairs, faggot.

>>85850735
thats good anon, im glad youre getting better. what have you been cooking? ive been trying to do more homemade recipes myself, i made my own spaghetti bolognese sauce from scratch and it ended up really amazing. im planning on trying to make my own curry sauce as well soon

>>85850743
youre a very angry person anon

>>85850767
You deserve to die before the year is out, faggot.

>>85850767
>what have you been cooking?
Pizzas, i am trying to get better at them because 1-i like pizzas, 2-i wanna impress others with my baking skills.

>>85850775
not dying anytime soon :D im gonna get married and have lots of kids with my bf and live a long and happy life

>>85850795
are you making your own dough when you make pizzas? or sauces? pizza dough looks tough to make but i suck at doughs in general lol

>>85850647
waiting for death to take me, i have no reason to live because i believe in nothing and that gives normies the 'ick'

>>85850854
believe in nothing? in what sense?

>>85850860
i don't belong anywhere on this planet. I have no beliefs. People walk around with some notions in their heads like god, trust in the state, family, etc. I am not so confined. I know that I know nothing.

>>85850725
I just keep thinking about her.

I don't think we were right for each other. I actually ended things a while ago but after a few days she convinced me to give it another go. Even then though ... she was unstable and trashy and basically everything you expect from someone with a diagnosis of bpd.
But at the same time, I loved spending time with her. I can't remember the last time I was as happy as when we were together. We had so much fun - going on random adventures, just hanging out, whatever. She was kind, caring, loving, cool, exciting.
But then one day I said something and she just flipped. The next day she'd blocked me on everything and that was it.

Like I said, I don't think we were right for one another but I wish we could've stayed friends afterwards. She said at the end she felt like I only wanted to use her for sex but, fuck, I miss hanging out and talking more than the sex.
I must've fallen for her bad, even if I didn't recognise it when we were together because fucking everything reminds me of her. I miss telling her about my day when I finished work, and hearing about hers. I miss lying back on the balcony with our legs gently resting against one another while she plays her guitar. I've decorated my apartment recently and I keep thinking about how I wish I could show it to her. I find a cool place on Instagram and I still save it to the list I had for our travel ideas. I get in the car for a long drive and I instinctively put on our playlist before inevitably spending the drive reminiscing about tearing through the mountains with her hand resting on my thigh or sliding under my waistband. Hell, I've still got a pair of earrings in a drawer that I can't give to my current gf because she doesn't have pierced ears.

>>85850849
>are you making your own dough when you make pizzas? or sauces?
Yeah i make both the dough and sauce myself, there are no pizza restuarants near me so i improvise

>>85850849
You have no say in the randomness of life, retard. You could get hit by a car tomorrow. Any one of your loved ones could get cancer or another disease. You propagating will make the world worse. Your children would be manipulative and mean despite your best efforts. You're worth less than fire it will take to incinerate your corpse.
OP is room temp IQ.

>>85850863
i cant see how something like that is even possible, tbdesu, being a human capable of thought, itd be borderline impossible to not have any beliefs. how do you manage, anon?

>>85850877
how long have you been with your current gf? you gotta get rid of the reminders of your ex, man, and i think youve jumped into a new relationship way too early. are you someone who has trouble being alone?
also remaining friends with an ex, especially one with bpd is borderline impossible. and its never a good idea, itd hinder future relationships. my (online only, so its different but whatever) ex and i always said we'd stay friends, but as soon as we broke up we immediately stopped talking.

>>85850882
you are indeed just a very angry person anon

>>85850880
do you live in a rural area? i find the idea of not having any pizza places around kinda insane, even when i lived in a town of 300 people i could still get pizza at the one food place in the town.
pretty impressive tho, youre doing something very cool, anon

>>85850919
Thanks
>do you live in a rural area?
No i am just not american

>>85850931
im not american either, where are you from anon? here in aus, basically every restaurant serves pizza, even gas stations. we probably have more pizza availability than the US tbdesu

>>85850952
Egypt, there are pizza restaurants near me but they are either low quality or far from me

>>85850970
wow, in all my years on this board ive never met someone whos from egypt on here. that makes more sense now about the pizza

>>85850647
>howve you been anons
Been alright I guess, surviving, I think I've been to the gym twice or thrice since we last thread died I kind of forgot when was that... Thinking about maybe getting some cool tshirts so I'd have more variety in my wardrobe

>>85850931
>No i am just not american
I think most places nowadays have pizza places, being rural isn't an insult

>>85851033
>surviving
thats good, at the very least. hows the gym been going since the last thread? its been about a week.
>Thinking about maybe getting some cool tshirts so I'd have more variety in my wardrobe
its good to have some variety, id say do it! ive got some new clothes coming tomorrow, and a new tapestry to pin up on my ceiling, pretty excited

>>85850919
>how long have you been with your current gf?
We exchanged numbers the day after I ended things with my ex (that is, the first time we seperated). I messaged her and we went on our first date the day after my ex ended things and mass blocked me. That was about three weeks ago.
>you gotta get rid of the reminders of your ex, man
No way, I couldn't possibly. I'm sad we broke up and especially about the way we broke up and how we couldn't stay friends but I'm not sad about the relationship. There are too many happy memories tied up in all those things. And it's not even the shit from the relationship that makes me think of her, I put a completely unrelated poster up on the wall today and start thinking "man, Hana would fucking love how this makes the room look"
>and i think youve jumped into a new relationship way too early. are you someone who has trouble being alone?
Yeah, maybe. I was single and alone for the past 5 years though, I don't especially feel like going back to that.
>also remaining friends with an ex, especially one with bpd is borderline impossible. and its never a good idea
You're definitely right there though. We had a conversation about it once and she flat out said she didn't want us to just be friends and she'd never want us to just be friends. And I know I'd be overwhelmed with jealousy at the thought of her seeing someone else (even if we'd broken up and I was in another relationship). Still, I wish it was possible. I really miss our road trips down the cost or going camping in the mountains.

>>85851056
It's good, gone up in weights a little and learned how to do preacher curls, trying to learn lunges too but it's kinda hard, some exercises have so much to focus on while doing them it's rather overwhelming

>>85850919
Seems like you're coping. You're going to do the same when your smile fades and you realize you've always been alone. The people you think you knew show a side of themselves you've never even thought possible and your world will collapse.

>>85851087
Are you following an exercise program? What are your goals?

>>85851066
man, youre gonna end up hurting yourself and your new gf like this, how would you feel if you knew your gf kept a bunch of reminders of her ex around? or if she knew you thought about her so much? its not very fair on her. or yourself, not allowing yourself time to heal and be ready for someone new sucks.
my boyfriend, 4 days after breaking up with his psycho ex of 8 years and running away from her (who was an old friend of mine from highschool), a day after her attempting to kidnap him, asked me to be with him. i told him id be here for him when he healed and that id wait a lifetime for him because i love him, but he wasnt used to being alone and wanted to "lock me down" because hes possessive. this has led to some issues, because he lacks healthy relationship or personal skills and has ptsd episodes. it absolutely sucks for both of us and part of me wishes he waited and tried to heal first, but id NEVER leave him as im equally possessive. anyways point is its sucky anon and you need to take your new gfs feelings into consideration, and your own

>>85851087
preacher curls absolutely suck, bf keeps trying to get me to do those with him and it immediately kills my arm muscles just trying. good to hear your weights have gone up tho :D
>some exercises have so much to focus on while doing them it's rather overwhelming
what makes it worse is the gym is already overwhelming enough if youre going in peak times, trying to focus when theres so much noise absolutely sucks

>>85851093
is something bothering you anon? got anything you wanna share?

>>85851103
Yes I am, and my goal is mostly to get stronger, looking nice/toned is a bonus but not really why I'm exercising.
I just want to be capable, dependable and to not struggle with things I may need to do physically

>>85851159
>and it immediately kills my arm muscles just tryin
Yes the full extension gets a bit painful at the end but it's just not being used to it, it should get better with time.
>so much noise absolutely sucks
I almost fell once because someone started groaning while I was doing my squats hahaha but it's usually okay, I mostly meant that it's a more complex movement because it's free weight and it's somewhat of a balancing exercise at the same time, it's kind of brutal

>>85851227
ahh.. i cant even get my poor arms to get used to it... its too much pain and not worth it for me
>I almost fell once because someone started groaning
good thing it was just almost, falling in the gym can be pretty bad. lol i jump sometimes when weights drop loudly, waiting for something bad to happen cause of it
>I mostly meant that it's a more complex movement
ah ok, ive never tried lunges so im not sure what theyre like LOL im sorry for my confusion

>>85851159
The fact that I'm hung up on my ex while I'm in a relationship is a problem, sure, but the c possessions aren't. They're just things and it's not healthy to throw everything that reminds you of someone just because they're no longer in your life anymore.

>>85851216
What's your program?
I need to start going to the gym again, I'm thinking of doing Stronglifts 5x5 rather than just futzing around with some random bodypart split like I used to.

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>>85851288
I do full-body three times a week, I alternate between doing rows and lateral pulldowns for back and between squats+leg curl and legpress/lunges+RDL for legs,shoulders is shoulder press/raises, chest is usually bench and fly but I just do whatever if it's busy then I just do whatever I feel like for triceps, biceps and core.

its bedtime anons, goodnight, hoping thread will still be up when i wake up so i dont have to make another one

>>85851366
nevermind as soon as i tried my brain woke up and now im listening to music

>>85851288
its definitely healthy to let go of things from previous relationships, because you cant move forward to the future if you're still attached to the past. at least thats what i think, especially in regards to your situation

also i want to express here that if i miss the weezer concert OR the radiohead concerts next year ill be ENDING MY LIFE i love both of them so much i must attend ONE at least

>>85851475
>music
Do share
>>85851485
Oh

>>85851498
heres a list of all the songs ive listened to since i put headphones on:
>gardenhead - neutral milk hotel
>dumb and broken - uhohslater (x2)
>song 2 cover - fag by fluoride
>song 2 - blur
>images of april - pearls before swine (x2)
>ride on shooting star - the pillows

>>85851485
wtf apparently tickets already sold out for radiohead, guess its weezer time

>>85851580
Wheezing

i forgot ill be getting my bf a disturbed concert ticket, and ill bring him to weezer, so extra christmas presents :D

>>85851625
i need to remember to take my asthma inhaler

It's my birthday. I have no plans. The usual work, gym, nothing. Maybe go to the library, find a book to read.

>>85851679
happy birthday anon! getting a book from the library would be nice, not gonna get yourself any presents? like, a bottle of nice alcohol or a nice food-related treat?

>>85850647
How many men have you slept with, op?

>>85851785
i was a khhv until i met my boyfriend, and we've slept in bed together, so 1

>>85851629
Take him to a sleeptoken concert

>>85851827
neither of us like sleeptoken so no

>>85851679
What kind of books do you like anon?

>>85851715
There's not much that I want. I've got some decent bourbon on hand. Also beer and wine.

>>85851840
I mostly read a mix of scifi/fantasy, history, and some classic literature.

>>85851869
fair enough. well i hope you enjoy your birthday and library visit anon :D
whats your favourite (fiction) book, if you have one?

autistically researching rickenbacker guitars late at night because i want to buy a fakenbacker/chinabacker for myself because i want to be haruhara haruko but a real rickenbacker like hers is likely gonna be $10k by the time i can buy one

>>85852033
i should build my own

>>85851887
>whats your favourite (fiction) book, if you have one?

Maybe a cliche answer, but Lord of the Rings. I re-read it every year.

>>85852134
nothing wrong with cliche. lotr is really popular, im not much of a fan tho. i always feel like every part is drawn out longer than it needs to be, for the movies at least. ive tried, and ill be trying again because its my bfs favourite too. whats your opinion on the upcoming new movie? feels weird to be releasing another one so much later, probably just gonna be one of those movies that piggybacks on a popular franchise for money